The dark night is like a pair of invisible hands, tightly strangling people, and the kind of depression and pain seem to be able to suffocate people at any time.

Suddenly, a lantern hung from a tree in the distance shattered the black night. Although the light of the lantern flickered on and off, it added a touch of warmth to the silent night.

Yun Qing saw that Yuxi didn't speak for a long time, and said, "If you don't want to say it, don't say it, don't force yourself." At first, he thought it was just a dream and didn't care. But as Yuxi's description became more and more detailed, he felt uneasy in his heart.

Yuxi was pulled back to reality by Yun Qing's words, looked sideways at Yun Qing and said, "When those robbers broke into the villa, I happened to be in the back mountain of the village. Watching the village burst into flames, I felt that something was wrong. The family that accompanied my mother-in-law was in the village, so she went back to the village, but I didn't dare to go back, so I went directly out of Zhuangzi and prepared to go back to the capital. ”

Yun Qing has now put aside the fact that the two of them are talking about a dream, and only follows what Yuxi said: "As far as you said, there is chaos outside, how can you be a single woman from Zhuangzi to the capital?" But Yuxi said that in her dream, she was a person who did not leave the door and was as timid as a mouse. People with such a temperament, let alone in troubled times, are not safe to be alone outside in peacetime.

In fact, when Yuxi thinks about it now, he also feels incredible: "Maybe people are in a desperate situation, so they will try their best to survive! The village is very remote, and I walked from the village to the town for four days." These four days are all dependent on wild vegetables and wild fruits. Because it is a mountain road, there will be wild beasts at night. In order to prevent the beast from attacking me, I found a fishy herb that I knew, and applied it to my body, and my face was dirty. The smell of that herb is terrible, not to mention the animals that eat people, even insects and flies are disgusted. Those days were very hard, not to mention that there was no food, and I had to sleep out at night. It was also the beginning of October, and the weather was not cold. If it had been winter, I would have frozen to death in the wild. ”

Yuxi, who loves cleanliness so much, has to dress up as a stinky beggar in her dreams. Yun Qing felt that it was a little difficult for him to speak: "Then what about later? Will you go back to the capital on foot?" Since it is remote, it must be a long time to return to the capital on foot.

Yuxi nodded and said, "When you get to the town, you don't dare to call a carriage, for fear that you will die if someone notices you." So I traded a pair of gold earrings for a bag of dry food and left town. After a pause, Yuxi explained: "Because of the flood in the south of the Yangtze River, a large number of displaced people poured into the capital, so food is ridiculously expensive. I only got six catties of dry food for a pair of gold earrings. "Just six catties of food, she still tried her best to keep. Otherwise, he would have been robbed a long time ago.

Yunqing also knows that the price of goods during the turmoil is unbelievably high.

Yuxi remembered the experience of escaping, and his eyes revealed an indescribable calm: "Because there are too many displaced people, the wild vegetables have also been eaten." The six catties of grain were only allowed to be eaten for four days. I was so hungry that I had to dig up the roots and leaves to fill my stomach. In the end, there was not even a root to eat. Some of the homeless people were so hungry that they began to eat people. Many of the children among the displaced people have been poisoned. "Fortunately, she has a foul smell on her, and these people look down on her. Otherwise, maybe they will be eaten by these people.

Thinking about it now, Yuxi feels that she was actually very tough in her previous life. I was not scared to death when I encountered such a thing, and even walked under the gate of the capital.

Yunqing himself has eaten tree roots, how can he not know how the roots taste. It's bitter and astringent, and it's hard to swallow at all. But I can't be hungry, and in order to survive, I have to swallow it no matter how bad it is.

Yuxi said: "I still had a gold necklace and a silver bracelet on my body at that time, and I secretly exchanged these things for food a few times, and I also went to the capital." But the gate of the capital was sealed, and it was only allowed to enter and exit. I can't get into the capital. She made the gold necklace into several pieces, and each one changed something to eat. Otherwise, she would have starved to death on the road.

Yun Qing didn't speak, and quietly listened to what Yuxi said. In fact, just from the words just now, I know that Yuxi in the dream is not stupid, and if he is stupid, it is impossible to reach the capital safely on foot from Zhuangzi. The reason why Yuxi in the dream will fall into such a miserable situation is because she was raised crookedly.

Thinking of the incident under the gate of the capital, Yuxi's eyes flashed with anger: "The city gate is sealed, and I can only live in a refugee camp." The next day, I found the official messenger who had delivered food to the refugee camp and begged them to help me deliver a message to Han's house, asking my aunt to send someone to take me home. But the official sent me to tell me that the Jiang family said to the outside world that I had been killed by robbers and that the funeral had been done. I didn't expect the Jiang family to save me from the beginning, I just wanted to ask my aunt to save me. It's a pity that I was still naïve to think about it. The official told me that I could still survive if I stayed in the refugee camp, and that there was only one way to die when I returned to the capital. Because I have been out of exile for half a month, I am no longer innocent in the eyes of those people. Not to mention that the people of the Jiang family will not let me live, and the Han family, as the queen mother's family, will definitely not tolerate a stain like me. As the official said, even if I return to the capital, there is only one way to die. ”

Yun Qing's face was very ugly: "You mean that in your dream, Han Yuchen also became a queen? Since she is a queen, why don't you support you." "Han Yuchen, as the queen, as long as he takes a little care of the Buddha, Yuxi in his dream will not be so miserable.

Yuxi's words were very calm: "I'm such a sister who can't be on the stage, she can't live without it, where will she still shine on the Buddha." But I can't blame her for it, it's normal for me to stand up and be looked down upon. "Yuchen was raised by the old lady, and like the old lady in her bones, what she values most is the gain and loss of interests. Of course, Han Jianming, who was raised by the old lady, is actually similar. It's just that Han Jianming is more humane.

Yunqing didn't know what to say. In Yuxi's dream, except for the Qiu family, there is no kind and innocent person in the Han family: "If you can't go back to the capital, what should you do?" In troubled times, it is very difficult for a homeless and weak woman to survive.

What happened next was Yuxi's deepest pain: "Half a month of hard work, and after such a blow, my body has reached its limit, and I have a high fever that night." But it rained again that night, and the thatched hut I lived in was leaking everywhere. The next day, when the people in the camp saw me unconscious, they thought I was dead, and they were ready to burn me, so that the corpse would not be left for a long time to cause a plague. I woke up and cried and said I'm still alive, don't burn me. But the men ignored my cries and burned me with the rest of the corpses. ”

When Yun Qing heard this, his whole body froze: "They burned you to death with fire?" Even if you haven't experienced it, you know how painful it is to be burned alive.

Yuxi snorted and said, "I beg them, beg them to bury me." Unfortunately, no one paid attention. The fire burned every inch of my skin, it hurt so much that I curled up in pain......"

Yun Qing felt that something was not quite right when he heard such a detailed description of Yu Xi, and immediately interrupted Yu Xi's words, holding Yu Xi's face with both hands and saying, "Yu Xi, don't think about it, it's just a nightmare, not true." ”

Yuxi burst into tears and said, "I know it's a dream, but I can't forget that pain that goes deep into my bone marrow." And over the years, I still dream that I was burned to death by fire, and I have to experience that pain again every time. "As long as you are stimulated, you will dream of being burned by fire.

Hearing this, Yun Qing shuddered. Burned alive, once experienced, I don't want to have a second time. And Yuxi often experiences that kind of pain, and she can stay normal without going crazy, just because she has a tough temperament: "Is there no way to solve this trouble?"

Yuxi said in a low voice: "In my dream, I swore a poisonous oath before I was burned to death, and I would repay him twice the pain that Jiang Hongjin put on me, and then crush his bones to ashes. ”

When Yun Qing heard this, he didn't want to say, "Then why don't you just kill him?" Maybe if he dies, you won't have this nightmare again." "If it were him, even if it was a dream, he would kill Jiang Hongjin. He wouldn't even wait so long for him to find a way to kill Jiang Hongjin. In this way, it is really impossible to avoid future troubles.

Yuxi lowered his head and said, "What happened in a dream is not reality after all. In reality, he didn't want my life, so I can't do anything to him. But when I had this nightmare again, I couldn't stand it anymore, so I asked Yang Duoming to teach him a lesson. It's also a revenge for the one I suffered so much in my dreams. It's a little unbelievable to say, I can empathize with everything in the dream, and I still remember it very clearly. It's as if it wasn't a dream, but a real experience. After a pause, Yuxi said again: "But because of this dream, I don't dare to be weak anymore." When the smallpox was cured, I begged my aunt to send me a literate mother-in-law. After me, I followed the woman to read and write. ”

Yun Qing was stunned: "Aren't you illiterate in your dreams?" Didn't you say that the girls from big families were all carefully raised! How could they not be illiterate.

Yuxi's relationship had calmed down, and said: "In the dream, because of my dull qualifications, I am not qualified to study and learn calligraphy with Mr. Song with the third sister. It was also because of the experience in my dream that I wanted to learn more and learn more about my body. So even though Mr. Song hated me, I still persevered. ”

Yunqing knows a lot about Yuxi's childhood and adulthood. Actually, Yunqing also had doubts before, that is, Yuxi was too studious, and it was a little normal to learn well. And Yuxi's words today solved his doubts. R1148