Zhao He got up from the ground, and Li Xun stepped forward to help, but was pushed away by his refusal.

Zhao He tidied up the clothes on his body and laughed self-deprecatingly: "I didn't expect me to have today." ”

Li Xun said softly: "I knew today, why bother in the beginning? ”

Zhao He said lightly: "There are some things, even if you already know the result, you will still do it, do it, it's a big deal, but you won't regret it, if you don't do it, you will regret it for a lifetime, what's the difference between being alive and the walking dead?"

Li Xun shook his head and sighed, some people's pursuit of certain things, their stubbornness is incomprehensible.

Worry is even more sorrowful, people are dying, let's talk about some simple things, Li Xun just wants to say goodbye to Zhao He for the last time, and has no other meaning.

Li Xun adjusted his mentality and said with a smile: "The way you are now, call His Royal Highness the prince, I'm afraid you don't have a taste in your heart, I'll call you Brother Zhao, I remember when I first came to the palace, I was very interested in strange things like gods and ghosts, and I asked you to solve my puzzles, that is, I called you Brother Zhao, you were very happy at that time." ”

Li Xun's words and such a gesture, Zhao He was slightly stunned, then laughed, his face was full of smiles, and patted Li Xun on the shoulder: "Take the wine, you and I have two glasses of drink." ”

Zhao He returned to the chair and sat down, Li Xun picked up the wine jar, sat down next to Zhao He, and handed him the wine jar.

Zhao He took the wine jar and raised his head and took a big sip, then looked around, and there was a trace of remembrance in his eyes: "When I was young, my mother often read to me here, and my enlightenment teacher was my mother.....

Speaking of this, Zhao He picked up the wine jar again and took a big sip, and then continued: "When I was young, my memory of my father was actually very vague, he never came here once, I remember one time, because of other people's gossip, I came back to my mother and said some complaints about my father, for this, my mother beat me hard, and I couldn't get out of bed for three whole days..."

"When I was a child, I was very active, very timid, very crying, and I was especially afraid of thunder and rainy days, but at that time, when my mother was there, I would hide in her arms and hold her tightly, with this softness, I was not afraid of anything..."

While Zhao He was talking, he drank from time to time, his alcohol consumption was obviously very poor, and after a few sips, he was a little drunk and his emotions were a little uncontrollable.

"I remember the day my mother died, it was also a thunderstorm, I hugged my mother's body, cried all night, in my memory, my mother never had a trace of complaint and resentment towards my father, my father was sick, she would be sad and pray, my father was happy, even if she couldn't see, she would also seem very happy, often for several days in a row to cook some meals I like to eat, but ....."

Zhao He clenched his fists, his face showed anger, and he yelled loudly: "Where was he when his mother was sad, and where was he when his mother died?" ”

After saying this, Zhao He suddenly turned his head to look at Li Xun, and said with a miserable smile: "When my mother died, I was only six years old, and the first time I saw my father's face, I was almost twelve years old..."

Li Xun looked at Zhao He, and there was a trace of pity in his eyes.

Zhao He saw the pity in Li Xun's eyes, his face trembled, deep in his heart, emotions that had not been seen for many years reappeared, he hated this kind of look extremely much, because when he saw Zhao Zhi for the first time, Zhao Zhi looked at him, it was this kind of look with pity, which deeply pierced Zhao He's heart.

Zhao He's mood quickly returned to calm, and he looked at Li Xun coldly: "The victor, the prince, the loser, Kou, if it is me who wins tonight, maybe I will also send you on the last ride." ”

Li Xun was silent, Zhao He was born in the royal family and lived in the most noble place in the world, but his life was very miserable, much worse than many ordinary people in the world, although the people were poor, but at least the family was harmonious and had a happy life and life, but what about Zhao He? In his childhood, who loved him but his mother?

This dilapidated palace is actually a cold palace, one of the coldest places among the many palaces in the palace, because it doesn't even have a name, for Zhao Xun, Zhao Ke and other princes, this is just one of the many places where they were young, reading, playing, but for Zhao He, this is the place where he was born and raised, it is the only home and spiritual sustenance in his heart, and all his kindness and weakness are left here.

The window next to it was open, and a gust of wind blew into the room through it, and on the wooden beam above the door, a bell hung from it, and it shook gently with the wind, and a crisp sound sounded.

Zhao He's eyes looked at the bell, his thoughts suddenly became distracted, his eyes slowly turned red, and tears rolled in his eyes.

Li Xun also looked at the bell above, Zhao He gestured like this, this bell may be the item left by his mother, thinking of this, Li Xun couldn't help but think of Zhao He's mother Zheng.

Zheng's posture is very beautiful, plump, docile, born in a poor ordinary people's family, because his father broke the law, there is no money to hand over to the government to be exempted, was sentenced to death, just at that time, Pingzong expanded the palace manpower, the local county commander saw that Zheng was quite beautiful, so she was recommended, if she can be selected, the money you get, just can pay money for her father to be exempted, because so, there is no choice, Zheng can only obey, and finally lucky to be selected.

The woman who lives in the palace is indeed very hard and dangerous, but that is for the upper class, as far as ordinary palace maids and eunuchs are concerned, they are tired a little, and the degree of danger is not great, after all, not everyone is qualified to touch those things, as long as you stay away from those things, how can danger come to you for no reason?

Since the founding of the Jin Dynasty, it is very important to benevolence, filial piety and love, the queen who managed the palace in previous dynasties or the favorite concubine of the Son of Heaven who has the power to manage, the object of their prevention and crackdown, has always been the upper class, for the ordinary palace maids and eunuchs at the bottom, but will show a noble posture of charity and softness, buy people's hearts, and establish reputation.

After Zheng entered the palace, he actually thought very simply, that is, to be a man, to do things carefully, and after ten years, he could go out of the palace and go home, and he could get a fairly high reward, at least for ordinary people, this money is a lot.

Zheng had just turned eighteen when she entered the palace, and she was less than thirty ten years later, so she was a little older, but with her appearance and experience, she didn't worry about finding a good man to marry.

It's a pity that fate often makes people, and all the good wishes of the Zheng family before entering the palace have changed dramatically with a chance experience.