"You don't understand at all! That's my brother, what he thinks in his heart, I know very well. Now he won't help me unconditionally like he used to. She leaned back on the couch, so weak that she didn't even know what she was going to do next.

There was no one to help her, and she was really hard.

"If you don't tell him anything, how will he understand you? You always say that they can't accept who you are, is it because others can't accept it, or do you yourself dislike your former profession? If you can't even face it yourself, how can you make others accept it? ”

It was not the first time that Ali had heard her say that she could not see the light of day in the past, and that she could not tell her relatives about her past.

But Ah Li doesn't think so, in her cognition, relatives are people who can tolerate each other unconditionally. They are groomed to be professional killers, and they don't want to. The circumstances simply did not allow them to make their own choices.

In that environment, there are only two options: life and death. They were just trying to survive!

Ali has always felt that He Rou is happier than herself, at least, she has been loved by her family, and she has a younger brother, who also knows where her family is, and has a man she loves deeply. And she, on the other hand, has nothing.

She didn't even know what her last name was, what her name was, who her parents were, and whether she had any relatives. The name Ali was chosen by herself. She loved the dawn, the darkness before the light, and the time when she was born again. So, she named herself Ali.

She has always been very envious of He Rou, because she has a lot, and compared to these people, He Rou is the happiest one.

These people, who survived, all had their own beliefs in their hearts. At the beginning, He Rou didn't even want her own life in order to leave the organization, Ah Li really wanted to see what kind of person her spiritual pillar was, and now, she saw it. But she didn't want to see her friend's decadent appearance.

Seeing her leaning like this, Ali dragged the person up: "Don't run away!" You know, those of us who don't have the right to run away from problems. The only thing we can do is face them. There is nothing shameful about your former profession, it's not that you are willing, if they really love you, they will accept everything you have, what are you afraid of. ”

"Just because I'm scared!" He Rou yelled: "I don't want to face it, you know? You have no idea how good I used to be, I was almost perfect in everyone's minds, and my brother himself said that he was disappointed in me. Just because I want to go back to Huo Yanchen. Why do they demand that I do everything perfectly? I'm also a normal person, can't I just be a little selfish? They won't let me come back, isn't that selfish? ”

Everyone is selfish and will only think about things from their own point of view, and they don't think about how miserable they have been all these years.

"Since they don't know, then you tell them and let them know how you got through? How much did you pay to get back. You almost lost your life, isn't that enough? Xiaorou, maybe you think too much about yourself, your relatives, maybe the ability to accept is far stronger than you think. ”

"Will it?" But she felt that she was like a superfluous object, superfluous wherever she put it.

"You have entered the Huo Group, you will have a lot of opportunities, what are you afraid of? Where is your self-confidence? ”

He Rou shook her head desperately: "I don't have it, I don't have confidence." I'm not clean anymore, you know? My hands are not clean! Do you know what Luo Yunyao said to me today? She and Yanchen have a child, and she laughs at me for this, and with my face now, each of them laughs at me in their hearts. ”

As she spoke, she suddenly burst into tears: "I don't want to be like this, my life is peaceful and beautiful, why did something like that happen to me?" I have been with Yanchen for so long, he has never touched me, and I have only known Luo Yunyao for two years, and the children can walk. Do you know what that means? ”

He Rou suddenly understood a truth, if a man doesn't touch you, sometimes he doesn't respect you, and it is possible that he doesn't love you at all in his heart. The mouth can lie, but the body is the most honest. To love or not to love, the body can always give the most honest answer.

"He probably didn't really love me in the first place!" Her voice was small, and she squatted on the ground. The only hope faded away, and he was completely plunged into darkness.

"Xiaorou, don't be like this."

"Leave me alone, just let me do this! I...... I really feel so tired. ”

Ah Li couldn't see her so depressed, and forced her to look at herself: "You cheer me up a little!" At the beginning, the lives of the two of us were hanging by a thread, and you never gave up. It's only a little bit of difficulty now, and you want to give up. You're still not the Ho Rou I know? You said you would never give up, have you forgotten all this? ”

"But they already have children, what should I do? Am I really going to be a bad woman who tears apart other people's families? He only has his wife in his eyes, and I, with an ugly face, how can I get his favor? I used to think that appearance didn't matter, Yanchen was not a person who was in the accident. But now I realize that a beautiful appearance is not so important, but without a beautiful appearance, you really can't do anything. ”

"This is not what you are."

If it's just because of this face, it's not a problem at all, she's not like this in the first place.

"Is my original face good? It's not perfect, and you've moved a lot of knives, and you're not unaware. "At that time, she was in the organization, and she let others bully her because her face was full of scars. It was also in that environment that she understood the most primitive rules of survival.

This world is like that, the law of the jungle, everywhere. Only the strong have the right to choose.

"If he really loves you, he won't care about that. Even if your face isn't perfect, he'll still love you. You give up now, and you'll regret it. ”

"What about the child? We don't have children, we haven't even had any relationship, we're still clean, you'll be surprised to say it! She used to think that this was Yanchen's pity for her, but now, He Rou regretted it. If she had known that they would have come to this point, she would not have pretended to be reserved.

"The child will have it later! Are you still afraid that you won't have a chance to do things by his side? Even if it's not involuntary, it's not impossible to use some extraordinary means in extraordinary times. It's up to you to decide if you want to or not! Since you don't have a choice now, why not just tell him who you are. You are afraid that he will not accept it, but your identity is also a fatal weakness for Luo Yunyao. ”