At this moment, another bright light flashed next to him.

Nanyan slowly turned his head, only to see Qin Ruolan holding a candlestick, standing silently in the cold wind.

Her gaze also looked ahead, the direction in which Zhu Feng disappeared.

The candle in the wind, flickering with a faint light, was reflected in her bright eyes, but at this time, there was an indescribable gloom, as if the next moment, it would be extinguished in the wind.

After a long while, she slowly turned her head and looked at Nanyan.

The two men met their eyes and fell silent.

I don't know how long it took, but the two people who had been blown cold by the cold wind walked into Nanyan's room.

Qin Ruolan walked in by herself.

And Nanyan didn't refuse at all, there seemed to be a tacit understanding between the two people, and when she came in, Nanyan closed the door and lit the candlestick on the table.

The light of the two candlesticks brightened the room a little.

But still, it can't illuminate the gloom in Qin Ruolan's eyes.

She sat at the table, looking at the flickering flames, and her mind seemed to be in a state of confusion.

Until Nanyan walked to the table and sat down as well.

She raised her head to look at Xiang Nanyan and said, "He came to you?" ”

"Hmm."

“……”

Qin Ruolan was silent for a moment, as if he didn't want to believe it, or as if he was unwilling, he asked again: "Why did he come to you?" ”

“……”

Nanyan looked at her for a while, and said calmly: "I don't know what he is going to do, and I don't know what his purpose is. ”

“……”

"All I know is that he entered the cold palace and broke into my room."

Of course, it almost killed her.

It wasn't until this time that Nanyan understood a little bit that the sentence "It's good to kill people in a dream" that Ye Zhen told her back then turned out to be not exactly a joke.

She could feel herself almost suffocating at that moment.

Even now, the bones in her whole body still seem to have fallen apart and then reassembled, and in many places, it hurts terribly.

At that moment, she probably already had one leg into hell.

Zhu Feng really almost killed her.

But why?

Why did he suddenly enter the cold palace inexplicably, find himself inexplicably, and even kill himself.

Does he know what he's doing?

And what does Heyi mean by "life and death"?

Thinking of this, she raised her head, looked at Qin Ruolan, who was pale under the candlelight, and said, "You once told me that he was different from now. ”

“……”

"What was he like back then?"

“……”

Qin Ruolan quietly looked at the candlestick on the table, the flickering fire shone in her pupils, but there was a deep darkness inside, as if the light could not shine in.

I don't know how long later, she said softly in a somewhat hoarse voice: "Back then, he was a very insecure person. ”

"What?"

Her first words, Nanyan couldn't believe it.

Insecure people, how is it possible?

People like Zhu Feng are brave and resolute, and will move forward bravely in the face of any difficulties, he is the backbone of all people, and he is also the one who gives everyone a sense of security.

Why is he insecure?

"You don't believe it, do you?"

Qin Ruolan turned his head to look at her and said calmly, "But that's the truth. He is an insecure man, like a lonely boat adrift in the ocean, who wants to find any place to dock, but is afraid that that place will make waves again and plunge itself into the torrent. ”

“……”

"That's what he is."

“……”

"He can't trust anyone, but in his heart, he hopes that there is someone who can make him believe and rely on."

Nanyan frowned: "How can this be?" ”

Qin Ruolan said word by word: "Because, he is a person who has no past." ”

"What?"

Nanyan's eyes widened suddenly: "Didn't go over, you mean-"

"He has no memory until he is ten years old."

“……”

"He can't remember his childhood, he doesn't know what happened, but the person I met was a man who had no past."

Nanyan took a breath of cold air.

Zhu Feng doesn't remember what happened before he was ten years old?

So, in his memory, it was a blank.

However, the "place" of people, the positioning of themselves, or the shaping of people's character, were originally self-confirmed and self-defined during that period, but the memory of that period was blank for him.

“……”

Nanyan felt that the howling wind outside suddenly broke into this room, and also broke into his mind, messing up all his previous thoughts.

She never knew that Zhu Feng, who was as tall as the mountain in front of her, made people rely on and gave people a sense of security, had ever lost her memory.

He doesn't remember his childhood.

So, what was it like for him to live in the palace of Emperor Gao at the beginning?

So he-

"So he," Qin Ruolan said this, and paused: "Very lonely." ”

“……”

"It took him a long time to learn how to get along with people."

“……”

"But in the palace—I think you also understand, at any time, the palace is not a place where people can confide in their hearts and show their sincerity."

“……”

"He's had a lot of injuries...... Later, they met me. ”

Nanyan's throat is a stalk.

Of course, she knew what happened after meeting Qin Ruolan.

In Zhu Feng's life, the deepest scars in my heart are brought by her.

Thinking of this, she was even more heartbroken.

She thought that Zhu Feng had said that it would be good if she met her at that time, and she just smiled lightly and said that she was still young at that time, so she exposed this topic.

Now, she really understood the meaning of his words.

If he had appeared at that time, would he not have had to suffer those injuries and suffering, and would he not have had that bloodthirsty and murderous cruel temperament in the future?

Nanyan's breathing became cramped.

She reached out and tugged at the hem of her chest.

After a long time, she raised her head to look at Qin Ruolan, who was pale, her eyes were full of guilt, as if they were about to overflow from her eyes.

It's just that now, Nanyan doesn't have the heart to pay attention to her "guilt".

She asked, "So, why did he lose that memory?" ”

"The specific reason, no one knows."

“……”

"Emperor Gao doesn't let people know either."

“……”

"But, I heard that it was Emperor Gao who did it."

"What?"

Nanyan was startled again and looked at her in amazement.

Qin Ruolan also looked at her and said solemnly: "I heard that it was Emperor Gao's order that made him lose his previous memory. ”