In fact, in retrospect, it is also very simple.

What kind of eyes do you look at when you give up your comrades?

It stands to reason that it should be guilty and uncomfortable, but under which circumstances at that time, he knew that he still had a mission, and he had to safely escort the mission target away, otherwise, the sacrifice of his teammates would be in vain, useless, and the mission would fail.

Therefore, he felt that his eyes at that time should be firm, very determined.

But he just had a firm look in his eyes, but he didn't know what misunderstanding he gave to the nursery rhyme, and he didn't know what the nursery rhyme was thinking......

Now, it's completely useless to say that.

For Tan Jincheng, those past events have no value to recall at all for him!

There really wasn't any value worth remembering at all.

The memories cherished by nursery rhymes are also completely meaningless when talking about Jin Cheng.

"Ah Cheng, in fact, I have never blamed you for so many years. Do you think I didn't know you didn't have a choice at the time? When you look at me being shot in the heart, you know I'm going to die. So wasting time and energy and precious opportunities to save me will only get nothing...... Anyone in your position will make the same choice as you, and you are not wrong. ”

Nursery rhyme said with a smile, her voice was very soft and soothing, "In fact, even I think that I will die." ”

She actually wanted to talk to Jin Cheng at this time, and she could ask her why she didn't die, but she didn't say a word when she talked about Jin Cheng.

"Don't you want to know, why didn't I die?"

Nursery rhyme asked.

However, Tan Jincheng didn't say anything, he really didn't want to know.

"Whether you want to know or not, I want to sue you." Tong Yao smiled, "I think it's amazing, too." I thought I was going to die, but I felt my heart stop beating, I felt chills all over my body, which was a symptom of excessive blood loss. But then, I couldn't feel anything, it was dark in front of me, and I couldn't see anything......"

Then I was plunged into darkness and coldness, and I felt nothing but darkness and loneliness. I guess that's what death feels like. I have to say, this feeling is really annoying......"

At this point, the nursery rhyme suddenly burst into laughter.

"I also thought it was strange that I still had the heart to think about this, what did I hate or not? I didn't even feel scared, do you think that's normal? ”

Talking about Jin Cheng still didn't say anything.

Nursery rhymes don't care, she just knows, she wants to say.

She wanted to say it a long time ago, but she couldn't find anyone who could make her want to talk, except for him, her Ah Cheng, the only love of her life!

"It's definitely not normal, but that shows I'm optimistic, right? I still remember that when we were training, we always said that we should be optimistic, and we should also be optimistic in the most difficult times, as long as we are optimistic, as long as we have hope, as long as we have expectations, there will definitely be miracles. ”

Speaking of this, the nursery rhyme immediately laughed, "Ahem, when I heard this, I really thought that these words were all scene words, just words of encouragement from the instructors to cheer us up, and when we arrived on the battlefield, it was useless to be optimistic." But...... Later I learned that it was really useful! ”

The face of the nursery rhyme was on Tan Jin Cheng's back, rubbing gently, and she whispered: "Jin Cheng, I'm really not dead." I woke up. I didn't understand why, but after the darkness and coldness had passed, I woke up. I opened my eyes ......"

"It was white, and all I can remember now is white, so white...... Then, I didn't remember anything else, and I started to fall into a half-dream, half-awake again. ”

Nursery rhyme smiled, "I thought that such a white place was heaven, but my body was actually very uncomfortable, very uncomfortable." The brain is not awake all the time, and the body does not feel anything other than discomfort. I don't know where I am, what's going on......"

"By the time I woke up, two or three months had passed."

Speaking of this, the voice of the nursery rhyme suddenly became cold, "I finally know where I am." ”

Nursery rhyme's hand gently caressed his chest, through his shirt.

Her voice was particularly cold, "I'm a prisoner." I was still in the area where we were on duty, and I became a prisoner of the rebels...... Hehe, do you know how they treat their captives? ”

Tan Jincheng's body stiffened slightly again.

This stiff didn't hide the nursery rhyme.

The nursery rhyme laughed almost immediately, "Ah Cheng, are you scared?" You're afraid to hear about my captivity, aren't you? Actually, it's really nothing. In the past, I also felt very uncomfortable, I felt that it was not acceptable at all. But now, I don't think it's much more. Those experiences...... It's pretty good, too. ”

Very good?

Tan Jincheng's lips were tightly pursed, how could the experience of the captives be considered very good?

It can be seen that the psychological state of nursery rhymes has really been distorted.

Those painful lives and experiences have made her too far away from normal people, no one knows what the current nursery rhymes look like, and no one knows what her psychology has become distorted......

Nursery rhyme's hand continued to caress his chest, and even unbuttoned one of his chests with impunity, and his hand, through the gap in his shirt, pressed against her skin.

"It's rare to see Orientals there, especially people like me. There were a lot of captives there, both men and women, the blacks were the most, the whites were second, and then the yellows, and I was the only one in the Orientals like me. Those people, their favorite is white, then me, and finally black. But when I went, they had lost interest in the white men, and when I went, all their interest was in me......"

Nursery rhymes are said with a smile.

"Hey, I never thought I was pretty, otherwise why would you never see me? But foreigners seem to have a different aesthetic from us, they think I'm beautiful, and my body is their favorite. Also, they liked my hard bones very much, and tried all kinds of punishments on me, but I didn't say anything. In the end, they didn't hope to get anything out of me, but they were really interested in my body......"