Chapter 813: I don't want to face her
The doctor shook his head, not wanting to deal with a son like Zhuo Qinfeng.
He doesn't think that sudden enthusiasm is filial piety to his mother.
However, the doctor wants to take a look, after all, this young man in front of him, he is the patient's family, he is the patient's son, and he can't just ignore it.
At the very least, the doctor felt that he should give a satisfactory answer to the family of the patient in front of him.
"President Zhuo, let me tell you, your mother is very good, she has no physical problems at all, but the skin injury is not a little abrasion. If she rests for a while and someone takes good care of her, she will be healed in no time. If you say, Teacher Yao Jiali then walked on stage, then performed on stage, and then painted heavy makeup, you know that those cosmetics are very bad. If that's the case, then his trauma is very likely to leave a scar, so during this time, don't let her perform on stage before the Samba bathroom. No matter what the situation, you have to persuade her not to go on stage. ”
Zhuo Qinfeng listened carefully, he felt that what the doctor said was very reasonable.
Today's cosmetics are indeed not a good thing.
If her mother insisted on being on the stage, she thought, she would definitely prevent her from going on stage.
He felt that during this period of time, he should listen to the doctor's words and take good care of his mother.
However, when he thought of this, when he thought of meeting his mother, and when he thought of talking to his mother every day, he felt strange.
Since I was a child, I haven't talked to my mother well, I haven't talked seriously with my mother since I was a child, and I have never cared about my mother, and now I want to be a filial son, this sudden thing, Zhuo Qinfeng still feels quite awkward.
However, he had to listen to what the doctor said, he still believed in medicine, and the doctor said that if he didn't let Teacher Yao Jiali appear on stage, then he would definitely not let his mother wait for the stage to make up, but Zhuo Qinfeng still couldn't hear clearly, and walked into the ward unwillingly.
When Zhuo Qinfeng saw his mother for the first time, he didn't dare to open his eyes, he didn't dare to look at his mother with his eyes, he felt that he didn't have the face to see her.
In fact, it's not that he doesn't have a face to see him, but he doesn't know how to face this mother in front of him, this mother in front of him who hasn't cared about him since he was a child.
Zhuo Qinfeng felt that he was a failure, obviously his mother was sorry for him, but now, he had to pretend that he had done something wrong, the world was not fair at all.
Why should people gain the upper hand when they are also injured? This is not the result that Zhuo Qinfeng wants.
The result he wants is: "Mother doesn't blame, he, mother doesn't complain, he, of course, he can also say a word about his mother as a matter of course." ”
That is to say, two people live in peace, just like a normal mother-son relationship, he happily calls his mother, and the mother happily hugs her son, and eats a normal meal with her son, or the mother and son snuggle together and sit on the sofa watching TV, or two people shoulder to shoulder, at a certain time in the evening, in a green and oily wood, or between a beautiful rape flower, the two take a walk, and the two play and laugh together.
Such a beautiful scenery, such a scene, Zhuo Qinfeng has never been with his mother, and he has never enjoyed such treatment from his mother, he doesn't know if his mother and his cousin Yao Zhihang have ever had such a scenery, at least, he and his mother have never had such memories.
Zhuo Qinfeng felt very sad, he raised his head and sighed.
Looking at the ceiling, he thought, if there is if, if there is regret medicine, if there is such a thing after the existence of this world, then he must regret it, and he will definitely do his best to keep his mother who left home in the first place.
No matter how much his mother wanted to go away, he had to desperately keep him, leave his mother at home, and depend on his mother for his life.
No, no, no, how can we say that we depend on each other?
At that time, his father was also very kind to him?
If it weren't for his father taking such good care of him, Zhuo Qinfeng didn't know how he lived without his mother.
Thinking of this, Zhuo Qinfeng's heart was unhappy again, his mood suddenly became sad, and his mood suddenly became bad.
He didn't know where this sadness came from, but he knew that it was related to the woman in front of him.
From the bottom of his bones, he doesn't hate the woman in front of him, he feels that women have to struggle, and women must make certain sacrifices if they want to achieve a career.
But from a personal point of view, mixed with personal feelings, Zhuo Qinfeng believes that he can't accept the fact that he can't accept that his mother has left him since he was a child.
Let him be scolded at school for being a child without a mother, he thinks of these pasts, and he is very unhappy.
So, Zhuo Qinfeng lowered his head and looked at his feet, okay, this kind of floor is very smooth, it is easy to wrestle, he can't have this idea here, he really wants to push his mother's tail, he wants to let him wrestle, he wants to take revenge, he is determined to leave him back then.
Zhuo Qinfeng wanted to take revenge on his mother.
But he's my mother!
How could I do such a thing to him?
The contradictory struggle in Zhuo Qinfeng's heart was very fierce.
He didn't know what to do, this feeling, this complex and simple feeling, in front of him, he didn't know how to respond.
He didn't know how to handle the relationship between him and his mother.
Is it to hate your mother?
Or should I love my mother?
Neither is it!
If he hates his mother, isn't he tired when his mother is pregnant in October?
Mother worked hard to give birth to him, isn't she hard?
Of course she was very tired, she was pregnant in October, and as a woman, she had to vomit non-stop, vomit for 10 months, and have no appetite for 10 months.
What a torturous thing it is.
Mother must be tired, because after she became pregnant in October, she still needs to educate him, she needs to raise him, she needs to put him to sleep every night, but all this. Zhuo Qinfeng thinks that it is all about motherhood.
Zhuo Qinfeng thought of this, and his heart became conflicted again.
He felt that while he understood his mother, he cared about his mother, and at the same time he felt that his mother was hard, his heart was very entangled, and he was very painful. He felt that even if his mother worked hard, even if his mother was tired, even if his mother was very dangerous in 10 months, it could not be used as a reason for his mother to leave him.
Zhuo Qinfeng was right to think about it. I can't just forgive this woman, this mother who abandoned her husband and children, this mother who abandoned her husband and abandoned her son. He deserves it! I should kill her!
No, no, no, how could such a thing be done? I'm his son, he's my mother.
How can I kill him?
You can't do that, you can't be so unfilial at all.
However, when he thought about this, what is filial piety, and why should I be filial to him? He didn't raise me when I was a child, but when I grew up, and now that my father raised me, I want to be filial to them upside down? All this is not reasonable.
Thinking of this, he opened his eyes again in pain and looked at his mother sitting on the hospital bed.
Yao Jiali is pretending to be pitiful now, who is she pretending to show her?
This woman is not born to be an acting material, so when he faces his family, he is also very good at pretending.
Anyway, he has nothing to do with me, and this woman has nothing to do with me. He walked his sunny avenue, and I crossed my single-plank bridge.
When I was a child, I didn't need his care, so now that he has changed, why do I need the care of my son.
Thinking of this, Zhuo Qinfeng turned around and strode towards the door of the ward.
He was going to leave this woman, just as he had done when she had resolutely left the writer.
Zhuo Qinfeng still remembered that when he stood on the second floor, he looked at this woman, what kind of woman is this, this ruthless and unrighteous woman, the writer who resolutely left. This woman, this woman at the beginning, what did he think in his heart?
Zhuo Qinfeng wanted to know!
But he didn't want to face this woman!
He was going to get out of this ward quickly, from this hateful woman, from this woman who made him lovely and hateful. Zhuo Qinfeng didn't want to think about it, Zhuo Qinfeng walked forward, he didn't want to recall the past with this woman, he didn't want to remember some unpleasant things in the past, it was the days when he didn't have a mother, whether it was in school, or in the eyes of his neighbors, he didn't have a good memory......
"Qin Feng! Wait a minute! Are you leaving? You just came in, did you come to see your mother? Why did you suddenly have to leave? Son, you can't be so ruthless, you can't just watch your mother lying on the hospital bed and don't care at all! You're coming to see me, aren't you? You came to the hospital from home, with one hand outside, and the doctor told me that you had already come to the hospital. I also heard you quarrel with the nurse, you have me as a mother in your heart, right? If you came to see me, but your son came to see me on purpose, didn't you? If you came to see me, then you should talk to your mother, can you forgive your mother?"
Yao Jiali saw her son walk in from the door of the ward, his heart was very excited, but when this woman saw her son leave the ward in a hurry, looked at her, a complicated look, and her son was about to leave, this woman's heart was very uncomfortable.
I don't know what the son thinks, does the son regard it as his biological mother, this woman wants to see her son very much, and wants to talk to her son very much, but the son is close at hand, and he wants to leave?
Why is this like this? No, this girl will never be able to figure it out, I don't know why? How can my own son, who was left over from October pregnancy, be so indifferent?
Could it be that the evil fruit planted when I was young, 28 years later, I haven't forgiven this mother, right? As a son, should this be the case?
Yao Jiali thought of this, and was still engaged in a fierce ideological struggle. This woman wants to keep her son, but she can't let go.
She doesn't want her face anymore, but she may still not be able to keep her son.
So what to do?
This woman had no choice, and decided to let go of her face, her self-esteem, all the unpleasantness, the depression in her heart, the incomprehension in her heart, and all the complaints, just to win her son's eyes.
Just to get her son's heart, this woman is willing to turn upside down, and the whole world is just to correct her son's reflection.
She wants to be recognized by her own son, and she is used to chatting with him......
"Qin Feng, please forgive your mother! If you don't forgive your mother, your mother won't live today. Mom does what she says, and you know Mom's temper. When my mother left, she said she would leave. Now Mom, if I can't see you, if Mom can't talk to you calmly, if you don't forgive me as a mother. Then I'll die to show you! Son, I want to see your determination, I want to see if you value me as a mother. I want to see if you care about me? If you don't care about me, if you don't care about my life or death, then you can leave! If you don't care about anything, you don't care about this family relationship, you don't care about the relationship between our mother and son, then you can leave!"
Zhuo Qinfeng heard his mother's words, and heard this abominable woman's words. The breeze was blowing, the pace of walking quickly, the pace of striding away, and stopped. He turned back violently. Turning around, he looked at his mother with round eyes and looked at his mother with white eyes. He wanted to kill the eyes.
This woman, this abominable woman!
She obviously left the house by herself, doesn't she regret it at all?
She still uses that as a shield?
Did she think there was a reason for him to leave in the first place?
She is now threatening with the same resolute will to leave at the beginning, won't she leave now?
"Yao Jiali! I'll tell you! I'm going to leave now, you're fine! You can kill yourself here! Anyway, it has nothing to do with me, and it wasn't my fault that you left in the first place. It's that you yourself don't take my son to heart, you don't take our family to heart, and you don't have your husband, my father, in your eyes. So today, don't use your departure as a reason for your pride. If you take your mistakes as a glory, then you are wrong. You hateful woman, if you talk about it, if you grieve me again, if you take this scar again, I'll kill you at once!"
Zhuo Qinfeng really couldn't listen to it anymore, he felt that this woman was incredible. Why is his kind heart always hurt by his mother?
He finally made up his mind, listened to his girlfriend's words, came to this hospital, in the middle of the night, he didn't rest, and made a special trip to this hospital to leave his mother, just because he obeyed the words in front of the bronze statue, he should be filial to his parents.
But now, this woman, did he give me a reason to be filial to him, not at all!
He was almost ruining his son's kind heart.
Why?
Why doesn't this woman know how to cherish her son's feelings at all.
She really doesn't deserve to be a good mother!
Listening to her son's words, Teacher Yao Jiali was also a little afraid.