It's been more than 60 years since those things happened. 60 years is a long time. And I'm very old, and there are a lot of things that I remember very clearly, but now they are blurry.

A blow suffered by a person at a young age is often more likely to heal than a blow suffered by a person in middle age or old age.

With the miscarriage of the fetus, the shadow cast by Jingyun in my life slowly faded away again. And my father's meticulous love with you once again filled the abyss in my heart.

During the days of being bedridden, your amulet was always worn close to my chest. I've never taken it off.

Every night when I go to sleep, I hold it tightly and fall asleep peacefully, like your arms and your breath by my side.

No matter how turbulent and bad the world is, as long as your love is by my side, I feel stable and content. I know you're going to hold me and won't let me fall.

With my physical recovery, the military situation in the Lingnan area has become more and more tense.

The northern front, near the Huaizhou Prefecture, was continuously attacked and plundered by the Northern Huma team. In the worst case, the Northern Huma team broke through the triple defense line of the Han army, penetrated more than 100 miles into the Han land, and inflicted heavy losses on the defenders of the Zhuge Department of Huaizhou. Although the North Huma team did not stay for long in the case of being alone, but quickly retreated after the robbery, their stronger horse combat power than last year still caused a strong psychological impact on the Han army on the northern front.

The reason for the frequent southward raids of the Northern Huma team again is that with the continuous growth of the grassland population, the steppenwolf everywhere in the grassland was shot and killed by a large number of Beihu tribes, and the decrease in the number of steppenwolves led to a surge in the number of Central Asian marmots with it as their natural enemy. And this marmot feeds on grass root tubers. The proliferation of marmots has led to the degradation of large areas of grassland, especially in the Beji grassland, where the climate is warmer and the aquatic grass is more abundant. The degradation of pastures has exacerbated friction and contradictions among the Begi tribes, and has also reduced their total livestock stock. The decline in livestock and the increasing population form a sharp contradiction. In order to alleviate famine and deprivation, the Beji tribes, who were close to the Han areas, had an increasing motivation to raid and plunder the areas inhabited by the Han Chinese.

The sporadic and continuous invasion of the various tribes of the Northern Hu was often the prelude to the large-scale southern invasion of the Northern Hu tribe. I don't know how many times this has happened in history.

In view of the lessons of history, the Han army in the entire Lingnan region was on high alert, constantly strengthening the city defense and armament, and was ready to meet the sudden attack of Beihu at any time.

The Huaizhou Mansion, which has never given military orders to your troops, has also made an exception to forward to your troops the battle reports from all over the northern front and the official documents of the Huaizhou Mansion's overall mobilization of troops.

As a result, you spend more and more time in the barracks and go home less and less. My father also devoted more energy to defense and armaments, and made much more frequent patrols of the various outposts, often away from home.

Our marriage, again and again, was postponed.

Because in such a tense atmosphere, it is unlikely that King Han will be drafted as scheduled, and it is unlikely that other families will propose marriage at such a time, so whether to do marriage or not is not so urgent for the time being.

After my health gradually improved, my two aunts and uncles temporarily returned to Linshui because they had been away from home for a long time and the war was getting tighter.

To a large extent, I took on the responsibility of managing the inner house and began to become the hostess of the Cui house. With the help of the stewards and servants, I gradually learned to handle various household chores, and I became busier and busier every day.

On the days when you can't go home, we can only rely on the little guys to run back and forth, passing on letterheads, to send lovesickness.

Every day, after all kinds of work, before going to bed, I will read all the letters you have sent me over and over again under the lamp, from the first to the last.

The deep affection that only we know each other between the lines warms my body and mind.

I hope that the tense situation will pass soon. I look forward to seeing you again. I look forward to being your wife. I look forward to dedicating my life to you.

But I never imagined that it would be like that when I saw you again.