On a clear night, Shen Yun would stand on the balcony and watch the stars for a while after work. When her father was alive, there was a huge binoculars next to the grape trellis in the small courtyard of the family, and every summer, Shen Yunhong would patiently instruct her on how to observe the starry sky.

In that short period of happiness, Shen Yun learned how to distinguish between the constellations of Shepherd and Sagittarius among the stars, and learned that apparent magnitude is a unit used to express the brightness of stars. She also understood the relationship between stars, satellites and space orbits, and that many stars are not lonely because they are accompanied by satellites.

The astronomical telescope treasured her best memories of home, but unfortunately she couldn't carry it with her. If she never returns to that heartbroken place, it will be equivalent to saying goodbye to it forever.

Since the conversation with Qu Zhaodi on the Hoover Memorial, the starry sky is no longer a symbol of simplicity and romance in Shen Yun's eyes. She still loves those silver points of light that blink, but every time she looks up, she unconsciously casts more attention behind the stars, like the night of the deep sea. It seems that behind that deep curtain, there is always a pair of eyes peeping at her, and the eyes contain all kinds of complex feelings, and the most are cold doubts. That strange feeling builds up for a long time, and the result is a severe headache. Headaches have become a companion on the go, aspirin has become a must-have medicine, and if she forgets to bring it one day, she will feel flustered all day.

If the universe is really like the human brain, it will actively think, is the appearance and death of celestial bodies not accidental, but the guy called the universe, hiding behind the mysterious darkness and deliberately manipulating? If so, when one day he discovers the existence of human beings on Earth, will he be kind enough to tolerate it, or will he brutally destroy it?

Qu Zhaodi said that everything in the universe is changing, and as long as people can live long enough, changes will be as common to them as the changing of seasons. But Shen Yun suddenly realized that there is an unchanging eternity in the endless space, that is, darkness. A star is born from darkness, even if it lives for 500 million years, its final destination is still darkness, darkness is the boundary of the universe, the grave of time, and no matter can be strong enough to escape from its borders. Perhaps the root behind the stars is zero dimension, and the dark world can reach infinite depth, but it is also infinitely shallow, just like human understanding of singularity.

Although Qu Zhaodi's request was ignored, over the years, Shen Yun has almost rummaged through scientific and technological works related to space, and science fiction magazines have also piled up a thick stack, no matter how many times she moves, she is reluctant to throw away one. She prefers to be an astronomy enthusiast than a brain science expert, because staying out of the situation can avoid the pressure of responsibility, and sometimes the bystanders are more sober than the authorities.

But even if you are only an astronomy enthusiast, there are a lot of troubles. The more she knows about the universe, the worse her situation becomes. Gradually, she began to be afraid of the dark, and she always had to turn on a small night light when she slept, and only when she opened her eyes could she see the light, and the tension brought out of her sleep could be relieved, and the headache could be slightly reduced. But to really calm down, you still have to rely on aspirin.

When chatting with Danny not long ago, Shen Yun finally couldn't hold back and asked about Qu Zhaodi's current situation. According to the time calculation, he should have graduated for a few years, and I don't know whether to stay in the United States to continue his graduate studies, or return to China like himself.

Danny sent an exaggerated, surprised expression, and then said, "My God, I thought you had forgotten about him!" His father is rich and rivals the country, he can't wait to stay away from the ascetic-like student life and go back to Shanghai to enjoy life, what kind of ghost study is he studying? ”

With the four years Qu Zhaodi spent at Stanford, can it be regarded as an ascetic life? Shen Yun smiled dumbly, but just thinking about it, the familiar and fragrant breath of her college days came to her face again, evoking her endless nostalgia.

Before she could express her nostalgia, the talkative Danny couldn't wait to dial the voice call, which made her immediately dismiss the idea.

Danny learned a Chinese saying from somewhere: easy to ask for priceless treasures, rare to have a lover. The pronunciation was so lame that she could barely guess what it meant.

After showing off his understanding of Chinese culture, Danny quickly ran out of talent and had to speak English again: "Shen, Qu Zhaodi returned to Shanghai two years ago. He knows everything about your life and work, but he has always been reluctant to disturb you. ”

"What do you mean?" Shen Yun was taken aback.

Danny probably realized that he had slipped his mouth and began to sloppy as if he had a radish in his mouth, but after a few squeaks, he said very seriously, "That bastard is a bastard, but he's a rare bastard who knows how to keep his word." He said he wouldn't bother you online anymore, and he really did it. He knew that you were a radio anchor, and he said that if he really wanted to contact you one day, he would definitely find a way other than promise, such as calling the radio hotline when you were doing a show. ”

In the days after the call with Danny, Shen Yun had another thing on her mind. When doing the show, every time the director receives a hotline call, her heart beats faster, wondering if she will hear a familiar, lazy voice. This state of affairs lasted until a few months ago, when the overwhelming explosive news told her that Qu Zhaodi, the eldest son of the Qu Group, jumped into the river and committed suicide, and his body was no longer washed into the sea.

At that time, she regretted it, and she hid in a small utility room in the stage where no one went to cry. She didn't know why she was duplicitous and didn't allow him to bother herself on the Internet, and she didn't know when that guy who didn't learn and didn't know how to become a noble gentleman who kept his promises.

"Little sister, this dead beetle may still be able to come back to life, but it is guaranteed not to be a haunted corpse, believe it or not?"

This is the question Qu Zhaodi asked when she and she were walking next to Rodin's sculptures after class and saw a dead golden beetle.

Shen Yun had already seen his nonsensical nonsense, so naturally he wouldn't take it seriously, and only replied categorically: "I don't believe it." ”

"Why?" Qu Zhaodi asked knowingly.

"Because that's what you're talking about!" Shen Yun gave him a blank look.

The seemingly casual joke later developed into a controversy on the bell tower, coupled with the various scientific publications he had read over the years, Shen Yun, who was crying bitterly, was suddenly startled, and looked at the door of the utility room with scattered eyes, as if the door was about to be pushed open, Qu Zhaodi would walk in with a smile......

……

"Miss Shen, you don't know this watch, do you?"

Chen Tongzhong's deep voice like coarse sand sounded, pulling Shen Yun back from his trance, and he found that his thoughts had been wandering far away for a long time.

According to the time provided by Chen Tongzhong, Qu Zhaodi ran back to Shanghai to stage the scene of jumping into the river after handing over the envelope to him.