Many years later, when people mention the 66th Oscars, there are only a few things that can be remembered, one is Tom Hanks and Hugo Lancaster's Shun lì to the top, one is Jane Campion's "Piano Love" sword history, and the other is "Schindler's List" swept thousands of troops.

In fact, many people don't remember the confrontation between "Schindler's List" and "Farewell to Lovers", even for the famous director James Ivori. People remember the "Howard Manor" that amazed everyone, but few people remember the excellent reputation of "Farewell to Love". The loser of "Farewell to the Sentient Heaven" was lost in the long river of time.

What's even more embarrassing is that after the filming of "Farewell to Love", James seems to have exhausted all the talent in his body, and after fifteen years of training since 1979, he has sunk. Although after 1994, James still filmed "Jefferson in Paris. in。 Paris)", "The Golden Bowl (the. golden。 bowl)" and other good works, but the reputation is declining, and the talent that has amazed countless people has been consumed in time.

Later, some insiders carefully studied that James's decline seems to have started from "Farewell to Love", and people can't help but speculate that during the filming process of this movie, there was no unknown secret within the crew, and the Moqiante-Avery Company, which was once known as the Iron Triangle, dissipated in the long river of history.

Occasionally, one will find the name of Tracy and Jacobs in the column of the maker, ponder the direct and indirect connections between the trajectory of Tracy's career and James, and then sigh thoughtfully.

Tracy gambled desperately and lost, so she lost. "Farewell to Sentient Heaven" In the face of the powerful "Schindler's List", there is no power to fight back at all, and even the strength to survive is gone, Tracy even wonders if it is from the beginning, "Farewell to Sentient Heaven" has no chance, and all the so-called opportunities are just illusions.

It's just that who knows who really created this illusion, whether the media deceived her, or whether her own hatred blinded her is unknown.

In fact, Tracy should have expected such a result a long time ago, because she put all the bets on the table regardless of a single thing, and if she won, she won a big victory; If you lose, you will be defeated.

Tracy's subconscious knows better than anyone that in fact, Hollywood never needs to be desperate, "leaving the green mountains without worrying about no firewood" is the truth, as long as the strength is retained, anyone has the capital to make a comeback. This is also the reason why Martin Baum has always advised her not to be impulsive.

But Tracy didn't want to do it, hatred not only blinded her, but also made her lose her mind, and even made her fall into madness, so she broke the rules of the industry, so she had to suffer the consequences.

"Farewell to Love" lost, not only a movie showdown, nor just an Oscar victory, Tracy bet too much on this work, she has no capital to start over, all her strength has sunk to the bottom of the sea with the failure of "Farewell to Love", and finally disappeared.

At this point, all the thoughts became clear, and Tracy's mind was extremely clear.

But Tracy doesn't regret it, she doesn't regret it at all, because Tracy knows that in Hollywood, it is always the work that determines the winner or loser, no matter how broad the connection, no matter how brilliant the past, no matter how rich the funds, but in the end it must be implemented in the work - or the benefits brought by the work. The work wins, even the unknown dragon trick can become popular all over the world overnight; If the work fails, even the top superstars and even large production companies will fall into the dust.

The victory of "Schindler's List" is a fact that Tracy has no way to change, because the opponent is too strong, and fame and fortune are gained. Then, instead of being tied up and unable to fight and fight with all her might, and as a result, meet temporary defeat and get the opportunity to taste courage, this is not what she wants, because she will regret it; It's better to put all the bets on it, go crazy and gamble, and in the end either win big or lose completely, that's her choice.

So, Tracy has no regrets, her only regret is that she didn't make it to the winner of this gamble.

Tracy left her seat and walked backstage, by which time the entire Oscars had come to an end, everyone was busy, and the winner was busy receiving congratulations and enjoying the night; The loser is busy turning away, tasting the pain of defeat alone; Soy sauce beaters are busy expanding their networks or preparing for the upcoming carnival...... No one noticed Tracy, not even the "Farewell to Lovers" crew themselves.

Tracy walked backstage like a ghost, weaving through the crowd, no one noticed her, no one greeted or stopped, Tracy easily came backstage, and in the distance, she saw Hugo.

At this time, Hugo had just signed and confirmed, received his own little gold man who had completed the engraving, and stood aside to accept the reporter's interview, Leonardo, Joseph, Samora and others stood not far away, talking and laughing waiting for Hugo to be interviewed, but today there was to wait, because at least six media were waiting for the first time to interview Hugo's feelings, and everyone was waiting for their own order.

Tracy stood about seven yards away, separated by a crowd of people, who were bustling and bustling, and the bright lights were pouring down, lighting up circles of light around them, and the joyful laughter, the cheerful slapstick, the noisy discussions, and the brisk expressions mingled in the light, making the air light, like heaven.

And Tracy here, it seems that there is a low pressure to form a small range, in fact, the most important thing is that Tracy stands in place, and people passing by will subconsciously avoid her and follow their own established path, so this forms a small space. But this made Tracy's surroundings seem more and more deserted, a shadow loomed over her, all the noise seemed to be cut off, and it was a world of its own, quiet, dead, gray, gloomy...... There is a negative feeling that spreads slowly in the air, like a virus, dancing its teeth and claws in the oxygen factor, like hell.

One thought of heaven and one thought of hell are only a few steps apart, but they have caused a gap between the world, close at hand but far away from the sky, and this distance seems to be impossible to cross.

Looking at Hugo with a smile on her face, Tracy suddenly realized that she seemed to have not looked at Hugo seriously for a long, long time, and the gap of two years had drawn a gap between the two people, and when she found out, it was insurmountable.

Hugo seems to be a little more calm than two years ago, and it seems to be more sunny, the gentleness of that smile slowly ripples in the halo, as if a lotus flower fell in her heart lake, proudly blooming, and the handsome eyebrows have also added a lot of experience, the traces of the years have been quietly blended into his temperament, and there is an indescribable taste in every gesture.

Suddenly, Tracy only felt a throbbing pain in her heart, and the pain in this moment almost made her have no time to react, and even her expression did not change, and in an instant, it spread all over her body, penetrated deep into her bone marrow, and imprinted her soul, and then these pains remained deeply in her mind, indelible. But just this moment of pain made Tracy clearly realize: it turned out that she still loved Hugo deeply, and it turned out that she really loved Hugo.

As much as she hated Hugo, she loved Hugo so much; How cruel and fierce her revenge is, how crazy and hot her love is; How strong her mind is, how deep her love is.

This single thought was enough to burn her in an instant.

When the pain was at its peak, Tracy laughed instead. Does she regret it? No, she still doesn't regret it, because this qiē is her choice, she won't regret it, if she regrets it, it means that she has denied herself. Therefore, even if her heart hurts again, she will not regret it.

Tracy bit the tip of her tongue tightly, the smell of blood slowly spread in her mouth, how sorry she was, regret that she was not the winner, otherwise, she could watch Hugo fall apart little by little, maybe she would be more painful than Hugo, but she could be painful and happy. It's a pity that she is a loser, she looks at Hugo, but Hugo doesn't notice her, how ridiculous.

But at this moment, Hugo seemed to notice Tracy's eyes, and suddenly raised his head, and then the eyes of the two people were like fate, looking at each other through the crowd, and collided with infinite sparks.

Tracy's eyes were so mixed, crazy and brutal, cold and cruel, but there was a little light in the endless darkness, and although it was through the crowd, even though it was seven yards away, Hugo could recognize the truth of that little light: it was deep love, it was deep reluctance.

It is said that hateful people must have pity, and it should be said that this is the moment. Hugo knew that Tracy was so in love with Lancaster, but the two of them had a quarrel to the point of endless death, and such a fragile and weak Tracy looked so miserable and so pitiful. But Hugo knew that pity came last, hateful came first, and this is a fact that cannot be changed.

Is there a right or wrong thing in love? Maybe there is, maybe not, but what is certain is that every love will have an ending, and Tracy and Lancaster's love came to an end today, but the two of them would come to this point, perhaps no one expected.

Hugo gave Tracy a deep look, and he knew that he had nothing to do with her anymore, from this moment on. So, Hugo pursed his lips slightly, then withdrew his gaze and continued to engage in the interview, not paying attention to Tracy's movements and signs. But Tracy still stood where she was, looking at Hugo with hatred, affection, cruelty, turbulence, and reluctance, and just stood silently.

Tracy looked at Hugo, but Hugo didn't notice Tracy. One thought of heaven and one thought of hell, this is probably their end.

On March 21, 1994, at 11:32 p.m., the five-year story of entanglement and struggle between Hugo and Tracy came to an end. (To be continued [Provided].) If you like this work, you are welcome to come to Kazakhstan to read and vote for the work to vote for the monthly ticket. Your support is the biggest motivation for me to continue creating! ）