Today, I was alone in front of the computer until late at night, thinking a lot, and clicking on the web page more than once to see if there was any system news, but the result was always so ruthless!

I started to send books on May 22nd, and it has been more than two months now! Look at my results again - hehe-

I'm laughing at myself!

I have applied for five contracts since I started, but I remember the results very clearly!

The first time, I didn't know that editing was closed for two days a week, so I submitted my application on Sunday, but I didn't reply until the following Monday - "I'm sorry."

The second time I made my application, I submitted it around 8:30 p.m. on Monday night, and this time I replied on Thursday afternoon, and the reply was- "I'm sorry."

The third application, again, waited until 14 days later, Monday, at half past eight, and then replied to me directly on Wednesday evening, and the reply was also - "I'm sorry" -

The fourth application, it's still the same, I pinched the point and submitted the application on Monday, or replied on Thursday, and the reply was still the same-"I'm sorry-"

And at this time, the book "League of Legends: Crossing Valanro" is already 300,000 words!

I was still not discouraged and thought that it must be the title of the book, and that it must have been because I had misspelled the title in the heat of the moment, so the editor didn't plan to sign up until I had changed the title. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Then I started to wait for a long time, because in the first volume, each chapter was still 3,000 words, so I revised the previous chapters one chapter a day, because I read on the Internet and said that the editor only looked at the first 30,000 words, and the writing was good, and I believed it!

Two weeks later, when the day came to apply for a contract, I didn't apply, just because the title of my book hadn't been changed!

After another week, the title of the book was changed, the previous chapters were revised, and I applied for the contract with confidence and hope, because I couldn't wait, I applied on Sunday, thinking to myself: so that the editor can see my book first!

A day has passed, and there has been no news!

Two days have passed, and there has been no news!

Three, four, five, until six, seven, eight days and still no news!

It seems that I am tired of applying again and again, and this time they don't even bother to reply to me!

I gradually despaired, because on the Internet I often see posts like "300,000 yuan at the starting point did not sign a contract, and if you apply for a contract again, the editor will ignore you, and it is almost impossible to read your book"!

I'm so sad!

In the past, I also opened a separate chapter to talk about my heart, but it was said on the Internet that writing these things before signing a contract would be hated by the editor, so I didn't sign a contract! So I decided to delete those chapters!

But now I don't want to be afraid, hehe-

From the hopeful, enthusiastic, and enthusiastic I was at the beginning, what do I have left?

When I first applied for the contract, I couldn't wait to keep staring at the computer, hoping to pass. Until now, you don't have to look at it at all, you just use your toes to think about what the result is, who can understand this feeling?

I often hear inspirational books, such as the forgotten "The Legend of Mortal Cultivation of Immortals", but after all, such is a minority, and most of the ones I hear are "3,000 collections within 500,000" to be able to sign a contract! But I estimate that by the time I got to 500,000 writes, I wouldn't even have 3,000 hits!

Hehe――

Some people will say that I have too high desires and want to sign a contract too much, but have you ever thought about writing a novel alone, isn't signing a contract the most basic recognition? We don't need to say that those distant shelves and contracts can't be reached, which proves that your novel has not been recognized at all, and it is a mess at all!

In the past few days since the book was published, there have been many readers who have supported me, I know! It is precisely because of you that I can persist until today, otherwise I don't know when I will become a eunuch!

It is said that the starting point is deep, and newcomers are not easy to mix, and at first I was actually skeptical!

Because I see that those who write are just like that, the same tens of thousands of hits, and have countless readers, thinking that I must be better than them, I have always been full of enthusiasm!

But reality is always unforgiving.

Is it really just the reason I didn't advertise? Hehe――

The novel is 380,000 words, more than 1,000 hits, and more than 1,000 hits......

It is said that the starting point does not depend on the results, but in fact, this result is really so important!

You can imagine that in a situation like me, where I didn't sign a contract and didn't push it, if I wanted to have new readers, then it could only be the other party who happened to bump in, but when I looked at my results - more than 300,000 words, only more than 1,000 clicks! This book must be very bad, so bad that it will be like this! Soon he will be out!

I even doubted more than once that my book was probably the worst novel of its kind, right?

Hehe――

Although I have said many times that this book will not be a eunuch, because at the time I believed that I could write it without the support of the readers, and now I think about it really ridiculous!

As the time went on, my enthusiasm slowly dissipated, and the support from the readers only helped me to cheer me up! I'm sure you can see from my recent chapters that my form is slipping!

Although I personally feel that this novel is still good, the authorities are obsessed with bystanders, and I really hope that someone will ask where the problem of this book is! Let me know my shortcomings, I can improve, but it has not been!

In my small readership, the old goes, the new comes, and sometimes even none of them are gone!

Don't you all know that my motivation now is just to watch you be active?

Today my mom is telling me, in fact, you don't have to insist so stupidly, why do you have to hang yourself on a tree?

I pondered, "yes, why do I have to hang myself from a tree?" ”

Now that I've figured it out, I can't let go of my readers!

I once said my promises, and now how can I abandon them?

Hot days are always uncomfortable, which limits my inspiration, my head is groggy all day, and I have to do my best to write two chapters a day!

I also thought more than once: "Forget it, let's take a day off today!" ”

However, why didn't I say that I wouldn't break the update, and finish two chapters a day?

Whew――

Ego, are you really a Loser?

Confused, I'm really confused, the fog is enveloping me, I'm lost, where do I go?

Where do I go and where do I go from here?