"I ...... Nothing, maybe a little drunk after a few more drinks. I took a deep breath and turned around with a smile on my face.

"Your hands are bleeding!" My mother, frowning and skeptical of my words, stepped forward to take out a band-aid from the drawer and bandaged my broken finger with a worried expression.

"It's okay, it's just a small opening, I'm used to it." I said nonchalantly.

"What does it mean to get used to it, I don't know when I'm outside, but I'm going to get hurt at home." My mother's eyes were red as she spoke, and I didn't know how many times I cried less than a day after I came home.

"Mom, I'm sorry for worrying you." I felt a lot of guilt in my heart, but I couldn't do anything except say sorry, I used to be with my brothers every day, and I didn't feel how terrible the aftermath of the war was, but now I really returned to a peaceful life and realized how terrible the murderous desire to kill that nowhere to vent was.

"When did you learn to drink, you didn't drink before." The mother asked as she bandaged her wounds.

"Uh...... The task requires that people will be suspicious if they do not drink. "I can't tell my mother that I spend most of my time in the tavern, because my mother, as a member of a military family, knows the rules of secrecy and won't ask me what I'm doing.

Sure enough, as soon as the mother heard about the task, she didn't continue to ask, and after bandaging the wound, the mother looked at the time and said, "If you haven't drunk too much, just accompany me downstairs for a walk!" ”

"Okay!" I hurriedly agreed, this time is estimated to be square dancing, every night must come, Chinese aunt's favorite.

Accompanied my mother out of the house, just downstairs I heard the most dazzling national style music, although I have been abroad all these years, but also often pay attention to domestic news, this square dance Divine Comedy is also very familiar.

On the square outside the community, it should be the most lively time at this time, the uncle and aunt led the grandchildren to come out for a walk at this time, a group of people were dancing in the square, there were pairs of couples sitting on the benches on the sidelines, and there were some seventeen or eighteen-year-old boys and girls dancing street dance, playing roller skating, no danger, no killing, everything was happy.

Walking in the square with my mother, the only feeling is that I am out of place with everything around me, as if I am from another world, the neighbors greet my mother, and their eyes fall on me, obviously with kind eyes, but it makes me feel like a monkey in a zoo for people to admire, and I feel uncomfortable when I am watched.

Sitting on the wooden bench under the tree, my mother went to square dance with everyone, I sat here alone and watched my mother's figure, I just wanted to remember more of my mother's voice and smile in a limited time, and the most precious memories were cherished, because the next time I came back may be my ashes, this is a reunion, but also a farewell.

I don't know how long later, a football rolled to my feet, I subconsciously picked it up and looked at it, at this time a timid child's voice said: "Uncle, can you give me back the ball?" ”

I looked up and saw a four- or five-year-old little Lori standing in front of me, with two pigtails, a pink little face was particularly cute, a pair of big eyes staring at me with longing, I don't know why, I didn't dare to face her eyes, it seemed that there was an invisible force to isolate me, it was kindness, innocence, all good words.

"Give!" I tried to smile as best I could.

"Thank you, uncle, you are so handsome!" Little Lori said with a smile, the two eyelashes are curled very beautifully, but I don't know who to learn from adults.

"Hehe, you're beautiful too! Go play! I complimented her, and the child happily went to play football with his partner.

Her parents are smiling and watching from the side, maybe this is the real happiness, I have also fantasized countless times to find a place with Xia without quarrels, get married and have children, accompany the children to study in the room every day, play on the grass, and live the most ordinary but simplest life, but this kind of ordinary people can reach something, is the happiness that we can never get.

"Was it a wonderful day?" Suddenly, a familiar voice came from behind him, and it didn't take any time to know that it was Pandora.

"Why are you here?" I asked without looking back.

"I'm afraid something will happen to you, come and see!" Pandora sat on the other side of the bench with her back to me, and we seemed to others to be just strangers.

"Maybe you're right, I really can't go back." I sighed faintly.

"It's only been a day, and you don't feel comfortable?" Pandora laughed playfully.

"Have you ever felt this way too?" I'm curious about how other people are coping.

"What does it feel?" Pandora asked knowingly.

"Horrific images, uncontrollable desire to kill, irritable emotions that want to destroy everything." I put into words how I felt when I appeared.

"It's normal, your wildness has been fully stimulated, just like a wild beast, and then put it in a cage, there is only one way to die." Pandora said lightly.

"And how did you deal with it?" I asked strangely.

"Faced? Hehe, if I could face it, I wouldn't have returned to the battlefield, this is highly poisonous, and we have been poisoned into the bone marrow and terminally ill. Pandora turned to me and smiled.

"Looks like I'm hopeless!" I looked up and sighed.

"I advise you not to stay too long, while there is no fatality yet." Pandora advised me.

"Don't worry, I'll pay attention, is there anything going on with the goddess?" I'm still more concerned about the safety of the goddess, after all, this is China, not Africa, and you can do whatever you want.

"It's all under surveillance, and the police seem to have found some incriminating evidence, as if the special forces have arrived at the police station." Pandora told me the news from the goddess.

"The special forces are coming? Do you know which commando team it is? "I think that such an important task, nine times out of ten, the Hurricane Commando will complete it.

"I don't know, they only saw a military vehicle driving into the police station, and they didn't know who it was." Pandora shook her head.

"I hope they can move quickly, tell the goddess and the nine-tailed fox, don't do it no matter what the situation is, I have enough trouble." My biggest fear is that they're getting into trouble.

"Thea is so smart that she won't embarrass you." Pandora wasn't too worried.

"I hope so!" I sighed softly, thinking it would be a great pleasure to go home, but somehow I felt so uncomfortable.

"Hopefully this is over soon, and we can get out soon, I hate the feeling of being scared." I looked at my mother in the square, and my heart was full of apologies.

"It's already decided?" Pandora didn't mean to take me by force.

"Otherwise, are you really waiting for me to make a fuss? I don't want to spend the rest of my life in prison. I sneered and said, since there is no other choice, let's just look away and go back to where it really belongs to me, I was born a warrior and should be on the battlefield alive.