(a)

I didn't actually fall asleep. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info I am very sober.

I hear you and Director Wang talking on and off outside.

I hear you clearly, "Shouldn't she be defended?" Then you say, "She's still sick, isn't she?" The last thing I heard clearly was when you said, "There are some wounds that are not so easy to recover." ”

I think of the tremor in your voice just now, the moment I woke up from a nightmare and threw myself into your arms and clung to your clothes, the heat in your chest and your steady heartbeat, the time you said to me, "Don't be afraid, I'm here, I'm not leaving." ”

Then, your image fades away. I'm back in that canyon again. The wolves' wails echoed in their ears again. I thought of the man who had fallen on a boulder in the middle of the river, covered in arrows, of the smile on his face as he faced the long knife of death, of the reins of his mount in the midst of the flowers, of the green flashes on the other side of the river, of the sharp fangs and stiff manes of the wild wolves that had swooped down on me, and of the foul smell of their saliva.

He was torn apart by the wolves in the end! The reason why I dream of wolves biting me and being skinned and mutilated is because that is the last feeling in his consciousness!

How can I still lie here in peace!

Again, I felt strongly that there was no place in this world.

I should go and accompany him! If you can't save him from life, you must bring back his body and bury him well. If that doesn't work, I should die with him! He's where I'm supposed to be! Except for his side, all the space is where it is, and all the time is also non-time!

(b)

I closed my eyes and tried to breathe as smoothly as I could.

I noticed that the door of the ward was open, and Director Wang walked in with the team doctor, Mr. Xiao Chen.

They spoke very quietly at the head of the bed.

Teacher Xiao Chen sat down at the head of my bed, and she accompanied me.

Director Wang stepped back lightly.

I forced the anxiety in my heart down, and I waited patiently.

After tossing for most of the night, Teacher Xiao Chen was obviously tired.

Listening to my steady, even breathing, her eyelids grew heavier.

I felt her body shake.

She began to yawn, silently snorting one after another.

I continued to pretend to be asleep, waiting for my chance.

I don't know how long it took before I finally heard a slight snoring.

I cautiously opened my eyes quietly and found that Mr. Xiao Chen was lying on the edge of the bed and had fallen asleep. I looked at her closely and saw a little bit of saliva running down the corners of her mouth.

With the lightest of movements, I quietly unplugged the sensor attached to my skin and separated myself from the heart monitoring equipment.

I slowly sat up and removed the needle from the back of my hand.

I slipped quietly down the other side of the bed.

I stepped barefoot on the ground.

I stood on the side of the bed and looked at Mr. Chen, who was close at hand, and then looked at the open window and found that I was on the second floor.

Teacher Chen was still snoring slightly.

I tiptoed to the window and gently climbed up to the ledge.

I saw spotlights on the lawn below and the edge of the lawn. The edge of the lawn is a railing that is more than one person high, and if you can climb over it, you can leave the compound and enter the adjacent bushes.

I saw the drain pipe by the windowsill. Without hesitation, I leaned out of the windowsill, and I hugged the hose. I slid down the pipe. My feet came into contact with the dew on the grass.

No one noticed my actions! I'm on the verge of success!

I crept across the lawn and approached the iron fence of the fence.

Just as I grabbed the iron fence and was about to climb over it, a flashlight shone on my face.

I saw you coming from outside the fence on Mr. Wu's bicycle at the base. In the front basket of your bike is a thermal cone containing the food you brought me from the cafeteria.

When we saw each other, we were all equally surprised.

Then, like a frightened rabbit, I sped away from the fence and ran in the opposite direction.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw that you didn't care to set up your bike, and as soon as you pushed your bike into the grass beside you, you stepped onto the fence, and in the blink of an eye, you jumped over the iron fence and ran towards me.

(c)

You cut me off head-on on the lawn.

You grabbed my arm and whispered, "Idealism!" Where are you going? ”

I pleaded, "Guide, please let me go, please let go."

I'll go! ”

You whisper, "Why?" Why are you doing that? ”

I struggled in the palm of your pincer-like hand, and I said hysterically, "I have to go, I can't stay here!" ”

I said, "He's not dead yet!" He's still breathing! And he's still looking at me! He's been waiting for me! ”

I said, "There are a lot of water snakes and wolves over there, I'm going to save him!" ”

I said, "I'm going to save him!" He shouldn't be eaten by snakes and wolves! It's so unfair! He is such a good person, how can there be such an ending! ”

Every time I say a word, I desperately struggle under your grasp.

I struggled with all my strength as I spoke. But I can't get out of your grasp.

I started crying on and off. I cried and said incoherently, "Please let me go, guide!" ”

I cried, "I can't just let him stay there." ”

I cried, "I can't just throw him there and leave it to the vipers and the beasts!" ”

I resisted desperately like a little beast caught in a trap waiting to be assassinated.

I cried, "Please let me go!" I'm going to accompany him! I'm going to die with him! ”

I let out a suffocating scream. I kept screaming like this. I fell into uncontrollable screaming.

Just then, you raised your hand and gave me a heavy slap in the face!

Your slap hit me on the right cheek, and I fell to the lawn in no time.

You said to me sharply, "He doesn't want you to die, he wants you to live well!" ”

(iv)

I paused in astonishment, and I looked at you with wide eyes, and you were breathing sharply in front of me, your chest heaving.

Then I pounced on it without thinking about it, and it bites you on your right forearm.

I tried my best to bite down hard.

I used all my strength on my teeth.

I have vented all the hatred of fate for thousands of lifetimes on you!

I'm biting you desperately.

I felt the teeth cut deep into your muscles, cutting through your veins, your blood entering my mouth with a salty taste and dripping down the grass along the corners of my mouth.

I felt the muscles in your arm tense and tightened instantly.

I feel your arm tremble slightly.

I hear your breathing ebb and flow.

I know you're standing still and enduring my attacks.

As you endure my attacks, you calm your own agitation and say in as gentle and soothing tone as possible, "I don't know who he is, Xinxin. But if he's someone so close to you, he doesn't want to see you go again. ”

You say, "Everybody will want the person he likes to live well." ”

You say, "Everyone doesn't want to see the person he likes suffer." ”

You say, "Even though I don't know who he is, I know he doesn't want you to go any more." ”

You say, "Xinxin, calm down, please think about it." Don't let him down, don't disobey his last wish. ”

"But I've failed him! I had failed him a long time ago! "I cried and let go, and I slumped on the lawn along your arm.

I said, "He gave everything he wanted me to be happy, but I never felt happy!" ”

I said, "I haven't felt happy for a day!" ”

I said, "Not a day!" ”

I said, "Never." ”

I said, "I don't have the face to see him again." (To be continued.) )