My name is Su Qingren, I am ten years old and I am a good boy.

"Kyungin is such a good boy, you are awesome!"

"Qingren is such a good boy, you are so good!"

"Kyungin is such a good boy, come and eat candy!"

"Kyungin is such a good boy, come and drink soup!"

My mother often said this about me, and the second mother and the fourth mother also said the same about me, but what I don't understand is that my father doesn't seem to think so, my father always likes to treat me as a bear child, I don't understand why my father thinks I'm a bear child and not my father's child, I don't have long hair, I don't have such sharp teeth and claws, and I don't have the size of a bear, and everyone says that I and my father are printed in the same mold, and it is obvious that I should be my father's child and not a bear child, But the father he ......

"Bear child! Hurry up and come over to warm the book for Lao Tzu! ”

"Bear child! Hurry up and give Lao Tzu to come and practice martial arts! ”

"Bear child! Hurry up and bring tea and water to Lao Tzu! ”

"Bear child! Hurry up and rub Lao Tzu's back! ”

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I never understood why my father hated bears, but I knew that my father must hate bears, because my father hated me, so he called me a bear child, because I was a bear child, so my father also hated me, but I also didn't like my father, fierce, didn't have a good face for me at all, I often imagined the stake I practiced as my father, and then beat him with a wooden stick to get angry, hehe, I was really a witty child.

But I didn't know before, but now that I know, I really think that my father is a very powerful person, I heard my grandfather Li Jing say that my father was only fourteen years old when he first joined the army, and then he went to the battlefield to fight. After a big battle, more than 30,000 enemies were burned to death, and a great khan of a Turkic state was captured, I didn't know what 30,000 people meant at first, until one day Master Li Jing took me to see the big training in the barracks, I understood.

So I think my father is really a great person, as a man. I think I should be like my father, he was the object of my greatest desire at that time, I thought, if I do what my father says, I will definitely be praised by my father, praised by my father, loved by my father, valued by my father, and then my father will also say that I am a good child. Well, I'm a little excited to think about it!

But I gradually discovered that no matter how much I did what my father said, my father would not be satisfied with me, not even a word of praise, and my father would often smile at my cousin and second cousin, and then pat them on the shoulder, saying that they were worthy of my great uncle's son. The tiger father has no dogs, but he has never done this to me. I really hope that I can be praised by my father like this, and one day he can say to me: "Well done, you really deserve to be my son of Suning." ”

Four years ago, I had a younger brother, and my father named him Su Qingli, and I still remember how happy my father was at the beginning. How happy my father is, holding my younger brother around every day, makes me a little jealous that this young brother can get so much favor from my father, but after a few years. My father didn't have a good face for my younger brother anymore, and I didn't understand, and then my mother told me in private that when I was young, my father treated me like this.

My father loves us very much, but he won't let us know that he loves us, he will only check our schoolwork with a strained face, my four-year-old brother is with me, my brother's schoolwork is simpler, and I don't need to practice martial arts, and I have a lot of homework and martial arts tasks, but I remember that I used to be as easy as my brother, but my father really loved us as my mother said?

Tiger with a face, never smiled at me, since my brother was four years old, he has never shown a smile to his brother, my father always gives me a sense of majesty, he often shows a smile in front of others, he has a lot of friends, there are many elders, he has a good relationship with many people, often laughing and joking with others, I often hide in other places to see my father like this, even when there is no one else, when he is with his family, my father is smiling.

But only my brother and I are the worst, my father only knows how to ask about schoolwork and martial arts practice when he sees us, my sisters are doing better than me and my brother, my father dotes on my sisters very much, and the food and clothing are very good, compared to me and my brother, it is simply a heaven and an earth, I really suspect that I am a bear child, picked up by my father, even my brother is the same, they are all bear children, so my father hates us.

My only companion is my brother.

I don't know why my father treats me and my brother like this, I once asked my father, and my father said with a smile, because my father loves us very much, my father loves us deeply, so I don't want us to become useless people, only when we become useful people, my father will smile at us, and will say that I am really worthy of being his son of Suning, and my father also said that my father was the same, and my father did not have a good face for my father, but my father really loved my father, just like Uncle Bo Yao, the same love.

Uncle Bo Yao is a very good-looking person, I think Uncle Bo Yao is even better looking than my father, and very gentle, when I was young, my favorite person was Uncle Bo Yao, Uncle Bo Yao often took me out to play behind my back, and then told me some things about him and his father when he was young, such as how he and his father met, and then what interesting things happened, and some things that they experienced between a group of good friends that made them unforgettable.

I really envy them, my father is so kind to them, so gentle.

It's just me and my brother, so miserable.

"I don't think my father likes me and my brother at all." I once complained to Uncle Bo Yao about my father like this, but I didn't expect Uncle Bo Yao to laugh and say to me very gently: "Qingren, you are wrong to blame your father, your father really loves you and Qingli very much, maybe he is a little harsh with you, you think he may not love you, but you are really wrong, your father, how to say, he will not show you the side that he loves you the most." ”

I wondered, so I asked, "Why?" Why was the father reluctant to do this? ”

Uncle Bo Yao smiled and said, "Qingren, think about it." I treat you like this, you love to play with me, but if one day I get angry with you and hit you, you will play with me in the future. Treat it as if nothing like this has ever happened? ”

I felt even more strange: "Uncle Bo Yao, how can such a good person treat me like this?" ”

Uncle Bo Yao touched my head and said to me, "What if I really do this?" ”

I didn't know how to answer, I lowered my head and didn't speak, and Uncle Bo Yao said: "If that kind of thing really happened, you wouldn't be so close to me anymore, you wouldn't like me to play with you so much, your father cares about you more and loves you more." So if he has been so good to you and one day he is you, you will be very sad, very angry, and even hate your father.

Bo Yao, you are still young, you still don't understand, but I still have to sue you. I once asked your father why he was so you. Your father said to me that if he had been so gentle with you from the beginning, you would have expected him to be so gentle with you, and then he would have no fear, and if one day you made a big mistake, your father would be angry and reprimand you. If you are beaten by family law, your father's image will collapse for a long time, and the impact will be very great, so your father would rather treat you like this from the beginning, and you will not be hurt more severely. ”

I don't understand. I don't understand at all, what's wrong with me like Uncle Bo Yao, I am my father's son, my father is my father, why is my father unwilling to be gentle with me, but Uncle Bo Yao is very willing? I once said to Uncle Bo Yao very sadly that I wanted to be Uncle Bo Yao's son, but Uncle Bo Yao smiled and said that my father loved me far more than Uncle Bo Yao.

How could such a father love me?

He didn't even let go of his little brother, how could he love us? I fell, my mother came to help me with the dressing, my father would only ask me more harshly the next day, and he wouldn't ask me what was going on, I was sick, and my mother or Erniang came to take care of me, and my father never showed up, so it was called loving me? What I eat, wear, and use is all handled by my mother and second mother, and my father will never be in it.

Dad really hates me, doesn't he?

One day, I just broke a cup, my father scolded me angrily, I cried and ran away, it was raining heavily, when I ran into the yard, my father did not come to chase me, or my mother let me soak in a hot bath at night, changed my clothes, my father never appeared, the next day did not say anything, still very strict with me, ask my brother.

I'm going to get out of here, when I'm grown up and become a man, I'm going to leave here, I'm going to stay away from my father, I'm going to never see him again, I hate him, I really hate him! I want to take my brother with me, leave here together, I want to take my brother with me and never see him again, I want to rely on my brother for my life, live a chivalrous life, wander the world, and when I have a child, I will not treat him like my father treats me, I want to be good to him, be gentle with him, educate him well, and not let him hate me like I hate my father.

I said this to my master, I said, master, I really hate my father, I hate him so much, when I grow up, I want to stay away from here, I want to stay away from him, I don't want to see him again!

I also said to Uncle Bo Yao that I hate my father very much, and I don't want to talk to my father anymore!

I also said to Uncle Chu Mo, to Uncle Changsun, to Uncle Zhen, they are much better to me than my father is to me, sure enough, my father always calls me a bear child, he really hates me, I am a bear child, I am not my father's child, that's why my father hates me like this!

I also said this to my mother, I said to my mother, my father is not my father, I am not my father's child, I am a bear child, that's why my father hates me like this, right! I'm a bear child, and I'm going to the mountains to look for bears! After finding the bear, I'll pick up my mother and Erniang again!

My mother looked at me with a look of incomprehension, but I decided that tonight I was leaving, I was going to pack my bags and leave here overnight, this is not my home, I was going to find my real home! Kindness! That's it! So I started to pack my luggage, I want to leave here, in the evening, I tell my brother, my brother will take you out of here, let's go to the mountains, we go to find the bear, to find the real father and home, the younger brother doesn't seem to understand, it doesn't matter, I'll clean up, I let my brother sleep, I'll clean up myself.

My sticks, my clothes, my shoes, my pants, my ...... Forget it, I don't bring books, I don't want books, bring a few steamed buns, and steamed buns, eat on the road, and, there is money......

I packed my package and then I got into bed, I felt very tired, I needed to rest, it was probably not the darkest time, so I had to sleep, and when it was darkest, it would be the best time for me to get out of here.

In a daze, I felt someone push open the door and sit next to me, and then, I felt a hand on my face, stroking my face, is it Mother? Only a mother would do that to me......

"Bear child, you have to go to the mountains to find the bear, it is really right to say that you are a bear child, you are not my son or whose son, alas! Why hasn't this injury healed yet? Didn't that bastard of the eldest grandson say that it would work in one day? I really shouldn't believe him, damn it, I'm going to beat him up tomorrow! This kind of thing still has to find Lao Sun to be reliable......

If you want to run away from home, you have to sue so many people, I really think I don't know anything, bear child, stupid, not as smart as your dad and me, your dad and I will run away from home when I am three years old, really! Stupid! But who called you my son? I'm your daddy, how can I leave you alone! Stinky boy, don't think Lao Tzu doesn't know what it means for you to engrave Lao Tzu's name on the stake! Call you stupid, you're really stupid......"

I listened to my father's intermittent whispering to himself, and his big hand constantly stroking my cheek, I just felt that I couldn't fall asleep, and then, my father stroked my brother who was sleeping next to me, and then changed the quilt for the two of us, and stroked my head, and then quietly left, the whole process, my father did not make any sound, and I did not hear clearly what he said later.

But after my father left, I didn't sleep all night, until the next morning, when I thought I didn't want to sleep at all, and I had many, many things to figure out......

But my father is still the same, I don't have the slightest feeling from last night, I don't know if last night was a dream or real, and I don't know if the feeling on my cheek that my father touched was real or illusory.

All day, I'm still very tired, I can't stand it, the fatigue from not sleeping last night makes my eyelids fight constantly.

My father had been looking at me with a cold face, and then he came up to me, looked carefully at the stake, looked at my stick, and then looked at me, and said to me: "That's all for today, see that you are listless, and you don't have a good rest, go back and take a hot bath, and rest early!" ”

I seemed to think I had misheard, and this time, my father didn't reprimand me......

I thought that was the end of it, however, I was wrong......

"You did a good job today, I'm very satisfied, Qingren, you also did a good job, you really deserve to be my son of Suning." My father's voice was not loud, and he turned his back, and I could hear it almost ......

However, at that moment, I only felt that goosebumps were rising all over my body, and I felt that something in my body was bursting instantly, and at that moment, I only felt that I felt like crying......

In my hazy vision, I felt that I saw my father's look of bewilderment that I had never seen before, and what I didn't remember what he said, and he helped me wipe my tears and snot and panic......

My name is Su Qingren, and I never expected that I would finally let my father say to me what I wanted to hear the most, and, hehe, I am really a witty child! (To be continued......)