I used to love my readers, I mean all readers. Love to all readers.

But for now, all I can say is: I love some of my readers, because there is another part that I dare not love and cannot afford to love.

Old readers who are familiar with me can recall that before 09, when I interacted with readers in chapters, I would use five words "brothers and sisters" when I addressed all readers.

However, I never use this word now, I always use "book friends", "readers" and "officials".

I never use the words brothers and sisters in public.

Now, I only use the term siblings in my hardcore fan base.

I was woken up twice. These two experiences have made me understand very clearly that quite a lot of readers, or more than half of them, don't regard you as a friend at all.

If you update quickly, I will praise you.

You update slowly, I don't care if your family is a natural disaster or a dead person's divorce, if you let me read a book and don't read it, I'll grass Nima.

Really, there are some people, that's it.

And I used to be naïve to think that everyone should be friends anyway.

I used to treat all readers fairly, whether they were subscribed or pirated, I treated them equally.

In the early days of the post bar, I can say that I was the first author to go to the post bar and chat and interact with pirated readers.

At that time, I simply thought: readers are readers, whether you read pirated or genuine, as long as you like the books I wrote, you are all my dancing readers, and I thank you for liking my books.

Many authors are begging for rewards, this is directly asking readers to send money to themselves, and the rivers and lakes are proud of having millions of alliances and tens of millions of alliances, and they all show off that there are 100 alliance leaders and 1,000 alliance leaders in a certain book......

What about me? Every time a reader gives me a reward, my first sentence is: thank you.

Then my second sentence is to send a single chapter to say to everyone: Don't reward, save some money, no one's money is blown by the wind, you can subscribe is already the biggest support, tipping is equivalent to sending me money for no reason, really, forget it, save some money.

Otherwise, with my popularity, if I ask for a reward, will it be difficult to have dozens of more alliance leaders and millions more alliances? Can't do it?

When I was fighting for a monthly pass, a few die-hard fans in the group helped me go to Taobao to buy a monthly pass, but I stopped it, and I didn't want everyone to spend money.

Later, if someone had already bought it, I would pay for it myself in the hope of making it up to everyone, and if someone really refused to accept it, I would send a full set of my books and mail it over.

For many years, I've been genuinely pouring out my heart and soul to readers, and yes, I can say that with a clear conscience.

The first injury was in '09.

That year, my first marriage failed.

As you can imagine, a man must be very depressed and depressed about such a thing as divorce.

During that time, my writing was very unstable and I was often interrupted.

In my book review area, there is a lot of scolding? No, it's the scolding!

I saw with my own eyes the people who used to enthusiastically call me "Dance Da", the same ID, leaving vicious curses.

I posted an explanation to explain that there was a problem in my life, I am divorced and in a bad state, please understand.

Some readers understood, forgiven, and sent a lot of comfort.

However, still, there are many, many curses.

At that time, I was very puzzled: I treat everyone as friends, and when my friends encounter difficulties, can't they be considerate?

In the private message box of my account, there are too many insults full of anger and hatred.

During that time, there were two types of messages in the private message box I saw.

One is to comfort me in the divorce.

One is to insult me for updating unstable.

It's about half and half.

I once received a private message, I can't remember the original words, it probably means: you are a professional writer, there is any problem in your family, it has nothing to do with Lao Tzu, you are a professional writer, divorce is your private matter, don't fucking write well, Lao Tzu wants to read books, you don't let me read it, you have no professional ethics, so scold you, you just deserve it.

Oh yes, the one who left me a message is looking at piracy.

It's hard for me to put into words how I felt at the time.

I used to be very enthusiastic about clubbing, interacting with pirated readers, chatting.

Even if someone once hinted to me that the company's official attitude is to crack down on piracy, you always go to the base camp of piracy to interact, and the impact is not good.

But I still like it.

I feel like I'm already a reader, even a pirated reader, with my heart and lungs.

On a few occasions, I even bought my own books out of my own pocket, and then gave physical books to pirated readers in the way of a lottery in the post bar.

I really feel like I've dug out my heart and lungs.

But that time, my heart suddenly went cold.

A pirated reader with a post bar said to me in a cold tone: Who cares about the books you send, and not everyone can receive them, your little thing counts as a P. If you break off, you deserve to be scolded. What's going on in your house.

How cool is the heart? Hehe......

Well, I'm a professional author, no matter what natural or man-made disasters occur in my family, it has nothing to do with you, and if you can't read a good book to your satisfaction, it's me who is a bastard.

I see.

That incident made me wonder about my previous attitude.

That is: don't expect every reader to be sincere to you, the relationship between everyone is really just the relationship between the reader and the author.

It is impossible to put every reader to relatives and friends.

Of course, some readers are still my brothers and sisters, but I need to distinguish them.

But in order to protect yourself, try your best to be less sincere.

Another incident occurred during this period.

When I got divorced, there was a rumor: dancing divorce because his ex-wife cheated on him and gave him a cuckold.

Seriously, there is no such thing as my divorce.

However, this rumor is there.

Where did it come from?

Coming from my post bar.

I found a couple of posts and saw where the rumors came from.

Someone made up a rumor that claimed to be my friend and made up a rumor about cheating.

I've also seen more vicious words: whoever makes you not write well, who makes you write those abusive plots, your wife divorces you, it is your retribution.

At that time, I understood how vicious people can be.

Just because the book I wrote didn't satisfy you and didn't make you feel good, you can insult me at will.

Well, this is the network, and I remind myself again that this is the network and anyone can do something without a lower limit.

So, I learned to protect myself.

I no longer call my readers brothers, I don't talk to readers about anything in my life.

Of course, there are still the majority of good people in this world, but in order to avoid the attacks of a few despicable people, I can only choose to protect myself. Because it's the internet, I can't clearly tell who's good and who's bad.

Then keep your distance.

This was the first blow to me.

The second blow to me was when I wrote about the unparalleled sky.

I'm a very headstrong person, I want to write what I want to write, I want to write something about my attitude towards religion.

However, I came across Operation Clean Net, which coincided with several violent terrorist incidents.

My main line was cut twice.

The process is really tough, it's nothing to write or revise, but it's okay to prune the branches and leaves.

But cut the outline, cut the main line, and it was twice.

All on the premise that more than a million words have been serialized and the architecture has been built.

I really broke down.

I explained. And then the eggs.

There are people who believe, understand, and comfort.

Still, the abusive voices drowned me out like a tidal wave.

The most speechless thing is: dancing and lying, there is no net at all, there is no way to write this, he is just lazy, he just doesn't want to write, he deliberately makes us have no books to read, so everyone scolds him together, grass mud horse (homonym, you know).

I explained, I posted the chat log, and I took out the examples of several other gods who were ordered to rectify at the same time, or even directly deleted and blocked, to try to prove that I didn't lie.

And then the eggs.

For some people, there is only one reason: I don't care what reason you have, anyway, you didn't let me see the book, so you just sloppy horses. Lao Tzu doesn't care, Lao Tzu doesn't listen! Your problem is related to my bird, so I will scold you!

During that time, it happened to be another big thing in my own family.

But luckily, I learned wisely this time, and I didn't tell you what was going on.

Of course, it can be said now that the elders in my family are seriously ill and need treatment, and I am too busy to maintain the stability of the renewal.

At that time, I didn't dare to tell the readers and explain to everyone why I couldn't update stably.

Because, considering my previous divorce, I was viciously cursed and insulted.

I learned to protect myself.

Only a few, my hardcore old readers, I really think they are "brothers and sisters", I confided in it, but everyone has always helped me keep it secret, thank you Sister Butterfly Conan Longan and other brothers and sisters in the group, thank you, a few brothers and sisters who are full of tea Qiqi and I say wait for the post bar.

The main line of the outline was cut twice, and the elders in the family were seriously ill and needed to be accompanied by me for treatment, and there were countless insults and curses.

During that time, my signature on my private QQ was replaced by a sentence: I experienced the taste of several knives on my neck at the same time.

During that time, I really realized a problem:

For quite a few readers, just readers, they don't, don't have to, be friends with you. You don't have the right to be their friend.

You're just a hen that lays eggs, they want to eat eggs, you provide them, you can't lay eggs, they tell you to get out.

As for the divorced and dead people in your family, they don't care about it.

So, you, not friends, not brothers and sisters.

You write a good book, just update it quickly.

Otherwise, a myriad of nasty and vicious words will come at you.

And I, the idea of sealing the pen, really came to me at that time.

I've been mixing this for more than ten years, I'm old, I'm tired, I can't get 40+ points in consecutive N games like the 28-year-old Kobe.

Am I masochistic, then, to stay and endure that vicious curse?

More than half of the readers of online articles are actually very realistic, and the reality is very cold: I just want to read books, you can update it quickly, and I don't care about the rest.

There is no friendship to speak of, no warmth to speak of, no emotion to speak of.

Not understanding, not considerate, not caring.

You are a professional writer, and it is your obligation to write books, and this obligation includes: you have a cold and fever at a young age, as big as a sick person with surgery, a natural and man-made disaster at home, and a terminal illness and death from a lawsuit......

No matter, if you don't update, you should be scolded.

At that time, of course, I was also angry in my heart, well, I don't serve anymore, okay?

Shut up, who likes to be scolded every day??

If you think about it carefully, if you surf the Internet every day, and occasionally encounter a troll who scolds you twice a day, you will be unhappy for a while, right?

What about me? How many years have I been scolded?

Every day, there are many, many scoldings.

Less updates, scolding.

The story was written in a way that did not fit his meaning, scolding.

Then seal the pen, after writing this book, Lao Tzu will stop playing - this is what I thought at the time.

Writing this book The Door of the Apocalypse has also been shaken during the period.

As I said earlier, there are vicious people in this world, but the good ones are still the majority.

Almost every day on WeChat, Weibo, and in the book review area, there will be readers who leave messages to keep me, hoping that I will not close my pen and continue to write.

Of course, I am very touched and understand: there are still so many kind readers who are willing to support me and sincerely treat me with their hearts and lungs.

However, I still didn't dare to change my mind.

Because I'm tired of it, tired of having a whole bunch of people scolding you every day, for any reason, for any word.

I know that there is a difference in the quality of people, and I can't change that, but I can afford to hide, right?

I don't write books anymore, I'm not on this river, can I make my ears clearer, right?

I'm not short of money to spend. It's not like you're starving to death if you don't write a book.

I was scolded, my wife and parents were cursed, and it was every year! Every day for a few years! Who the do I owe?

The biggest shock was the tragic death of one of my long-time readers last year.

Sister Cross.

It happened very suddenly, and I remembered her on Weibo.

Then I received a message from a regular reader.

He said: Cross said back then that she would be your fan for the rest of her life until she died. Now, she did. Dance, how about you? You said back then that as long as someone is willing to see you write, you will continue to write, did you do this?

That day, I was speechless.

At the end of the year, a group of die-hard fans in the group came to Nanjing for a party, which is one of the traditional projects in our group.

At that time, before the meal, everyone poured the first glass of wine, I raised the glass, and the first sentence was: To Sister Cross.

The table fell silent.

During the dinner, I received a lot of words urging me not to close my pen.

To be honest, I was really shaken, but I was only shaken, and I didn't change my mind.

Just two days ago.

Kobe Bryant's last road trip, the Lakers vs. the Rockets.

The 37-year-old Bryant scored 35 points in 28 minutes.

I watched the full stream at home.

When chatting with a friend on WeChat, he said with emotion: He can still score 35 points in one game, and he can bring so much happiness to fans, why should he retire!!!!

My friend replied to me: What about you? Your book is still in the top three on the recommendation list, the manuscript fee is millions a year, the copyright fee is millions, and so many fans still support you, why do you want to close the pen?

I said: I made the decision to close the pen, you know why.

He said, "Yes, there are vicious people who have hurt you, but you have ignored those who are good?"

Again, I'm speechless.

You know what? If I suddenly announced today that Lao Tzu would not seal the pen, someone would immediately declare: Look, dancing is simply pretending, he writes books slowly, always breaks off, speaks does not count, says that the pen is sealed, and there is really a reversal, the character is not good, grass mud horse.

Really, this kind of post has actually appeared several times in my post bar.

Ah, there is such a person under this question, look:

What do you think of the dancing penmanship?- replied by Dragon Sir

A vicious person is still vicious.

And I, I want to protect myself.

Subject, if you want to ask me why I decided to close the pen.

That's my reasoning.

By the way, I would like to tell my readers, as well as my brothers and sisters.

Thank you all for reading this lengthy answer.

Oh yes, someone will say: Look, dancing is fancy again (someone said that in a previous answer). ）

My answer is simple: grass and mud horses. (^_^)

This is called giving back to the other in his way.

Created on 12 Apr 2016

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