It's a bit long...... But I hope that the readers who click on it will read it......

Tomorrow is June 1st, 2013, which is the traditional festival Children's Day, but for me, an adult who is no longer a child, it is an ordinary day.

But it was also an extraordinary day.

Because, "Counter-Strike: In the Otherworld" will be released on June 1, 2013.

However, instead of being the slightest bit excited, I still had a faint self-deprecation in my heart.

On June 1, 2012, wasn't it the release date of my last book, "Electricity"?

It's been a whole year, but I didn't expect that the two books would be on the shelves on the same day after a year apart.

What makes me cry and laugh even more is that on June 1 last year, "Electricity" was comfortably put on the shelves with 53W, and on June 1 this year, "Counter-Strike" was also comforted with 53W.

However, the only consolation for me is that when "Counter-Strike" is facing the shelves, it has nearly 4 times more collections than "Electricity".

The more you collect, the better the results will be, but I still can't laugh at all.

I deeply remember that within the first month of "Controlling Electricity" on the shelves, it definitely didn't break double digits, but what about this one? Four times the single digits?

That's still hitting the streets!

When I think of this, I can't help but think of July 21, 2011.

That was the day when the first chapter of my debut novel, "The Domination of the Five Elements", was uploaded, and like most writers, I was expecting it to be a hit as soon as it was uploaded, and the book review section was bustling, with editors chasing after me to sign a contract, and money pouring into my pocket......

Hahahaha, now that I think about it, I was so dreamy!

The cruel reality extinguished the heat in my heart, no one left a message in the book review area of "The Domination of the Five Elements", there were only a few collections, and the data was a mess, and even, after 100,000 words, I desperately applied for a sign, about and Sanjiang recommendation, but I received a rejection reply again and again.

Although I am just a street writer, I don't like to do things without a head and an end, so when I calmed down, I decided to finish writing "The Master of the Five Elements".

So, I wrote a 76W word book.

After I finished writing, I began to read the lectures of many great gods and began to collect many writing skills, so that I could improve myself and write a work that I could contract.

Immediately afterward, after I learned from the pain, so, there was "Harnessing Electricity".

But I was in a hurry to sign a contract to prove myself, which led to a lack of thoughtfulness, and although I signed a contract successfully, the beginning of "Riding Electricity" was a terrible mess, and even if I revised it again or four times in the future, it did not achieve the expected effect.

In this way, I hit the street again, and by the end of the 190W word of "Harnessing Electricity", there were only thirty subscriptions.

So, I was disheartened, I was lost, I was confused, and I didn't know when and where I abandoned the dream that I had originally pursued.

I began to despair because by the time I finished the book, it was December 31, 2012, the last day of last year.

190W words plus 76W words equals 266W words.

I typed out every word with two fingers in front of the computer, but it took a year and a half, and in the end I got only 390 yuan for the manuscript.

I once insisted on finishing the book without signing a contract, so that readers could collect my work with confidence.

I once decided to write 190W words in my 30s, so that readers could recognize me.

I don't dare to break off, for fear that someone will spit on me, I don't dare to TJ, for fear that someone will despise me.

But why, it took me a year and a half to write 226W words, but what I got was only a month's cigarette money from others?

So, I started to retreat, I started to feel cold, I didn't think I would continue to write, I felt that I would no longer love the online articles that had made me so obsessed.

I was crushed by piracy and invective, and I couldn't understand why I worked so hard to be entertained by many people.

I'd love to tell them that I bought a watch last year, but I don't even have the strength to swear.

I felt like I was leaving, I started to feel like I had no future in my life, I had nothing.

Disheartened, I couldn't figure out why I was so unlucky, family changes were not enough, I didn't know where to go without love, no career, no money.

I began to fall in love with beer, because only the feeling of empty fullness would make me feel full, and only the alcohol that slowly paralyzed my nerves could relieve me of the pain of waking up.

I began to devote a lot of time to gaming, sinking into the virtual world, and rediscovering a little bit of myself in my vanity......

……

Until one day......

I had a dream, I dreamed, I went back to the beginning of 09, that time when there was no depression, no pain, that day when I hid in an Internet café and played CSOL all night, built a ladder for my teammates, and hid in the alley of the desert CT area.

Furthermore, I dreamed of the time when I gritted my teeth and bought the Destroyer MG3 for 3 days to stand on the catwalk, the time when I was the hero, and it was my mission to protect my teammates from zombies, and the time when I forced myself to add a sense of honor and mission, but gave me a great sense of achievement.

I happily wandered in my dreams, over and over again, tirelessly, unwilling to wake up.

But when I woke up, I rolled over and sat up from the bed, but my pillow was soaked with tears.

I felt that I couldn't go on like this, so I opened the WORD file that I hadn't opened for a long time.

Looking at the "Write after the end" that was still saved on it, I thought for a long time and closed the WORD file again.

……

……

Finally, one day, it took me five days to write the first chapter seriously, and at that time, I still named the book "Egg Kidnappers in the Otherworld".

I fantasized about the protagonist's crazy Coolmaster** after he traveled to another world and his life without shame, and I began to sit in front of the computer and stare at the screen and giggle.

However, later, I thought, if I am the protagonist and I travel to the beginning of the other world, can I be happy?

Yes, the sudden change in the environment plus a plug-in is enough to wake many people from a dream with a smile.

However, after crossing over, does the original world really not exist? Even if it doesn't exist, doesn't the memory exist?

As a result, Wang Sancai was extremely disappointed and burst into tears after learning the truth at the beginning.

For the first time, I began to completely remove the writing skills and routines that I had spent a lot of time learning in my heart, and I brought myself into it, experiencing the mood of the protagonist at all times.

Whether it's laughter in tears, or being poor or happy, in short, I want to write a book in a way that is not mixed with any so-called skills.

I didn't write an outline, I didn't set any route for the protagonist to walk, everything unfolded gradually according to what I had in mind after entering the other world.

Ironically, I was still too naïve.

The lack of a perfect outline made it difficult for me to write at first, so much so that I wrote 300,000 words in the volume of Rainforest Survival.

Although the results are better than "Controlling Electricity", they are not much stronger.

So, I woke up from my dream again, and on the basis of stable updates, I calmly perfected the outline, sorted out the framework and context, and those large and small pits, etc......

In the blink of an eye, it is today, nearly two years have passed, looking back on these two years, my three books have never been on the homepage of the website, compared with several other authors who started at the same time as me, watching them open a new book on the three rivers and the first strong, I feel envious at the same time, but also can't help but be all lost.

During this period, many friends persuaded me to TJ, there is no need to write down the street text, and many friends even asked me, is it the editor deliberately making things difficult for me? Why don't you change your vest?

Trouble me? Not really.

The editor was very good, gave me a very easy-going feeling, and was very easy to speak, not only did not make things difficult for me, but also clearly pointed out my shortcomings...... Here, I would like to express my sincere gratitude to my current editor-Sansheng.

Besides, whether the book can become popular in the end depends entirely on the quality of the book, and I hit the street, which can only mean that my writing is not good enough.

It's just that I'm really tired, writing a book is not a chat, and every paragraph I write has to consider whether it is logical and does not deviate from the outline, which makes me, a person who is not a fast typer, write very slowly.

Some friends advised me to change stations and go to other places to develop.

However, I wanted to stay at the starting point, because, from the very beginning, my dream was ignited at the starting point, I liked the vest of "Nanyang Fire", and I liked the "Five Elements Master", "Harnessing Electricity" and "Counter-Strike in the Otherworld" that I wrote.

I made a promise from the very beginning: I will finish the book, and I will never TJ! And I've always kept that promise.

However, I don't see hope, it's easy to change places, but it's too hard to change hearts.

I had a great ambition with the second elder in my family, but two years later, I still have nothing, and the second elder never blames me, but I look at their aging bodies, and I really don't know how to face them.

I'm already in tears when I write this, as a man, even if I am slashed a few times, I will never shed tears, but here, I am almost broken down by this kind of torture all day long.

Tomorrow is the day it hits the shelves, but I'm full of fear, and I'm worried that those few subscriptions or no subscriptions at all will hit me hard again.

With more than 5,000 collections, how many subscriptions can there be?

Are all the others fake except for the subscribed ones?

When will this kind of torment end?

Those readers who read pirated copies, do they think that genuine copies are very expensive?

2 cents for high V thousand words, 1 cent for 1,000 words at the beginning, according to my update amount, high V consumes about three yuan a month, and the first V consumes four yuan and five cents.

Three dollars is just the money for a deciphering chip, and this deciphering chip may only give you 10 days of AWP, but your three dollars can be exchanged for a whole month of my hard work!

[Because of the previous blow, coupled with trivial matters at home, I don't have half a chapter of the manuscript, I'm going to continue to code now, and so on, "After zero o'clock, I will upload the first chapter of this book VIP chapter", I really hope that my readers can support the genuine! It is also to support me to write this book and fulfill the promise I once said that I would never TJ!! 】

[I've finished writing the 76W word public work, and I've also finished the 190W word 30 average super street work, are you still worried that I can't finish this work that is far better than the previous two? ] 】

[If you like it, if you believe me, please support the genuine subscription! ] 】

[Your subscription has brought me not only a penny of income, but also affirmation, support and hope for me!!] 】

At last...... Nervously asked: Will anyone vote for me for a monthly pass?

――Nanyang Huo was written on May 31, 2013.

(By the way: after it is put on the shelves, it will still be two updates a day, at least 5000 guaranteed.) ）

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"Harnessing Electricity" - written after the end.

It's finally over.

The stone in my heart finally landed.

Since I started on February 7 this year, until today, I have never relaxed every day, and I look forward to it every day.

Looking forward to waking up from a sleep, subscriptions skyrocketing, and even, every day when I first open my eyes, I can't wait to crawl out of the hot bed, turn on the computer, and board the author number.

But every time, my heart warmed by dreams will become cold.

There's only one reason: it's super hard -- and the most fundamental reason is that I'm poorly written.

But now, I can finally stop looking forward to it, I can finally sleep soundly, I don't have to relieve the pain of waking in my dreams, and I don't have to be sad and sad because I have hope and disappointment again and again.

However, when I typed out the words "the whole book is finished" and woke up from a dream, I couldn't help but think, should I continue to write new books?

……

This book,Since June 1st with 1601 collection comfort on the shelves,Subscriptions have remained in the single digits.,Until today, December 31, I finished the last chapter.,Although the collection has risen to 2145,But the average is still only a pitiful 30,Including my own subscription and friendly support.。

Maybe many readers don't understand how 30 is a number on the street, I will explain simply, "Yudian" 53W words comfort on the shelves, until now 190W words, that is to say, the number of charged words is 137W words.

Among them, there is a subscription for every 1,000 words, and the author can get a penny, 137W words is 13 yuan, and there are an average of 30 people who subscribe to it, so my manuscript fee is 390 yuan.

In other words, if there is no full attendance bonus of 500 yuan per month after the starting point is put on the shelves, and then excluding the basically negligible reader tips, nearly a year of labor, in the end, I only get 390 yuan in return.

What can you do with 390 yuan? Treat a friend to a meal? Or how many people go to KTV?

I'm sure everyone knows better than me.

But this 390 yuan is the fruit of my labor for nearly a year.

I'm slow codeword because I only use two fingers to type letters, and thumbs up to tap the spacebar.

When the state is good, I can code 1300 words an hour, and when it is bad, I can't code a thousand words an hour, or even 500 words, on average, I spend at least 6 hours a day on the code word, but in the end, the money I make is not even enough for cigarettes.

So, I really couldn't write the original plan of 400W, but fortunately, I wrote the ending.

Because of this, the tone of the closing chapters seems slightly heavy.

Just like what Parker said, every moment, there are also two wolves fighting in my heart, the evil wolf makes me give up, the good wolf makes me persevere, fortunately, the one I raise is the good wolf, so although the electric power is super on the street, it finally has an ending that is not absolutely perfect.

I really don't want to talk about Yudian, this book is very painful to write, because I, as the author, have never been happy.

Everyone clicks on my name to know,This is my second book,The first book of the Five Elements Juggernaut didn't even sign a contract.,That 76W word plus this 190W word is a total of 266W words.,It took me a year and a half.,In the end, it's just this pitiful result.,Look at the results of my friends with the same author...... I was really miserable and had low self-esteem.

Of course, this is my personal reason, because I don't write well, no one reads it, and now the pain is also self-inflicted.

During this period, many author friends praised me for being able to write so much with such poor grades.

But when I heard it in my heart, I was not happy at all, their praise was undoubtedly ironic to me, sarcastic that I was stupid, and I insisted on writing it even if I couldn't make money.

Many times, I wonder if I should really give up. After all, I'm afraid that half of the 30 averages are merchants who pirate// version of the website, that is, there are not many readers who read the genuine version.

But when I think about it, if this book has no ending, I'm afraid there should be so many readers who follow it to disappoint, right?

There is an old saying that "they will do unto you as you would have them do unto you."

I never dare to break the update, even if it is a book that has not even been signed a contract, I have insisted on finishing the book, and I have always respected readers, and naturally I also want to be respected by readers.

As I said, pirated readers are also my readers, and even if only one person is still reading it, then I will insist on finishing it.

But after I really finished writing, I didn't feel good in my heart.

According to my update amount, I will change 15W words every month, go to Taobao to buy a high V number, and 1,000 words will cost 2 cents, and it will only be 3 yuan a month, 3 yuan...... What can you do? Buy a bottle of Coke? A pack of big front door cigarettes?

In this era, who cares about 3 yuan?

But 3 yuan can buy me a month's labor.

Even if you don't want to spend money to buy a high V, the first thousand words are only a penny more expensive than the high V.

Some people will say, it doesn't cost money to watch the pirated // version, why should I waste this money? Besides, don't you have to steal // versions? Can you guarantee that the Microsoft system you are using is genuine? Can you guarantee that you have never used pirate// copy?

Yes, I'll admit that the XP system I use is indeed pirated, because I'm computer blind and don't even know where to buy the original.

If this sentence had been put two years ago, I would definitely laugh and echo it.

However, today, I really can't laugh.

I'm just a hard writer, I can't compare with other big Microsoft companies, if the whole world uses a stolen version of Microsoft's system, what do you think will happen to Microsoft?

Similarly, if all the people who read novels read pirated // editions, then the writers have no income, and how many are willing to keep writing?

However, the fault lies not in the people who use the pirated version and the person who sees the pirated version, but in the merchant who pirates the version.

So, I don't despise pirated readers, I only despise pirated websites.

However, there are always some exceptions for pirate// edition readers.

I once met a book friend with an extremely bad character, and he told me directly: All the genuine ones are SB, and if there is a free one that doesn't read it, what is SB?

I really wanted to reply to him: QNMLGB, but all that came out of the keyboard was: hehe.

I'm not knocking over a boatload of people with a single rod, after all, there must be some readers who are very financially difficult. I just want to say, please don't trample on the fruits of other people's labor, and don't take other people's hard-earned money for free and look like you are right.

The bad writing is my reason, but if you look at the pirated // version and scold the genuine ones are SB, then I can only say to you: Hehe.

In addition, I met a pirated reader who often complained: the reason I read pirated editions is simple, because there are no books worth my money to read!

I believe that this sentence may resonate with many readers who watch the pirate// version.

yes, I don't think it's worth it, so I don't want to spend money, what's wrong?

Here's what I said to him at the time: Why do you want to watch it if you think it's not worth it?

He told me: Online articles are just for entertainment, and if you are serious, you will lose!

I then replied to him: Then you worked for a month, and when it was time to pay your salary, the boss told you that I was just entertaining you, and if you were serious, you would lose...... What would you think if that were the case?

Yes, it is true that online articles are just things for entertainment, but this does not mean that the writers who write online articles are also for your entertainment!

To put it mildly: if you entertain others now, aren't you afraid that one day others will entertain you?

Cause and effect, whether you believe it or not, I believe it anyway!

……

I believe that many old bookworms can't see the books they are satisfied with now, and this is the reason why some old readers read pirated // editions.

Actually, the writer is really hard, and there shouldn't be many people like me who hit the street so much that they don't even know my grandmother and insist on writing a nearly 200W word book, right?

My income wasn't enough to support myself, and for me, I really didn't want to write about it anymore.

Because of this, many truly talented but not yet famous writers gradually give up - why should they continue to write because they don't get enough money to support themselves?

I believe that there are always some authors who are talented and have many new elements in their minds or even cool things, but because they have no writing experience, they write poorly at the beginning, and because he writes poorly, there are few readers, but there are always some readers who will find something good in his poor writing.

However, he didn't think that the author's logically incorrect article was worth paying for himself, so he went to see the pirated // version.

And what will this rookie author feel when he looks at the results of hitting the street and the abuse in the book review area?

Even if I have a belly full of novel fantasies, I am afraid that I will not have the courage to write about it again.

Having said that, if the book review area is harmonious, and all the book friends enthusiastically help to correct instead of abuse, even if the grades are poor, it will be exchanged for the author's persistence.

Perhaps, that's why the author will be able to finish.

But what if those readers who watch the pirate// version of the entertainment all come to support the author?

The author's grades are better, and his confidence and confidence in perseverance are a little stronger, and he has been trained in writing after completing a book, and maybe he will become a god in the next book, and write all the novel fantasies in his mind.

Having said all this, I just want to express a point, readers who read the pirated // edition, please don't complain that there are no books that you feel are worth spending money on, if you all support the genuine version, and support more authors to move from immaturity to maturity, there will definitely be more wonderful works emerging in endlessly.

After I said so much, there will definitely be some people who stand up and accuse me: You have such poor grades, and you are still qualified to accuse others?! If you don't want to learn more, how to write a good book, why do you talk all this nonsense? Even if you say so much, are you sure that someone will see it? Do you think you have readers who read the pirated // version?

Yes, my grades are very poor, so bad that I haven't gotten a recommendation for more than 8 months, and I haven't been on the mobile wireless reading base for 7 months, because of this, I'm very inferior, so inferior that I don't have the confidence to bother the editor to ask why, is it not qualified.

But these "nonsense" are the real thoughts in my heart, I don't vomit or feel unhappy, even if no one sees it, I can feel more comfortable when I say it.

My poor grades are my personal fault, it's that I don't write well, and I'm going to work harder after that, but does that mean I don't have the right to vent and complain once in a while?

I don't believe that 2145 collections, there are really only 30 readers, those who are watching the pirated // version of the readers, can you support the genuine version? How about giving me some courage to keep writing?

I spent nearly 11 months completing 190W words with a 30-average, super street score, which is respecting my few readers, so, can you respond to me with a subscription?

Isn't my persistence really not in exchange for your respect?

Can you only get it, sitting in front of the computer or holding your mobile phone, watching the pirated // version of your laughter, by the way, scold me SB?

If there is such a person, then I can only send you one sentence: be a man and do your job, and hope to do it yourself.

――Nanyang Huo was written on the last day of 2012.