Chapter 905: It's Not Sayo's Fault
Rong Zhan could roughly understand what Gu Yi'an meant.
But he couldn't figure out what was going on.
What is it called, that Saya may come back or disappear forever?
This statement is really too mysterious, at least Rong Zhan can't fully understand it.
He looked at Gu Yi'an and held her hand tightly.
"An An, you have the memory of Xiaoye, don't you?" Rong Zhan asked again.
Gu Yi'an nodded subconsciously, but quickly shook his head again.
"It doesn't count." Gu Yi'an said with some difficulty.
She really didn't know how to answer Rong Zhan's question.
What she locked up was only a small part of the memories that originally belonged to Xiao Ye.
Even if she now thinks that Sayo is her, a part of her, she doesn't have any more memories of Sayo.
This is a very strange thing.
She doesn't have any more memories of Sayo, but she clearly knows that Sayo is herself, and Sayo belongs to a part of herself.
"Not counting?" Rong Zhan frowned, "You mean, you overlap with Xiao Ye's memories, and there is still a small part, right?" ”
"Yes." Gu Yi'an nodded.
"This part of the memory is exactly what you fear the most." Rong Zhan did not use a questioning tone this time, but an affirmative tone.
Gu Yi'an nodded again and didn't say a word.
Rong Zhan was silent for a moment before he said again, "An An, why are you afraid of this part of the memory?" That's a memory that belongs to Sayo, even if he did something terrible, it belongs to Sayo, not yours. So, why are you afraid? Because you substituted yourself for the night? Or is it because you think you're Nighto, and someday, you're going to be Nighto? ”
Gu Yi'an's fingers were crossed, and after listening to Rong Zhan's words, her fingers couldn't help but tighten, one by one, their fingers had been strangled white, the blood was blocked, and they were pale.
"An An, you think you are Xiao Ye, Xiao Ye is yourself. Those terrifying memories are constantly reminding you that you are Xiaoye, and Xiaoye is you. Those things...... You did it, didn't you? ”
Rong Zhan's voice was heavy.
He had to be heavy.
Because things are really getting more and more troublesome!
For Gu Yi'an, if he just knew that Xiao Ye had done something terrifying, it would not have a too terrifying impact. It's very simple, because Gu Yi'an thinks from the bottom of her heart that those things are not done by her, so it won't have much impact.
But once Gu Yi'an thinks that those things were done by Xiao Ye, and she did them, it will be dangerous, and it will be very, very dangerous.
Gu Yi'an's inner moral restraint is too strong, and she has a very heavy and strict concept of right and wrong, right is right, and wrong is wrong.
She didn't allow herself to do those wrong things, and she didn't allow herself to become a hateful person.
These things strongly bound her and made her unbearable for her mistakes.
What's more, the horrible things that Xiao Ye has done are no longer accurate to describe with the wrong word.
Mistakes give the impression that they are very slight and can be corrected.
But in fact, the things that Xiao Ye has done are probably not corrected at all!
Is it not just that it cannot be corrected?
It is absolutely irreparable, it is a sin, it is a sin, it is an ugly human nature, and it is something that Gu Yi'an hates deeply!
Therefore, Rong Zhan can very well understand Gu Yi'an's current mood.
She was disgusted with herself, with the self who had done something.
But there is one point, Rong Zhan still can't understand.
That is, why does she feel that Xiao Ye is herself?
If Gu Yi'an is really completely integrated with Xiao Ye, then she will definitely have all the memories that belong to Xiao Ye, and she will know a qiē.
But Gu Yi'an said that she only knew a little memory that belonged to Xiao Ye, and it was about these horrific events.
Since she only knew such a little memory, then she didn't fully merge with Xiao Ya.
Since she didn't fully merge with Sayo, why did she substitute herself for Sayo?
She should know very well in her heart that she is completely different from Xiao Ye.
There's no reason for her to put herself in the shoes of the night.
Rong Zhan narrowed her eyes, she couldn't figure out these things, and she really didn't know what was going on.
"An An, why do you think that you are Xiaoye?" Rong Zhan asked again.
It's a mystery, and it's impossible to solve.
Gu Yi'an shook his head.
"Is it that you don't know, or do you not want to say?" Rong Zhan asked softly, "Or is it both?" ”
Gu Yi'an closed his eyes and didn't say a word.
Rong Zhan glanced at the timer, and then looked at Gu Yi'an again, "An An, Xiao Ye's memory is terrifying, but that's Xiao Ye, that's not you." What kind of person is Saya? She is cold, ruthless, ruthless, she has no moral bottom line, she can do anything, even to say, she is very casual, she never cares about what she does, and she doesn't care about other people's lives...... She doesn't have basic human feelings, she doesn't have compassion, she, not you. She's completely different from you. An An, I can't be mistaken, you don't have any resemblance to her, so why did you substitute yourself for Xiaoye? Why do you think you're the night? ”
Rong Zhan's voice carried a feeling of oppression, sentence after sentence, as if it was overwhelming pressure, piling up layer by layer, layer by layer, constantly pressing on Gu Yi'an's body and heart, pressing her breathlessly!
Just after Rong Zhan finished asking the question, Gu Yi'an began to shake his head constantly, shaking his head violently.
"An An, what's wrong, you say, you say!" Rong Zhan held her hand tightly and stared straight into her eyes.
"No, no, it's not like that! Not what you say! ”
Gu Yi'an struggled hard, breaking free of Rong Zhan's hand, her hand kept waving, waving her hand constantly, her eyes became red, she kept shaking her head, and kept retreating.
"No, it's not like that, it's not what you say. Not really. Xiao Ye, she's not ...... She's not a cold and heartless person, she's not emotionless, she's not a killer, she's not! ”
These words were almost shouted out by Gu Yi'an.
Her expressions, her language, her body movements, all indicate that she is on the verge of a breakdown, or is already in a breakdown.
"It's not her fault, it's not Sayo's, it's not!" Gu Yi'an cried and shouted, "It's not her fault, Xiaoye is not what you say, she is not!" She's not a cold-blooded killer, she's human, she's human! ”