I took a closer look and found that Mr. Xu's eyes didn't open much, it is estimated that I hugged her like this that night, she was drunk again at this time, and her consciousness was a little unconscious, so she subconsciously thought that I was Chen Yang.

I gritted my teeth before I said, "It's me." ”

Teacher Xu still didn't open his eyes, but two lines of tears flowed out of the corners of his eyes, and he said in a somewhat sad voice: "Why do you always wear a mask, who are you?"

I had already carried her into the room, put her on her bed and said, "I am me, you have drunk too much, hurry up and rest, just wake up." ”

When I was about to get up, Teacher Xu actually hooked my neck with both hands, which caught me a little off guard, she closed her eyes, and said with these wine and heat, blowing on my face, at that moment, a flame suddenly rose in my heart, a little ape.

Teacher Xu hooked my neck tightly and said, "Don't go, don't go, stay with me, okay?"

I said, "Okay, I'm not leaving, I'm staying with you." ”

I just bent over like this, maintaining this posture with her, the tears in the corners of her eyes flowed down, I was extremely worried to see it, Teacher Xu said: "In this whole world, except for grandpa, only you are good to me, but I don't even know who you are, I like you in my heart, do you know?"

I felt this for a long time, and I swallowed and said, "I know." ”

I don't know if Teacher Xu heard me or not, she seemed to be responding to me, and seemed to be talking to herself: "But you have a girlfriend, and you're so beautiful, what am I? ”

I heard Mr. Xu say about the identity of my best friend before, it seems that she talked about a partner in college, and then I don't know why she broke up, maybe many people envy Mr. Xu, born in a wealthy family like the Xu family, but I'm afraid few people really know how much Mr. Xu doesn't want to be in this kind of family.

I suddenly felt that Mr. Xu was very pitiful and distressing.

For a while, I didn't even know how to answer her, maybe she couldn't hear my answer at all, at this time, Xu Yingying suddenly raised her head and kissed me.

The conscience of heaven and earth, that was my first time, my first kiss, it was so inexplicably gone.

My mind went blank and it was a bit down.

Xu Yingying may have drunk, maybe she is too depressed in her heart, she is very active and enthusiastic, almost completely occupying the initiative, I feel like I am dreaming.

My hands gradually lost their strength, the whole person was pressed on her body, a little carried away, there was no other thinking in the brain, the rest was just instinct, I hugged Xu Yingying tightly, rolling on her soft bed, after a long time, Xu Yingying's lips finally left me.

I felt like I couldn't breathe well, but suddenly she burst into tears, tears falling down my face, and the cold feeling brought me back to my senses.

I was at a loss and tried my best to explain, but she didn't seem to hear me, she lay on my chest, crying, I tried several times before gently holding her with my hand and patting her back.

Gradually, her crying stopped, and she fell asleep in my arms, docile as a kitten, but like a wounded lamb, lonely, helpless, and pitiful.

I gasped for breath and let the fire in my heart calm down for a long time, and when she was asleep, I gently let her out of my arms and covered her with the quilt.

I can't stay here, or she'll wake up, I don't know how to face her, and I can't take advantage of her, although deep down in my heart there has always been a voice telling me that this is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, and that the goddess will be at my fingertips if I want to.

But if I do this, what is the difference between it and Zhang Xianjin, Luo Zhigao and the like? Besides, what Xu Yingying likes is not me, but an identity that does not exist at all.

I also seem to understand that although I have a slight affection for Concubine Zhao, and she also likes me, I am always reluctant to pierce this layer of window paper, because in my heart, the person I really like is Xu Yingying.

But I also know very well that it is impossible for me to be with her, the identities of the two of us, and the ages are in the middle, which is insurmountable.

Although Xu Yingying likes Chen Yang, a person who doesn't exist, she doesn't like me, if she knows the truth one day, she will definitely be disappointed, which is why I had a showdown with her, but she didn't want to believe it, and she probably didn't want to believe it in her heart.

She doesn't want to believe that the person she likes is her student.

Before I left, I bent down and kissed Xu Yingying on the forehead, and then gently closed the door of the room for her, leaving the lamp.

I wanted to tidy up the living room, but I gave up, hoping she wouldn't remember that I was there tonight.

After I locked the door, I left quietly, as if I had never been here, walked out of the community, I walked all the way home, my body seemed to be stained with Xu Yingying's fragrance, and her lips seemed to have her residual warmth, everything that happened tonight, to me, suddenly like a dream, very unreal.

I can't help but laugh at myself, I'm really self-inflicted, I created a person who doesn't exist, but Xu Yingying likes it, and I can only get along with her as a student.

When I got home, I lay in bed, flipped through the photos on my phone, and I had an indescribable feeling in my heart, and I couldn't sleep for a long time.

When I got up the next day, I told my mom about arranging a job for her, and my mom refused, because she never liked to be favored, let alone indebted.

After breakfast, my aunt called to urge, and I took Bai Yimo to take a taxi to meet my aunt. I haven't seen my aunt for a while, and she hasn't changed much, but as soon as my aunt saw me, she said, "Xiaofeng, you seem to have grown taller and more handsome during this time." Have you ever been in a relationship with a girl?"

I said helplessly: "Don't laugh at me, how can I have the heart to fall in love." ”

The aunt smiled: "I don't have the heart, I don't believe this, I remember that you have a classmate named Zhao Fei'er? I have a good relationship with you, aren't you two in love?"

Bai Yimo interjected on the side and said: "Sister Jiayin, I can prove that it was Concubine Zhao who wanted to fall in love with Brother Feng, but Brother Feng didn't." ”

The aunt touched Bai Yimo's head and said, "Is it?, are there any other girls who like your brother Feng?"

Bai Yimo said: "Yes, yes, many girls like Brother Feng." ”

Auntie laughed again: "What about you, little heel, do you like Brother Feng?"

Bai Yimo said: "I like it, I like Brother Feng the most." The aunt said badly: "Is it okay for Xiao Mo to marry Brother Feng in the future?"

When I heard my aunt's words, I immediately rolled my eyes, my aunt is every serious, and hurriedly said: "Auntie, what are you talking about, Xiao Mo is my sister, she is still young, don't teach her badly." ”

Bai Yimo said unconvinced: "I'm just a few months younger than you, Xiao Mo wants to marry Brother Feng, but Brother Feng won't marry me." When Bai Yimo said this, his face turned red and he became a little shy, which is rare.

The aunt immediately said: "Boy, do you hear? Everyone Xiao Mo is willing, Xiao Mo is beautiful, well-behaved and smart, I think it is quite suitable, and your mother will definitely like it very much." ”

I really can't say that my aunt, so I have to turn around and walk to the mall, which is too improper, how can I teach a bad little girl.

Auntie pulled Xiao Mo to walk behind, and I don't know what the two of them are muttering, anyway, I don't feel like anything good.

I just walked into the mall for a while, the phone vibrate, I took it out and looked, it turned out to be a call from Mr. Xu, I chuckled in my heart, and secretly wondered if she remembered what happened last night?

I suddenly felt a little furious in my heart, if Teacher Xu asked about last night, how would I answer her? Could it be that she took the initiative to kiss me? I guess Teacher Xu would hack me to death.

I felt a little numb on my scalp, and I was really afraid of anything, but I could only pick up Mr. Xu's phone call.