0820 Glory and disgrace
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"You—Did you guess it, or did you hear about it?"
When Princess Xingnan heard this question, her pretty face became even more entangled, her head couldn't help lowering, and she said in an astringent voice: "Earlier, in the capital, Ah Weng sent a message to me, saying that the husband was a great achievement, and in the future, there may be criticism in the eyes of people." I didn't understand it before, but, but ......."
After hesitating for a moment, Princess Xingnan finally told her about what happened in the garden before she left the capital. Although she has not been very sorrowful, she has also seen the sinister way of the world, and she can feel that it is either because of people's words, or because her husband is too good, and the queen mother has gradually had the idea of preventing alienation from her husband.
This feeling really made her a little unacceptable and tangled. When I went to Huainan before, I had been struggling with whether to tell Shen Zhezi or not. I was also worried that Shen Zhezi would also feel troubled and worried after learning about the change in his mother's mood. It turned out that in Huainan Town, because of the company of her husband, these thoughts could still be hidden, but as she got closer to Jiankang in the south, her mood became even lower, and seeing her mother's family and her husband's family estranged, it really made her feel embarrassed.
After Shen Zhezi heard Princess Xingnan's story, he didn't know how to enlighten for a while, he had his own ability to be clever and fickle, but when facing his own lady, he really couldn't say those aggrieved words that were jealous. There is cruelty in the world, and the most cruel thing is that the left and right are close relatives, but they are not wrong with each other, to be honest, even if he faces his own trade-offs, he will feel embarrassed.
"At first, I heard that the queen mother wanted to recall her husband and prevent you from doing any more work. I am really angry in my heart, when did it become a sin to be virtuous and diligent, and to be brave in the king's life? My husband has his own talents, and everyone in the world is not as good as him, even if others are jealous, how can the queen mother think this? ”
After speaking of this, Princess Xingnan's tone became even more dry: "The queen mother is a close relative to me, and my husband and I are a symbiotic husband and wife. Since the queen mother is suspicious, then abandon me all together! I must follow you, and I will come to you no matter what! ”
Hearing the sad and firm tone of the girl in her arms, Shen Zhezi also felt a lot in her heart, leaned down and put her lips deeply on the princess's smooth forehead, and her tone was also a little emotional: "The heavens treat me too much, if I can't do my best to repay the world, I'm really afraid that the destiny of heaven will take away a lot of my favor in the future!" ”
After Princess Xingnan heard this, her body was quietly shocked, and then there were tears in the corners of her eyes: "Shen Zhezi, do you know?" I went to Huainan, you can accompany me day and night, I am really happy, really ...... I always don't want to see you too embarrassed, I don't want to see you too tired. In previous years, I liked to listen to others praise my husband for how virtuous and heroic, but I actually want to be able to accompany you day and night, you are so smart, you have deceived my thoughts since you were a child, I am not by your side with you, I am not a complete person......"
"In Huainan, I saw how heroic and beloved my husband was. Everyone else respects me, but it doesn't matter if I'm the princess of the emperor or not, it's all because I'm the little lady of your family. I'm really happy, my husband is extraordinary, and he should be respected by the world. But I am afraid, afraid that the queen mother will be worried, because I have really seen, I have really seen many people, who only know kings and princes, but do not know kings......"
When Shen Zhezi heard this, his arms stiffened, and Princess Xingnan naturally felt his strange state, grabbed his robe belt with both hands, and looked at him with straight eyes: "Shen Zhezi, you are such a smart person, there is always a way to comfort me." True or false, you know that no matter what you say, I will believe it, I will obey it, I am really uncomfortable...... I, I'm really worried, you are so virtuous and talented, and you will have to sweep away the evil in the future. But, however, what does Aleta compare with you? Compared to you, he, he is really nothing. Even if you don't think about it, someone will persecute you......"
Speaking of this, Princess Xingnan's body became trembling, and there was no lack of horror in her tear-filled eyes, as if she saw something terrifying through nothingness: "I'm not a talented woman, and I've just heard you talk about some old things." When it really comes to that time, even if you can endure it, others can't help it...... Ah Liu, Ah Liu, he is not bold, you can stop, he may not be able to stop, our family, or we have to go to Huangquan together...... If you can't bear it, I—I'm probably going to be forced to abandon me, right? Can you bear it? ”
Shen Zhezi listened to the princess's cry in silence, then sat upright, held the pretty face with pear blossoms and rain with both hands, and stared at it seriously for a long time, before laughing at himself: "Everyone says that I am high, and I also think of myself as this." But in fact, how can people see everything in the world without missing anything. My lady has finally grown up, and I didn't know earlier that I, I should be happy, but I was really a little disappointed. I am not a sage, and my mental strength is exhausted, and I have difficulties, and I want to be strong, and I want to be able to do what others can't, but I also have times when I can't do anything. ”
Seeing a wry smile on the corner of Shen Zhezi's mouth, quite decadent, Princess Xingnan was stunned for a moment. In her mind, her husband is omnipotent, and nothing can bother him, and this kind of expression is the first time she has seen it on Shen Zhezi's face. Although it was the first time I saw it, it gave her a sense of déjà vu.
Where have you seen it?
Princess Xingnan thought for a moment, and soon another face appeared in her mind, which was a sickly pale face. And when this face came to mind, Princess Xingnan realized that the reason why she felt familiar was not her appearance, but the tone of her words. In that afternoon, her father, like the husband in front of him, also held her hand, and said with no lack of relief: "My Xingnan has grown up......"
Grown up?
When the two faces, with the same helpless expression, gradually overlapped in Princess Xingnan's tearful eyes, Princess Xingnan realized that she had never grown up at all! The same brutal impulsiveness, the same vexatious trouble! Her father, her husband, were the most important people in her life, and they treated her with great affection, giving and taking, and the same doting and indulgence always tried to maintain a majestic and omnipotent image before her.
But she couldn't feel this hard work at all, many years ago, she pulled her younger brother to see her father, and she also saw the weak side that her dying father tried to hide in front of her, forcing her father to say frankly in front of her: "Many things in the world are helpless, and it is difficult to survive ...... willfulness"
That tone, that look, was just like Shen Zhezi in front of him. She is always too willful, and she always has to force those close to her to retreat.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry...... Shen Zhezi, I was really wrong, I shouldn't have said those stupid things! You don't, don't ......"
Princess Xingnan grabbed Shen Zhezi's robe belt tightly with both hands, and her eyes were already full of tears, but her eyes widened desperately, lest after blinking, the husband in front of her would abandon her.
"It's not your fault, it's me who is too strong. I always feel that I can take care of your life, even if I am deceived, I will make you happy for the rest of your life......"
"You can, you can...... Why can't you? I believe everything you say...... I'm so easy to deceive, and you're not ignorant! ”
Hearing Shen Zhezi say this, Princess Xingnan was even more frightened, and the whole person threw herself on Shen Zhezi's body, and tears poured out even more: "What I say and think, you taught me...... You taught me, you shouldn't leave me, you can't! ”
Shen Zhezi hugged the girl's sobbing and convulsive delicate body, his mood was not lacking in heaviness, he really didn't expect that his own lady had always had a lot of nerves, but in fact, he already had such a delicate vision. To be honest, when he heard Princess Xingnan say those words, he was not lacking in self-shame and even couldn't face Princess Xingnan. Just listening to this girl crying in his arms again, it was the first time that he realized so truly the weight of this girl's life, and his mood was naturally heavier, and even gave birth to the idea of not asking about the world and returning to the countryside.
But this thought only flashed in his mind, not because he had made up his mind to ignore the princess's feelings with affection, but because he was so deeply involved in the world that there was no way out.
Princess Xingnan's pretty face was close to Shen Zhezi's shoulder, and her voice gradually became weaker after sobbing for a long time, Shen Zhezi thought she was crying tired and falling asleep, and just wanted to get up and pick up the girl and send her back to the couch, but her body was just straightened, and the girl's arms around Shen Zhezi tightened, and Shen Zhezi coughed, and her voice was hoarse and difficult: "You want to strangle me?" ”
"I ......"
After Princess Xingnan heard this, she hurriedly raised her body and let go of her arms, her face was still full of tears, and when she saw Shen Zhezi's wheezing turned even, she said: "I, I have this kind of courage, I, I just can't bear it." You are my life, and if you leave me behind, then, then I really won't live! ”
In other words, if Shen Zhezi really dared to abandon her, she would dare to play with her life.
At this point, the girl's sobs rose again. Shen Zhezi hurriedly stepped forward to cover her mouth, patted her knees and said helplessly: "Who said that he would leave you, it's all you, the evil lady, who has been crying and making trouble here for a long time!" I want to make a fake one as if there is such a thing! ”
When the girl heard this, her small mouth deflated, and then she opened her mouth to bite Shen Zhezi's palm, and only when he was in pain did she break into laughter, and then jumped Shen Zhezi to the ground, straddled Shen Zhezi, and her dress was messy and scattered, revealing a large white greasy on her chest, and when she saw Shen Zhezi's sight, she straightened her chest, twisted her waist, and then leaned over and muttered: "I have grown up, you, you are also very ......."
The warm breath brushed his face, Shen Zhezi couldn't bear it, and as soon as he twisted his body, he directly covered the girl under him, and when that moment of blending, Princess Xingnan hugged Shen Zhezi tightly after taking a deep breath: "I have the guts, Shen Zhezi." You want to share half of my reputation, and I will share the infamy and infamy with you! ”
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