(a)

"Qin'er, I'm back."

After a long-awaited hope, finally, when you come home from the barracks. You're finally in front of my eyes again.

I look at you, and I don't know where to start. It's not been a long time apart, but you've changed a lot.

You say, "Why are you looking at me like that?" ”

I said, "It's hard in the barracks." ”

You say, "If you want to win, you always have to pay a price." It is impossible to sit here comfortably, and the peaceful life will fall from the world. ”

You ask, "Have I changed a lot?" ”

I nodded. I said, "You don't think it yourself." It's dark, it's thin, and its face doesn't have the same luster as before. Let the people who think about you feel distressed when they see it. Come home this time and rest for a few days. ”

You shake your head. You say, "I didn't come back alone." I also brought Shunzi, Zhang Bao and a few people back. We have important things to do when we come back. ”

I said, "It's never done." ”

You say, "Qin'er, I also want to stay at home for a few more days and have a good rest." However, everything we do can be interrupted at any moment by a surprise attack by the enemy. Perhaps, never to finish it again. Do you understand? ”

I whispered, "Understood." ”

I understand that you have taken the first step towards that bloody world. From this point on, staying with me and reuniting with me is no longer the most important and unavoidable thing in your life. Jingyun was right. The good days that belong to us are over. It is impossible to last. You belong to the country.

"Qin'er, are you okay at home?" You ask.

"It's all good. My father was at home during this time. The eldest brother often went to the Grange to run errands. Everything was peaceful. ”

We looked at each other and felt each other's hearts ebb and flow.

We didn't speak again.

Staying with you like this, I feel that everything is complete, that my heart is calm, and that I am full of understanding and tenderness for the whole world. Bathed in your gaze, I feel like my whole being is radiating light.

"Jean. In the barracks, I often think of you. "You say.

I lowered my eyes.

You say, "Sometimes, dreams still dream of you." ”

You say, "When I wake up, my heart is all about you, and I wonder if you are asleep now, or are you awake like me." Worried. I miss you all the time, and I can't sleep for a long time. ”

I felt a warm current surging through my body.

I looked at the ground.

I said, "I also saw your charge." The people of the whole town saw your charge. People stop what they are doing and are drawn to you. People say that only when Hu Bing attacked before, did he have such a momentum. Our Han army has never had such a majestic charge. ”

You say, "From now on, the Han army will also be there." ”

I asked, "How long does this hard training last?" ”

You say, "Jean." Such training is only the beginning of a more difficult battle. Until the world is unified and peace is restored, such hardships will not stop. What we have chosen is such a difficult path. It's been a long and arduous journey. ”

I'm looking at you.

You say, "And sacrifices." ”

I said, "Why were we born into such a war-torn world?" ”

You say, "Because, in this way, we can do something to stop the war, to put an end to the suffering of the people." ”

You say, "Sometimes, we have to leave where we like and be with people we want to be with and do the right thing." ”

I nodded. I said, "Brother, what do you say, what will the peaceful and prosperous times look like?" Can we see it while we are alive? ”

You say, "Yes." ”

You said, "Qin'er, you will definitely be able to see the peaceful and prosperous world with your own eyes." ”

You say, "I will be able to do it, so that you can live in peace." Just like your parents had hoped for. ”

(b)

Two classes. Brightly lit.

You take a stick of incense and insert it into the incense burner in front of your mother's portrait. You look at the portrait of your mother for a long time. I accompany you and look at the portrait of your mother's young face.

"What's wrong?" I sense a deep sadness passing through your heart. My dear, why do you feel sad?

You say, "I wonder if one day my mother will be sad that she gave birth to me into this world." ”

I'm looking at you. I said, "How so?" ”

You say, "The world is unpredictable." A lot of people don't become what their parents want him to be. Sometimes, he will become someone his parents never wanted him to be. ”

I said, "You won't." I know, you won't. ”

You turn your gaze and look at me. You say, "What if I let you down?" ”

I said, "No." You haven't had a heart that wants to hurt people, you can't have it all of a sudden. ”

You shake your head. You say, "Jean." You don't know how hard it is to be a person who is harmless to all things, a person who is never harmless to the heart. ”

You say, "I really hope that in this life, I can have the opportunity to become such a person." ”

I said, "You can." ”

You smiled. You say, "A lifetime, it's really short." Sometimes, before you have even found your direction and path, it has already passed. ”

In that life, you have only said these words to me except for the portrait of your mother.

You have never been defeated in battles all your life, but you have never considered yourself a winner, you have never considered yourself a famous general, and you have never been happy that you have achieved any strategic goals.

For, in your mind, the true victory is to be a harmless person. You think that all victories that are harmful to all things are all failures.

In the armies of all dynasties, famous generals have emerged, and all of them have amazing and brilliant achievements in the annals of history. But you have always been unique to me. It's because at this point, you are very different from all the generals.

I've never loved you just because you've been so nice to me.

I love you deeply because, I realize, that you have a compassionate heart that is compassionate to all things.

No matter what you have done in your life, and no matter what people at that time and later generations have said about you, I think you have never lost such a soft heart.