[Fever of 40 degrees, started yesterday, repeated fever. I got up in the morning and wrote a chapter with a little better, and I went to the hospital in a while. It's harder to say if it can be two. I'm sorry. 】

I saw that under the moonlight, the lights gradually went out, Gao Leng put one hand around Jian Xiaodan, who was not walking steadily, Jian Xiaodan struggled at first, and then behaved, and the two walked towards the swallow tower together and disappeared into Lin Zhi's field of vision.

The swallow building is a special room set up by the owner of this manor for several important people such as Gao Leng and Brother Biao.

I have to say that Jian Xiaodan's wine is not very good, her body that is in a working state is in a straight state and relaxes after entering the Swallow Tower, as if a string broke tightly when she went to the battlefield, and the battlefield immediately loosened.

Jane's wine is too bad.

Gao Leng looked speechlessly at Jian Xiaodan, who was lying on the bed giggling and laughing madly as soon as she entered the room, shook her head, stretched out her hand to help her take off her shoes, and asked softly, "Do you want to drink water?"

"I'll be very good, Mom, a bottle of water is enough. Jian Xiaodan said vaguely, with the tone of writing children's words, Gao Leng looked at Jian Xiaodan, only to see her curled up and buried her head deep in the quilt.

Hee-hee-hee, Jane laughed again.

"You're drunk, drink some water first. Gao Leng frowned, holding the wine glass in one hand and supporting her body in the other, and when she sat up, she found that Jian Xiaodan was in tears, it was really tearful, her face was full of tears, and she couldn't stop crying one by one.

It's just that her face is still smiling, smiling decently, and she can even say that she smiles cutely.

Gao Leng's heart seemed to have been plucked by someone, and it sounded, and it hurt.

"It's not Mom, it's Dad. Jian Xiaodan looked at Gao Leng and immediately wiped away her tears, smiling, but her eyes were very misty and she was very drunk. Gao Leng understood when he heard her say this, and he nodded: "Well, it's Dad, you can sleep." ”

The original owner Gao Leng remembered an experience of going to a social welfare home, where the children saw that all the staff were called Mom and Dad, and Jane Xiaoshan must have been drunk and remembered his childhood. Gao Leng helped her wipe away her tears, remembering her expression at the door of the welfare home this morning, and couldn't help but worry.

Just knowing that Jane Xiaoshan was raised in an orphanage, what was her childhood like?

"You" Gao Leng hesitated, he was a little afraid to ask, it was like revealing someone's scars.

"It's cold. Jian Xiaodan fixed his eyes again, recognized Gao Leng, cried and laughed for a while, and then lay on the bed quietly, lying there motionless. Gao Leng helped her cover the quilt lightly, only to see Xiao Dan nesting in the quilt, his hands and feet curled together, this is the sleeping position that only extremely insecure people can have.

"In the future, when I have money, I will set up a social welfare institution. Jian Xiaodan's soft voice came out of the futon, choked up: "I want to prohibit anyone from visiting in the welfare home, and prohibit anyone from engaging in activities such as taking children to experience the feeling of family, and I will refuse all these activities." ”

Gao Leng sat down and looked at Jian Xiaodan, who only showed half of her head, she closed her eyes and stayed with tears in her eyes.

"Do you know? Every time someone goes to visit, every time someone organizes someone from a unit or enterprise to come to help, it is a catastrophe for us. Jane sniffed: "We are classified and closed." ”

The classification is closed.

This description made Gao Leng's heart ache.

"I am an able-bodied child, and I live on the first floor with other able-bodied children, and on the second floor are children with cerebral palsy, disabilities, autism, etc. Every time someone organizes a visit, they always bring a lot of things, small toys, small clothes, and a lot of books. We all want it, but we can't give it all. The children on the second floor are strictly forbidden to go downstairs, and it will not be good if they scare the people who come to sponsor them. Therefore, the guests were selected to be greeted by able-bodied, obedient children. I'm one of them. ”

Jian Xiaoshan stretched out her hand, and there was a small brown mark on her palm, which looked like a mark of fire burn.

"Once I slipped into the kitchen to get a piece of pastry for my brother to eat, my brother was on the second floor, he never had the right to go downstairs on this occasion, every time I looked up in the yard and looked at my brother leaning against the window, there were several children with cerebral palsy around him smirking, I wanted to steal a piece of pastry for him, but I was burned, I kept not speaking, kept a smile to greet the guests, fortunately, no one noticed. ”

A smile appeared on Jian Xiaodan's face, and the smile was as if it had been exercised, looking innocent and cute.

"Those who come to send warmth, they are kind, but they don't know that this is charity. In order to get this little thing from them, we started to fight a week before we learned that the other party was coming, and we always called the staff mom and dad, in fact, some staff members had a big temper and were scolded as a common thing. But even if we are scolded, we will laugh. ”

Jane chuckled.

"People who send warmth always say, 'These kids are so cute and sensible.' They don't know, we don't smile, we don't act cute, and you don't have a share in the warmth of the people who send warmth. ”

"Then why do you want to refuse others to take children to experience family life?" Gao Leng held back the heartache in his heart and wondered: "These children have never experienced the warmth of family, wouldn't it be great if a family could take them to experience it?"

Jian Xiaodan didn't speak for a long time, her eyes closed.

After a long time, Gao Leng thought she was asleep, and rubbed the quilt for her and prepared to leave, but suddenly heard Jian Xiaoshan whimpering in the quilt, crying all the time, crying and crying, and the whimpering that couldn't stop at all was like that kind of injured little animal, crying so that Gao Leng's heart was broken.

"Okay, okay, I don't want to, I don't want to. Gao Leng gently patted her on the back.

"The staff who could take us out had to go through a strict assessment, and now it is open to the public, and at that time, only the staff who had worked in the welfare home for five or six years could take the children away, and only one person a month could be taken out. Jian Xiaodan sniffed: "There are more than fifty able-bodied children in our welfare home, and only two or three can be taken out a month, do you know how much I paid to grab this place?"

"Spending the weekend outside was the luxury I wanted the most at that time, and everyone wanted to go outside and see how big the orphanage was. So the few staff who can take the children out, we will call Mom and Dad sweetly, and they will behave well. So that everyone stands together on the weekend, and Mom and Dad can call their names, and every time I have to call my name, who will be taken out for the weekend, and my heart is going to jump out at that time. ”

"You were only sent to a welfare home when you were five years old, and there are many opportunities for able-bodied children to be taken out, right?" Gao Leng asked.

Jian Xiaodan shook her head: "I was taken out once." ”

"How's it just once? You're lovely, and you're smart. ”

"Well, in order to be able to go out for the weekend, my mouth is sweet, sometimes I can't eat enough, and I also help the staff mop the floor and clean the toilet, and everyone likes me. It's a pity that I didn't behave well when I was taken out the first time. Jian Xiaodan shook his head: "That time my father took me out to experience family life, passing by the commissary and asking me if I wanted to eat lollipops, I said okay, he gave me one, but I asked for two, he frowned." Later, when I was sent back to the orphanage on Monday, my dad said I was too greedy and didn't like me. After that, no one took me out. Later I learned that any child who was taken out would talk very sweetly, and if I asked them if they wanted to eat it, they would only take a little bit, so that they would have a chance to be taken out next time. And I actually asked for two lollipops."

"Two, are you giving it to your brother?"

"Hmm. Jian Xiaodan suddenly cried again: "My brother is just sick, his kidneys are not very good, he is not cerebral palsy or autistic, but he is locked up with those people, he also has emotional needs, and he also wants to come out to play." I wanted to bring him an extra one, but I didn't expect it."

A sour nose for high coldness.

Jane's childhood memories hit the softest nerve in his heart.