Chapter 20 Immerse yourself in it
"Back to Sleepwalking? Why is it "Back to Sleepwalk"? ”
Lu Ren let out a long sigh and before he could speak, Cai Yan had already taken over Lu Ren's words and said, "Xiaolan, why don't you understand this?" Yihao and Wanmei can only 'meet in a dream' now, so they need to 'return to their dreams'. ”
"Oh......" Lu Lan nodded as if she didn't understand, but at this time, the eyes that looked at Lu Ren were a little unclear what it was.
Lu Ren sighed again, stroked the flute in his hand and said with feeling: "It's okay, although I lost Wan'er, but I still have you by my side, I'm not lonely......"
Speaking of this, Lu Ren stopped his mouth, looked up at the sky again, and was silent for a long time.
Cai Yan saw that Lu Ren was in a state of contemplation and didn't want to disturb Lu Ren, so he immediately gave Lu Lan a look, Lu Lan nodded knowingly, and left quietly. Cai Yan sat silently with Lu Ren for a while, and moved his lips several times to say something, but in the end he stopped talking, and quietly got up and prepared to leave, so that Lu Ren could continue to think quietly alone.
When the person arrived at the pavilion and just wanted to put on his shoes, Lu Ren suddenly called softly: "Wen Ji, won't you sit with me for a while?" ”
Cai Yan turned to look at Lu Ren: "You have something on your mind, I'm afraid I'll disrupt your thoughts." ”
Lu Ren shook his head and beckoned to Cai Yan, "Come, sit down and sit with me for a while." ”
Cai Yan lowered his head and thought about it, then returned to Lu Ren's side and sat down, Lu Ren fell down at this time, his head was pillowed on Cai Yan's lap, he closed his eyes and sighed softly: "Somehow, I suddenly feel so tired......
Cai Yan was silent for a moment, stretched out his hand to brush away the messy hair in front of Lu Ren's forehead, and said softly: "Yihao, you are not only tired, but I am afraid that there is still loneliness and helplessness in your heart......"
Lu Ren froze when he heard this: "Lonely and helpless...... Indeed, I do feel that way in my heart. How do you know? ”
Cai Yan smiled faintly: "It was your flute that told me." ”
"......" Lu Ren was speechless for a while before smiling awkwardly: "I said just now that Xiaolan is here." As a result, I forgot about myself. In terms of Pinyin Zhiyi, I am too much inferior to you. ”
Cai Yan hesitated for a while before asking: "Yihao, just like you just said, if you were thinking about Wanmei, you would play "Back to Sleepwalking Immortals", but you are not thinking about Wanmei now...... Ah, I want to say that in the past few months, although we have lived in Jingzhou not with a happy smile, but with peace and happiness, why do you suddenly feel so lonely and helpless? The song "Edgeworth Jianghu" you played just now, I heard a burst of pain in my heart. What the hell is wrong with you? ”
Lu Ren was silent for a long time and then shook his head lightly and said, "I would have chosen to leave Yizhou temporarily and come to Jingzhou to live temporarily, Wen Ji, you also know about it now." And in Jingzhou, I originally wanted to avoid some things, but I didn't expect to fall into it in the end. I'm neither a god nor an immortal, I'm just a person with limited intelligence, and when something really happens, I wish I had a good friend or helper by my side who can help me come up with ideas and solutions, but I don't, at least not yet. My circumstances did not allow me to have it for a short time. It is true that you, Ah Xiu, and Xiaolan are all by my side, which can make me not so lonely, but after all, you are all just weak women. There are many things that I would like to consult with you...... It doesn't fit. ”
Cai Yan nodded silently when he heard this: "Indeed, there are many things that the three of us are not better than asking. Maybe in the eyes of others, you are giggling all day long, and you seem to be carefree and carefree. But I know that you carry a burden on your shoulders that we can't imagine. And as you said, you really need a good friend, a good helper who can really help you with ideas. ”
Speaking of this, Cai Yan suddenly remembered something and asked, "I remember that Wanmei once told me when she taught me "Imperial Sword Jianghu". You played this song "Edgeworth Jianghu" once with Wanmei, in order to say goodbye to a friend of yours who passed away. And I just heard you say this, and I understand that you are now suffering from a difficult situation but no one can help you, so you suddenly have such a heavy sense of loneliness and helplessness...... Yoshiho, is that so? ”
Lu Ren nodded: "That's true." I remember when I was in Cao Ying, no matter how I was in adversity, I never really worried about anything, because I knew that Lao Guo would definitely do his best to help me. And except for Lao Guo...... Did Wan'er tell you who I was saying goodbye to when I played "Edgeworth Jianghu" with her that time? ”
Cai Yan shook her head: "Sister Wan didn't say it, and I don't want to ask more." But occasionally when Wanmei mentions it, her face will always be red. ”
Lu Ren sighed lightly: "Then let me tell you, it is Cao Ang, Cao Zixiu, the eldest son of Cao Gong." I would get acquainted with Zixiu, and it was a little funny to say it, because he had fought with me about Wan'er, and Wan'er was thin-faced and generally didn't want to mention it to anyone...... Alas, if there is no accident at that time, Zixiu will probably be my best friend besides Lao Guo. Maybe if Zixiu was still here, I wouldn't be here to sigh helplessly, but would have left happily and easily with Wan'er. ”
Cai Yan was silent when he heard this.
Lu Ren was silent for a while before he said softly: "Wen Ji, the next words will come out of my mouth and into your ears, and you must not say it." Compared with Ah Xiu and Xiaolan, your personality is much more stable and you know the power of things, so there are some things I can only talk to you about now. People are like this, many things will be very uncomfortable when pressed in the bottom of the heart, and you must find someone to talk about it, so that your heart will be better, otherwise you are afraid that you will press out your heart. ”
Cai Yan nodded: "You say it, I'll take care of it." ”
Lu Ren sighed again, sorted out his thoughts for a while, and then said, "Today, the eldest prince Liu Qi came to me, do you know what his original intention was?" ”
Cai Yan frowned: "I have heard since the day I arrived in Jingxiang that this eldest prince Liu Qi has some misconduct and is addicted to ......wine all day long."
Lu Ren shook his head and said, "He's just playful, in fact, how many young people are not playful?" But the problem is that when he needs someone to take care of him and guide him, he doesn't have such people around him. Not only did not, but someone deliberately dragged him to the playboy road, and then ran to Liu Jingzhou to say that Liu Qi was not. But even so, Liu Qi still hasn't taken the wrong path, isn't this a rare thing? So ......"
At this time, Lu Ren gave a general account of the meeting with Liu Qi this afternoon, and Cai Yan immediately exclaimed: "Yihao, you can't help with this favor!" Although I haven't been out much, I also know that the clan relationship here in Jingzhou is complicated, and there is a battle for the position between the eldest son Liu Qi and the second son Liu Cong, wouldn't it be ...... if you helped anyone?"
This is the truth, in fact, Cai Yan and the Cai family in Jingzhou also have some clan relations. And Lu Ren chose to take Cai Yan with him at the beginning, in addition to dealing with those celebrities and masters who need Cai Yan's literary accomplishment, he also needs Cai Yan to help build a good relationship with the Cai family in Jingzhou, so Cai Yan is very clear about some things here in Jingzhou.
Seeing that Lu Ren just waved his hand and smiled: "I have helped, but in secret, and on the bright side, I scolded Liu Qi and Liu Dagongzi severely." ”
Cai Yan was a little anxious: "Having said that, but in case ......"
Lu Ren thought about Liu Qi's three plans for Zhuge Liang, and said with a wry smile: "This is exactly what gives me the most headache!" Wen Ji, you may not know that with Liu Qi's character, if I don't agree to help him this time, he will come to annoy me endlessly, and the time will be long and the times will be more, then it will really be nothing! I reluctantly agreed to help him in secret, but in fact, I had to do it as a last resort. ”
Cai Yan's brows furrowed again: "That's right." But how are you going to help him? Is it genuinely helpful or just perfunctory? But whether it's sincere or perfunctory, if you don't handle it properly, you're afraid that you'll get into trouble! ”
Lu Ren said: "It should be perfunctory at the moment." But if the situation reaches a certain level, I really want to help him with all my might, and I can't let him have any accidents. ”
Cai Yan hesitated and said, "It is said that I shouldn't have asked about these things, but now that you have mentioned this matter to me, I think it is better for me to ask." At least you have to let me know the bottom of my heart, so that I don't make any mistakes in my actions and cause trouble for you. ”
Lu Ren nodded and said, "That's what I mean." Wenji, what do you want to know? ”
Cai Yan pondered for a while before saying, "The main thing is that I don't understand, since you are perfunctory to Liu Qi, why do you say that you have to help him with all your strength to a certain extent?" Speaking from the heart, Liu Jingzhou's two sons are fighting for the throne, after all, it is just his family matter, and it has nothing to do with us outsiders with his surname, even if the eldest prince Liu Qi personally came to the door to ask for advice, since it is enough for you to be perfunctory at will, why do you have to let yourself be in it to add trouble? ”
Lu Ren smiled helplessly after hearing this. To be honest, this question is really difficult for Lu Ren to answer truthfully to Cai Yan. In fact, according to Lu Ren's thoughts, although Liu Qi is a mediocre person who is not much stronger than Liu Chan, because of the particularity of his own situation, he actually has a decisive impact on the later development of the current situation.
Generally speaking, Liu Qi's struggle for power will definitely not be able to compete with Liu Cong's faction, and the figures in Liu Cong's faction are basically some pro-Cao Cao Yuan Liu Bei's faction. In this case, by the day Cao Cao's division went south, it was unlikely that Liu Bei would have the support of the truly powerful local wealthy clans in Jingzhou and thus have the ability to resist Cao Cao, and there was no other way to go than to abandon the city and flee for his life.
With the development of the current situation, Liu Bei's only foothold when he fled was Jiangxia guarded by Liu Qi, and it was Liu Qi in Jiangxia that he was able to leave the last turnaround for Liu Bei, that is, more than 20,000 troops in Jiangxia and Xiakou combined. If it was not Liu Qi who guarded Jiangxia, but Huang Zu or other pro-Cao factions...... Accusing Liu Huangrat of "taking my life to rest", it must be difficult to find any chance to turn over, to say the least. (To be continued.) )