Lin Han angrily closed the lid of his worn-out notebook!

Failed the graduate school entrance examination again! It's been two years in a row, and I've sat in front of this notebook excitedly twice in a row, with anticipation, hope and apprehension, and all I found was the same cruel result.

In the past two years, it is difficult for ordinary people to know how much life pressure and psychological pressure he has endured.

Rented in a dim and shabby courtyard, it was hot in summer and cold in winter, and even night and night had to be accompanied by rats; It's even harder to eat, with low-quality instant noodles and buckwheat noodles that can't be stored for too long taking up most of the four seasons, and occasionally stewed potatoes and eggplants improve your life, but you often don't find oil stars in them.

There is an inevitable causal relationship with it, that is, Lin Han's meager economic income, less than 1,500 yuan per month, this salary comes from a medium-sized express company. He used as much free time as possible to work for this courier company.

But part-time work is obviously a "side job" for Lin Han, and he still spends a lot of time collecting information and reviewing and preparing for exams. In order to set a higher starting point for himself, the postgraduate entrance examination has become the only direction that Lin Han recognizes. In the face of an embarrassing life, he stubbornly believes that "if you don't endure hardships, it is difficult to become a master".

For this goal, he resolutely chose not to look for a job. After graduating from college two years ago, he had no intention of looking for a formal job, and he had no distractions to go to graduate school full-time. Once like others, he chooses to take the postgraduate entrance examination while working, Lin Han has no confidence, and it may not be because the work has dragged down the postgraduate examination; It's that the graduate school entrance examination dragged down the work, and in the end nothing was accomplished and nothing was done.

Lin Han's persistence was exchanged for a cruel ending like a joke between God and him: for two consecutive years, the postgraduate entrance examination ended in failure. This blow is really a bit big, like a red-eyed gambler who bets all the chips in his hand and makes a desperate bet, and if he wins, he completely turns over; If you lose, you will go to hell.

Lin Han now felt like he was falling into hell, dizzy and collapsed. When I went out in the morning, I was very unwell, with a cough and a slight fever. After taking two pills indiscriminately, it did not improve at noon, but there were faint signs of aggravation.

After receiving the news of the failure of the graduate school entrance examination, the psychological breakdown quickly catalyzed the expansion of the disease. It was early summer, and the wind blowing in at the door of the room was not uncomfortable and comfortable, but like a biting cold wind in the middle of winter, which made Lin Han feel extremely cold and shiver all around.

There was a sound of footsteps in the corridor, and Wang Yunming, the manager of the express delivery company, and Li Zhongping, the accountant, walked into the room together.

Seeing the two of them, Lin Han slowly raised his head, barely wanting to say hello, but another gust of wind blew, his body was like falling into an ice cellar, and he couldn't help hugging his shoulders.

Wang Yunming saw that his face was not good, approached his side to take a closer look, and asked, "Lin Zi, your face is ugly, are you sick?" What's uncomfortable? Li Zhongping came from behind, didn't look at Lin Han squarely, sat straight at the desk, opened a folder, and checked the bill.

Lin Han endured the sadness of his chest churning and wanting to vomit, and squeezed out three words: "I have a fever." Wang Yunming stretched out the back of his hand, probed his forehead, and said in surprise: "It's very hot, why is it so hot all of a sudden." Lin Han closed his eyes painfully and said, "When I came out in the morning, I didn't feel right. ”

Wang Yunming looked at Li Zhongping and sighed: "Forget it, today's bill can't be correct, hurry up and go home to rest, take medicine to cover your sweat, if you really can't hang the bottle." Lin Han coughed lightly, nodded in agreement, and struggled to stand up. He really couldn't stand it anymore, and the disappointment and depression in his heart were probably worse than the current physical pain.

Li Zhongping still didn't look up, but said lightly: "The bill is a big one, today to push tomorrow, tomorrow to the day after tomorrow, if something goes wrong, don't blame me, manager." Lin Han stopped his pace, and there was a contempt and disdain in his eyes when he looked at Li Zhongping.

Wang Yunming looked at the two of them separately, patted Lin Han's shoulder, and sighed: "Forget it, your body is important, let's go back first, and the bill will be right tomorrow." He gave him a look. Lin Han sighed lightly, wrapped his coat tightly, and went out silently.

Li Zhongping, who was in the room, heard Lin Han's footsteps moving away, closed the book in his hand, and said, "Manager, shouldn't I talk about Lin Han's affairs?" With his salary open, but he doesn't come to work on time and on time, he thinks about his graduate school entrance examination and graduate school entrance examination all day long, what is going on? How do you tell me to do this job? Do you have to wait for when he will be admitted to graduate school and when will he reconcile the accounts? ”

Wang Yunming sat down slowly, lit a cigarette, and sighed: "Don't say that, Lin Han's salary is billed according to the express mail he sends, and the living family of the accounting is obliged to help, but he doesn't ask for a penny." Besides, it has only been long since you handed over, and it is impossible to sort out these accounts all at once, and a transition period is inevitable. ”

Li Zhongping said: "Forget it, you are the boss, you have the final say, such a dual-purpose master who only eats dry food and does not work, if you recruit a few more, our company will not need to develop its business, change the rescue center." Wang Yunming stopped talking, frowned and gently exhaled a smoke ring.

Lin Han staggered towards the compound he rented. This is a dilapidated shanty town in the west of the city, and it is very large. Most of the houses were built in the 70s of the last century, and the bricks and tiles are crumbling. Not far away, the skyscrapers of Chaoping New Town are towering into the sky, and the neat streets are verdant with green trees, which is in stark contrast to the old town here.

In fact, Lin Han stops here every day to feel the vicissitudes of the old city and the vitality of the new city. The collision and blending of the two completely different urban appearances brought him more regrets about his hasty growth and the accumulation of years that could not be retained. Once upon a time, when Chaoping New Town broke ground, Lin Han was still a freshman student.

Lin Han, who was shivering all over his body and had a persistent high fever, had no intention of nostalgic for this patchwork of prosperity and twilight at the moment, and just wanted to plunge into his simple wooden bed with the smell of mildew and lick the wounds on his body and soul.

As the alley in front of his house got closer and closer, Lin Han's vision became more and more blurred. The ferocious disease devastated and decayed, and struck like the top of Mount Tai. For this symptom, Lin Han, who graduated from the Department of Biology, can give a professional answer: fever leads to increased intracranial pressure, which compresses the optic nerve and obstructs, so there is blurred vision.

Rest, I need to rest. In Lin Han's heart, there was only one voice left now. But a stone that suddenly flew in hit his calf impartially, and although the stone was not big, it still hurt very much. Lin Han was in pain, subconsciously bent down and covered his calf with his hand, rubbed it gently, and looked up to see the direction where the stone was flying.