Chapter 75: Hope and Despair

Zhang Yang kissed her lightly on the forehead.

Hailan said: "There have been great changes in my family, that person has helped me, without him, I would not have entered Jiangcheng TV, without him, I would not have the life I have now......"

"Don't say it......" Zhang Yang's heart felt very uncomfortable.

Hailan's hand clenched Zhang Yang's arm: "I am vain, I worship money, so I will accept his gift, but when I realized that this was a mistake, I wanted to get rid of him, but I couldn't get rid of him, he was like a nightmare that always haunted me, when I met you, it was when I was most depressed, but your appearance made me understand for the first time what true love is, I can't get rid of you, I'm afraid of hurting you, so ...... I'm going to run away! ”

Zhang Yang pressed Hailan tightly against his chest, and his forehead pressed against Hailan's forehead: "Sister, you can't escape, I will firmly tie you and let you stay by my side for the rest of your life." ”

Hailan muttered with tears in her eyes: "I won't run away again, I won't ......"

Dongjiang Fude Building is one of the few famous stores in the provincial capital, Gu Mingjian's room is on the third floor of Yuejiang Pavilion, from here you can see the scene of the long sky and the river, because considering what happened last night, Gu Mingjian did not invite too many people to accompany him, but just called Zhang Defang, as well as the three girls from the Academy of Arts, Zhang Defang's sister Zhang Ruping, the other two are called Cheng Xiuxiu, and the other two are called Zhao Ruiwen.

Zhang Yang went to the mall to buy some Jiangcheng souvenirs before he came, people helped him so much, he always had to say it, but the gift can not be too heavy, fortunately, Dongjiang is the provincial capital of Pinghai, almost anything can be bought here, Zhang Yang bought some Jiangcheng souvenirs, it's funny to think about it, from Jiangcheng to buy local souvenirs, if you let others know that you will definitely laugh off your big teeth.

What Zhang Yang bought were some mountain treasures. Specialties, the price is not cheap, although Gu Mingjian doesn't look down on these things, but Zhang Defang's impression of Zhang Yang has changed through this incident, he feels that Zhang Yang is very good at doing things, a young man, he doesn't care how many gifts he gives, what he gives, just from his practice, it can be seen that he is a person who understands the rules.

Zhang Defang also has a copy, but three artists. Zhang Yang, a girl from the college, was not prepared, Zhang Yang smiled: "I'm sorry, when you take the time to go to Chunyang, I will take you to Qingtai Mountain to play, eat, drink and have fun, I promise not to let you spend a penny!" ”

Zhang Ruping Gege laughed: "Zhang Yang, I. . . Seriously, my cousin promised to take us on a trip two days ago, or we'll go to you on holiday! ”

Zhang Yang nodded happily and said, "No problem, this matter will be decided today. Come down, when the time comes, you just have to go over, and I'll take you to have a good time! ”

Gu Mingjian said with a smile: "A few days ago, I heard the old man say that there are Hong Kong businessmen in the Qing Dynasty. Taishan's investment in the development of tourism is very likely to become a bright spot in the economic growth of the northern part of Pinghai Province in the future, you say so now, I am really a little moved, yes, I am not polite to you, 11 I want to go over, I will definitely call you. ”

At this time, the waitress came over and asked what kind of wine was used.

Gu Mingjian didn't want to think about it and said: "Come to two bottles of Feitian Moutai, fifteen-year-old, Ruping, what drinks do you drink?" ”

Zhang Ruping ordered juice.

Zhang De laughed and said, "I. . . I'm also drinking juice today, and I have a meeting in the provincial hall in the afternoon, so I don't have to hit the muzzle of the gun! "Recently, the public security system has greatly rectified drinking during work, and Zhang Defang has also reined in.

Gu Mingjian scolded: "You guy is just not happy, he didn't say anything on the way he came just now, he knew that you wouldn't have been called here if you didn't drink." ”

Zhang Defang said: "Special circumstances, special treatment, if Zhang Yang doesn't leave at night, I will be the east, the right is to make amends, okay?" From his words, it has been shown that he has begun to sincerely make friends with this deputy section-level cadre from the small county town of Chunyang.

Zhang Yang said with a smile: "We are all very close, where can we talk about making amends, so let's do it, Zhang Ju drinks water, we drink, everyone takes out as much as they want, no one should hide it!" ”

Although Gu Mingjian looks like a weak scholar, he has a fierce Jianghu spirit in his bones, which is directly related to his father's doting on him, he is rarely frustrated, but Gu Mingjian's nature is not bad, and he does not have too much arrogance in other official eunuchs.

After a few cups, Gu Mingjian and Zhang Defang both understood, the one in front of them was massive, not to mention whether Zhang Defang drank it or not, even if Zhang Defang was added, the two of them couldn't drink Zhang Yang.

Zhang Yang's drinking is extremely refreshing, whether Gu Mingjian takes wine, Zhang Defang takes boiled water, or the three girls take juice, when they come to him, they are all in one mouthful, and more than a pound of two bottles of Feitian Moutai go into Zhang Yang's stomach, but this guy drinks calmly, talking and laughing during the banquet, talking and talking humorously, and does not give people the feeling of good wine at all.

At the beginning, in addition to Zhang Ruping, Cheng Xiuxiu and Zhao Ruiwen still looked down on Zhang Yang, the sesame official of this small county town, from the bottom of their hearts, and later they were attracted by his heartiness and humor, looking at Zhang Yang's eyes were a little shining, this is charm, men's charm display is usually all-round, not only relying on appearance, but more importantly, temperament and conversation.

Zhang De said goodbye in advance at two o'clock, he insisted on letting Zhang Yang stay, and invited Zhang Yang not to leave at night, tonight he came to be the east, Gu Mingjian sent Zhang Defang out of the door, Zhang De smiled and said: "This guy is a character!" ”

Gu Mingjian looked at Zhang Defang puzzled, he understood that the guy in Zhang Defang's mouth was Zhang Yang.

Zhang Defang said as he walked towards the stairs: "I investigated this morning, An Lao's investment in Qingtai Mountain was done by him, he was the deputy director of the Investment Promotion Office in Chunyang before, and his ability in Chunyang is not ordinary, brother, you have a good vision, he is a talent, and he can be handed." Don't forget to remind Gu Mingjian: "Be careful, those two girls will be bluffed by him, don't be kidnapped by him when you turn around." ”

Gu Mingjian scolded with a smile: "I can't change your stinky mouth!" ”

Zhang Yang is not interested in these girls from the art academy, Zhang Daguan pays equal attention to wisdom and beauty, these three little girls are beautiful, but they have empty bodies and lack souls, such girls will never become the best women, Zhang Daguan's eyes are not ordinary picky.

When Gu Mingjian returned to the room, Zhang Yang had already quietly taken the account, and a meal was more than 2,800, which cost most of the funds for Zhang Daguan's activities in the provincial capital this time.

As soon as Gu Mingjian heard that Zhang Yang took the account, his face immediately became gloomy: "Zhang Yang, it's not interesting for you to do this, what's the matter?" Looking down on people? ”

Zhang Yang smiled: "How can it be, they are all friends, who checks out is not the same?" ”

Gu Mingjian shook his head and said: "Go to Chunyang to count yours, I am the landlord in Dongjiang!" He insisted on calling the service lady over, asking her to return the full amount of Zhang Yang's money, and then signed his name on the bill very beautifully.

While Zhang Daguan has a good impression of Gu Mingjian, he also admires this hand, when can we get to this point, with a stroke of the pen, you can keep accounts and free bills, paralyzed, I say that my handwriting is much better than his. But if you want to reach this point, it has nothing to do with the quality of writing, it depends on your strength in all aspects, Zhang Yang also knows that he may be a character in Chunyang, but when he arrives in the provincial capital, he will be lost in the vast sea of people.

Because Zhang Yang was not familiar with the roads in the provincial capital, he came to eat this time by taxi, and when he left Fude Building, Gu Mingjian offered to send him back to the hotel, and by the way, he sent the three girls back to school.

On the way, Gu Mingjian asked about last night's incident, and Zhang Yang smiled: "It's nothing, the hotel manager came to apologize, transferred me another room, and gave me a five-percent discount, all thanks to your face." ”

Gu Mingjian said with a smile: "I don't know the hotel manager, by the way, I have the opportunity to introduce Hailan to me, I like to watch her news the most." ”

Zhang Yang smiled and nodded, but said in his heart, there is no door, that's my woman, I won't give you a chance, although Gu Mingjian has helped him, from Gu Mingjian's usual behavior, Zhang Yang can see that this guy is also a big carrot, and he can't keep up Hailan's idea, friends are friends, Zhang Daguan's bottom line is quite clear, who dares to fight the idea of the old woman is to openly declare war on me.

Gu Mingjian didn't think about it so much, and said with a smile: "Don't think about it, I just admire, the kind of star chasing, and I don't have the idea of wolf ambition."

Zhang Yang smiled unconsciously, probably people really don't have this idea, but he is extremely alert in this regard.

Halfway through the trip, Gu Mingjian's mobile phone rang suddenly, and he turned on his mobile phone: "Hey! When he heard what was said inside, his face immediately changed: "Damn, you are all rubbish, why can't you even look at yourself!" Don't tell my dad yet, if my sister has three long and two short, you will all die! He slammed on the brakes and apologized to Zhang Yang: "I'm sorry buddy, something happened to my family, I'm afraid I can't send you!" ”

Zhang Ruping's three girls pushed the door and got out of the car in an interesting way, Zhang Yang heard something from Gu Mingjian's phone call just now, and said in a low voice: "If I don't accompany you, maybe I can help!" ”

Gu Mingjian hesitated for a moment, but finally nodded, and he turned around and drove towards Binjiang Park. Gu Mingjian told Zhang Yang that his sister Gu Yangyang was lost, and Gu Yangyang went to the riverside this morning accompanied by two nannies, but she suddenly disappeared by the river.

Zhang Yang felt very strange, Gu Yangyang was a seventeen-year-old girl, it stands to reason that such a big girl already has enough self-care ability, why make such a fuss, Gu Mingjian's next words quickly explained, it turned out that Gu Yangyang had been paralyzed for three years, no wonder Gu Mingjian was so worried.

The two came to Jiangtan Park, and met one of the nannies at the gate, Gu Mingjian roared angrily: "What's the matter? You will lose such a big person? ”

The nanny turned pale with fright: "When we went to the toilet, the young lady said that we were painting outside, but ...... But when we came out, she was gone! ”

When Gu Mingjian asked, another black Mercedes-Benz stopped in front of them, and a twenty-seven or eighteen-year-old beautiful young woman got out of the car, she was Gu Mingjian's eldest sister Gu Jiatong, and she was also the president of the famous Lande Culture Company in Dongjiang. She has an innate nobility and grace on her body, which is determined by her origin and family, and can rarely be found in ordinary women.

As the head of a large company, Gu Jiatong was obviously much calmer than Gu Mingjian, she inquired about the situation, and then said, "Has the park management office notified you?" Has the police station been notified? If you don't do it now, Mingjian, we'll go our separate ways! She thought that Zhang Yang was just Gu Mingjian's ordinary friend, so she didn't pay special attention, and she didn't even say hello, she had already taken the lead in the park.

Gu Mingjian and Zhang Yang also followed, Binjiang Park is not a famous attraction in the Dongjiang River, except for some old men and old ladies who often come to exercise, few tourists patronize, Gu Jiatong is walking, while making a phone call, there is about her sister, there is also the company's business, in short, she gave Zhang Yang the impression that this woman is very busy.

Eight staff members from the park management office also participated in the search, one of whom reminded: "There is still a place two miles to the south that has not been developed, but the fence has been destroyed by tourists, and she will not go anywhere."

Gu Jiatong shook his head and said, "Impossible, my sister has difficulty moving and is in a wheelchair, she shouldn't go to that kind of place." ”

"Haven't been to the North Side Playground yet!" A staff member reminded.

Gu Jiatong nodded and said, "Let's go, let's go to the playground and have a look!" ”

Zhang Yang looked at the south, he felt that there should not be so many people going to the playground, it was better to go to the south to have a look, he said hello to Gu Mingjian, Gu Mingjian nodded, okay.

According to the guidance of the staff, Zhang Yang walked to the open space in the south, there was originally a fence between the park and the wasteland, but now the fence has been damaged by good visitors, Zhang Yang walked in along the path, along this zigzag path did not go too long, he saw the river beach full of pebbles, as far as the eye can see, the Yangtze River is not far from the rush of the vast soup, the sky in the afternoon is suddenly overcast, the wind and waves on the river are also much bigger, the color of the river has become low and dignified, Zhang Yang squinted his eyes, looked around, Suddenly, a small white dot appeared in his field of vision, and his flamboyant gaze froze, and the pale color appeared so dazzling and dazzling in the gray world. パ小΢ said け屋け手け打

Zhang Yang slowly walked towards white, the contrast between this simple color and the gray world was so strong.

The girl was wearing a long white dress, sitting in a wheelchair, her long black hair was messy by the river breeze, her pretty face was as pale as snow, but her beautiful eyes were as clear as water were full of novelty and excitement, and her slender fingers held the paintbrush and quickly sketched on the drawing board.

Zhang Yang saw the wheelchair and saw the girl, and had already concluded that the girl in front of him who did not eat the fireworks in the world was Gu Yangyang, and he couldn't bear to disturb this girl who was immersed in natural scenery, so he stood quietly behind her, looking at her snow-white little hands flying like butterflies, and looking at the map painting that became clear under her outline.

Gu Yangyang suddenly stopped her paintbrush, and she controlled her wheelchair and continued to walk forward, trying to get closer to this beautiful nature.

Zhang Yang watched her move the wheelchair with difficulty, and was thinking about whether to help her, but Gu Yangyang's wheelchair suddenly lost control and slid forward along the small slope, she was a little panicked and wanted to brake the wheelchair, but the left wheel of the wheelchair jumped on the stone, and then the whole overturned, Gu Yangyang let out a scream, she fell out of the wheelchair, her body fell heavily on the pebble pile, the forehead hit the pebble, and hit a big bag, it hurt, and the scratched epidermis secreted blood.

Zhang Yang didn't expect such an emergency to happen, after all, he was still a step too late, he came to Gu Yangyang, stretched out his hand to help her up from the ground, and said with concern: "Are you okay?" ”

Gu Yangyang saw a strange man appear in front of him, shook his head in some panic, and broke free of his hands.

Zhang Yang looked at this girl like an injured bird, and couldn't help but show a smile of pity: "I forgot to introduce myself, my name is Zhang Yang, I am Gu Mingjian's friend, if I guessed correctly, you are Gu Yangyang, you are really naughty, you actually ran here alone, do you know how many people are worried about you, how many people are looking for you?" ”

For some reason, Gu Yangyang had an inexplicable sense of intimacy with Zhang Yang's warm smile, her voice was very small and soft, and she said timidly: "My brother, they came to me?" ”

Zhang Yang smiled and nodded: "I'll pick you up?" From the shyness and panic shown by Gu Yangyang, he knew that this was a shy girl, so he had to ask her permission before doing anything.

Gu Yangyang nodded, Zhang Yang first helped up the wheelchair, hugged her slender waist with one hand, hugged her knee with the other, picked up her delicate body like a feather, and gently put her on the wheelchair: "Go home!" ”

Gu Yangyang stretched his arms: "I like it here, the air is fresh, no one disturbs me, and it can make me forget all the unhappiness!" It makes me feel free! Be as free as a gull in the sky! ”

Zhang Yang smiled: "It seems that I disturbed your purity, next time I will compensate you and personally send you again!" He just said it casually, but he didn't expect Gu Yangyang's eyes to widen: "What you said, I remember it!" ”

Zhang Yang couldn't help but be stunned, at this time raindrops the size of soybeans had begun to fall in the sky, Zhang Yang took off his coat and let Gu Yangyang put it on his head, pushing the wheelchair and hurried towards the park. But halfway to the road, the rain began to fall, the torrential rain poured, although Gu Yangyang was wearing a flamboyant coat, but he was still drenched, not to mention Zhang Daguan, he pushed Gu Yangyang to an abandoned building to shelter from the rain, and took out his mobile phone to make a call, but found that the mobile phone had been soaked by the rain, and there was nothing on the screen at all.

Gu Yangyang looked at his mobile phone and said a little apologetically: "I'm sorry, it's all my ......."

Zhang Yang smiled: "What does it have to do with you, it's going to rain, my mother wants to get married, no one can stop it!" ”

Gu Yangyang couldn't help but laugh when she heard him say something funny, but suddenly a cold wind blew, she couldn't bear the cold, and sneezed twice in succession. Zhang Yang squatted down in front of her, stretched out his big hand and said, "Can you give me your hand?" ”

Gu Yangyang blinked his simple beautiful eyes, slowly put the white and tender little hand on Zhang Yang's palm, Zhang Yang held her little hand, latent internal force, and a stream of heat slowly injected into Gu Yangyang's meridians, this heat flow dispelled the cold of her body, making her feel unprecedented warmth.

Zhang Yang used internal force to ward off the cold for Gu Yangyang, and at the same time, he also explored her condition by the way, the meridians of Gu Yangyang's lower limbs were blocked, because of the compression of the lumbar vertebrae, Zhang Yang was sure that his medical skills should be able to solve this problem, for him this is an opportunity to get close to the Gu family, of course, Zhang Daguan does not just have such intentions, Gu Mingjian has helped him, and he should repay others, not to mention that Gu Yangyang is simple and kind, no one wants her to be paralyzed for a lifetime.

Gu Yangyang looked at Zhang Yang, it was the first time in her life that she let a strange man hold her hand, and she felt so calm, she didn't know why she had such a sense of trust in Zhang Yang, maybe because of his honest eyes, Gu Yangyang said: "Your hands are very warm!" ”

Zhang Yang smiled: "Because I drank wine!" ”

Gu Yangyang showed a hint of innocent smile: "I've never drunk alcohol, is the wine delicious?" ”

Zhang Yang nodded and shook his head, wine doesn't always get warmer the more you drink, sometimes, it will make people's hearts cold and heartbreaking......

There was a faint call in the wind and rain, Zhang Yang let go of Gu Yangyang's hand, and saw a group of people in the distance walking towards this side, the first person was Gu Yangyang's sister Gu Jiatong, Zhang Yang walked out and waved his arm to them.

Gu Jiatong's sister and brother saw that Gu Yangyang was safe and sound, and the stone in their hearts fell to the ground.

Gu Jiatong was careful after all, and when she saw the abrasions on her sister's forehead, she said distressedly: "You little girl, why are you so ignorant, do you know that everyone cares about you?" You left quietly, did you take into account our feelings! ”

Gu Mingjian also said: "Yangyang, your legs and feet are inconvenient, if something happens, how worried will we be?" ”

Gu Yangyang's beautiful eyes became dim, she pursed her lips, and said softly: "I don't want you to take care of me, I don't want to be a burden to you!" ”

Gu Jiatong said: "You girl, what are these words?" Who says you're a burden? But how can you do without anyone to take care of you? ”

Gu Yangyang's beautiful eyes were suddenly covered with a layer of moisture, she pushed the wheelchair and walked outside, and Gu Jiatong's panicked voice sounded behind her: "Yangyang, what do you want to do?" ”

Zhang Yang sighed and said: "Everyone needs their own space, I think it's better for you to be brothers and sisters and not force her too tightly!" A sentence suddenly came to Gu Jiatong's resentment, and the anger that had been held back for a long time finally found a suitable outlet, her phoenix eyes widened, and she glared angrily and said: "You don't have to worry about our family affairs!" ”

Zhang Yang can't see others being arrogant and domineering to him, although Gu Jiatong is a woman, and she is the eldest daughter of Gu Yunzhi, the secretary of the provincial party committee, Zhang Yang glanced at her coldly, and ignored her It was already very face-saving to her.

Gu Mingjian smiled: "Eldest sister, what are you doing?" It's my buddy, it's not him, we can't find a feed so quickly. ”

Gu Jiatong frowned and said, "You have a lot of friends, I'm not interested in getting to know them all!" After she said this, she went after her sister. Gu Mingjian smiled apologetically at Zhang Yang: "I'm sorry, my sister has this temper, the three of us, she has the biggest temper, you can take care of my face a little more." ”

Zhang Yang smiled: "Actually, your sister is right, I am indeed inconvenient to ask about your family affairs, but I think your sister is quite pitiful, the little girl is very yearning for freedom, and your concern has become a constraint for her." ”

Gu Mingjian sighed, and Gu Jiatong's screams suddenly came from outside. They looked up and looked outside, but saw Gu Yangyang fall on the muddy ground, and the people around her tried to help her up, but she shouted excitedly: "Don't touch me!" I'm going to stand up on my own! ”

Gu Jiatong said with pity: "You're crazy, you can't stand up!" You can't stand up at all! ”

"I can!" Gu Yangyang pursed her pale lips, her eyes were full of stubbornness and unyielding, she just wanted to stand up, she wanted to stand up for everyone to see, she didn't want to be a burden to anyone.

"Nourish!" Gu Mingjian also rushed into the wind and rain.

Gu Yangyang's stubbornness was beyond everyone's expectations, but she seemed to be weak, but she had the same tenacious will as old a bamboo: "Don't care about me, I will stand up on my own!" She supported her body with her arms, but it turned out that her desire to stand up was only an illusion, falling to the ground and getting back up, her body already bruised.

Gu Jiatong's voice trembled: "Nourish ...... Sister is wrong, you are obedient, let us help you up! ”

"No!"

Zhang Yang, who had not spoken, strode to Gu Yangyang's side, and he roared angrily: "Gu Yangyang, you don't deserve sympathy at all, everyone cares about you, but you have to trample on the care of others, no one wants you to be like this, you are not torturing yourself, you are torturing your own relatives and friends!" ”

Gu Yangyang's eyes turned red, she suddenly lay on the ground and sobbed in a low voice, Zhang Yang squatted down in front of her, stretched out her big hand, and said softly: "Little girl, can you give me your hand?" Trust me, I can help you get up, and I will definitely help you get up! ”

Gu Yangyang raised her head, her miserable beautiful eyes stared at Zhang Yang, from Zhang Yang's firm eyes, she saw warmth and hope, she didn't know why she trusted this person, in front of everyone, she put her hand into Zhang Yang's hand again, and returned to the wheelchair with Zhang Yang's help.

Gu Jiatong looked at everything in front of her in a daze, it took her a long time to come back to her senses, looked at Gu Mingjian beside her, and found that Gu Mingjian was even more surprised than her, the shocked expression on her face still hasn't faded, Gu Jiatong smashed Gu Mingjian with her elbow: "What's the matter, where did you find this guy?" ”

The expression on Gu Mingjian's face was extremely complicated: "Don't ask me, I'm confused!" ”

But Gu Yangyang was not confused, she clearly remembered every word Zhang Yang had just said, after getting into the car, she lowered the window and said to Zhang Yang outside the car: "Zhang Yang, you said you would help me stand up!" ”

Zhang Yang stood in the wind and rain, smiled and stretched out his little finger to her: "A gentleman is hard to chase after a horse!" ”

Gu Yangyang also stretched out his little finger, and a rare smile appeared on his pale pretty face.

After Gu Jiatong drove away, Gu Mingjian walked up to Zhang Yang and slapped him on the shoulder: "I said buddy, let's not take such a deception, my sister is very simple, why are you lying to her?" ”

Zhang Yang looked at Gu Mingjian with a smile: "I said I didn't lie to her, would you believe it?" ”

Gu Mingjian shook his head: "I don't believe it, I don't believe it, I don't believe it, we have seen all the famous doctors in China, but there is still no way, don't you blow it?" I don't know how to explain this to the old man today! ”

Zhang Yang said in a low voice: "Take me to your house, and I'll help her heal!" ”

Gu Mingjian thought he had misheard: "What did you say?" ”

Zhang Yang repeated again: "Mingjian, the reason why I took the initiative to ask for treatment for your sister is not because of your family background, nor is it to thank you, I feel that she is very pitiful, such a girl should not have such misfortune." ”

Gu Mingjian said loudly: "But do you know, we have brought her too much hope in the past few years, and these hopes have all come to naught without exception in the end, which means blows to her again and again, my sister is desperate now, she has accepted the reality of paralysis, why do you want to give her hope again, if what awaits her is another disappointment, I don't know if she can continue to support her!" Zhang Yang, do you want to kill her? Gu Mingjian's eyes turned red.

Zhang Yang was still calm and composed, and said in a low voice: "I will not risk the life of a simple girl, nor will I risk my future and destiny, Ming Jian, if you believe me, take me to treat her, otherwise you can pretend that nothing happened, and I will leave Dongjiang immediately!" ”

Gu Mingjian bit his lip: "Damn, I'm really afraid of you, I can take you there, but you have to promise me that you must not talk nonsense in front of my sister!" ”

Zhang Yang's eyes widened: "Damn, do I look like a person talking nonsense?" ”

Gu Mingjian smiled noncommittally.

Zhang Yang is depressed, paralyzed, why does no one always believe Lao Tzu when he tells the truth?