149 Hurt others and hurt oneself
Zhen Mingkuzheng was wandering aimlessly on the streets of Luoyang, taking out his mobile phone from time to time to take pictures of the streets of Luoyang, and in a few days, he would leave this sad place.
Every time he thought of the hard-hearted woman, he felt like a stone was in his chest, and he couldn't breathe, this woman had taken over all his thoughts at some point, and she had completely erased him from his life in such a ruthless way, that he didn't even want to be in any place where he had ever remembered her.
There have been a lot of beggars on the streets of Luoyang in the past six months, wars are raging, traitors are flocking, and those who suffer are always some unarmed and landless people, refugees from all over the country have poured into Luoyang, so that the situation in Luoyang has slowly become grim, there is still a long queue of soup soup porridge at the door of the Hongxing Courtyard, and the villagers of Feilong are maintaining order there, and when they see Zhen Ming suffering, they greet him from afar.
Zhen Mingku went over to greet them a few words, and several fellows asked about Feilong's whereabouts, and he didn't know how to answer, but said that Feilong had gone to another place and would not be able to come back for a while.
In fact, since they were hunted down and separated by the Salt Gang, Feilong and Yue'er have not heard from them, but Zhen Mingku is not too worried, Feilong has learned a lot of Tai Chi pusher moves from him, and with a little practice, it shouldn't be too much of a problem to deal with one or two little hooligans.
Seeing those beautiful little maids at the back door of the Hongxing Courtyard, he remembered the cute and pretty little girl Miaoyu again, after the last time she was angry with the peony fairy, she was afraid that she didn't even want to see him again, right? If it weren't for her, he might have starved to death on the streets, and politely he should have said goodbye to her, but because the last incident left a bad impression on her, I was afraid that even if he came to the door to ask for a meeting, the other party might not necessarily meet him.
He thought of Lin Po and Xiao Que again, since the opening of Zhang's dim sum workshop, Zhang's often visited the two of them, sent them some daily necessities, gave them some silver taels, they don't have to go out to beg anymore, life should be good, but Zhang's even out of the Song Mansion is a problem now, how should their lives be settled in the future?
Zhen Ming thought hard, and unconsciously came to the door of the small house he rented for Lin Po and Xiao Qi'er.
I was about to knock on the door, but the door creaked open.
Revealing Lin Po's slightly surprised face, Xiao Que'er saw that it was him, cheered, ran over to him, hugged his thighs, and shouted crisply: "Big brother!" ”
Zhen Mingku didn't respond, his expression was sluggish, and he looked at the familiar but unfamiliar pretty face behind Lin Po in a daze, which was the lovely person who made him want to forget and couldn't forget, thinking about it day and night.
Zhang obviously didn't expect to meet him in this place, standing behind Lin Po, his face was surprised, and then, a trace of imperceptible joy and shyness flashed in his eyes.
She has lost a lot of weight, and her face has a haggard color, but she is still so fair-skinned and delicate, delicate as jade.
"Brother Zhen, you're here, I was just about to go to you, quick, quick, come in and sit ......" Lin Po greeted warmly.
Zhen Ming stood still as petrified as he was, staring at her as if he wanted to imprint her appearance in his mind.
Zhang was a little panicked by his burning eyes, so he didn't dare to look at him, lowered his head, and asked softly, "How are you?" ”
"Not good." Zhen Mingbitter didn't even think about it, to tell the truth.
Seeing the scene of the two of them, Lin Po was full of interesting smiles on her face, pulled the little finch away from Zhen Mingku's thigh, and under the pretext of going to the street to buy vegetables, she pulled the little finch who was unwilling to leave and walked away quickly, leaving Zhen Mingku and Zhang standing motionless at the gate of the courtyard.
"I have something to tell you." The two said in unison.
Then there was another sentence: "You speak first." ”
Zhang smiled a little shyly, but he still looked so restrained, but there was no trace of a smile on Zhen Mingku's face.
He said coldly: "I came here to see Lin Po and Xiao Qi'er, I was relieved to see that they were fine, I will leave in a few days, I happened to meet you, and I will tell you by the way." ”
Zhang's body trembled slightly when he heard this, and asked, "Where are you going?" ”
"Go home."
Zhang's face, which was still faint and shy, turned white all of a sudden, raised his head, with mist in his eyes, and looked at him pitifully: "Is it because of me?" ”
Zhen Mingku's sudden impulse swelled up, just like when she used those clumsy words to hurt him, a despicable emotion drove him to nod without hesitation: "En." ”
Sure enough, as he expected, Zhang's tears flowed instantly.
This woman's tears have always been very sudden, overwhelming, and he may have tried his best to make her laugh without self-esteem, but now he is not in the mood.
The more he wanted to get close to this woman, the more he pretended to be indifferent: "There are your shadows everywhere here, when I think of you, my heart hurts like a knife, I only hate why you rescued me from the water in the first place, why didn't you let me drown in the water, I also hate why I met a woman like you, if I had known that you would be so ruthless, I wouldn't have let myself fall so deep, because of your words, I cried by the river for three days, I don't know what reason I have to stay here, Maybe it's only by leaving that I'm better off. ”
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry......" Zhang kept apologizing with his head down, tears falling to the ground.
Zhen Mingku felt that his heart was starting to hurt again, he wanted to slap himself a few times, and then kneel in front of her to repent and apologize, begging for her love, he himself couldn't figure it out, he had already decided to leave, why did he stab her a few times before leaving, knowing that she couldn't help herself, but he still wanted to hurt her so despicably, and the cruel words rushed out without even thinking about it.
Only now did he realize that he was such a stingy person in his bones, especially to his beloved, so stingy that he even had to remember every word she said in his heart.
"What are you going to tell me?" He asked.
Zhang choked and shook his head, and stopped talking.
"Then goodbye, I hope in the next life, we don't meet again." He managed to resist the urge to kneel down to her and beg for love, and turned away, his back extremely dashing.
……
Three days passed.
Today is the day to leave, everything has been arranged, those who should say goodbye have already said goodbye, those who don't want to say goodbye, Zhen Mingku has been hiding it, he deliberately made an excuse, sent Xing'er and Huan'er out, and then left a letter, took the time and space shuttle test device that he had been making up for dozens of days, rented a carriage, and rushed to the dock outside Luoyang City......