Volume 3 Chapter 349 Who Am I?
In the middle of the night, Wan'er woke up from her sleep. It's just that as soon as she woke up, she felt that her head was aching faintly again.
She didn't have nightmares, but dreamed of some vague images. Although the pictures in the dream were vague, Wan'er could detect that there were both Lu Ren and Lu Lan in the vague figures in the dream, and there were other figures that she couldn't name, but felt very familiar. But the most important thing is that when Wan'er dreams of this, she only feels a very inexplicable sense of steadiness in her heart, and then there is an indescribable and inexplicable warmth, which makes Wan'er's heart feel full.
But what followed was the faint pain in her brain rising again, so Wan'er's awakening was actually woken up by this pain. When I first woke up, because I was switching from a sleep state to a waking state, there was a blank period in my mind for a while, and the pain dissipated because of this, and Wan'er felt better. It's just that when her mind gradually cleared up and recalled the dream she had just had, Wan'er fell silent.
Got up and left the bed, came to the window and looked up at the starry sky, under her seemingly calm appearance, but in her heart was actually full of thoughts.
In the previous communication conversation with Lu Lan, Wan'er actually just thanked Lu Lan and then hastily closed the line, because the pain in her head was already beginning to torment Wan'er. But people are like this, once some things come into their minds, they will never be easily erased from their minds, so although the communication time between Wan'er and Lu Lan is very short and hasty, in fact, many things have been reflected in Wan'er's mind and lingered.
It's just that once I think of something, that pain will follow like a maggot attached to the bone, and that kind of pain that seems to be absent makes Wan'er feel as if it is not physical/physical pain at all, but a kind of soul pain, which also makes Wan'er have always avoided this pain as much as possible. At this moment, the person has woken up, and slightly recalled the vague pictures in the dream, but she was afraid that the pain would strike again, Wan'er could only look up at the starry sky like this, and try her best to enter the state that should be "ethereal" under the night.
But where is the "ethereal" mental state so easy to enter? And the more you think about many things, the more you deliberately avoid them, the more you don't want to think about them, but they will involuntarily appear in your mind. Wan'er is like this now, although those pictures are trying not to think about it, they will always suddenly flash in her mind, and then be "blocked" by Wan'er as much as possible. And that pain came out of this situation, and then disappeared again.
In this case, let alone wanting to enter an "ethereal" state, it would be good not to be upset. And Wan'er's concentration should be said to be not bad, at least she hasn't fallen into a state of distraction. Somehow, Wan'er suddenly sang softly, maybe at this time, only singing can make her mood more stable, right?
said it was singing, but in fact, it was just a melody sung by "lalala", and there were no lyrics at all. But what Wan'er sang at this time was the song "Phoenix Song Blue Sky", because the main theme of this song "Phoenix Song Blue Sky" seems to have such a taste that can make people feel calmer and more comfortable.
After humming like this a few times, Wan'er really had a little selfless mental state, whether it was those blurry images, or the pain that seemed to be absent, she also temporarily left Wan'er at this moment, which made Wan'er feel much better physically and mentally, and people breathed a long sigh of relief. I wanted to go back to bed, but I was tossed by the previous dream, but I found that I was no longer sleepy. Looking at the beautiful starry sky, I thought I would just go to the garden and sit in the garden.
As soon as she turned around, Wan'er found that Vanilla was already guarding the door. In fact, vanilla, as Wan'er's personal maid, is basically in a state of "standby" 24 hours a day, to put it mildly, she has to sleep with one eye open. And just now Wan'er sang "lalala" for several minutes, and Vanilla was naturally awakened a long time ago, and then stood guard in front of Wan'er's door.
Wan'er was stunned at first when she saw Vanilla, and then smiled softly at Vanilla: "I'm fine, you go to sleep, I'll just go for a walk in the garden by myself." ”
Vanilla hurriedly shook her head, saying that as Wan'er's "divine servant", she must stay by Wan'er's side. Wan'er didn't force it, so she took the herbs to the garden and sat down.
After sitting down, Wan'er probably also wanted to distract herself, so she casually said to Vanilla: "I'm really fine, just come out and sit down and take a breath and go back to sleep, to Vanilla, you just rushed back today, you must still be very tired, so you better go back to the room to rest first, if there is anything I will call you." ”
Vanilla, who was standing next to her, said, "I'm not tired, I'm really not tired." In fact, the people sent by Miss Lan took good care of me along the way, and I didn't suffer any fatigue on the road at all. After arriving in the resting territory, as the maid of the divine envoy, the officials along the way did not dare to neglect me, so I actually hid in the car and slept all the way, and I couldn't sleep at this time. ”
Wan'er said: "Miss Lan's personality seems to be pretty good? ”
Vanilla hesitated for a moment, then nodded, "Although I have only been by Miss Lan's side for a few days, I can feel that Miss Lan is really a good person. For example, the nobles on the Roman side flattered her in every possible way, and gave her countless expensive gifts, but Miss Lan did not ask for any of them, and sold those gifts to help the poor. And this kind of thing is rare to see when we rest in peace. ”
Lu Lan had some praise for this, but she was also a little helpless. Behind the scenes, she helped Cass Eli to save Rest from being replaced by the Sassanid Empire, and over the years, Rest has been a little thriving, but as the saying goes, "the sickness is like a thread", where can some of the ills in the rest be reversed in a few years? Although Wan'er has asked Cass Eli to focus on cultivating the middle class, but what about those aristocratic forces...... Hehe, don't talk about it. The pattern that Cass Eli can do is also good. And then you want to count on these nobles to give to the poor in real heart? It's better not to expect too much.
Therefore, Lu Ren has always had an advantage in this regard, that is, there are no annoying aristocratic forces or noble forces in Lu Ren's territory. Although it was said that it was very difficult and difficult to develop in the early days due to the lack of support from nobles and scholars, Lu Ren survived and developed, so Lu Ren's advantage in the political pattern was established.
Without going far, Wan'er and Vanilla talked a few words about Lu Lan, and the faint pain was a little bit about to pop up, so Wan'er quickly stopped the topic and asked Vanilla instead: "By the way, you went to the battlefield to find your brother, so did you find it?" ”
Vanilla's expression suddenly dimmed, and she shook her head silently and said, "No." In fact, with the status of our family, the brothers who go out on the expedition are like a grain of sand in the desert, and it is too difficult to find them. I had managed to get a little bit of news, but I didn't have time to get over it...... Alas! Later, I heard that my brother's unit was defeated, so can my brother survive the defeat......"
Wan'er hurriedly stretched out her hand and waved in front of Vanilla, and Wen Yan comforted: "Don't think too much." There is a saying in China that 'auspicious people have their own natural appearance', and you have to believe that God will bless your brothers, and they will definitely come back safely. ”
Vanilla nodded. A girl like her can only think like this at this time.
Wan'er at this end thought about it again and said: "You were captured unexpectedly, but you were able to come back safely, this is also a rare thing, no matter how you say it, you have to go home to see it, so as to save your family people from worrying." In fact, I didn't even know that you were captured, and your family has been worried about you...... Well, it's nothing anyway, I'll accompany you to your house tomorrow. ”
Vanilla hesitated, "This ...... Wouldn't it be too ...... for God to send you to that place?"
Wan'er smiled indifferently: "It's not the first time I've been there." Okay, go back to sleep, and we'll go see tomorrow when you're ready. ”
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The next morning, Wan'er greeted Cass Eli and left the palace with Vanilla to see Vanilla's house.
As mentioned earlier, Vanilla's home is in the typical slums of the Resting Kings. Although it is said that the family is better off because of Vanilla becoming Wan'er's maid, at best, its living standard has risen from poor to commoner, and even if he wants to move to other places, he may not be accepted by people in other residential areas...... It can't be helped, that's the case under the strict hierarchy.
Wan'er brought Vanilla over, almost to let Vanilla come back to visit relatives, and the conversation between those vanilla and her family was not much to say, and Wan'er herself took a few guards to patrol this slum.
Unlike those nobles, the nobles will dislike this kind of place, but Wan'er has a subconscious intimacy with such a place, and this subconscious comes from the memory that Wan'er herself was sealed by "him", the memory of being with Lu Ren and taking a large group of homeless people to Tuntian. Speaking of which, the living conditions of the displaced people back then may have been more slums than the slums that rested here, but the difference is that the displaced people have the hope and motivation to live, so they will have a vitality on their bodies, but the residents in this slum obviously lack that vitality.
It's not the first time Wan'er has come here, but she has come here several times with the help of herbs, and every time she comes, she will do a free clinic, that is, to help the poor people here see a doctor, so most of the poor people here know Wan'er, and at the same time, they know a little bit about Wan'er's noble status here.
Maybe the noble status is not the same thing for the poor, and the great thing is to make a show on the surface, but Wan'er's free clinic really makes the poor people like and respect this woman who is dressed in Hanfu that is incompatible with their habits, but is gentle and beautiful, so when Wan'er patrols here, the poor people have a respectful salute to say hello to Wan'er.
After turning around, Wan'er started the free clinic again in the old place, and the poor people naturally rushed to the queue early and waited for this free clinic opportunity. Poor people, in that era, they wanted to see a doctor, but they looked down on it, so even if they didn't seem to have any diseases on their bodies, they had to ask Wan'er to take a look at it at this time and then prevent it, so as not to get sick but have no money to treat it.
At first, Wan'er didn't know much, but after seeing the illness for a while, she found that there seemed to be a lot fewer people coming to see the doctor this time. To be exact, it should be less and less at a time, but it is not easy to pay attention to it under the decreasing rate. But suddenly I think back to the first few times, and then compare the current number of people, this will be noticed.
Is there no one who is sick? Wan'er didn't think so, because Wan'er felt that there were many faces that hadn't appeared, and this kind of appearance was not because these people didn't come, but because they shouldn't be in the area. Curious, I took the time to ask, only to know that these disappeared faces were all conscripted and dragged to war.
After receiving such an answer, Wan'er's heart felt a little uncomfortable. In fact, at the beginning, the rest was in a state of recuperation without any war, so although the people here were a little poorer, Wan'er still saw more complete. However, with the outbreak of war between Anxi and Rome again, Anxi's side had to increase its forces to fight Rome, and the people here were requisitioned again and again. At first, Wan'er didn't know much, but after seeing the illness for a while, she found that there seemed to be a lot fewer people coming to see the doctor this time. To be exact, it should be less and less at a time, but it is not easy to pay attention to it under the decreasing rate. But suddenly I think back to the first few times, and then compare the current number of people, this will be noticed.
Is there no one who is sick? Wan'er didn't think so, because Wan'er felt that there were many faces that hadn't appeared, and this kind of appearance was not because these people didn't come, but because they shouldn't be in the area. Curious, I took the time to ask, only to know that these disappeared faces were all conscripted and dragged to war.
After receiving such an answer, Wan'er's heart felt a little uncomfortable. In fact, at the beginning, the rest was in a state of recuperation without any war, so although the people here were a little poorer, Wan'er still saw more complete. However, with the outbreak of war between Anxi and Rome again, Anxi's side had to increase its forces to fight Rome, and the people here were requisitioned again and again.