Chapter 111: Thanksgiving
"You might even really generate a second personality. All in all, if you want to solve this problem once and for all, you should not intentionally induce negative states in the rest of your treatment. ”
Dr. House's tone was inadmissible, and Qingyi had no choice but to nod. The other party was not at ease, and asked: "Do you really understand?" ”
"Understood. It's just that if I don't 'blacken', I can't solve the problem of 'substitution' and 'letting go'. ”
It was a no-brainer, but Dr. House understood it quickly. He frowned and pondered, and then said for a while: "'Substitution' is very easy to understand, but 'letting go' seems to involve Eastern Zen. ”
"I'd like to hear your insights." Qingyi hurriedly said.
"Well, it's related to your treatment anyway. To say 'substitution', you have to say RPGs (role-playing games) first, and of course I don't mean rocket artillery. In role-playing games, the player puts himself in the shoes of the protagonist and then progresses through the story, which inevitably overlaps himself with the character. The better the plot and the fuller the character creation of the game, the easier it is for people to have a sense of substitution. Many people still can't help but fall in love with game characters. This is the early 'substitution'. ”
"In today's games, especially online games, the main character can be created exactly as you want it to. The character may look similar to you, but it's still just a virtual person, and it doesn't exactly match you. You have to 'substitute'. For example, a five-foot-tall girl has to play the role of a six-foot-tall orc. In "Qiankun", the more people who know how to 'substitute', the more free they are, and the more they can enjoy the game. They're like actors, you know, every veteran actor takes every scene seriously. By the way, in my mind, Brosnan is James Bang, and the others are just unpopular agents disguised as James Bang. ”
"However, your 'Tyrant of Bones' is a special case. It may seem like you've made changes to adjust to your new role after being reborn, but in fact, the dark side of your heart has been brewing since childhood, and it has only been buried deep in your heart, only awakened after the 'apocalyptic confrontation', and it has a surprising fit with your character. In fact, even if you don't turn into a necromantic creature but a Loch Ness Monster, your dark side will still erupt. Therefore, your 'letting go' is not something that can be done with your lips, your mind must be restored to a healthy and normal level, and you can overcome the psychological shadow. Inducing your own heart palpitations repeatedly is not an ideal treatment. ”
Qingyi nodded in agreement.
Dr. House looked at the clock and said, "Okay, while we still have some time, why don't we pick up where we left off?" For example, the problem of homicidal maniacs? ”
"Ah, yes. ' The Bone Tyrant is a homicidal maniac, and basically, everything that comes in front of him is a dead end. I don't think I can blame it entirely because it's a part of me too...... It's the equivalent of a soul fragment. Even before it happens, I'm going to do something that makes sense of killing. ”
"For example?"
"Oh, it's very common, like stomping on cockroaches scurrying around in the kitchen, or swatting mosquitoes buzzing around. I found that it wasn't just me, everyone didn't seem guilty about killing bugs. Qingyi clasped his hands together vigorously, imitating the movements of mosquitoes. Humans also invented the fly swatter. ”
"That's a pest, they all cause harm and have to be killed."
Qingyi smiled: "I seem to think the same way when I killed a pregnant woman in the game. Those who follow me prosper, and those who oppose me die, and the ruthlessness of the 'White Bone Tyrant' can be seen. As for the slaughter of the city, it was not because the people of the city were capable of harm, it was just that I wanted to expand the army. ”
Dr. House stared at him and wanted to say something, but he held back for a long time before he said "wow" and then cried and laughed.
"This is 'substitution'. My character is a necromantic creature, so I can't think in terms of human values, and I can't use human emotions as a yardstick. I am a despicable person standing in the sea of corpses and blood, selfish and unsentimental by nature, I only want and seek profit, and of course I will do whatever it takes to achieve my ends. Qingyi grinned and raised four fingers: "I think that all known necromancer kings are like me, and they have some kind of dangerous tendencies in human nature, otherwise they would not be able to sit on the throne." Take the guy sitting outside, he's qualified enough to be among us. He says 'I'm a good person' all day long, and who would believe it? ”
"However, I was looking for another path." His words changed suddenly: "I don't want to kill anymore." Maybe at that time, I could still disemboweled the pregnant woman peacefully, but in retrospect, I felt very uncomfortable. When I became myself again, I would redouble my hatred of the Bone Tyrant, but I would have to rely on it. I've had enough, too. I want to change myself, I want to wash the blood off my hands, I want to change back to the June sunshine I used to be. ”
Dr. House then smiled: "Yes, I heard from my nephew that you accepted Saramonro with a huge advantage, and were willing to give up the land instead of taking the opportunity to invade. Geographically, you don't have a chance to fight other countries. The 'Tyrant of the Bones' would never make such a decision. ”
"Well, of course I know that killing or controlling all the Saramonroes is the best option, but I can't do it. I can destroy Orquilla, I can send troops to Astant, I can go toe-to-toe with Seruvea, I can challenge Bigbowo, but Saramonro is the only thing I'll never touch...... Pure Land. I also decided that when Saramonro was caught in the middle of a war, I would lend a hand for free. You may think I'm hypocritical, but I know no. ”
Qingyi raised his head, looked at the ceiling, and said, "I want to do something that has nothing to do with material interests." Do you know? The human relationship is closely tied to the word 'profit', and I always thought so until I broke off the relationship with my teammates and walked in a sea of bones in decadence. But I finally learned that there are always people who approach you not for profit. They guide you, they enlighten you, and they are willing to spend their precious time for you. An old skeleton helped me, and I still remember it to this day. Not only him, but Mrs. Green, Mentor Johansen, White Night Streamer, Yu Qingfeng, Jiang Huahuo, Poison Rosewood, and the guy sitting outside, they all genuinely helped me. Showing favor is in return, while helping is not in return. I thank them for their help. If I agree with the 'rational people' that they help me to be happy, I still have to thank them. ”
"Give people roses, and there is a lingering fragrance in your hands. As long as you know how to be grateful and repay the society with kindness, then your mental state will definitely be able to be adjusted. Again, I'm not denying the dark side of human nature entirely, but if everyone showed the dark side, the country would have been doomed. Dr. House got up and smiled, "That's all for today." ”
"Can I borrow it and watch it?" Qingyi pointed to the comic book.
Dr. House folded the books in order: "Of course, but don't crumple it, or my son will be too angry to eat." ”
"Thank you."
"You're welcome."
When I came out, I saw that the black sharp was still playing with the IPAD, the candy fell off the screen, and the little green thing waiting to eat the candy made a chagrin sound. Black Feng cursed, saw Qingyi, conveniently stuffed the machine into the satchel, and said, "Let's go, go eat, I'm starving." ”
Foodie. Qingyi sighed in his heart.
"Don't say I'm a foodie." Black Sharp Road.
Qingyi was surprised: "How do you see it?" ”
"Your expression betrays you." The black sharp side of the face is cool. "Didn't I tell you? If the city government is not enough, it is easy for people to see through the mind. Let's go. ”
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Sitting in the Moxiang Building, Qingyi talked with Hei Fengrui about "nourishing qi" again.
"So you're still going to fight? Everyone else is inviting the gods to come up, but it's good for you to invite the demons to come up. Black Edge quipped as he flipped through the comics. He always pouted when he looked at it, as if he was holding a picture book of literacy: "What's so great about Japanese swords, Chinese swords are powerful." If I could draw, I would have to draw a cartoon of Chinese using swords to save the world, and of course, I wouldn't save Japan. ”
"Let's start with Qi cultivation as a high-level spiritual therapy." Qingyi ignored the second half of the other party's sentence at all, snatched the comics, and forced the other party to participate in the discussion: "You said that I am not suitable for qi cultivation, it is because I am very easy to induce psychological shadows in the process of qi cultivation." But I need to nourish my energy, because only on that occasion can I calm down, feel the other side of me and talk to it. ”
"But you're playing with your life, you know? It is not necessary that only knives, ropes, and hard objects can kill people, and there are many people who are scared alive and die of fear. When people are in a state of tension, they don't know what adrene-fueling or other surges are like, and it is easy to cause insufficient blood supply to the brain and coma. Your body is already weak, and you will go crazy in three days, and if you continue like this, you will definitely have a short life. Black Edge rebuked unceremoniously.
"Short your system, I have to cross this hurdle anyway. It would be great if they could be killed. Qingyi's hand holding the water cup suddenly shook, and a little water shook out. The blood on his face lightened, and he seemed to be about to turn bone white: "Oh, it seems that my other side doesn't like that sentence just now. ”
"You're invincible, just wait for schizophrenia and go to a mental hospital. Do you practice Qi cultivation today? ”
"No, I want to learn from the chef here, okay?"
"Yes." Black Sharp agreed smoothly, and then reacted, and his voice changed: "You and you say it again, what do you want to learn?!" ”
"Egg fried rice!" Qingyi is resolute and authentic.