(a)

Coming out of Concubine Wang's palace, you used Liu Shen to give you privileges.

You got on your horse, and you rode the moonlight on the corridor of the palace.

You passed through the squares and halls of the palace, you passed through countless railings and passages, and you came straight to me with the speed of light, under the gaze of countless palace people in awe, amazement, and panic.

The whole court is shaken by your arrival. This is the first and last time they have seen you, who is said to be a god of the following heavens, invincible, and invincible. You are the source of the power that made all the Inner Servants automatically prostrate themselves at the feet of Liu Shen and me. You are the most solid foundation of Liu Shen's royal power. You are the hope of the new dynasty. You are the dry city of the country in the annals of history!

You're as swift as the wind, and you're coming so fast that you can't keep up with the speed of your reports along the way.

You went straight to the door of my house. You fly and dismount.

Before the sound of the Yellow Gate's announcement fell, you had already entered the palace gate. You have reached the door of the main house where I live.

You hurriedly knelt down to greet the chamberlain and the maid at the door. You stepped into the main room of Zhaoyang Palace in one step.

However, the room was empty. I'm not in it. I'm not in the bedroom either.

You reach out and grab one of your nearest chamberlains who is kneeling on the ground. You ask, "Where is Madame Jun?" ”

The chamberlain stammered in panic, "Yes, yes, in the garden." ”

You let go of the chamberlain and say, "Please take me." ”

The chamberlain hurriedly said, "Yes, yes." ”

You follow the chamberlain and hurry to the depths of the inner palace.

You asked, "Didn't you say that Madame Jun was reluctant to leave the room all the time?" ”

The chamberlain said: "General Qiyu, Mrs. Jun is indeed like this during this time. But today is strange. Today, Mrs. Jun is different from usual. She got up early in the morning, agreed to freshen her, and went out by herself, and walked towards a sunny place, and the slaves and maids talked to Mrs. Jun, and she didn't seem to hear them, so the slaves and maids had to follow her, and she went to the garden by herself, and then sat on the swing chair to bask in the sun. ”

Although I have not yet woken up from my trance, your proximity has made me feel it. I already felt the sun and warmth coming. I instinctively sense your coming, just as a flower instinctively faces the sun. I instinctively realized that I should wait for the warmth to come. I instinctively knew that I should dress up, that I should be in a beautiful place, waiting for a fairy tale.

I sat on the swing chair, and I was absentmindedly gently rocking the chair, slowly and casually. My skirt swayed on the grass, the hairpin in my hair and the tassel pendant in my ear glittered in the sun. I don't know what will befall me, I don't know what kind of miracle it is, what kind of fairy tale it will be. However, my whole body and mind have bloomed, and I am waiting for it.

I never thought I'd ever see you again in this life. This life can be in your arms again.

I never thought that there would be such splendor and happiness in my life, coming towards me.

Just as pain can come suddenly when you don't expect it, so happiness can come when you're unprepared. Although, that was the last happiness.

As soon as the golden wind and jade dew meet, they will win countless in the world.

(b)

You walked into the garden, and once again caused a little panic and commotion among the palace people who were with me.

But I was in a trance, and I didn't realize it at all.

You stretched out your hand to stop the palace people's voices.

You stand there and watch me gently swing around on the swing chair.

You look at me in another world, unaware of everything outside the world.

You look at my sunken eye sockets, at my radiant face, at my bloodless lips.

You use your whip to signal both sides to stand down.

You walk up behind me and stand very close to me, watching my withering, my withering, my emaciation, my emaciation, my grief, my discouragement, my desperation, my inability to vent, my quiet sinking.

You stand there looking at me. You mentally judge whether it is dangerous to disturb a sleepwalker.

Then you took a deep breath, and you bowed down to me and called me softly, "Madame Jun." ”

You bow to the ground and say, "Minister, you're back." ”

I didn't hear you. But I felt something.

I turned around slowly. I see you. But I didn't recognize you.

I look at you blankly, my eyes piercing through your body to see where something is in the distance.

I looked at the dust on your boots and armor in bewilderment. Look at your sweaty face. Look at your horsewhip.

After a few years of separation, your appearance has changed so much that even I don't recognize you.

You look at my blankness, and your tears welled up.

You stand up. Your voice trembles and you call out again, "Qin'er." ”

You say, "I'm back." ”

After you said this, I suddenly felt my throat tighten, and I couldn't make any more sound for a while.

I watched as you stood there silently, and the ice lake inside began to crack rapidly.

There was once a man who stood in front of me like this, who could no longer look at me, and could not fail to look at me. I will always remember that moment, that person, that person's eyes.

You tilt your head a little away, and your eyes look away. You bow your head.

Two lines of tears run down your cheeks.

That day, you were sweating profusely and standing there covered in dust, breathing heavily.

I watched as the line of tears welled up in your eyes. There was a strong collapse in the depths of my life.

Tears also flowed from my eyes.

Confused, I reached out and wiped tears from my face. I watched in bewilderment as I burst into tears.

My confusion is like a sharp knife into your heart, which is already fragile after so many days and nights.

You take a step back in pain.

You tear up and say, "I'm sorry, Qin'er. I'm sorry. ”

You say I'm sorry. Your tears flow uncontrollably. You wipe away your tears with the back of your hand. Then tears flowed out again. And you wipe it with the back of your hand. They keep pouring out.

You raise your arms and shield your eyes with your hands, as if to block out the intense light.

Your tears fell on my heart drop by drop, and I melted little by little.

Then, all of a sudden, I recognized you!

My eyes widened. I'm looking at you.

I opened my mouth slightly. My heart suddenly contracted violently into an atom. A powerful shock wave swept through all the cells in the body.

As soon as my knees went limp, my whole body went limp.

I lost consciousness.

I fell like an autumn leaf from a tree, lifeless into your arms.

Like a leaf falling back to its roots, it returned to my eternal destination.