Nanyan looked at him and said in a desolate voice: "There are many, there are many things, and the concubine has not figured it out. It's like—"

Zhu Feng said: "What? ”

Nanyan said softly: "For example, why did she hurt the emperor? Why does the emperor hate her? If the emperor really hated her, why didn't he kill her? But to keep him, all these years, so that their mother and son can't recognize each other? ”

Zhu Feng said: "Is this all the questions you want to ask me?" ”

Nanyan looked at him quietly.

The two of them looked at each other like this for an unknown amount of time, and in the quiet Chen Qian's palace, her almost ethereal voice sounded: "Actually, concubine, what I want to ask most is - does the emperor still love her?" If the emperor still loves her, what about the concubine? ”

Zhu Feng slowly stood up from the side of the bed and walked towards him step by step.

Instead of answering her words, he looked down at her almost red eyes.

Not only did I stay awake all night for a few days and nights, covered with red blood, but there was also a kind of tears that were about to come up, and I looked like I was burning and slightly red.

Zhu Feng raised his hand and stroked her cheek.

Then he said, "When you ask these words, do you think that what I have said to you in the past is a lie to you?" ”

"The emperor will not lie."

Nanyan said softly: "The emperor will only finish the truth." ”

“……”

Zhu Feng's eyebrows frowned again.

Nan Yan looked into his eyes and said seriously: "It's like the relationship between Concubine Ning and King Wei, it's like—it's like the past between you and Concubine Ning." In fact, these things have always been in my heart, like a thorn, a knife, piercing my heart. ”

"Nanyan ......"

"Your Majesty, if I don't pull out this thorn and this knife, I don't know when, I will really be in unbearable pain, and I will really die."

“……”

"Your Majesty, the Emperor once said that I am jealous, but in fact, from beginning to end, I am not jealous of anyone, I just-"

"Just what?"

"I just, I want the truth."

As she spoke, her tears flickered.

Seeing her like this, Zhu Feng was silent for a long time, and finally sighed and said, "Okay." ”

He glanced back at King Wei, who had a high fever on the bed and was unconscious, asked people to come in to take care of him, and then walked out of the room with Nanyan.

Outside the Chengqian Palace, it still looks very deserted.

Even if Zhu Chengxuan came back, he hadn't had time to become lively, only the rising sun, faintly sprinkled in the corner of the wall.

Zhu Feng walked forward and said, "You know, I was the prince who was not liked by Emperor Gao. ”

"The concubine knows."

"But in fact, I am not only not liked by Emperor Gao, but also by my brothers."

“……”

Nanyan was stunned for a moment.

Thinking back to King Ning and King Jing's attitude towards him, I really couldn't imagine that they didn't like Zhu Feng either.

However, thinking about it, the appearance of him that he saw was already his success in a hundred battles, becoming the god of war in the north, King Yan, and even, after ascending the throne, becoming the emperor of Yanguo, but he really didn't know his past.

"From the beginning of being sensible, when everyone plays together, they almost don't take me with them, and even if I go, there is a feeling of not being accepted, as if I am an outsider."

“……”

"I've been like that for so many years."

Nanyan looked up at his back.

Zhu Feng is very tall and has very broad shoulders, every time he walks behind him and looks up at him, he has a feeling of looking up at the mountains.

But today, when I saw his back, I was shocked by his loneliness.

He has always been someone else's dependence.

But few people know that sometimes he also needs to rely on others, but he can't say it.

Nanyan said softly: "They, why don't they like you?" ”

“……”

Zhu Feng let out a deep breath, as if he was holding something, and did not speak.

Nanyan said: "Why don't I like you, there must be a reason, there is a right or wrong, can't - alienate the emperor for no reason, don't like you." ”

Zhu Feng didn't answer.

He was just silent, took two more steps forward, and then said, "But when Qin Ruolan appeared in front of me, it was different. ”

“……！”

Nanyan's heart suddenly sank.

Finally talked about Qin Ruolan.

also talked about her "differentness" and her "specialness".

Nanyan's voice trembled slightly: "What's the matter, it's different?" ”

"She is the daughter of the young master of the crown prince and the niece of Qin Guifei, although at that time, Qin Guifei had already passed away, but because of this relationship, she often went in and out of the palace and played with our brothers."

“……”

"She's not alienated from me."

“……”

"Since the day we met, she has always been gentle with me. At that time, I was only seventeen or eighteen years old, and I was gentle with her, I ...... Very obsessed. ”

Nanyan didn't speak, only clenched his fists hard.

The nails are about to pierce the skin and pierce the palms.

The slight tingling sensation made her try to suppress herself, and after a long time, she said softly, "Is it? ”

Zhu Feng continued: "Later, everyone gradually grew up and began to have a relationship between men and women. ”

He stopped abruptly and turned back to Nanyan.

With a serious and defenseless look, he said to her: "At that time, I really liked her. ”

“……”

"I really like her."

“……”

Nanyan was speechless.

Her palms hurt, her heart hurts, but she has nothing to say.

It should be said that in that case, it is difficult not to like Qin Ruolan, such a beautiful girl, together every day, and moreover, in the cold imperial city, the only one who is gentle with herself.

Just imagine, even if it was himself, if he had been wronged in the Si family back then, if a person like him appeared, then he would probably fall in love with him.

It's just, I think so.

When he spoke, his voice was choked, and there was a slight tremor in his voice: "I understand." ”

Zhu Feng looked at her deeply.

Nanyan took a deep breath, but turned his head, avoiding his gaze, and then said, "Then, what happened later?" ”

“……”

"Why did she say again, she was sorry for the emperor, she hurt the emperor."

At this time, Zhu Feng's eyes also trembled slightly.

As if some old wound had been torn apart, he slowly turned around and continued to walk forward, and then said, "Do you remember what I told you about Ye Quan? ”

"Of course."

Ye Quan is Ye Chen's elder brother.

Originally, he was the person sent by the prince to the Yanwang Mansion in Beiping to monitor him, but because Zhu Feng saved Ye Xu, he also regarded Zhu Feng as his benefactor and did not leak any news about him to Jinling.

And then, he died.

Zhu Feng said: "Before he died, he told me that the person who leaked the news to Jinling was not him, and I knew that there was eyeliner by my side." ”