After experiencing it and realizing it, you will know what you have lost.

Although they had already had dinner and it was still early, Lim Anran and Taeyeon still made a fairly rich supper together, and the two of them sat at the dining table of their new home, and the atmosphere was quite good, but the better the atmosphere, the more sad Taeyeon felt in her heart.

I don't know what's wrong, Taeyeon always can't control her emotions today, maybe it's because she accidentally revealed some of her thoughts in the car before, she is afraid that if she controls it again, even she will forget these thoughts.

Seeing Taeyeon suddenly shed tears, Lin Anran suddenly panicked, and hurriedly took out a tissue to help her wipe her tears: "What's the matter, was it smoked from the kitchen just now?" Wait for me, I'll get ......."

Although it is a new home, the common medicines that should be prepared are also ready, in this regard, Lin Anran is always quite careful, but Taeyeon grabbed him, retracted into his arms, and hugged him tightly.

Lin Anran remembered the jealousy that Taeyeon had said when she was in the car before, and she was a little funny and worried, and patted her on the back gently, maybe this would make her feel better.

I don't know how long it took, Taeyeon suddenly whispered, "Oppa, if, I mean if, if we were all a little more mature three years ago, now, now...... Are we the only ones for each other now?"

Taeyeon's question made Lin Anran stunned.

Three years ago, Lin Anran has long been reluctant to think about it, whether it is hypocrisy or cowardice, he has always thought that everything at present is what needs to be cherished, instead of being consumed for the mistakes and losses of the past, in addition to Taeyeon, he already has so many women, these women can give up their names and are willing to stay by his side as one of the N, it is doomed that he will not be able to take the initiative to give up them. The moment he accepted them, Lin Anran, who was destined to still have a sense of responsibility in his heart, couldn't give up on them.

But Taeyeon's words also made Lin Anran can't help but think: If he hadn't had so many misunderstandings with Taeyeon three years ago, what kind of scene would he and Taeyeon be like now?

“oppa……”

Unable to get Lin Anran's answer, Taeyeon's tears fell even more, but she still gritted her teeth. Suppressing the trembling of his voice, he said: "I can feel it, I was very special in my heart at that time, but during this time, I suddenly found that this feeling faded, oppa, you, you don't love me anymore?"

The feeling of being willing to stand by Lim Anran's side as one of the N played a big role, because Taeyeon could feel the difference that Lim Anran had on himself. Even if you don't spend the most time with yourself, when you get along with her, there will always be an atmosphere when you are with other girls, which is not a difference that the environment can create, but Lin Anran's heart emanates.

This is not only felt by Taeyeon, but also by the girls who put their hearts on Lim Anran, when Yoona, so-young, Jessica, and Taeyeon all said about it, especially Jessica. She asked Taeyeon if she regretted letting her star in "My Knot" with Lin Anran instead, and bluntly said that if she hadn't 'robbed' this opportunity at that time. Maybe everything will be different.

At that time, Taeyeon did not blame Jessica, but comforted her, after all, Jessica stood up to protect her three years ago, and did not deliberately want to rob Lin Anran.

But now, if Jessica were to ask that question again, Taeyeon would probably answer, "Yes."

Because. In Lin Anran, the feeling of 'I am special' is becoming weaker and weaker, Taeyeon is willing to be only one N part of Lin Anran, but she is not willing to let herself become a very ordinary member of his family, because of this. She will feel jealous, scared, and sad.

"No, you've always been the most special one in my heart. Lim Anran hugged Taeyeon tightly in his arms, and finally understood why Taeyeon was so abnormal tonight.

This is not comfort, Lin Anran is not lying, among the women he is now, Lee Hyo-ri is his first love, Kim Tae-hee is responsibility, Lee Si-hin is memory, and other girls all represent a reason that cannot be given up, but these girls represent this life, only Taeyeon represents his obsession in his previous life, and it is also a thing that makes him always remember that he was another person ten years ago.

"Squish, do you believe in fate?"

The food on the table was already cold, Lin Anran sat on the sofa with Taeyeon in his arms, and only his slightly vicissitudes of voice were in the quiet living room, "I used to think that you were my fate, but later I found out that you are indeed my fate, but I am not too worthy of this fate." ”

Recalling the memory of being crazy because of Taeyeon in his previous life, a smile appeared on the corner of Lin Anran's mouth, but this smile quickly turned into a bitter smile.

That's right, in his previous life, he regarded Taeyeon as his fate, but at that time, he could only face the dazzling her and guard her from afar, unable to get close, but after being reborn, he had the ability to pursue this fate, but the life that was completely different from his previous life made him lose himself for a while, although he came to South Korea, but he did not look for the girl in his memory, but came together with Lee Hyo-ri, who was popular all over Korea at that time, and it is undeniable that he was lost at that time.

Until a few years passed, when Lin Anran recalled his truest self because of a series of changes in his family, he no longer knew how to face Taeyeon, who had debuted, which also made him act so strong when dealing with his relationship with Taeyeon, but he always shy back, because he felt that he was ashamed of this relationship, because he felt that his feelings for Taeyeon were not pure.

Otherwise, how did Jessica replace Taeyeon to star in "My Knot", not only did she not have any mistakes, but also became the current fairy tale couple?

If it weren't for Lim Anran's behind-the-scenes actions, Jessica, who was just a member of a group that had just debuted and was still in a semi-refrigerated state, would definitely be reprimanded by S.M and MBC for this, and Lim Anran at that time took this matter on the grounds that 'this is Taeyeon's teammate', but now that I think about it, it is actually because of the guilt he feels about Taeyeon in his heart.

Three years have passed, and Lin Anran finally got together with Taeyeon, but he is not her only one.

"Is it fate?" Taeyeon is strong on the outside, but she doesn't hide the weakness in her heart when facing someone who really recognizes, "Oppa, am I your fate?"

Lin Anran lowered his head and looked at Taeyeon with hazy teary eyes, and suddenly an impulse arose, an urge to tell the girl in front of him his biggest secret. (To be continued.) )