It is obviously impossible to let Qian Mingguang out of the shadows with a few words, if everything in the world is so easy, how can there be so many depressed people committing suicide.

But it is undeniable that although Qian Mingguang still has not been able to get out of the shadows, but after these few days of contemplation, coupled with the fun brought to him by the military book, Qian Mingguang's situation has improved a lot, in the past few days, Qian Mingguang slowly figured out a lot of things, even if he still feels self-blame and remorse for the death of the family of three, but just as Sun Ming said, anything can happen on the battlefield, and that kind of thing is not what anyone wants.

Yes, he killed the wrong person, and his hands will always be stained with blood that cannot be washed away, so let him spend the rest of his life repenting of his sins.

As for that approach, if no one will repeat their mistakes in the future, the only way to solve all this problem is to solve it at its root, that is, to make the war disappear.

Only when the war disappears will there be no more innocent people in this world, and there will be no more recruits like myself who mistakenly killed prisoners and children.

Let the war disappear, this is Qian Mingguang's method of forgiving sins, very good, very good.

Thinking about it, if he picked up the war knife in his hand again in the future, the heavenly spirit of the family of three would not feel angry, and would even feel gratified.

When Qian Mingguang appeared on the battlefield again to kill the enemy, he was no longer fighting simply for his vanity as before, but for the things he was carrying.

Three lives, in exchange for the growth of a recruit, this price, no one is qualified to say whether it is worth it or not, because life is the most precious thing in the world from beginning to end.

If you want to make the war disappear, the best way is to completely uproot a hostile force, and without the enemy, there will naturally be no more war.

Qian Mingguang chose a road full of blood, this road is very difficult for him, very difficult, but fortunately, this road is full of hope, because he is not the first person to do this, someone has already walked in front of him in advance, and someone has already cut off many obstacles on the road ahead for him.

That person is Huo Quai, for the sake of the Han Dynasty, for the people of the Han Dynasty, he embarked on that bloody path at a very young age, overcoming obstacles all the way, invincible, unlike Qian Mingguang, Huo Qubing did not embark on such a road for forgiveness, he simply just wanted to let the people of the Han Dynasty not have to experience the pain of war in the future, he just wanted to make the Han Empire a real empire.

Other than that, there are no superfluous thoughts.

Kill, the more people you kill, the more prosperous the peaceful and prosperous world will be in the future.

Kill, the more people you kill, the more innocent people will die on the battlefield in the future.

Killing people is to let more people live, but there will still be people who die, this seems to be a paradox, but the seemingly beautiful peaceful and prosperous world, which one is not made of thousands of bones piled up.

It is precisely under the backdrop of countless blood and lives that the prosperous era is so beautiful and desirable, and it also makes the groups of people born in the troubled times continue to chase and chase the dreamlike peaceful and prosperous world.

Unconsciously, Qian Mingguang understood the preciousness of life and had his own goals, in the past few days, he still dreamed of the family of three from time to time, at first they were still the same as before, stretching out their thin palms, with blood on their faces, walking towards him, begging for their lives.

But when the unjust soul of the family of three in the dream choked his neck, Qian Mingguang in the dream said such a sentence.

"Can you give me a chance to atone for my sins?"

"Let me kill again, let me pick up the sword again and go to the battlefield."

"The so-called rest of the world, the so-called peaceful and prosperous era, is destined to be forged with blood, give me a chance, let me end this centuries-old war, because only in this way, there will be no more unjust dead souls like you in the future."

"Is that okay?"

The hideous expression on the faces of the family of three disappeared, replaced by a smile, and they disappeared into Qian Mingguang's dream side by side.

This also made Qian Mingguang more firm in his belief in returning to the battlefield, countering violence with violence, stopping the war with war, and stopping the army in the world, nothing more.

can be seen from his performance just now, although he understands the reason and has a reason to go into battle to kill the enemy, his body will still involuntarily express fear of the battlefield, which may take time to smooth out.

And the reason why Qian Mingguang has changed so much is due to what he has seen and heard in the past few days.

During the days when he followed Huo Qubing to Hexi, Qian Mingguang saw a lot of things, not only the tragic battlefield, but also some familiar people who would never appear in front of him again.

As long as there is a war, there will be deaths, whether it is for the Xiongnu or the Han.

In the past few days, Qian Mingguang has found little by little that there seem to be many familiar faces missing from the queue of the army, and many of those who are missing can be called by name, and even talked and had dinner with him a few days ago.

Qian Mingguang knew why they were gone, because they were all hiding in the black jars.

It will never be seen again, leaving only a handful of ashes.

The living people, the people who were drinking and chatting with him a few days ago, are just gone

Regarding the news of the soldier's death, Qian Mingguang was difficult to accept at first, because he couldn't accept it at all.

I talked to them yesterday, why are they missing today?

Qian Mingguang is eighteen years old this year, and in his past eighteen years of life, no one close to him has ever left him forever, so he naturally will not understand this feeling of life and death, and even for a while he will naively think that those brothers are not dead at all, but just hiding somewhere to scare and scare him.

But gradually, this kind of thought no longer appeared in Qian Mingguang's mind, because he knew that they were really dead, and they really wouldn't come back, forever.

During this period of time, Qian Mingguang slowly figured out that he had mistakenly killed the family of three, but as one familiar soldier after another left, a new question surfaced in his mind.

This question is not why someone died, Qian Mingguang has not been an idiot to this point, and he will die if he fights, he has long known this simple and popular truth.

What really made him wonder was, why was no one afraid to die?

Yes, this is Qian Mingguang's question, why do you know that people will die in battle, but among these soldiers around you, no one seems to have ever been afraid of death, even if they burned the corpses of their companions with tears in their eyes yesterday, but the next day, they rushed to the enemy alive.

Is it because of revenge?

Isn't it too far-fetched to explain revenge, and you can see from their performance that these soldiers really don't seem to be afraid of death, and it seems that death has nothing to do with them at all, why is this? Why is it that on such a battlefield, where someone could die at any moment, they can so simply put their lives aside and fight bravely to kill the enemy?

When attacking the Beryllium tribe, under the attack of the feather arrows that covered the sky and the sun, Qian Mingguang, who was watching the battle from afar, only saw such a scene.

The people in front were shot by the feather arrows and fell, but the people behind rushed up by stepping on the corpses of the people in front, and the people behind were also shot down by the feathered arrows, and the people behind still stepped on the corpses of the people in front of them and rushed up, without fear, and no one flinched.

Aren't they afraid? Or do they simply not understand what fear is?

Qian Mingguang couldn't figure out this question, and in the end he could only bury this question deep in his heart, and he thought that he should understand this in the future.

Looking at Sun Ming's concerned look, Qian Mingguang put down the military book in his hand and said gratefully: "Brother Sun, don't worry, give me a little more time, and I will definitely recover, because now I already have the goal of struggle, or forgiveness, and I will soon be able to fight side by side with you again." ”

Sun Ming nodded with satisfaction, "Then you have a good rest, I won't bother you." ”

"Brother Sun" Qian Mingguang suddenly stopped Sun Ming, who wanted to stand up and leave, Sun Ming looked at Qian Mingguang who wanted to speak in surprise, and said, "Little fatty, what's wrong?" ”

Qian Mingguang lowered his head, rubbed the corners of his clothes with both hands, and after a while, he raised his head and said a little embarrassed: "Brother Sun, thank you, if you didn't take care of me with the general these days, I really don't know what I would become, and you are a military horse, and you will personally help me tie the knife around my waist, Brother Sun, thank you." ”

Sun Ming smiled heartily, "What is this, you have been hit so hard before, and you don't want to touch the knife, what can I do when I am the eldest brother to help you tie the knife around your waist, but you have to hurry, you must know that in the past two days, I will tie the knife for you when you get on the horse, and I will untie the knife for you when you get off the horse, Zhou Xing, that guy doesn't know how many times he has laughed at me." ”

Qian Mingguang nodded heavily, "Brother Sun, don't worry, I will definitely hurry up to get out of the obstacle and fight side by side with you as soon as possible." ”

Sun Ming smiled, "Well, then I'm looking forward to this day." ”

"That"

"Anything else?" Sun Ming tilted his head and asked.

Qian Mingguang grabbed the corner of his clothes at a loss, and whispered: "Brother Sun, I have actually always wanted to ask you, why are you so good to me, and general, why are you all so good to me?" ”

Sun Ming sighed involuntarily when he heard this, and said with an illusory look in his eyes: "I don't know why the general is so good to you, and what do I say, it should be that I have taken a fancy to your kid's unyielding energy, and he has been beaten again and again, but he can get up again and again." ”

"Mingguang, do you know, you made me feel very awe-struck at that time, and I also know that you will definitely be able to achieve a great career in the future, I am estimated to be a military Sima in this life, and if I am lucky, I will probably be able to become a captain, but you are very good, and I am sure that I can achieve an achievement that I can't achieve."

"Am I excellent," Qian Mingguang said with some embarrassment.

Sun Ming smiled, "Of course, I don't have a bad eye for people, you yourself may not know how good you are, give yourself a little more confidence, learn to face yourself, and understand that you are not worse than any of us, or even stronger than us, plus"

Sun Ming paused, his eyes gradually dimmed, and said: "Plus you can be what you are today, it has something to do with the fact that I didn't follow you at the time, I did something for you, it's nothing, after all, I have long regarded you as my own brother." ”

Qian Mingguang was silent, and after half a sound, he raised his head, and a smile appeared on Yingwu's face, "Brother Sun, I want to go with the scouts led by you tomorrow to reconnoiter the terrain, is it okay?" ”

Sun Ming's eyes lit up instantly, patted Qian Mingguang on the shoulder, and laughed: "No problem, tomorrow you will go with me and the scout to reconnoiter the terrain, so that you can also exercise more." ”

"Hmm."

Qian Mingguang has finally returned to the army again since the sixth day after the tragedy, and started to do what a recruit should do, it seems that Sun Ming has done everything for him, he is very moved, so he will force himself like this, get out of the shadows as soon as possible, get out of the fear of the battlefield, he doesn't want to disappoint these people who care about him anymore, and he doesn't want to be a burden to them.

On the second day, early in the morning, Huo Qubing led the army to continue to set off, because there was no goal, so Huo Quzhi's marching speed was very slow, probably on the war horse, and the marching speed was not for no reason.

Huo Qubing was waiting for something, he was waiting for the scouts he sent out to send him information near Yanzhi Mountain, and he would use this information to decide the next march route.

After the army walked more than 30 miles in the morning, Huo Qubing arranged for the soldiers to dismount and rest, and let the war horses go to the nearby valley water to drink, but when Huo Qubing himself walked off the war horse and went to rest in the handsome tent that the soldiers had just built, Huo Qubing suddenly heard a heart-rending scream behind him.

Huo Quzhi turned his head, only to see that on the grass in front of the army, Qian Mingguang, who was dressed in armor but embarrassed, stumbled on horseback and rushed towards him, with only a scabbard at his waist, his hands covering his head, and a painful howl roared out of his mouth, and his heroic face was already covered with tears.

The closer he got, the more Huo Quzhi could see Qian Mingguang's painful look, and the screams that he didn't dare to accept all this kept echoing in his ears.

Huo Quzhi frowned, I don't know what happened to Qian Mingguang, didn't he take the initiative to ask to be a scout to survey the terrain today, why did he suddenly become like this?

Huo Quzhi felt a pang in his heart, "If he guessed correctly, this guy may have remembered the scene six days ago."

"Zhou Xing, go see what's wrong with him." Although Huo Quzhi already had a conjecture in his heart about Qian Mingguang's sudden madness, he still asked Zhou Xing to understand the situation in detail.

After getting Huo Quai's military order, Zhou Xing immediately went to investigate the reason why Qian Mingguang went crazy, and soon he came back.

But this time, the corners of his eyes were also full of tears.

Standing in the tent, looking at Huo Quai, Zhou Xing lowered his head and sobbed, his eyes were red and swollen, and he choked up.

"General, Sun Ming died in battle."