Chapter 63: The Fear of the Self

Sonia didn't know what to do.

I don't know what method Rodrod used to make the other people see not a person at all, but a dog when they look at her, which makes Sonia unable to do even if she wants to ask for help, her screams are only heard in the ears of other people, and no matter what she does, it is just a pet's action in the eyes of others. This made Sonia feel unprecedented despair, she felt as if this world had completely abandoned her, and everyone turned a blind eye to her, until this moment, even Sonya's resolute mind couldn't help but begin to waver.

But that's not what scares Sonia the most.

What scared her the most was not Rod's attitude towards herself like a pet, nor the way others turned a blind eye to her, nor was it the action that she was now forced to lie on the ground like a dog, but ......... Sonia felt that she actually felt something about it?!

As a noble-born and well-bred aristocratic lady, Sonia has almost never exposed her body in front of anyone since she was born, for Sonya, this is her most precious and sacred wealth, and she will only give it unreservedly in front of her beloved. Instead of being like a beast to be watched, as is the case now. However, as time passed, Sonia felt a change in her inner being, and the girl still felt ashamed, indignant, and irritated whenever others looked at her. But, beyond that, Sonia was surprised to notice that just as the horror and anger in her heart had receded, a sensation of excitement and comfort that had never been felt before had emerged from her. Now, I'm naked on the street. Walking in front of the crowd, but they don't know anything about it, they don't even notice it. This strange feeling begins to grow like a mischievous child who steals an inconsequential item from a store and does not get caught, and the guilt that comes from it mixes with the joy and satisfaction of breaking the taboo without being punished. The interweaving blends into a feeling of excitement. Knowing that it was wrong for Lu Dao to do this, it was not good, but the relaxation and excitement of the rest of her life after the catastrophe that were not punished eroded the girl's soul like poison.

As a noble lady, as a woman, she would never have been able to make such a shameless gesture, on all fours like a dog, shaking her hips naked, if not for that illusion. I'm afraid that even the most secret places of myself will be seen clearly, and at that time, how will I be viewed? I'm afraid that I will be insulted and despised as a fornicatory, perverted, and shameless woman. Maybe you will laugh at yourself that you are not even as good as the dancing girls in the tavern, and even the prostitutes on the street are a hundred times more self-respecting than yourself.

Sonia couldn't help but shudder at the thought of such consequences. But under the fear, the glimmer of the glimmer of escaping the moral taboo and the bottom line of punishment also followed. Now she is doing it, but no one sees her for what she really is. Obviously, she was already naked, and she made such a gesture. There were so many people around her who were watching her, men, women, old people, and children. Many of them were just farmers. Blacksmiths, guards, mercenaries and other low-class people, but they themselves are so unscrupulous to present their bodies in front of them, if they know the way. What kind of expression will a noble lady have when she crawls like a dog in front of them at this moment?

This thought grew stronger and stronger in Sonya's mind, at first it was just because of fear, but now, it has become Sonya's subconscious forcing herself to fantasize like this, she looked at the people around her, instinctively imagining what kind of reaction they would have if the illusion on her body suddenly failed at this time, and then presented in front of everyone like this, but it was incredible, the pleasure that accompanied the fear became more and more distinct, and the feeling like an electric current began to gradually increase. Sonia didn't seem to notice any of this, just immersed in it, gritting her teeth, not knowing whether she was enduring or enjoying the frightening scenes of her fantasies.

"How does it feel? Miss Sonia? ”

"Huh?!"

Hearing Rod's words, Sonia trembled, and then she came back to her senses from her fantasies, just now she had even begun to imagine that she would be dragged into the alley by a group of hooligans and insulted wantonly, but the more she fantasized about the scene that made people get goosebumps all over her body, the more vivid the joy mixed with sin in Sonya's heart became. And at this moment, after being called back to reality by Rod's voice, Sonia came back to her senses. When she looked up, she saw Rod's eyes mixed with drama and mockery, as if Rod knew exactly what she was thinking.

Holy Soul, what was I thinking just now? How could I possibly think about such a thing?! What kind of expression did I have just now, did he find out? But...............

This eldest lady is really wonderful.

Seeing the panicked Sonia in front of him, Rod raised his eyebrows, as a veteran in the social field, Rod who has been maneuvering between many women naturally understands some of the unique preferences of women. For example, Canary likes to play shame PLAY, because this sense of release that challenges taboos is a perfect way for her to relax as an honor student. But now, Rhodes finds that Sonia is even more exaggerated than he imagined, and originally he brought Sonya out just to crush Sonya's deep self-esteem with shame, so as to lay the first step in obeying his words. But Rod had no idea that Sonya's "quality" was far beyond his imagination, and after the initial anger and horror, she was almost completely immersed in the pleasure of the humiliation she had imagined. In Rod's eyes, he could see Sonya's delicate body trembling, a flush appeared on her face, and she even began to gasp in a low voice, and her eyes were completely blank and out of focus, which was simply an estrus look. Not only that, but after hearing Rod's call to come back to her senses, Sonia looked at her with shame in her eyes, and there was a faint trace of something that even she hadn't noticed. Mixed with the joy of being abused, and the flattery of Rod, as if her subconscious was still longing for Rod's abuse of herself a little more!

It seems that her judgment is really right, this eldest lady is really a shaking M in her heart, pure!

"I really didn't expect that the noble lady of the Land of Light would have such a hobby. What a pervert. ”

"You, what are you talking about!! Nonsense, it's not all about you taking me out and making me ............"

"So, it's all my fault?"

"Isn't that a matter of course?"

Hearing Rod's seemingly innocent inquiry, the anger that had been building up in Sonya's heart suddenly exploded.

"If it weren't for you, why would I be treated like this! You ferocious, tyrannical, evil pervert! Scum! Scum! Shame on the nobility! Barbarian! Don't think that's the end of it!! I'm going to make you regret everything you've done to me!! Obviously looks like a woman. But so perverted! It's disgusting! ”

"Oh....................."

Hearing Sonya's angry reprimand, Rhodes nodded as if he didn't care at all, and then he plucked out his ears and looked at Sonia in front of him with a somewhat mocking smile.

“……… I didn't think you were so eager for punishment, Miss Sonia, and you enjoyed it? ”

"You're ..................!!"

Hearing Rod's answer, Sonya's face changed drastically. Rod's voice was not loud, but Sonia felt his words feel like a sharp scimitar stabbed straight into her chest. made her whole body curl up a little. Because after scolding Rod, Sonia did have a question in her heart - how will this man treat me when she hears this?

No, it should be said that she was even expecting ——— this man, what would happen to her next?

It was originally just a small thought hidden under the thick shell of the mind. But at this moment, Rod's words turned into sharp blades, and in this way, he cracked open the heavy shell, so that everything hidden in it was completely exposed in broad daylight.

"I didn't ....................."

"I don't want to listen to your nonsense."

Rod interrupted Sonya's panicked defense, and he just looked curiously at the girl in front of him. Then he squinted his eyes and looked between her legs.

"Well, so be it............ Miss Sonia, I want you to ......... yourself here."

As he spoke, Rod made a gesture.

"You should understand what I'm trying to say, for a young lady of your age, it should be no stranger. If you don't want to then don't care, I'll tie you here and go about your business, but I need to tell you that the illusion potion only lasts for one day, and if you wait until twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, then you'll ......... 'bang' back into a human being, like Cinderella. ”

“…………………”

Hearing Rod's words, Sonia bit her lip, of course she understood what Rod was referring to, but ......... Over here?

Thinking of this, Sonia looked around, and saw that she and Rhodes were in the depths of the central square, and with the end of the war, the inhabitants returned to the fortress city, and the originally deserted central square gradually became lively again, and the sound of music and noise could be heard not far away through the trees and bushes. Over here............ Do that kind of thing?

If it was Sonya on weekdays, then she would rather die than agree, but this time, I don't know what kind of thoughts Lu Dao had, Sonia was silent, and did not protest loudly at Rhodes as before, and insulted him angrily. Instead, Sonia hesitated for a moment before finally gritting her teeth.

"I do ..............."

Hearing Sonya's answer, Rhodes suddenly narrowed his eyes, and a dazzling, cold and smug light flashed through it.

As a young girl, Sonia naturally had a dream of lingering with her beloved, Prince Charming, and used it to comfort her body and needs. However, that was all in private, alone. And now, the girl was on the stone chair, spreading her thighs according to Rod's order, and doing the humiliating movements. Although she knew that in the eyes of outsiders, she was just a pet dog sitting on the chair, but feeling Rod's sharp gaze still made Sonia tremble involuntarily.

"Uh............ Hmmm..............."

The girl lowered her eyes, forcing herself to ignore the man in front of her, and intently stroked her body. The intense stimulation of the shame was still present in her body at this time, and soon, the fiery touch swept over her body, Sonia bit her lip tightly, and a low, rapid muffled grunt came from it, and her fingers skillfully roamed over her body, caressing, touching the sensitive parts, and it was not long before the waves of pleasure roared and began to shatter the barrier called reason.

"Uh-huh............"

Sonia shuddered, her fingers moving faster.

Actually being seen by people other than himself, originally even Andre didn't want to know the truth, his most shameful side, at this moment, it was actually exposed like this, in broad daylight, doing this kind of thing, is he really qualified to be liked by Andre? Thinking of this, Sonya's eyes couldn't help but seep out transparent tears, but soon, with this harsh, masochistic mental torture, that sweet and sinful pleasure resurfaced.

I'm already an impure woman, not qualified to be seen by Andre, and I'm not here for this......... For what, Andrey............ Don't look at me, my body is completely dirty. I could feel the man's gaze, he was looking at me as if he were looking at a toy......... Andre! I wish you could come and save me, but am I still worthy of your salvation?! Andre!!

"Uh............ Uh-huh, uh-huh, ............!! ”

Calling the name of the person she loved deep in her heart, Sonia looked up, but all she saw was Rod's cold, dark eyes. The cold, contemptuous and mocking look turned into lightning at this moment, completely penetrating Sonya's body. Seeing Rod's expression, Sonia finally reached the top, her fingers became faster and faster, and finally, the whistling waves completely exploded in the girl's body.

"Don't look at me...... Don't look at me...... No............!!! ”

Bursts of spasms spread throughout her body, and the strength of Sonya's body was completely withdrawn at this moment, and she sat down on the stone chair like this, and the transparent liquid spurted out from between her legs like a fountain, and Sonia leaned back on the stone chair, staring blankly at the sky, but the blue sky in front of her was gray in her eyes, like a desperate plain in hell, full of gray of nothingness. Shame, anger, and self-reproach filled her heart, but in it, sweet sin and joy also took root.

And at this time, Rod's cold voice appeared in Sonya's ears again.

"You're doing well, Miss Sonia, it's time for us to go back."

Andre............ I'm sorry...............

Hearing Rod's words, Sonia closed her eyes in pain and whispered to herself in the depths of her heart. (To be continued......)