(a)

Writing this story was particularly difficult for me. Pen? Interesting? Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

It's like stepping barefoot through a thorny bush that stretches to the horizon.

Behind every word and sentence, there is bloodstain.

I persevered with the pain of a puncture in my heart and the severe confusion of time, trying to tell it in the way people are used to.

I hope to prove in this way that I can be healed. I can stand up again after being knocked down. I can bear any form of spiritual pain and can face the most brutal trials of life.

I wrote persistently.

At this point, I still don't know what I'm going to write at the end of this story. I don't know what the end of my life will be.

However, I trust your guidance. I believe that perseverance will be rewarded.

(b)

Pushing open the office door, I felt like I was stepping into the TV.

In your seat, there is a man I've known for a long time, but I've never met. He is recognized as a champion of the provincial shooting team, and the winner and creator of numerous championships.

His surname is Zhou. I've seen him many times on TV. He is Mr. Zhou from the Provincial Sports Commission who recommended you to apply for the position of substitute teacher.

He sat down in your seat and held out his hand to me, and he said in a friendly way, "Oh, this is idealism, isn't it?" Get acquainted, I've heard your name for a long time. ”

I was a little hesitant and a little flattered and shook Mr. Zhou's hand.

Teacher Zhou said, "Sit down, let's talk." ”

I sat down cramped in front of him.

I looked at Director Wang, who was standing next to me. He seemed so excited that he didn't notice my trepidation.

Teacher Zhou said to me, "I have seen all your grades and tests, and I have not seen such numbers for a long time. Do you understand what I mean? ”

I blushed and nodded reservedly.

Teacher Zhou said, "Idealism, you are very lucky because you have met a very good guide. Judging by all the training records, he knows how to sculpt you. His guidance to you is meticulous and precise. He has brought you to a level that is hard to have at your age. ”

He said: "As the person in charge of this work of the Provincial Sports Commission, I can't let this matter go, as if I don't know about it. ”

I looked at him. I suddenly had a bad feeling and my heart sank.

Teacher Zhou leaned closer to me, leaned down, and asked, "Idealism, are you willing to leave your studies and join the provincial youth team?" ”

He said: "Are you willing to make a career out of this and fight for important honors for the country?" ”

I shivered from the inside out that I couldn't restrain myself.

Before I could react, I heard myself speak. I heard my own voice, didn't think about it, and immediately said, "No!" ”

It was so fast that it was close to the back of Teacher Zhou's words. It resounded in the office like an echo of Mr. Zhou's words.

I was blown away by myself!

I stood up at once, frightened by myself.

(c)

I wasn't the only one who was stunned!

It took a full half minute for Mr. Zhou to realize that I had already answered this question.

The expression on his face was as if Liu Bei, who had been looking at the thatched cottage for three times, was poured a basin of cold water on Zhuge Liang's head.

Seeing this expression, I felt ashamed in my heart: Oh my God, what did I say?! How can I be so polite?!

Director Wang's face turned red all the way to the base of his neck. As the person who recommended me, as the person who invited Mr. Zhou to come and see me, he was immediately pushed to the south wall by me.

He calmed himself down in shock, then coughed.

He said, "Xinxin, you haven't understood what Teacher Zhou meant, have you?" ”

I don't know how to answer. I froze there, overwhelmed.

At this time, Teacher Zhou's face softened.

He smiled and said to Director Wang, "It's okay. It's okay. Children are like this, and if they have something to say, they will say it directly. From another point of view, quick response and decision-making, these are good qualities. ”

Director Wang asked me, "Xinxin, don't you like shooting?" If you don't like it, why did you come to me in the first place to apply for a team? ”

I said, "Yes." ”

Director Wang said: "Then why did you give up such a good opportunity? ”

I said, "I just like shooting, I don't like to compete with people, I don't like to make people fail and be sad." ”

At this time, Mr. Zhou had completely regained his fighting demeanor.

He asked me with interest: "If you want to go to the youth team, let's put this matter aside for now, don't be nervous." We're just going to talk casually today. Idealism, can you tell me, why did you come here for shooting training? ”

I said, "Just trying to experience and understand that kind of power that a person has, by shooting." ”

"What kind of power?" Teacher Zhou asked.

I said, "The power of poise." In the face of everything, the heart is free of waves and the power of stability is like a mountain. ”

Teacher Zhou looked me up and down.

He said, "Did you teach you that?" ”

I nodded. I said, "Yes." ”

Teacher Zhou said, "What else did he teach you?" ”

I said, "The guidance says that if a person is allowed to suffer from sorrow, fear, anxiety, sorrow, despair, all these kinds of instability, all kinds of negative emotions that intrude on him, and he is helpless, he is captured by them, he is coerced by them, even if he can pull out Mount Tai, he cannot be called powerful. If you have a long life, from birth to death, you are controlled by these things, even if you live longer than Nanshan, you can't say that you have lived. ”

I said, "The guide also said: All these instability are the targets that we really want to shoot down." It has nothing to do with other people's achievements. He said: The purpose of our shooting practice is not to destroy the opponent and defeat the opponent, but to discover our own shortcomings and break through our own obstacles. In the whole process, all kinds of surprises and freedoms should come from the inner strength and fulfillment, not from the dismal failure of others. ”

Teacher Zhou listened. He didn't speak for a moment.

After a while, he kindly asked, "How old are you this year?" ”

I said the age.

"As old as my daughter," he said. You're a lot more sensible than she is, though. ”

He said, "You surprised me a lot today. You know? You remind me of my own youth, and you remind me of my own enlightenment teacher. ”

He said, "You're a good boy. You have something different about you. Your mentoring is also quite different. ”

He said, "All right." Idealism, I understand what you mean. ”

He took a piece of sticky note from the table and wrote a few lines on it. He handed me the piece of paper. "Here is my address and phone number," he said. When do you change your mind and are willing to play professional sports, you can come to me at any time. ”

I took the note and I said, "Thank you, Mr. Zhou." I have always admired your achievements and heart. I am also very grateful for your recommendation, and it is possible for our team to get guidance from new coaches. ”

He smiled: "At a young age, I still know how to be considerate of my elders." There is no need to comfort my disappointment. ”

(iv)

Teacher Zhou stood up, and he left your seat.

He said to Wang, "I didn't fulfill your wish today, old Wang. ”

Director Wang showed a look of regret on his face. He glared at me with his eyes. I quickly lowered my head.

Teacher Zhou smiled: "But Lao Wang, you don't need such an expression." The trip was worth it. You've unearthed such helpers and taught such students. This is a high achievement as a teacher. I want to congratulate you on doing such a good job. ”

Teacher Zhou said, "Also, when can you arrange for me to meet your assistant again?" With your strong recommendation, I believe in your character and recommend him to your principal, so I should let me see his skills with my own eyes. You know, I don't usually recommend people. It's not that you've been coming to me this time, I've made so many trips, I won't make an exception. ”

Director Wang hurriedly said: "I know, I know, I owe you a big favor!" No problem, no problem. I'll arrange it next time. After you see him shooting live ammunition, you will definitely not regret recommending him. ”

(5)

After sending Teacher Zhou away, Coach Wang returned to the training ground.

He met me in the hallway. He looked at me. He let out a long sigh from his heart.

He said, "What are you doing standing still stupid?" I went to change my clothes and started training. ”

I didn't walk while standing.

He said, "Why are you standing still?" Regretted it? ”

I didn't speak. My eyes are on your empty seat.

Director Wang understood in his heart.

He sighed again and said, "Your guide is on sick leave." He called to say he had a bad cold and fever. It's not here this afternoon. ”

He looked at me and said, "You master and apprentice, it's really alike." ”

I looked at Director Wang.

He said, "Your guidance must be as strong as you!" ”

I bowed my head.

By the time I looked up again, Instructor Wang had already walked to the side of the corridor to tutor the pistol team in training.

I look at your empty seat and feel empty in my heart. (To be continued.) )