"Then are you sad, your wife and children are with others."

"The man is very haode to my children, and he is also very haode to my wife, although I am sad, but I don't show anything, and let my wife remarry, or my mother's meaning, because for so many years, I haven't helped the family at all, it's all the man who is helping, even zuihou My mother died, it was all the man's help to arrange the aftermath, maybe this is fate, my mother has already passed away, I don't know when my mother died, and they didn't inform me, My mother also didn't let them inform me, he said that I didn't go home for so many years, there was always a reason not to go home, and he didn't want me to be distracted, and then I felt that in that home, I was like a superfluous" Jiang Chao smiled, "You can't feel that feeling, I have been thinking before, I still have a wife and children, and a home, no matter what, I can go home, do you know, people of my age, what they want most is not money, not status, is home, as a result, I don't even have my own home." ”

Jiang Chao shook his head helplessly, "Maybe I also destroyed other people's families, this is evil retribution." Jiang Chao looked at Yaoyao "I drank a lot of wine with them that night, watching my wife take care of her man on the side, watching my own children call that man dad very intimately, do you know how sad I am, and then I left by myself, I went out by myself and found a small restaurant to drink hard, drank a lot, I can't remember how much I drank, when the sky was bright, I drove the BMW X6 that Liu Cheng gave me when I came back, the license plate was not on, and I was rampage on the road, I just want to vent the anger in my heart, who knows, just careless, I actually hit a middle-aged man riding a bicycle, he hit the tree above the green belt, my car also rode on the green belt, I saw the person fall to the ground "Jiang Chao looked at Yaoyao "My head is confused, I just remember that I hit him, and then, I hit him away, then I remembered that I was going to run, I ran far, far away, ran out of OP City, I didn't even want the car, I was sweating profusely, and I fell asleep on the grass outside, and I didn't wake up until the evening, and I was left with only a vague consciousness, and I woke up a lot of alcohol, and I remembered that I had hit someone, but fortunately, my car didn't have a license plate. ”

"Do you think the person you hit is still a chance of surviving?"

Jiang Chao shook his head, "He flew high, early in the morning, he must have gone to work, I don't remember very well, but I estimate that eighty percent is hopeless, maybe this is retribution." ”

Jiang Chao smiled at Yaoyao, and tears flowed out, "My son rode home from school that night, and was driven under the car by a large truck pulling coal without a license plate, when I knew the news, the whole person was going crazy, after all, it was my biological son, I learned the news, when I ran to the hospital, my wife was crazy, the man kept hugging her, I felt dark, the driver who caused the accident also fled, I really knew what evil is called evil retribution, I was confused, My wife was taken away by that man, and I never saw it again, I should have left OP City, and I forgot how to deal with the rest of the matter, but I just felt it, this is retribution, this is retribution, from that day on, I felt that I was alive and the walking dead, I walked on the side of the road every day, kept looking at the big trucks pulling coal, I wanted to find the driver who hit and killed my son, I wanted to kill him, I killed him alive, I bought wine every day, drank wine, I was tired, I just found a bridge and went to sleep under the hole, I thought about suicide several times, but when I wanted to commit suicide, I stopped myself, I wanted to find the driver, I just looked for more than a month, I didn't even see the shadow of a driver, I saw that all the drivers were like murderers of my son, I wanted to take revenge, I wanted to kill all the drivers, but I still held back, I knew I couldn't be like this, I had a mess of those days, I just ate and slept in the open for three months, I didn't wash my face, I didn't clean up myself, the whole person was dirty, It's like a beggar. ”

"I don't know who was the first to throw five cents in front of me while I was sleeping, and then slowly people started throwing money at me again, you know, how funny, how ironic, I was treated like a beggar."

"I remember when I took the first five cents, I laughed for a long time, I have money in my card, but now I have become a beggar, I think of my son again, I am uncomfortable mess, simply, beggars are beggars, I took an iron bowl, and then, continue to drink every day, drunk and dreaming of death, I don't care what all the people around me think of me, and whatever they despise me, I have too many people's affections, I also regard myself as a beggar, All of a sudden, I feel like I've been through so many things over the years, it's all useless, I've been so wasted in my life, sometimes I look at myself, dirty hair, black face, ragged clothes, look at people's eyes that dislike me, look at the way people dislike me, despise me, I feel funny"

Jiang Chao's expression was a little decadent, "I originally thought that I would go on like this for the rest of my life, because I had lost confidence in life, I wanted to die, but I didn't have the courage to commit suicide, I suddenly had nothing, I wanted a family." ”

Jiang Chao took a deep breath, "The turning point of the matter is there, I don't know which community I ran to, I sat there, looking at the people on the side of the road, I was tired of walking, I wanted to rest from here, and then, the security guards of the community came out, they didn't allow me to beg here, the words were full of contempt, that look, and kicked me, they didn't treat me as a human being at all." ”

"I just don't leave, I'm used to being warm and cold these days, I just thought, they beat me to death, just happened to fulfill my wishes, you know, I look young, not those old, weak, sick and disabled, there are more and more people gathered around, most of them are talking about me, saying that I have hands and feet why don't I go to work, this and that, many of them are contemptuous voices, there are a lot of ridicule around, I look at them, I know they are laughing at me, but I don't want to say anything at all, I just think, you guys do it, Kill me, I'm sure I'm not going to leave here. ”