"It's all gone."

In a wing room in the northwest corner of the Jinyang Prefecture Pastoral Mansion.

Originally, this was just a very ordinary wing, but since the news of Lu Zhi's assassination reached Bingzhou, it has become what it is today - a temporarily rebuilt mourning hall, the mourning hall of Lu Zhi's tablet.

In the past few days, every evening Li Shushi would come here to kneel and sit for a while, quietly, without making a sound. At the beginning, I would recall my past experience with Lu Zhi, but later it was a blank space, and I just knelt there blankly.

And behind him, there are usually Su Xiao Lori, Zhen Xiao Lori and another Lori to accompany him, and Ma Qing, Cai Yan and others can often be seen, but here it is like a forbidden spell, no one wants to say anything.

Except that Li Shushi occasionally said a sentence or two after finishing in a daze.

Under the service of Zhen Xiaololi, who took off the miserable white filial piety dress on his body, Li Shushi's daze was far from over.

And it has been a long time since I got the news of Lu Zhi's death.

Let all those who care about him see it in their eyes and be anxious in their hearts.

But this kind of thing is not internal or external injuries, and if the medicine stone is not enough, it can also be acupuncture, not to mention those magical spells. Li Shu's problems are nothing else, they are all things in his heart, no matter what kind of external force, he has to rely on himself to come out in the end.

Li Shuzhi's mood is indeed sad, but more often than not, he still feels chaotic.

Although he has been a human being in two lives, he has always experienced enough things to even write a legend, especially the first time in his life that he has experienced too many times after crossing over. But what happened in front of him stung the fragility in his heart.

It's not like Li Shushi hasn't seen dead people.

Who has never seen a mountain of corpses and a sea of blood from the battlefield, even if it is an ordinary person in the previous life, he has seen the death of the seven aunts and eight aunts and those classmates who have some vague impressions more than once in just over thirty years.

But except for the first time on the battlefield, seeing the brutal torture and killing made his heart beat very terrified. The death of the others had not caused him much discomfort at all, and at most he frowned.

He's always thought so.

But when the news of Lu Zhi's death came, he realized that he had obviously overestimated his endurance.

After all, compared to the deceased who was a stranger, Lu Zhi was obviously different to Li Shushi.

As an ordinary person in his early thirties. Although he has experienced some ditches and bumps, but his parents are complete, even if his body and bones are not very neat, no matter how you look at Li Shushi, he can still bear joy under their knees for ten or eight years. As for other relatives, in that copper-smelling era, it was really as Tutor Ma said-the relationship between people is the first naked money relationship.

This is true between relatives, but between teachers and students?

This society is very big, and naturally there are teachers who make him feel admired, and there are fuckers who make him grit his teeth and want to eat his flesh raw, but no matter what kind of thing it is. He is also living well as he knows - either continuing to work hard for his students or career on the front line, or enjoying a comfortable life after retirement.

This is especially true among classmates, except for a limited number of vaguely remembered names and faces but are no longer familiar, it can be called a familiar stranger who died young for various reasons, and people sigh a few times when chatting in the wine table communication, most of the time they are busy for their future, and even stopping to review the past has become a luxury.

Li Shushi's health before crossing was not good, and there were many minor problems. I have also had a big problem, and even several times I was honored to come to the front porch of the Hades Hall and walk a few steps, but naturally I couldn't walk into the military camp that can make people grow into men the most in the legend.

In addition, the place where Li Shushi lives on weekdays is an urban-rural junction due to urban expansion. Most of the people around are local villagers or dreamers from other countries, but there is also a bit of locals' straightforwardness in their cunning.

So, although various media sang the southern and northern tunes, Li Shushi felt that life seemed to be quite quiet and peaceful.

So, even in this turbulent era, Li Shushi still hopes to protect the little peace in his heart.

With a bit of idealism. With a little conscience, manage your own happiness.

He knew that this was a very selfish idea, and he should make a grand wish like those traverser immortals, and with great perseverance, great wisdom, and great courage, he would lay down a big territory and benefit a big palace by the way.

Well, in fact, when you think about it when you dream, such an achievement can still make people a little excited.

It's no wonder that the fairies are going forward and unscrupulous.

It's just that compared with those immortals with IQ of two hundred and fifty, all kinds of doctoral certificates and countless halos, he is a scum with an intellectual potential of only more than thirty, and although the remaining four attributes have also improved, after all, it is only just starting, and even the qualitative change line of half a hundred has not yet been crossed.

To put it simply, Li Shushi is still a little inferior in his heart.

So no matter what you do, there will always be a kind of fear, always carefully calculated behind your back.

Because he knows that compared to those elites of this era, he is simply a scumbag.

But even the five scum of war have still come to this point.

Came to the point that if you want to say that the famous generals in the late Eastern Han Dynasty increased the warlord Li Xueli Shushi felt that his ability was too poor. The humble ones want to go back to the furnace and practice again. I guess this will probably feel incredible except for a few people in the know.

And the reason why this can be done is that the support of a few people cannot be bypassed in any way.

Tong Yuan, Su Xiaololi, Lu Zhi, and the former emperor Liu Hong, who has a similar smell to Li Shushi.

Except for the last one who felt that the other party was very suitable for his appetite because he had too few opportunities to get along, and only met a few times, the remaining three had an unusually huge impact on him. This influence is slightly inferior even to Lu Bu.

Tong Yuan, the old shopkeeper of Li Shushi, is the foundation on which he owns a qiē. It was a stepping stone for him to integrate into this world. Su Xiaololi is using her gentleness to imperceptibly transform Li Shushi's heart. And Lu Zhi. Although the time spent together is the shortest among the three people, it is also extremely important to Li Shushi and his growth.

Because, for Li Shushi, Lu Zhi is a teacher.

A teacher who makes him feel almost perfect.

Teacher, preach and teach to solve doubts.

Lu Zhi is such a master. As a student of Ma Rong, the leader of Shilin, he is naturally a great Confucian with profound knowledge skills, even if he is not from a gate valve, his family background is definitely enough to make Li Shushi, who is a small person in Shengdou, look up to. Such a person is willing to teach Li Shushi with his heart, and it can be said that this book is Li Shushi's blessing.

More importantly, although Lu Zhi is obviously better than Li Shushi in all aspects, he can be called teaching students according to their aptitude and does not force Li Shushi to change his thinking habits. It just influenced Li Shushi's judgment in a subtle way.

Even if the views on some things are still extreme, they are still not comprehensive enough, even if they hear different opinions, they are not willing to accept them, and think that this is a kind of insistence of their own, but the old man does not refute much, just tells Li Shushi stories when he has time - there are legends that have not been handed down to modern times in ancient times, and there are also interesting anecdotes and anecdotes that have not been recorded on the carrier of today's people.

So, years later. Li Shushi, who has experienced some things and decided some things by himself, slowly understood the true meaning of the stories told by the old man back then. Maybe for him who fights five scum. There have been many stories that have been forgotten as wind in the ears, but Li Shushi, who understands the truth, has begun to try to give up some of the persistences and adopt some more flexible methods.

Of course, there are still things that must be insisted on, because after all, the body is a soul from the future, and it is also a soul in his thirties who already has a certain amount of social experience. Let's take the somewhat strange persistence in the eyes of today's people as my last fetters to the future era.

Although I guess the parents in that world will be very sad.

Lu Zhi is such a person. Maybe sometimes he is a little short-tempered, and maybe sometimes he will say something that people are accustomed to in this era but feel uncomfortable with Li Shushi, a soul from the future, but compared to most people Li Shushi has seen in this era, Lu Zhi's character and personality are undoubtedly extremely noble.

Therefore, he moved and touched Li Shushi, and tolerated that lonely heart with Su Xiaololi. Therefore, even if the situation in Shuozhou under his rule is still complicated, it makes all parties happy and convinced. Therefore, even if he only relied on the wealth of Xihe, he slowly encroached on those once unruly Hu people and made them become blades in the hands of the great Han.

Master, Master, Lu Zhi is not only like a benevolent teacher, a strict teacher, but also like a responsible and dignified father.

Such a person, Li Shushi's respect for him is undoubtedly from the bottom of his heart, for such a respectable old man.

Therefore, when he learned that such an elderly man had left because of a conspiracy, Li Shushi was like his parents had left, and that kind of pain may not be expressed in a heart-rending way, but it made him feel that his heart was suddenly empty, which represented the collapse of a spiritual pillar that supported him, and the uncomfortable feeling caused by the huge gap was the reason why he was often sluggish.

Naturally, he has no time to take care of those moods in his daily work, and the heavy work and physical exertion make it a luxury for him to reminisce about that feeling, and in fact he has no time to do that.

It was only when he was in the mourning hall that Li Shushi could relax his mind a little, and then fell into the cracks in his heart.

So this is really the path that a carefree bear child must go through to grow into a xx youth?

It's the middle of the night when the day's work is over.

During this time, Li Shushi's work has been so busy, and Lu Zhi's death has had a much greater impact on him than he imagined, but this is not the whole reason why he is busy, another problem that cannot be ignored is that Lu Zhi's death has made the already unstable situation in the west more elusive.

The affected areas range from Bingzhou in the east to Liangzhou in the northwest, from Shuozhou in the north to Yizhou and Jingzhou in the south.

And Li Shushi, who has a close relationship with Lu Zhi, is at the heart of this big storm.

It is probably not an exaggeration to say that his decision at this time may determine the future direction of Dahan.

No. Perhaps he has already made a decision, and chaos is coming. All he had to do. But it is necessary to see clearly what this chaos will bring, and what the state can gain from this chaos.

Don't blame him for not thinking clearly before making a decision, not only because even Jia Xu, who belongs to the top wisdom of this era, can't calculate everything, but more importantly, that kind of decision is completely inevitable without exaggeration - as long as Li Shushi still intends to take advantage of this troubled era to seek more. The power that can protect yourself and those you value.

Therefore, the courtiers in the court who desperately want to fight themselves must disappear. Especially Wang Yun, an old politician who is not behind Lu Zhi's death in Li Shushi's eyes, but definitely has the biggest suspicion.

A guy who doesn't have much political wisdom but always likes to play with conspiracy, but is extremely good at forbearance, although he may not have much success in governing the country, but he will become an extremely unstable time bomb, and all those who ignore him will be hurt by him. Especially this person is still stubborn and disgusting, and Li Shushi, who is already hostile to him, can't keep him.

It can even be said that even if Yuan Shao is in charge of the center Li Shushi can accept it, because under certain conditions, there is still a chance of reconciliation between the two people. Even Li Shushi took a step back, and the sky between the two could still be wide. But now Wang Yun and Li Shushi will only have an endless ending, because Li Shushi can't see any possibility of compromise.

Or even if it is a temporary compromise, it is just to accumulate the blow to Li Shushi and the state that will kill.

Originally, when Dong Zhuoshang was still there, Li Shushi also used Wang Ling and other members of the Wang clan in Qixian County to convey a friendly signal to Wang Yun in Chang'an, and also received a positive response from the other party at that time, which somewhat made Li Shushi relax his vigilance against Wang Yun, thinking that even if the other party would not value him as much as Er Yuan and Cao Cao, at least he would not be an enemy.

Fortunately, because Wang Yun suddenly got carried away after gaining power. Let his true nature be exposed, and give Li Shushi a chance to realize the fact that this man who is destined to be friends and will only be enemies will not be.

It's not too late to make amends.

And. Isn't there a man next to him who plans to "take revenge" for Dong Zhuo?

Even if the ambitions of Xiliang generals like Li Dao and Guo Yan are monstrous, with this buffer, at least they can ensure that there will be no second Wang Yun in the court. In terms of the predictable historical trend, Li Shushi felt that after this experience, perhaps he should consider reviewing some of his previous ideas.

As a Chinese, as a Han Chinese. Li Shushi naturally has a unique good impression of the Han and Tang dynasties, followed by the slightly painful era of the Ming Dynasty. As for the Song Dynasty, which is admired by many people, although it has had amazing economic development, the roots of this country have actually been broken since the sound of the candle shadow axe, and the spirit handed down from Guo Wei to Chai Rong to Zhao Kuangyin has been reversed and turned into a country that is completely opposite to before.

This is Li Shushi's cognition, and this is the most fundamental reason why he is willing to support this dynasty.

People in this era may not be able to imagine the pride that Li Shushi felt when he mentioned the name of this country, not only because the country was once strong, but also because of the huge sense of grievance that Li Shushi once lived in when the country could only endure humiliation and burden.

Strong but not domineering, this is simply the most bullshit joke. Just because they always have such a mentality, the surrounding small countries dare to provoke unscrupulously, not because of the so-called strength behind them, but simply because they know that even if they take advantage, they can't lose anything. It's really strategic to value you but tactically to despise you!

How to cut off this greed, then there is only an excess of revenge. Revenge grievances directly, killing people to pay for life, and the cost of crime is the best means to curb this kind of psychology of taking advantage, and this is not the expression of domineering, can you do it without hegemony!

It's a pity that the leader of the country is Gou Jian, and it is Li Shimin, who faces the Turks next to Weishui.

It can be seen from this that a great politician is really not something that ordinary people can do, at least not a husband who can only be angry.

However, Li Shushi, who is in this era, does not have to be so aggrieved. Even if the current Han Dynasty has declined to a very low level, Li Shushi can still take the most drastic measures against the Hu people in the north, and then lead an expedition to the Western Regions to deter the countries of the Western Regions, and he can thoroughly implement his beliefs and actions.

Moreover, there are people like Dong Zhuo and Lu Zhi who can understand him behind him, who continue to give him all kinds of support.

Now, these people have passed away, and looking around, it seems that the princes of the world can no longer find a prince who can continue to give him such support, even if the man who once made a decision in his heart to engrave "General of the Late Han Zhengxi" on the tombstone is afraid that his greatest wish now is to be able to gain a firm foothold in Yanzhou and slowly expand his influence.

Lu Zhi's death did break a spiritual pillar in Li Shushi's heart, but if you think about it from another angle, isn't this just a crutch that Li Shushi once relied on.

Without this crutch, and without the moral restraint hidden on the crutch, it means that the shackles on his body are gone.

It's time for him to stand on his own feet!

It's just that the inferiority complex and casual teenager doesn't seem to be fully prepared for that.

"Can I do it?"

It was a dark night, surrounded by a thick black fog.

"I believe in you~ It's like I believe in you, I believe in me."

In this thick black mist, those eyes were so bright, like lights in the rain.

Pan Sen: This is to thank Potbelly Sauce and Little L for their efforts for two consecutive months of monthly pass plus more.

Pan Sen 2: Why don't you add one change to the monthly pass every 10 months from next month?

Pan Sen 3: Even if this volume ends here, let's talk about it tomorrow......

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