Regarding Tian Lingling's statement, Cai Gen understood a little and asked

"Xiao Tian, did you commit suicide because you were afraid of spending money at home?"

Obviously, Cai Gen guessed wrong, Tian Lingling shook her head,

"I know it's not easy for Mom and Dad, I'm working hard, my academic performance has been improving, and I don't want my parents to spend money in vain.

I also naively thought that when I was admitted to university in the future, I would be able to return the money to my parents.

In the first half of my freshman year of high school, I was admitted to the top 500, in the first half of my sophomore year, I was admitted to the top 100, and in the first half of my junior year, I was admitted to the first place in high school.

I thought it would be fine and my mom would be easy, but I was wrong. ”

If you place first in the whole grade group of the city high school, the national key university should not worry, isn't the couple's wish to let the child have a chance? This kid is already very promising, so what's not to be satisfied with?

"My mother was talking every day, how much debt I owed to support my schooling, and how could I live? Later, when I went to college, it was another lot of money, and then I was endlessly scolding my father, saying that my father was incompetent, incompetent, incapacitated, and wasted, like a spell, which kept swirling in my ears.

Dad has worked very hard, he has been working in the mine before, and he has no other skills but to deliver food.

Every day, in order to take a few more orders, at six o'clock in the morning, I go out, my father goes out, and at twelve o'clock in the evening, I come back, and my father comes back.

Sleeping outside for 18 hours a day, this winter, my father's face was full of frostbite, but he never complained, no matter what his mother said about him, he would not refute a word. ”

How hard it is to deliver takeaways, Cai Gen couldn't be clearer, after resigning the employees one after another, Cai Gen does the same work every day, the front hall, the back kitchen, takeaway, one person is responsible.

The worse the weather, the more work, the more difficult it is to send, the customer's face is the lightest difficulty, those who are riders, are to be fined, a few minutes late, a bad review, a fine of one or two hundred, a day in vain.

Cai Gen listened to what the little girl said, combined with Xie Xie's uneasy work introduction yesterday, she felt that there were more people than this miserable person, she didn't think that this was the reason for the little girl's suicide, or her heart was too fragile, she was born as a human being, and she had to cherish it, how many lonely souls and wild spirits in the underworld did not dare to go to the wheel of life, and they did not dare to reincarnate after spending hundreds of years.

"Suddenly, one day, my father came back late, his face was full of wounds, and he bought a roast chicken, not the kind that is cheap, but the kind that is very expensive, more than 70 roast chickens. Mom got angry when she saw it, buying such an expensive roast chicken, is it too much? Just about to quarrel with my father, my father took out a stack of money, handed it to my mother, and said that he was hit by a car today, and people paid him 2,000 yuan, he didn't go to the hospital, and went directly to buy roast chicken, saying that this is the best roast chicken, and I want my wife and daughter to taste it. ”

Well, the roast chicken is really delicious, 38 yuan a catty, more than 70 for a chicken, the secret spice cooking, the chicken skin is crispy, the chicken is very flavorful, very chewy, especially the chicken head and chicken feet, Cai Gen used to have a pair of chicken feet, drink 3 bottles of beer, now think about it, Cai Gen is greedy, and he has not been willing to buy it for a long time.

"Later, my father often came home with injuries, and I often bought that roast chicken to eat, and my mother rarely complained about my father anymore."

Speaking of this, Tian Lingling showed an expression of disgust, as if those roast chickens were disgusting, and it seemed that saying such a thing made her very disgusting.

"In this exam, I didn't perform well, from the first place, to the third place, my mother broke down again, and began to tell me, how much money the family spent to support me, I was so unmotivated, my academic performance declined, I'm sorry for my father, I'm sorry for my mother. She has a lot of hard lives herself, when will this day be over.

This is a trivial matter, and my mother always says, I don't take it too seriously, I don't play well this time, just take the exam next time, I'm also 17 years old, and I have a certain amount of tolerance in my heart, but this is just the beginning.

We had a male classmate, the family was very rich, wrote me love letters, always wrote me love letters, I refused many times, he was still dead-faced, and then, in the process of passing the love letters in the class, the teacher found out, and then called my mother and the male classmate's mother to the school, and began to attack indiscriminately, saying that we had brought a bad atmosphere, and we were about to take the college entrance examination, so let them be strictly disciplined.

That day, my mother was like crazy, in the corridor of the school, she began to scold me, venting all the grievances in her heart over the years, the pressure of life, and the burden she has endured, I am a sinner, I am sorry for my parents, I am very sad.

If it wasn't because of that sentence, why didn't he write love letters to others?

It's not because of that sentence that I raised you for nothing, you are a white-eyed wolf.

Is it because it's so hard to live well?

I'm only 17 years old, I'm only 17 years old, I've lived for 17 years, and I haven't had a day of real happiness, and since I was 6 years old, I've been studying hard, making up classes, studying, making up classes, studying, studying, I'm bored, I've lived enough.

But I didn't think of dying, stay up, after the college entrance examination, it's good to go to college, you can go to work, I want to return all my mother's money to them, I want them to live a good life, I will definitely work hard, I don't think I am destined to be mediocre in this life. ”

Looking at the perseverance in Tian Lingling's eyes, she revealed a domineering spirit of a scholar, which deeply infected Cai Gen who was seated, as if she had seen the little girl admitted to a good university, found a good job, dominated the workplace, walked to the pinnacle of life, returned to her hometown in fine clothes, and met the proud eyes of her parents, wandering in deep happiness.

As she leaped forward, the happiness was out of the question, the dust had settled, and the little girl's resolute gaze became cold, so cold that it seemed that the temperature of the room had dropped a lot.

Cai Gen was surprised, are the spirits so emotional? By the way, that male classmate should have been to Wang Si today, see that this girl's logical thinking is very clear, and her ability to resist pressure is also very good, what did this little calf do? Let such a young girl in the flower season commit suicide?

"What crushes a camel is often a gentle straw, and what crushes me is indeed a big tree, and I am not as strong as a camel.

The male classmate, when he came home, was beaten by his father, and he was beaten very hard, and when he came back to school, he always looked at me resentfully, and then he said among his classmates, saying that my father touched porcelain, that I went to school because my father touched porcelain, and that his uncle was touched by my father. ”

Could it be that because her parents did disgraceful things, the little girl felt that her dignity had been hit, so she committed suicide because she resented her parents?

Cai Gen was very confused at this time, if she really committed suicide to take revenge on her parents, then her life was really as she thought, worthless, and if she died, she would die.