There are twelve kinds of suffering, the first of which is poverty.

Surrounded by darkness, Li Yi was completely immersed in his heart, and he suddenly felt a deep pain, as if he was at the bottom of society, penniless, hard work only in exchange for a meager income that was difficult to satisfy, the future was blank, powerless, distressed, these emotions accompanied by poverty were like needles piercing his heart in turn.

"Rather than suffer like this, I won't die, the world of the dead is immortal, I have never done anything evil in my life, and after death I should go to heaven to enjoy it! That's where I can be! Li Yi actually had the thought of death in his heart.

The impoverished emotion that the miracle instilled in him was a hundred times stronger than what he really felt, and it had a tremendous effect in an instant.

A sharp knife also appeared in Li Yi's hand, the blade was sharp, and the cold was pressing, this was the tool he used to end his life, as long as he gently wiped his wrist, he would die in the comfort of venous bloodletting, of course, this test would fail, and he would also return with endless regrets.

"This forcibly infused feeling is very realistic, but for people who have really experienced poverty, it is still too fake, and besides, the rich side is not what I want." Li Yi's eyes returned to clarity, and the knife in his hand dissipated.

The second suffering that followed was hunger, Li Yi suddenly felt the pain of his abdomen being emptied, as if his stomach had become a black hole that devoured everything, desperately longing for food, his eyes were red, and he ran wildly, suddenly, a sumptuous banquet appeared in front of him, where the finest ham, the whole piece of golden roast goose, delicate bacon and large pieces of lamb chops, delicious aged dry red, but they were all labeled with the mark of highly poisonous, that is, Li Yi satisfied the appetite at the same time, also embarked on the path of death.

"Ah, what is the point of death to be able to eat such a sumptuous delicacy? Is hunger worse than death? "Li Yi's hunger is at its peak at this moment!

He grabbed a leg of lamb, and the strong aroma of the meat made him feel like he was in a wonderful mist! Trembling, send this delicious taste with death to your mouth! It was as if there was a devil driving his soul.

"Ahh Li Yi suddenly woke up as if in a nightmare, screamed, and slammed the poisonous lamb leg to the ground, "What is the reason for throwing away your precious life for a little food?" I don't understand! The test of hunger is over, life is precious, and some things are still incomparable, but new emotions follow.

'Weak', 'powerless', Li Yi's whole body suddenly seemed to be emptied, he couldn't lift up any strength, he felt that he was small, he could only be trampled on, his dignity had become a thin layer, his sense of existence was extremely weak, the tide of fate was surging, ruthlessly crushing him, throwing him up, and falling on the reef on the shore, weakness, humility is everything he has.

"Why am I so weak, and what else can I do? I can't do anything, I can only steal my life" Li Yi half-knelt on the ground in frustration, there was nothing he could do, as if he wanted to be content with all this, "It's good to get used to it, I'm destined to be so small, I'm born an inferior person"

"Wait, what nonsense am I talking about, my ambition can shine even if it is buried in the dust, I came into the world in humility, why should I carry the regret of humility until I die? Strength, fame, status, wealth, all I deserve! No one can stop me from getting them! Li Yi suddenly straightened his waist, and he looked down at everything proudly.

The next pain is 'humiliation', the humiliation that cannot be resisted, the slander of words, the contempt of the eyes, the discrimination of the environment, the injustice, the disgust, the rough treatment, the abuse, the accusation of standing on the side of justice, the righteous words, he wants to refute it, but his mouth is sewn shut, and at the same time he has to bear great physical insults.

"What am I guilty of? It is unfair to suffer such humiliation for no reason! I want to appeal! Li Yi shouted in his heart, but he was facing a group of selfish people, playing the role of a scapegoat, even if he shouted out, it would be useless, just add a few more scars to his body and heart.

Grief and indignation, nothing can be done, followed by despair, deep despair like stagnant water, as if to let this group of people be at the mercy of will, labeled with all kinds of labels, wantonly played, and finally leave a dirty mark in the record of history.

"I'm not wrong! It's you filthy people who have accused me of all sorts of crimes! Li Yi's heart suddenly burst out with great power, the sewn lips were broken open by him, dripping with blood, and after he roared out these words, the audience was silent.

The pain after the humiliation is injury, followed by cold, burning, drowsiness, loneliness, exhaustion, suffocation, bereavement Li Yi will burst out in the depths of his heart every time he is facing a mental collapse, invincible, he finds how fragile he is, only his heart is extremely strong, after twelve times of pain and torture, his will is stronger and stronger, as clear and hard as a diamond, and every facet reflects a brilliant brilliance.

"The third level has also passed, it's really good, the reward of this level is four times the reward of the first level, if it is converted into a devil stone, it is four, three levels of a total of seven, priceless treasure, although this level is extremely difficult, a few times almost sank in, broke their confidence, failure not to say, there will be a heart barrier in this life, equal to a waste of people, can no longer progress, but stick to the heart, through the ordeal, in addition to the reward on the surface, the heart is also tempered." In the past, although Li Yi was full of wisdom and scheming, he was too radical and caused too much murder, and he was prone to bloodshed, and all the schemes he made were life and death, leaving no way back for himself, but now he seems to be more mature.

"I have suffered in the past, many injustices, my heart is full of distrust and hatred for others, I have no regard for life, I despise morality, I am too insidious and cold, these are not the right thing to do." Li Yi reflected on his own experience, and some things were too insidious, purely to vent the grievances in his heart.

However, the miracle did not give him much time to think, and the fourth level began.

The fourth level is a test of "wisdom".

Li Yi suddenly opened his eyes, and the bright sunlight was projected from the window covered with turquoise vines on the felt covered with his body, the gray-brown felt was warm and thick, and it was perfect to resist the autumn cold.

Next to him was a red brass wall clock that showed the time at six o'clock in the morning.

With a meager sleepiness, Li Yi got out of bed, he was wearing a white pajamas, a bright purple tulip embroidered on his chest, the neckline was very open, and the materials were exquisite.

"Oh, dear son, you woke up and were ready to come to the table for breakfast, and after eating you were going to study at a public college, the reason why I didn't send you to the boarding school in the first place was because I was afraid that you would lose weight." The mother gently and lovingly shouted Li Yi's name.

"Academy?" Li Yi suddenly felt a little strange when he heard this word, as if he had some forgotten memories, but instinct and memory told him that he was now a child of a middle-class family, his father was a respected police officer, and his mother was a lawyer, he should be quiet now, educated to go to a public college after breakfast, mathematics and philosophy are the main courses, he likes sketching very much, has a good relationship with the art teacher Aleutian, and has a little secret that he doesn't want his parents to know, He got along with a girl named Elsa at the academy, and they even secretly kissed each other and touched each other's green bodies.

The milk for breakfast was warm and fresh, the butter fried eggs were crispy and delicious, and the mouth and stomach were immediately filled with sweetness and hot flow, and these happy feelings drove away all the unnatural doubts in his heart, as if life were supposed to be like this.

I don't know why, he has a lot of questions on his mind today, such as ideals, such as love, and some strange little things, these thoughts make him can't help but show his face, and a smile appears on the corner of his mouth. The red brick flower bed in the corner of the wall is full of camellia leaves, but the roses are still green, but the flowers have withered, leaving smooth oval fruits, which are very tempting, Li Yi always wants to take them off to play, or give them to the little lover in the academy, rub what secrets are hidden inside, and finally cut it with broken glass, maybe there is a cigar smoking worm living inside, fat link-like body, soft as a silk pillow.

Turning the corner, the grocery store was his favorite place, and there was always a box of candy cubes on the dark yellow painted counter, each the size of a thumb fingernail, hard as ice, covered with clean and transparent glass, red cherry candy, blue blueberry candy, purple gardenia candy, although you can see it through the glass, but there is still an inexplicable mystery.

The proprietress seemed to have gotten up early today, slumped in a chair in a loose orange dressing gown, looking through the lenses at a thick stack of morning newspapers, and biscuits and half a glass of cherry soju were placed on the triangular table in front of her.

Li Yihe was concerned about the box of candy on the counter, although he could buy a lot of it for a few copper coins, but his mother always told him not to eat sweets. The teeth hurt a lot.

The college is very close to here, and after walking uphill, I saw a wooden sign that said "Nearby college, passing cars slow down", and the rain soaked the joints, so the teachers used wire to fix its head around its neck, thanking it for working for the college for decades.

Sitting in class, he was always a little absent-minded, as if he had forgotten something, and that was something very important - why was he here? Who is he?

"How could I have thought about these strange things, is it puberty sprouting, cranky? I'm Li Yi, studying at the academy, what's there to doubt? Li Yi squeezed those thoughts out of his mind, and at this time, his little girlfriend Elsa looked back at him with a smile.

Oh my God, how bright and beautiful she was, her lips were rosy and crystalline, as if they had risen from the sea, and she carried the morning glow of steam, her eyelashes were black and shiny, and her neck was as white as a swan.

"Li Yi, please answer this question." The math teacher was a stern old man with big bags under his eyes, a pair of black-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose, a blue-gray striped shirt under a gray tweed jacket, and a mahogany whip in his hand that tapped lightly on the blackboard.

Li Yi is his proud student, and he has always attracted attention for his cleverness, and it is a real pleasure to listen to him answer questions in logical and rigorous language.

After class, Li Yi came to the corner of the college garden alone, a thick banyan tree blocked his figure, this is the place where he and his girlfriend often tryst, surrounded by birds chirping, leaves rustling in the wind, quiet and peaceful.

Elsa wore a pure white dress interspersed with pearls that were dull compared to her beauty.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

The dialogue is concise, but full of strong and inseparable feelings, the two hug each other, leaning on the rough trunk of the banyan tree, as if time has lost its direction of flowing.

"What is love?" Li Yi suddenly had this thought in his heart for no reason, "Love? I know that I love her, and the happiness and trust that this love brings are so clear, but the love itself is pale, why am I just content with this form, but I can't confirm whether my love for her comes from instinct or from the heart? ”

Li Yi fell into deep thought, and after a long time, he raised his head, "Who am I?" ”

"I'm Li Yi, I'm an orphan, I'm from Mies, my too much belongs to suffering, I haven't loved anyone, and no one has ever loved me, so love is empty and pale in my heart, I have no love, these illusions, and the hints in my heart are flawless, but fantasy is out of the magnification of reality, I don't have love in my heart, so the illusion can't be generated, it's a pity, don't be, Elsa." Li Yi woke up from the environment and recovered his memory, and in this way, the fourth level was also passed.

"Hehe, probably only a person with a broken heart like me can pass this level!" Li Yi smiled a little sadly, the third and fourth levels were both tests of the soul, he found that his heart was so distorted, sadly, it was difficult to correct it.

"The miserable life of the past turned me into a twisted person, but I am not the first, nor the last, the world is balanced, this twisted world has made me, and my existence is the truth." Li Yi suddenly understood this truth, the entire human race was distorted, and he was only a component of the distortion.

"This is the beginning of destruction!"

The fifth level is perseverance.

Li Yi's surroundings changed, he was in a pitch-black cave, surrounded by rock walls, with only a small chisel beside him, he had to slowly chisel through several kilometers of thick rock formations to see the light of day, at this speed, he had to chisel day and night for more than ten years!

Of course, you can also choose to give up, then the fifth and final level will fail,

He just digs like this, in this kind of environment where there is no comparison around, the time is long and terrible, sometimes, digging has become a mechanical action, he wants to give up, after all, the reward of the four levels has been extremely rich, but he knows that if he gives up, it will be his biggest regret and stain, an escape, he will never be able to untie this knot.

While digging, Li Yi recalled the books he had read, the deep wisdom in the books, and he couldn't help but recite softly when he thought of the highlights, so that after a year, but there was still a long way to go before the rock formations were dug through, he thought about it, studied the tactics generated between the spiritual cooperation, various opportunities and possible accidents, and so another year passed.