According to my opinion, if it were to be transferred, Ensign Ferstor and instructor Pavlov were the best candidates, and they were more than qualified for the post of company commander and instructor of one of the companies, but this proposal was rejected by Commissar Egorov. His reasoning was that the station was the focal point of the division's defensive zone, and the second lieutenants should stick to their posts to prevent a sneak attack by the Germans, and as for the personnel participating in the review, they should be drawn from the troops currently in the second line.

Since he had already said so, even if I had any more opinions, I could only remain silent, so I left him and Crochkov to pick and choose the personnel to refer to, while I stayed at the division headquarters to chat with Panfilov.

Because Stalin could be seen at close range during this review, the soldiers were very enthusiastic when they heard the news, and they did not want to miss this rare opportunity. So much so that it took the two of them almost an hour to select two hundred fighters and temporarily appoint the company commanders and instructors of three companies.

But when the car sent by the headquarters to pick us up arrived, everyone was shocked, there were only three and a half tons of trucks. That is to say, only 80 fighters can participate in the parade on Red Square, except for a few commanders, including me, and the rest have to stay.

Seeing all this, Panfilov stood there without saying a word with a pale face, and Yegorov walked up to him and whispered: "Comrade division commander, look, do we call Comrade Zhukov of the Front Command and ask him to ask the base camp to send us a few more trucks." ”

"No need, the base camp is right to arrange it this way, if our division sends too many people to participate in the review, the strength of the defense will be empty, and it will give the enemy a chance to take advantage of." After Panfilov said this, he paused for a while, and then he said with some embarrassment: "Now it seems that only half of the people can go, what do you think should be arranged?" ”

Yegorov frowned and thought for a while, then shook his head and said: "Comrade division commander, it's not easy to do, whoever goes and who doesn't go, this ideological work is not easy to do, after all, the opportunity to see Comrade Stalin at close range is not something that can be encountered at any time." Speaking of this, he turned his head and asked Crochkov: "Comrade Political Instructor of the First Rank, what do you think should be done?" ”

Crochkov was silent for a moment, as if considering what he should do and how he should solve the problem, but at last he shrugged his shoulders and said, "I don't have the best of both worlds." ”

Panfilov turned to me and said: "Comrade Oshanina, do you have any good ideas?" ”

I nodded, didn't speak, but walked directly to the front of the line lined up in four columns, and said loudly, "Lizheng!" Listen to my orders, all of them, start counting! ”

"One, two, three, four, five......" The fighters began to count.

When the report was over, I announced: "Soldier who reported the odd number, take a step forward!" ”

With my command, half of the warriors in each column took a step forward, and then all eyes were on me, waiting for me to issue the next order.

"Warriors with even numbers, turn back." Seeing the soldiers turn back in unison, I continued to shout the command behind me: "Target: barracks." March! "Although I can only see the backs of the soldiers leaving, I know that their faces must be full of disappointment, but there is no way, who told the base camp to send only three cars, and someone still has to stay.

"Well done!" The division commander came over and patted me on the shoulder, and said approvingly. However, he looked at the rest of the team and said with some concern: "There can only be eighty soldiers in the car, but there are still a hundred people here, what if there are twenty more?" ”

"It doesn't matter, although there are more people, but in order to see Comrade Stalin, they can squeeze in." As I spoke, I shouted at the soldiers, "Did you say so?" ”

"Yes!" Hundreds of voices agreed to me in unison.

"Okay, let's go!" Then the division commander turned to Krochkov and ordered: "You still have a long way to go, you go and command the fighters to board the car!" ”

Crochkov gave a military salute, ran to the truck, and shouted in a loud voice: "All of them, get on - car!" "I raised my hand and saluted the division commander and political commissar, and then ran quickly towards the truck.

I sat in the cab of the lead car, with the driver on the left and Crochkov on the right. Soon after the car drove out, Crochkov's alcohol seemed to come up again, and he actually fell asleep on my shoulder, and I gently pushed him a few times, and seeing that there was no reaction from him, I stopped disturbing him to sleep.

The driver stared ahead, engrossed in driving, and didn't mean to talk to me in the slightest, and I began to close my eyes and recuperate. Closing my eyes, I remembered what Crochkov said just now when he received the medal: "For the service of the Soviet Fatherland!" "He bit the word 'motherland' very hard, which made me feel very uncomfortable in my heart. I couldn't help but start thinking about an important question: Who am I? Where is my home country?

If I were the real Leda, then the USSR would be my homeland; But I still haven't fully adapted to Leda's role, or even my current status as a woman, and I really can't do it if I think of the Soviet Union as my homeland. In my heart, my motherland will always be an ancient civilization in the far east, which is suffering from the invasion of the Japanese invaders. Who won and who lost in the USSR and Germany, and what does it have to do with me? Although the iron hooves of the German never set foot in Moscow, failed to conquer the country. But decades later, in Moscow, there was a group of young people with shaved heads, wearing Nazi uniforms, marching through the streets, saluting Nazi hands and shouting "Long live Hitler". And those neo-Nazis, not Germans, are the descendants of the soldiers who fought the Germans behind me, what a ridiculous thing!

If I hadn't foreseen the outcome of this war, and if I had known that Germany would be defeated and that the Soviet Union would be one of the victors, I would not have fought so hard in many battles, and I could have led my troops to surrender to the Germans when the situation was unfavorable to me, just as the German Major von Tolmann had done a few days ago. However, in the current situation, I can only stand on the side of the Soviet Union, what to fight for the motherland, it is just shouting slogans, my motherland is China, not the Soviet Union. All the battles that are being fought now are just for their own survival.