The inexplicable pain and sorrow in my heart turned into tears and poured out.

Cowering on the crescent moon, I kept wiping away tears, not understanding what was wrong with me.

The mind is a mess, no matter where you touch it, you can't find a trace of happiness, it's all the pain of irritability.

"Why... Why are you crying...... Isn't everyone very kind to themselves? ”

"Why...... Hurry up and stop......"

Constantly, again and again, wiping away tears.

"Hmm...... Hoo ......"

I comforted myself, but the tears were still flowing uncontrollably, and I kept wiping them. But there is no sense of relief, and it is even a little counterproductive. I don't know why, I want to cry even more because I cried. Even because of the touch from the back of my palm during the tear wiping process, I was even more irritable, and I hated this body......

Unexplained sadness, unexplained fear, unclear pain, repeated ...... Tortured my nerves.

The suffocating stinging pain, the burning sensation all over my body, and the sour brain that seemed to burn up, made me unable to even cry, or even exhale, without the strength to breathe.

"What am I afraid of...... What are you crying about... They're all concerned about me... Why—" I clutched my head as if it was about to crack, remembering what had just happened, trying to derive from it the root cause of my pain.

And yet pointless... I can not find......

"Why, I can't stop it... Why?"

I kept saying this useless thing in my heart, and the tears were still flowing and flowing.

"Whew... Whew—" I gasped hard, and my mood became more and more irritable.

Whether it's myself who doesn't dare to cry alone, or the fact that I cry by myself, it makes me more painful and irritable......

I couldn't help but cover my ears tightly and bury my head deep in front of my knees. As the palms of the hands clasped tightly to the ears, the rustling of some rapid breathing, accompanied by the sound of blood flowing, echoed in the skull.

(And I didn't notice that at this moment, the ghost claw crescent moon actually went from almost transparent to slowly becoming clear, with an ice-blue shimmer mixed with gold, and the magic array and gears in it constantly refracted the golden light.) )

I don't understand! I was so happy just now...... Why is it so uncomfortable all of a sudden.

I hate the emotions I have now, the emotions that seem to blacken me at any time.

So in order to escape, I began to constantly reminisce about the happy things—the memories that only existed after I came to Coswall, that were real, that had not disappeared, that existed in the memories of others.

When I met Genna...... When walking with her. When I met Sister Xiao Yexi, there was still that ZZ Claire drunk. and when Li Mo's stupid guy was turned over by himself, and when Lun and Qianxia put on maid clothes and apologized to themselves...... And on the day of the charter, those adventurers were happy......

And also...... This morning, the shopkeepers smiled gently at themselves, and greeted them.

Memories that can prove both one's own existence and one's acceptance float in my mind.

I felt a lot more comfortable, and the feeling of blackening seemed to be suppressed.

I felt a little better, and I barely smiled. Cover your ears with your hands and prepare to take them down.

However, at the moment when the palm of the hand leaves the ear, there is a 'bang' sound due to the difference in air pressure between the inside and outside of the ear.

Suddenly, my brain, a little lighter, was disturbed by this sudden, high-pitched 'explosion'. I seemed to hear the 'explosion' caused by the fact that I was slapped from the sky by Qiaolu and fell to the ground, and it was like the explosion of fire after being split by Qiaolu's lava greatsword.

So, the beautiful memories in my mind, by this unexpected voice, all hooked to the day I hated the most.

Scene 1: Being ...... by a group of red soldiers Unreasonable to take away......

Scene 2: Unreasonably pressed into a prison car......

I clutched my head with my fidgety hands, knowing that it wouldn't stop my brain from remembering, but I held on anyway. The tears that were just about to stop suddenly burst the embankment again.

The whole body, which was finally a little comfortable, was like being scorched by fire and struck by lightning at this moment.

Scene 3: After being escorted back to Huaying City, the group of Red Devils who didn't know how much I had done for this city actually looked at me with hateful, hehe, and relieved hateful eyes (as if they had seen a ghost......

"And then there'...... The abominable silence collar ......" the hand clutched his head uncontrollably.

"Qiaolu" I hated to pronounce the name.

'Irritable memories' filled my brain in large swaths, and tears flowed uncontrollably, even worse than just now. And before you know it, the tears have turned into blood. Ninety-nine's feet also appeared with a spell that eroded the feet, and the blue-blue magic array continued to fly from the soles of the feet to the calves like sci-fi fragments, and disappeared. 】

"In-house...... In-department ......"

"That's right...... Speaking of which, before I helped the Red Devils, did I also help the Red Devils? And then what? … Helped them...... What do I get? In the end, it wasn't ......" [In a trance, the faces of those spectators in Huaying City who disliked Ninety-Nine floated on the faces of the Red Demon Shopkeeper who was looking at Ninety-Nine with a gentle smile at Coswall. 】

"Whew...... Whew......" I gasped frantically, red tears streaming down my face. His hands pressed irritably on his forehead, clutching only the silver hair.

[Ninety-nine covered his head, and his godless eyes were already full of chaos and despair after that bang. His eyes were hollow, as if he hadn't noticed the changes in his feet and legs, and he hadn't noticed that his ghost minions, the crescent, could clearly see all the ice-blue magic gears and magic arrays inside. No, you may have noticed it......]

At this moment, suddenly a voice that seemed to be in the depths of my heart came out, with a hint of cuteness and a hint of madness: "Have you betrayed?"

Uncontrollably, I followed the train of thought of the 'inner personality': "That's right... Betray... Hehe (pumping lightly), obviously ...... For the country that Qiaolu likes, and for the country that Qiaolu likes that Anna trusts...... How much Lao Tzu suffered... How much research has been done..."

I withdrew my right hand from my forehead and pressed it against my left chest, as if to stop my heart from shattering.

"And then... And then what?! … At last...... Hehe, Ju, actually ........." I trembled and exhaled, and at this time, the tearing pain was permeating the whole body, along the brain and heart, and spreading to the limbs.