Zhen Yu was very disdainful of Qianqian's attitude, and could even be said to hate it, because Zhen Yu was very dissatisfied with Qianqian's attitude.

For Zhen Yu, no matter how painful it is, he wants to chase what he wants.

Zhen Yu was also abandoned in the past, and this kind of abandonment can be described as a fatal pain for Zhen Yu, and it started many years ago.

At that time, Zhen Yu was still a depressed woman, and for Zhen Yu at that time, livelihood was a big deal.

Nothing is more important than livelihood, and if you want to make a comparison, even the life of your family is not as important as your livelihood.

At that time, Zhen Yu was still a small woman, and in order to survive, Zhen Yu kept abandoning herself and going to be a role that deceived others.

Such a character that Zhen Yu himself hates very much is the most painful thing for Zhen Yu.

But Zhen Yu has no choice, if he doesn't do this, then there will be no food, compared to being hungry, what is this kind of violation for Zhen Yu?

The reason why he hasn't given up on life yet, Zhen Yu relies on the only bit of kindness he has left, but what buries Zhen Yu is also his own kindness.

Zhen Yu didn't understand very much, why did God play tricks on himself like this? Why do you want to live against yourself?

Zhen Yu was very unconvinced, but what could this do? Isn't it the same to follow God's arrangement?

Even if Zhen Yu wants to get out of this predicament herself, what can she do? Zhen Yu has no way at all, and even the most basic dignity has been lost.

But Zhen Yu still didn't give up, yes, Zhen Yu couldn't give up, because although such a day was not easy, Zhen Yu himself still had hope.

Child.

Everything is for the child, Zhen Yu told herself over and over again that the child is everything, no matter what, let the infant child live a happy life.

Otherwise, the meaning of insisting on living will be completely lost.

Zhen Yu didn't want to do it either, but what could Zhen Yu do? If you don't persevere, the child will die, and if the child dies, then there is no hope for you to live.

Such a predicament made Zhen Yu feel that the world was extremely bad, and there was nothing worse than this.

But no matter how bad it is, Zhen Yu can't give up hope in life.

Hope, these two words seem so simple, but for Zhen Yu, it is so hard, even desperate.

But these are nothing to Zhen Yu, at least Zhen Yu still has children to rely on each other.

At that time, Zhen Yu had no hope if he lived, and the three words of living could not let Zhen Yu run around all his life, but Zhen Yu understood that no matter how hard he worked, he had to let his children get the most comfortable life.

Although Zhen Yu thought so, in the end, Zhen Yu's hopes were dashed.

What makes Zhen Yu the most sad is the disappearance of the child, if it weren't for the loss of the child, Zhen Yu would not have been able to embark on such a decisive path.

Rakshasa has always been instilled with the title of despair, and this despair is not only the oppression of Zhen Yu himself, but also the deeper oppression of Zhen Yu's resolute eyes.

What to do? Zhen Yu is struggling in the dark, what can she do? This kind of question, even if Zhen Yu asks, what's the matter? The world will not stop for Zhen Yu at all, and this indifferent attitude makes Zhen Yu full of despair about life.

No, I'm going to escape from this darkness.

Zhen Yu made up his mind, but this determination was just a statement that Zhen Yu himself gave himself, if it weren't for Zhen Yu's own firm belief, then Zhen Yu would struggle in the dark for the rest of his life, and the darkness would not only bring Zhen Yu pain, but also a more desperate atmosphere.

This kind of predicament makes Zhen Yu feel that there is no joy in life.

In the past, it was fine when the children were there, but now even the lovely children have been lost. There's nothing worse than that.

Every night is the most difficult time for Zhen Yu, Zhen Yu feels that such days are really bad, if this kind of day can't be fastened, then he will really fall into the abyss.

No, you can't just give up, Zhen Yu told herself over and over again.

But what about the end result? Isn't it to live even longer for the sake of life? For this kind of dark day, Zhen Yu simply doesn't want to continue to live.

But what happens in the end? Still not trying to survive?

These four words are the most painful thing for Zhen Yu, and there is nothing more painful than this.

But Zhen Yu was not convinced, in the dead of night, Zhen Yu always asked himself over and over again, what did he do wrong, why did the world treat him like this? This kind of life simply couldn't be worse.

But can't give up, Zhen Yu must have a perfect explanation to himself.

That's right, that's it, if Zhen Yu can't give himself an explanation, then how can the world let Zhen Yu live well?

No one depends on God to live, only by giving themselves hope can they continue to live in this painful endless purgatory.

This kind of painful purgatory is Zhen Yu's last last breath, but Zhen Yu still refuses to give up.

In the end, Zhen Yu could only watch himself fall into this mortal purgatory.

The whole purgatory seems to be tailor-made for itself. Zhen Yu feels that no matter what bad things are, they are staring at themselves, and there is no good thing in this world that can be integrated into their own world, compared to it, Zhen Yu seems to feel that other people's lives are much higher than their own, but this kind of life cannot be touched by themselves.

What to do? Do you continue to walk in such an endless purgatory, or do you hold up a piece of heaven and earth with your own hands?

Presumably, Zhen Yu himself already has a clear answer.

But even so, Zhen Yu still collapsed.

Oh, yes! So what? Whether or not you can escape from this endless purgatory, you can't change the fact that the child has left, if the child can't come back, then what's the point of doing these things yourself?

Zhen Yu deeply realized this, so he never let himself out of this gloomy world.

At this time, although Zhen Yu has completely placed himself outside the world, Zhen Yu's own will has not been fully realized, how to realize his will, presumably, Zhen Yu himself has the most right to speak!