Su Jin didn't know how to describe his feelings, simple anger, sadness, disappointment, and depression could no longer express his inner feelings; Is this the Great Song Dynasty in your impression? I once thought that this was a prosperous dream, elegant and exquisite era, with my own efforts and advantages in some aspects, I could live a nourishing life in this era, but I didn't expect that the stars were shining, and my dream was about to be shattered.

Su Jin doesn't know when his life started to get so bad, everyone around him lives freely, but all he encounters is trouble, why is this?

Su Jin thought about it and understood the crux of the problem, and the reason for this situation was the uncompromising character brought by his later life.

In charge of Su Ji Industry, if he hadn't chosen to confront the Chamber of Commerce, then he would not have been imprisoned later, and he would not have become a fire with the Luzhou prefect and the bigwigs of the Chamber of Commerce.

When I met Yan Biyun, if I could calmly withdraw after knowing Yan Biyun's identity and not get myself into it, I would not have today's scene; Xia Siling's matter, if she chose to stay away after knowing that she was her daughter at the beginning, it would not hurt this woman's heart and make her cry far away.

Su Jin fell into a contradiction, the unwillingness to be restrained in his personality made himself incompatible with the code of conduct of this era, adapt to it, his life will get better and better, of course, the inner depression is inevitable, just like now, the two choices given by Yan Shu, there is no doubt that if Su Jin compromises, he will be prosperous in the future, and the future is bright. But the price is to give up the woman you love, and endure the humiliation and self-blame in your heart from then on.

If there is no compromise, Su Jin's future will also be foreseeable, an era in which you can turn your hands into clouds and rain with your power, and the fate of the little people depends on the eyes of those in power.

Su Jin asked himself: Was it wrong for me not to compromise with the Chamber of Commerce at the beginning, avenge my father, and fight for the right to live? Absolutely! Isn't it wrong that I like a woman and that woman likes me? Absolutely! The fault is that one's actions touch the selfish interests of others.

The Chamber of Commerce wants to monopolize the murder and arson, collude with the government, fish the people, and shield bandits, so their own behavior is not tolerated by them; And the reason why Yan Shu was able to put forward such a choice was nothing more than that falling in love with Yan Biyun would greatly damage his reputation, and the opponents in the court would use this to attack him and make the black veil on his head unsafe.

All this is caused by self-interest, Su Jin is in this dilemma now, just because he is just a civilian, and in the face of this oppression, Su Jin is powerless to resist.

"Su Jin, make your choice quickly, this official will return to Beijing immediately, and Biyun will also return to Beijing with me, but I don't have time to rub in with you here; In fact, this choice is not difficult at all. Yan Shu reminded.

Su Jin sighed, raised his head and looked at Yan Shu and said, "Lord Yan, for me, the choice is actually very simple, but before that, I have a few words to ask Lord Yan. ”

Yan Shu's face was indifferent, he took a sip of tea and said: "Say it, this official never listens to people's nonsense, and he will make an exception for you today." ”

Su Jin smiled slightly and said, "Then I want to thank you for your magnanimity, what I want to ask is, do you really love Miss Yan?" ”

Yan Shu said: "Nonsense, she is my most beloved niece, I regard her as my own, and I can't even compare to my own children." ”

Su Jin said: "Does Lord Yan know what a woman's greatest wish in life is?" ”

Yan Shu said: "Woman...... I didn't think about that, you tell me. ”

Su Jin said: "My lord is avoiding it, in fact, my lord knows better than anyone else, and the boudoir words made by my lord have deeply probed the woman's heart, since my lord doesn't say it, I will say it for my lord, as the saying goes, 'Men are afraid of getting into the wrong line, Women are afraid of marrying the wrong man's words are not unreasonable, a woman's greatest wish is probably to be able to get a good match, a stable and happy husband and children to spend her life, throughout the ages, the words of the boudoir are quite resentful, or parting lovesickness, or distressed, or unladylike, without exception are related to men, Lord Yan thinks so? ”

Yan Shu said: "It seems to make some sense, but what do you want to express when you say this?" ”

Su Jin said: "I want to expose your hypocrisy Lord Yan, what you say about loving Miss Yan is empty words, Miss Yan is obviously not married to the Pang family, she is simply an unmarried woman, as her uncle, you don't try your best to break this unworthy marriage contract with the Pang family, but let Miss Yan waste her good youth, from the age of sixteen to twenty-one, a woman's best time is in vain, how many five years are there in your life?" How many sixteen, seventeen, eighteen are there in your life? ”

Yan Shu was unexpectedly not angry, and listened to Su Jin's words quietly.

"You swear that you love Miss Yan, but in fact, all you care about is your reputation and the black veil on your head; You choose to turn a blind eye because you are afraid that Miss Yan will break the marriage contract and marry someone else to give you the three envoys, Lord Yan, who is admired by everyone in the Great Song Dynasty, has a black face, from the bottom of your heart, you are not loving Miss Yan, you are loving yourself. ”

"If you really love her, with your power as Lord Yan, no matter how powerful the Pang family is, this matter is not without room for maneuver, it's not that you can't, but you don't want to do it; Watching your niece and nephew pass away in her youth, but she is indifferent, it is hard to imagine how you can drink and write lyrics with peace of mind, and even suspect that you write those words with no disease and moaning and pretending, because a person like you who ignores the suffering of others is not worthy of such touching words. ”

"When Miss Yan and I met, I fell in love with her, you didn't bless us, happy for the most beloved niece you said, but interfered and threatened me to pressure me to give up, this is the true reflection of your heart, you are afraid, you are afraid that our love will bring you unnecessary trouble, you are afraid that people will say that there are women in the family who do not abide by the rules, you are afraid that your political enemies will attack you because of this, you are afraid that the emperor will punish you for this matter, but have you thought about it, what should Biyun do? Is it that she is so old all her life, and when she is full of gray hair, she is still alone, and she can't appreciate the life course that a woman should have? Aren't you afraid that your niece will regret it for life? Are you so selfish that you can ruin your loved one's life for the sake of your own veil and face? ”

Su Jin's tone was fierce, trembling all over, and there was a sense of grief and indignation in his heart, let it go, today is to get out, he has to obey the call of his heart, even if the emperor is sitting opposite, he is already a person who has died once, and he doesn't pay much attention to the consequences of these words.

Yan Shu listened to Su Jin quietly, looked at Su Jin's excited pale face and lips, still remained calm, and only asked, "Then what is your choice?" ”

Su Jin shouted angrily: "My choice is not to compromise!" Unless Miss Yan comes to me and tells me that she will never see me again, I will never let you succeed. ”

Yan Shu said: "You don't have to be rash, young people don't have to be so impatient when they talk and do things, do you know what your decision means?" ”

Su Jin laughed, and said in a crazy state: "At most, it's just death, people always have to die, I'm not afraid of death, what can you do to me?" ”

Yan Shu said: "For the sake of a woman, you can give up your life? Don't you think your life is too boring? ”

Su Jin bared his teeth and smiled: "You won't understand me, I'm not afraid of death for Miss Yan, I'm for my heart, a person who has been suppressed and distorted in his heart, life is a pile of stinky meat, I don't want to be that pile of stinky meat, so I'm not afraid of how you deal with me, I obey the call of my heart." ”

Yan Shu laughed and stood up and applauded, his eyes flashing with light; Su Jin looked at Yan Shu in a daze, not knowing what the hell this guy was doing.

"Yun girl, come out, this kid has passed." Yan Shu laughed.

In astonishment, Su Jin saw the curtain leading to the compartment lifted, and Yan Biyun, who was full of tears, stood there.

Su Jin suddenly understood what was going on, opened his mouth in a daze, and shouted in his heart: "Damn, I've fallen for this old thing." ”