Cao Cao was actually very envious of Fei Qian, just like he envied Yuan Shao before. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Although Cao Cao is reluctant to admit it, this kind of psychology is like his own shadow under the sun, even if the sun is shining, there are always small areas that are still shadows.

Maybe ordinary people will think that Cao Cao's starting point is still quite high, but he knows that in fact, he has always been labeled as a eunuch in the concept of those scholars, and this feeling has been tormenting him.

Cao Cao sometimes felt an inexplicable sense of loneliness in the middle of the night, as if he was the only one left in this world, and anything, anyone, seemed to be far away from him.

Cao Cao didn't know when this inexplicable loneliness began, perhaps from the time he watched his best friend being killed in front of him......

Cao Cao's real friend is not Yuan Shao, but Song Qi.

Sometimes Cao Cao would also think that if Song Qi was not dead, there would be no future He Jin, let alone Dong Zhuo......

A peck and a drink, like heaven.

When Emperor Ling of the Han Dynasty ordered the Song family to be executed, did you ever think that one day the Great Han Dynasty would be at such a point?

In the fourth year of Jianning, Song Qi's sister Song became the queen, so he and the Song family, the Song family became the new relative, Song Qi's father, Song Yu, was appointed as the ruling Jinwu, and Song Qi himself was also named the Marquis of Yuqiang.

The following year, in the first year of Xiping, Song Qi married the Cao family and married the daughter of Cao Chi, the captain of Shizhong and Changshui. It was precisely because of this marriage that Cao Cao met Song Qi.

The two people are of the same age, status, one is a relative, the other is a eunuch, the eldest does not laugh at the second, and there is a marriage relationship, so they come and go, they are familiar with each other and become close friends.

It's a pity that the good times didn't last long, the red face was easy to get old, the beauty was twilight, and the appearance of the Song queen after five or six years was declining, and she was no longer favored, so not only the other favorite concubines in the harem framed her together, in addition, Wang Fu, who was the middle attendant at that time, killed the aunt of the Song queen, and was afraid of being convicted of it, so he also offered slander to Emperor Han Ling, and Emperor Han Ling believed it.

Soon, she abolished the identity of Empress Song and entered the cold palace, and Empress Song died of grief and illness. The Song family was also implicated, and Song Qi, along with his father and brother, was killed and abandoned outside the city.

Now Cao Cao can't remember Song Qi's appearance, but he still remembers Song Qi's eyes before that time, that kind of helpless and wronged look......

From then on, the image of the emperor of the Han Dynasty, who was originally wise and noble, began to have cracks in Cao Cao's heart.

Sometimes Cao Cao also thinks that if he was not born in a family of eunuchs, but was born in a Qingliu family like Yuan Shao, or even without being as prominent as the Yuan family, he would be an ordinary scholar, and he would definitely do better than Yuan Shao!

But there are no ifs in life.

In the first year of Zhongping, Wang Fen and Chen Yi, Xiangkai, Xu You, Zhou Jing and others, the sons of the late Taifu Chen Fan, sought to establish the Marquis of Hefei because of the disaster of the party, and abolished the Emperor Ling, found Cao Cao, Cao Cao thought about it and refused.

Since then, a once enthusiastic young man has died, and Cao Cao has truly moved towards adulthood in Tao Hui and patience. Although he was already a little disappointed in the Han Emperor, he still chose to maintain the authority of the Han Emperor as much as possible......

But now the emperor and the court that Cao Cao served before seem to be on the verge of being destroyed, and it is Yuan Shao, or the Yuan family, whom he envies, who destroys all this......

Cao Cao was once again thwarted.

The things he was bent on upholding, the integrity in his heart, and the majesty of the court no longer existed.

The idol of the Emperor of the Han Dynasty fell from the high altar and shattered on the ground.

But what really broke Cao Cao's heart was Lu Bohao's death.

Cao Cao has not killed anyone, he has been on the battlefield, he has killed the Yellow Turban, he has administered counties and counties, and he has killed Haoqiang, but before this, what he fought and killed were all robbers and bandits, national silverfish, lawless and powerful, Cao Cao He has a clear conscience.

But everything changed from that night.

What a bloody night it was, Cao Cao will never forget Lu Boxuan's round eyes and indescribable emotions before he died......

Lu Bohao's hot blood still seems to remain on his hands and can never be washed away.

The big mistake has been made, irreparable, and there is no turning back.

Cao Cao knew that he was no longer an innocent person, and he could no longer say that he was a man of integrity, because in his hands, the blood of innocents had been stained, and at his feet, the corpses of innocents had been laid......

This sometimes caused him to wake up in his dreams and find that he was sweating profusely......

Cao Cao is really very envious of Fei Qian, at least Fei Qian has an identity from the Qingliu Shi clan, and he also has a pair of hands that are not stained with the blood of innocents, and even Fei Qian has a sharper ability to deduce than him......

Cao Cao felt that if he wanted to achieve a career in the future, a figure like Fei Qian would definitely be recruited, but now that he has no power and no territory, it may be a little unbeautiful to speak rashly, so Cao Cao has been patient and has not talked about this matter with Fei Qian.

Cao Cao wants to wait for the completion of this discussion, if he succeeds, he will naturally be rewarded, at least it is also the duty of a county guard, and then invite Fei Qian, which can be regarded as a better reason and time.

Thinking of what Fei Qian said that day, Cao Cao was still very distressed in his heart, because the scene that happened at the time of the oath really made him feel a little cold, this is a group of so-called elites of the Han who are holding the Han's Yulu!

Fortunately, there is also Bao Xin.

As long as there are more people like Bao Xin, there will be hope!

Although Cao Cao himself also held a speculative mentality, with a group of soldiers who had just been recruited, had not yet fought in battle, and did not have much training, but the others were different, most of the county guards brought the county soldiers who suppressed the Yellow Turban in the past two days, and had combat experience, as long as everyone worked together, they still had a certain advantage in numbers, and as long as the Yuan brothers acted quickly and sent troops in time to cut off Dong Zhuo's road to Chang'an, the hope of winning this battle against Dong Zhuo was still very great.

So Cao Cao wrote a letter yesterday, asking the fast horse to be sent to Yuan Shao urgently, Cao Cao He hoped that Yuan Shao could use the identity of the alliance leader to dispatch the soldiers and horses in Sour Zao, and suggested that Yuan Shao lead the troops from the east of the river, along the north bank of the Yellow River, just now the weather is still cold, in the dry period, can go straight to Tongguan, cut off Dong Zhuo's way home.

I hope that Yuan Shao can receive the letter as soon as possible and act as soon as possible......

It's not early now, I don't know what happened when Bao Xin went to discuss with Qiao Mao and Yuan Yi?

Just as Cao Cao was muttering, he saw Bao Xin frowning, pursing his lips tightly and walking into the big tent from the outside, and his heart couldn't help but sink......