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Qingyi casually wore a coat and went out. It was getting colder, but there was something else that was more important to him. That's ......

"I'm not a genius, I'm not a genius......" he muttered vigorously, almost like a deep resentful 'woman'. Last night, he took the blood ship sailor as the enemy, practiced the nine palace steps, and found that he really couldn't remember the dazzling and 'chaotic' footwork, and it seemed that he was a fool talking in his dreams to get stronger.

At first glance, I don't know how high or low I am. There is no way to have superior martial arts like the black 'color' sharp, and it is also impossible to compete with the bald eagle militarily. I don't have any special skills at all, and I'm not a chosen one...... This evaluation is really disappointing, although the reviewer is myself. Even if he comforted himself with "I'm also a necromancer", Qingyi didn't feel that his resentment showed any signs of disappearing.

As agreed, Black 'Color' Fengrui and Qingyi met inside the subway station. The two of them didn't talk nonsense and went straight to the clinic. This clinic is located in downtown 'Boston', right next to the Public Library.

After walking into the clinic, Qingyi came to the front desk and called the nurse so, because she was wearing a nurse's outfit and said, "Hello, I have an appointment." My surname is Zhang. ”

"Hello, Mr. Zhang. Our clinic must sign an agreement with you that all information involved in the treatment will be kept strictly confidential. Please sign here. The nurse took out a copy of the text and diligently pointed out what should be paid attention to for Qingyi.

"I'm waiting outside. This time I had to kill this old mountain dragon. "The black 'color' sharpened the chair in the waiting room, took out the handheld game console, and began the 'fierce' battle. His PSP is also black 'colored'.

Qingyi shrugged and walked into the room. There was a computer desk in front of him, and behind it sat a man with a 'good' face. Instead of wearing those traditional white coats, he wore a suit, not like a doctor. He gestured to his seat, "Hello, please take a seat." Let's have a casual chat. You don't have to think of me as a psychiatrist, you can say whatever you want. ”

Seeing that Qingyi didn't speak, he smiled understandingly: "Why don't you introduce yourself first?" ”

"My name is Zhang Qingyi and I'm from Guangdong, China. I am a recent college graduate and am currently working for a food delivery company. Qingyi said.

"Oh, which delivery company?" The doctor was signing the file, and suddenly he was interested.

"Little Bee Express."

"I'll just say how familiar you are, you used to deliver takeout to my house. What a coincidence. ”

"Really?" Qingyi smiled. He leaned back slightly in his chair. He found that some of his nervousness had disappeared.

"My name is House. Okay, young people, let's do a questionnaire first, shall we? What would you like to drink? Coffee? Black tea? The doctor got up and asked Qingyi for his opinion.

"Coke, thank you."

"Oh, we've got to make Miss Nurse run the 'leg.'" Dr. House smiled and closed the door and left, leaving Qingyi alone indoors.

The questions on the questionnaire are very straightforward, such as "Have you ever had nightmares?" or "Have you been in conflict with others recently?" Qingyi feels that the questionnaire is very commonplace, and if these questions are used to evaluate the 'spirit' state of human beings, then eighty percent of human beings have mental illness. Still, he filled it all in a few clicks and put it on the table.

After a while, Dr. House came back with a can, 'handed it over' to Qingyi, and then typed the answers from the questionnaire into the computer. He frowned slightly: "Depression ......"

Qingyi bit the straw and thought: Sure enough.

"and a certain amount of traumatic 'sexual' memory." Dr. House looked thoughtfully at the screen, then turned his face and smiled, "That's normal. Anyone is going to be in trouble, don't mind too much. ”

Traumatic 'sexual' memories? The first time Qingyi heard this term, he immediately remembered it deeply.

"Have you been in conflict with people lately? Why? ”

"I laid off an employee in the company. I didn't have to, but I didn't say anything to keep him. Qingyi thought of Harry. I think it's because of my personal emotional instability. ”

"Why is it unstable?"

"I had a huge failure in an online game, and I felt very uncomfortable and depressed at one point. I ......" Qingyi suddenly couldn't continue. His fingers were twisted tightly, as if they were going to strangle each other.

Dr. House said kindly, "Take a sip of Coke and then speak slowly." We had plenty of time. ”

The coolness of carbon dioxide rising from the stomach wall made Qingyi feel a little better. He exhaled and said, "Because of this, I have become impersonal, and I don't even have 'sex'. That's what I think. ”

"People sometimes underestimate themselves. In my opinion, you are normal. ”

Qingyi smiled bitterly and shook his head: "It's different." I know myself very well. I have violent tendencies. I have an exclusive 'desire'. Sometimes I have a lot of emotional 'waves' and I can't listen to what others are saying. ”

"So, have you ever been depressed? I mean, before you lose the game? Dr. House did not rush to take notes, but leaned forward seriously, taking every word of Qingyi to heart.

"There were, but the discomfort was different." Thinking of the days when he hadn't fallen to level 0, Qingyi said: "I'm very happy, and I won't be depressed at all." Until the game changes - ah, this time and the game failure are different time periods. I was also very depressed after the game changed, but it slowly got better. ”

"Have you talked to anyone about these issues?"

"Nope." Qingyi found that he rarely 'befriended' others, even the best Mrs. Green, who had relationships with him. If those negative, 'shady' things were known to Mrs. Green, I am afraid that Mrs. Green would be afraid of him. He didn't want to see such an outcome, so he never confided in anyone.

He finally understood that he also needed to be recognized, and he didn't want to be an outlier.

Dr. House then asked, "So, do you have any particularly dramatic, obvious impressions?" When you were extremely anxious or depressed, did you have an impression that came to mind? Can you describe it? ”

Qingyi's mind suddenly emptied, and he saw ...... A bloody mouth flashed in front of his eyes, about to devour himself completely. Immediately he fell into the bottomless abyss, and he sank all the time, all the time, and all the time, and he remained in a sinking state forever, and he was 'lost' in the dark......

"Sir, sir!"

Dr. House's voice pulled Qingyi's thoughts back. Qingyi waved his hand and wiped off the sweat on his face first, only to find that he was panting like a drowning person. He took a sip of Coke and almost knocked it to the ground, barely composed.

"Don't be afraid, let's take our time." Dr. House said, looking at the monitor, "Shall we listen to some music?" ”

"No...... Doctor! I'm fine. I could go on. Qingyi wiped a few more handfuls of sweat, because beads of sweat were unrelenting on his skin. He looked at the doctor, "I can handle it." ”

Dr. House grimaced, "No, sir. You need to relax. Trust the advice of the professionals. Let's take our time...... That's right, that's it. Do you like to play games? Is it "Qiankun"? ”

"That's right."

"It was a lot of fun, even though I gave up after a long day of playing. You're a combat professional, right? Is it strong? ”

"Hmm...... So so. "It's funny that psychological counseling is actually related to the game...... Qingyi thought of his graduation thesis, and the corners of his mouth couldn't help but bend upward.

Dr. House noticed his light smile and said, "The game change you mentioned refers to the 'doomsday' confrontation?" ”

"Yes."

"Did you also happen to the game that you just saw?"

Qingyi knew what the doctor was referring to. But unexpectedly, after this short questioning, my nervousness was gone. Maybe it's the efficacy of Coke? He nodded: "I've seen it once in the game, but the others are seen in life." However, that one in the game was not the first. ”

"That is, you brought illusions into the game. So, can you describe the illusion for me? ”

Qingyi took a deep breath. The vivid illusion just now was still shrouded in my mind, like a demonic atmosphere that could not be dispersed. He closed his eyes and said word by word, "That's a big mouth, swallowing me head-on." Very...... Terrible. After being swallowed, they will fall into darkness and only regain their consciousness when they are reminded by others. It's dark in front of you, yes, it's the state of being in front of you. ”

"You may have low blood sugar, but you really should drink more Coke." Dr. House notes, laughing, "Hypoglycemia always causes physical discomfort. If you squat for a long time and then stand up suddenly, it is easy to get dark. ”

"Really......"

"Do you remember when you saw that bloody mouth? Try to dig into the depths of those scenes, and maybe we'll find the crux of the problem. ”

Qingyi closed his eyes. A bloody mouth flashed in front of his eyes, about to devour himself completely.

Bloody mouths.

Engulf.

Death.

Qingyi's eyes widened, and he roared and shook his fist. He pinched the can in his hand and sprayed the soda all over his jeans and sneakers, but he didn't notice it at all. He just screamed frantically at something he couldn't see, and there was a thick dead air in his eyes. The 'door' was pushed open at once, but it was the black 'colored' sharp edge of the PSP in his hand: "What's going on?!" ”

"Help hold him!" Dr. House shouted, and as he spoke, he was hit on the forehead by Qingyi's fist.

The black 'color' sharp knife chopped at the back of Qingyi's head with one hand, knocking him unconscious.

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Traumatic 'sexual' memory ('Psycho' trauma or psychological trauma refers to those mental, emotional, and even physical abnormalities caused by more serious injuries in life. This abnormality may be mild and can resolve spontaneously after a period of self-adjustment, usually within three months. But there are also some 'spiritual' traumatic effects that last for a long time, often even lifelong. For more severe 'essence' trauma, it is called "post-traumatic stress disorder" in psychology and the classification of 'essence' psychiatry, abbreviation of post-traticstress disorder: PTSD.

People often judge the severity of the traumatic event according to the severity of the traumatic event, thinking that if a person encounters a serious and terrible disaster event such as 911, the tsunami in Southeast Asia, etc., then he must have suffered severe mental trauma, on the contrary, if the traumatic event is not very serious, such as a broken love or workplace setback, etc., it will be considered that the person's spiritual injury will not be serious. In fact, this view is very wrong. For a person with a strong heart, a very serious traumatic event may not cause serious 'spiritual' trauma, on the contrary, for a person who is psychologically fragile, an event that is generally considered not very serious is enough to cause serious 'spiritual' trauma. Therefore, we judge the severity of a person's mental trauma not based on the severity of the traumatic event, but on the degree of psychological, emotional, and physiological reactions of the person involved.

Mild mental trauma may manifest as depressed mood, depression, sadness and tears, decreased motivation for life, reluctance to 'socialize' with others, lack of interest in life, etc. This situation is very common in our lives, and even strictly speaking, everyone has to experience it many times in their lives. This condition usually heals itself through the comfort and support of loved ones and friends, self-regulation, and after a period of adjustment, without the need for professional treatment. However, if the above conditions persist for more than 3 months, you should consider seeking professional help. Treatment can be through 'medicine', but it can also be through non-'medicine' counselling or psychotherapy.

Moderate 'spiritual' trauma may manifest as prolonged depression, pessimism and misanthropy, social 'sexual' loneliness and autism, or severe sleep disturbances, anxiety and nervousness, fear and timidity, and even suicidal tendencies. At this time, it is often misdiagnosed as depression, neurasthenia, anxiety or phobias. After taking antidepressant drugs, the effect of anti-anxiety drugs is not good. Therefore, it is necessary to treat the wounds of the spirit and the soul in a special, special, and professional treatment to be effective. Treatment mainly relies on non-'drug' psychotherapy, which can only play an auxiliary role.

&sd, in addition to the above-mentioned symptoms, it also has typical symptoms, such as the memory or image of the harmful event constantly appearing in the dream, or constantly reappearing in the mind even in the waking state, so that the victim is often in a state of panic and pain, as if the traumatic event had just happened. This phenomenon is known as "flashbacks". In addition, many normal scenes in life can become "trigger points" that 'induce' traumatic memories, awakening memories and experiences of traumatic events, resulting in strong emotional and physical responses. More severe trauma, especially in childhood, can also cause severe personality distortions and psychopathologies. For this condition, it is necessary to go through systematic and rigorous 'spirit' trauma treatment to be cured or improved.

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Qingyi has no impression of the results of the diagnosis and treatment. He only knew that he was woken up by the black 'color' sharp 'color' splashing his face with cold water. After the next follow-up appointment with Dr. House, Qingyi went home exhausted. From the bruises on the doctor's forehead, he could roughly guess what he had done.

As soon as he got home, he didn't immediately play games, but instead searched the Internet for information, especially about the term "traumatic 'sexual' memory". After reading the information, Qingyi couldn't say anything. He knew he was suffering from a severe 'spirit' trauma. That bloody mouth constantly "flashbacks" in his life, leaving him tormented.

What exactly should I do?

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After watching "Solo Travel", I am watching "Tactical Genius". I think I should check out the StarCraft Pro video. I like to read a lot of books, and I like a lot of writers, and my grades are inseparable from these "teachers". If you are a threesome, you must have my teacher. Of course, my books also have their own style, have original 'sex', and are no worse than them in some ways. The reason why book lovers can see some familiar names is not plagiarism, but tribute. I've paid homage to Disney several times......

My style, should it be "miscellaneous"? …… It seems that there are always a lot of things stuffed into me, just like the "traumatic 'sexual' memory" that appears in this chapter; Interested book friends can naturally broaden their knowledge, and they usually have a conversation when they chat, but book friends who are not interested can naturally choose to ignore 'sex'. Qingyi's psychological 'yin' shadow is borrowed from Kyogoku Natsuhiko's "The Summer of Gu Won Birds", which can be regarded as an important foreshadowing - the reason why he has a split personality is finally mentioned as a preliminary reason, and some book friends can clear his name with peace of mind. Except for psychological trauma, other things have been foreshadowed, but they have been written by me so much that no one can see it. Of course, I can't say that "people are really not very observant", but I will be very modest and say, "Maybe it's because I'm smarter."

There are so many recent author testimonials...... Gotta control it. For various reasons, some book reviews have not had time to reply, please forgive me. I'd love to talk to you about the plot — though there are a bit more spoilers — and I'll be online a lot, so book friends can find me in the group! ～

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