Zuoqiu Zhizuo, this is an old man worthy of respect, and even worthy of admiration, just like he said, now he only thinks about old age, and there are no great achievements left in the world in this life, but this is an old man who loves the Three Thousand Academy, loves the empire, and loves the old man.

A patriotic person, we can not expect him to make great contributions, but the most gratifying thing is that he will always have some silent contributions. An Xiaoyu actually wants to be such a person, this is what a panda should look like.

An Xiaoyu is a young man, and a young man who has not seen much of the world before, in the dead of night, when there is no one around, she also fantasizes that she will be in the limelight at some point in the future and become prominent.

Even when she was in school, she thought that there would be a lot of boys pursuing her, and then she could learn what white amaranth looks like and experience what it feels like to be a peacock. But from the bottom of her heart, An Xiaoyu is a person who hopes to be flat.

The life she looks forward to is as quiet and warm as a windless evening in the Eastern Desert, not like the life she has experienced these days, and the person who can give her such a feeling these days is the caretaker.

Whether it's because of the administrator's omnipotent power, or because of the administrator's cheapness that doesn't matter about anything, as long as he is by his side, no matter what she does, An Xiaoyu feels very relieved, the whole world has nothing to do with her, she just needs to be herself, that's good.

On these nights, standing in front of Daoguan, An Xiaoyu asked herself again and again, what kind of feelings and expectations did she have for the administrator in her heart? Is it the same as being silent? Or is it different from sluggishness? If it's the same as Chi Mo, then is it love? If it's different from Chimo, is it love?

An Xiaoyu behaved normally in front of the administrator, but she would often look at his face inadvertently, and then be pinched and pulled around by the administrator, just like playing a stress relief ball, without giving her face at all. In the past, An Xiaoyu must have been annoyed and angry, but now...

The pain on her face turned numb, which made An Xiaoyu's heart itch, she knew that the administrator had a charm that made people sink in, even a woman like Xu He Ru would be dead set on him, once she fell into it, I am afraid she would never be able to pull it out.

But this kind of emotion is not something An Xiaoyu can control, she can only try her best to listen to the administrator's words, do her own thing, and strive to be able to understand him better, closer to his world, maybe when she stands by the administrator's side, she will understand what kind of feelings she should have for him.

So An Xiaoyu has been working hard, from the beginning of the yearning for the Central Plains, to the desire of Chi Mo and Bai Amaranth, and now he has added a confused dream of his own, which constitutes all the motivation for An Xiaoyu's efforts.

Such motivation pushed her steps, and in the applause of the new students in the school, she became the first student to stand on the podium of the whole school this school year, and took over the trophy in Zuo Qiu Zhizuo's hand.

Bowing to Zuoqiu Zhizuo and smiling, the old man looked at her, his eyes were full of relief and hope, and gave up the podium to her.

It's not the first time you speak on stage that makes you scared and nervous not because of the stares you endure when you're in front of everyone, but because you can't find the ones you want in those gazes. An Xiaoyu pretended to be calm, looked around, and her hands began to tremble slightly.

Immediately afterwards, she saw Leng Yan's eyes, and then, she saw Mu Si, Yu Beibei, Shao Jiaxian, Hei Niu and Fu Tianxuan, Ni Yu and Wei Fangcun in the teacher team, and saw many familiar faces from the Eastern Wilderness.

Finally, she saw the administrator. This person, who appeared among all the students, left An Xiaoyu with an encouraging smile, and when he went to look for it again, he disappeared into the dense crowd. But An Xiaoyu's hand began to steady, and her heartbeat returned to normal.

She took a deep breath, placed the trophy on the side of the podium, and said the first words into a hoverhorn she had never used:

"Hello everyone, I'm An Xiaoyu."

It was quiet under the podium, and everyone was looking at An Xiaoyu, not knowing what this beautiful girl was going to say.

On the viewing platform, a young, richly dressed man sat in his seat, sitting in an unorthodox posture that did not fit in with the others, one hand propping his chin and his eyes half-open, which he ignored despite the constant reminders from the butler behind him to maintain a good image.

It wasn't until An Xiaoyu came to the stage that he began to have some energy, looking at An Xiaoyu's side face, he was quite interested, and a little curious about what this beautiful girl would say. Is it the same as his usual speech, or can it surprise him extraordinarily?

Just when everyone was expecting it, An Xiaoyu spoke.

"I was born in a very small tribe in the corner of the Eastern Desert, just an ordinary girl who is not very good at learning and is usually unknown. In the tribe, I have a happy family, three generations in the same family, my father and mother, as well as my younger brother, my grandfather, are the people I love most in this life. ”

An Xiaoyu looked at the people below and told very calmly, the people below were inexplicable, why did they start talking about their lives? Isn't it supposed to be ambitious? In the face of their doubts, An Xiaoyu ignored them and continued her impromptu speech.

"Maybe you don't know the people of the Eastern Wilderness, maybe you haven't been to the boundary of the Eastern Wilderness, you don't know, in the hearts of all the people of the Eastern Wilderness, they all yearn for the day to be able to reach the Central Plains, and the most hopeful thing is to be able to take a look at the imperial capital."

"The imperial capital, in the hearts of all the people in the entire Eastern Wilderness, is sacred, undefiled, and the greatest pillar of life in their lives, and the only way we can reach the imperial capital is the national examination. Because of the expensive cost of the train, even the income of the Jiuxi tribe for more than ten years cannot be enough to make up the money for a ticket. ”

"Therefore, every class of students in the Eastern Wilderness has made more efforts than the people of the Central Plains, and in that place where there is not even a relatively formal school, they are quietly struggling, for the hope of countless generations for nearly 6,000 years and the future of the Eastern Wilderness."

"That's why I came to the imperial capital." An Xiaoyu said that she knew that the people below must have thought that it was another cliché to sell miserably, and finally said a few words of praise such as long live the empire, to leave everyone with an image of loyalty to the Eastern Wilderness, but she suddenly changed the topic and said:

"The Second University of the Imperial Army, one year once produced three very outstanding talents, the three of them, one was called a goat, one was called a peacock, and the other was called a poisonous snake."

The students at the bottom began to look confused, why did they suddenly talk about the Second Army University, isn't that a second-rate school?

"It's a pity that up to now, only the poisonous snake is left in this world."

"Viper once said that if you give me a nickname, you should call me Panda. Because in his opinion, a person will always be harmless to humans and animals, but his heart is full of motivation to support his own progress, such a person can be regarded as a precious person. ”

"Maybe it's no surprise that the goat will be the one who will stay with me for the rest of my life. I yearn for him, I like him, I like his gentleness and elegance, I like him to have goals, I like him to be capable, I like him to be strong and wise, and of course I like him to be handsome. ”

"But between us, there are still some things that can't be crossed, some sense of space, some psychological distance, and peacocks. Peacock is a very beautiful woman, far more mature than a student like me who has not yet entered school, and more able to love a person's heart through a person's disguise. ”

"At the last moment of his life, the peacock lay in my arms and told me that he wanted me to save the goat." An Xiaoyu's tone was a little low: "It's a pity that I didn't do it, and the goat died in front of me." ”

All the students who listened to An Xiaoyu's speech held their breath, and the square was silent, they couldn't imagine that this beautiful-looking girl who claimed to be from the Eastern Wilderness and had just arrived in the imperial capital would have such a tragic experience.

"I used to think that I could be a goat, I could be a peacock, I could be a poisonous snake, but I was a panda after all. Pandas have the laws of panda survival, and the lifestyle I can do is just like this, that's all. ”

"During that time, I was trapped in an underground pit because of the beast tide, and there was a young miner who spent a few difficult days with me. In the mine, we couldn't find food and even tried to nibble on safety ropes. An Xiaoyu suddenly talked about Chu Sui.

"After I left the Eastern Wilderness, this miner also left the mine in the Eastern Wilderness, and just a few days ago, he contacted me to say that he opened a wilderness survival store in his hometown in Dongyun Province, specializing in developing some supplies that can be turned into food in case of emergency, including safety ropes that can be cooked."

"So when I encounter tragedy, I can't save a lot of things, I can't save the goats, I can't save the peacocks, and I can't save the many people who died at the beginning, including one, although the time is short, but I am quite a good friend, she was buried forever in the endless wind and sand of the Eastern Wilderness in order for me to get out of the Eastern Wilderness safely, come to the Three Thousand Academy, and be buried forever in the endless wind and sand of the Eastern Wilderness."

"But since then, I am no longer an ordinary schoolgirl who came out of a small tribe in the Eastern Wilderness, I not only carry my own future and the expectations of my parents' tribe, I carry the remaining life of goats and peacocks, and the hope of my dead friends, just like the young miner, try my best to make up for what I couldn't save at that time."

"My teacher once told me that when you complain about being abandoned by God, you don't know that God doesn't like to abandon people, but likes to throw people around. You may regret why you didn't choose another path when you first chose the face, but in fact, the other path is just the difference between switching from left hand to right hand when God started to throw. ”

"This theory, which he called 'the right and left hand of fate,' was once regarded by me as a fallacy. But he told me that some truths are seen as fallacies because people don't want to believe them, because once they believe in them, there is no last way out for them. ”

Then I believed, there was no way back, and I found new light, made new friends, and their death and hope were no longer like heavy burdens, but treasures that remained in my heart forever. I thank them, I miss them, I love them, I love him. ”

An Xiaoyu spoke, tears couldn't help but appear in the corners of her eyes, and even the world and leaders from all walks of life on the viewing platform behind her began to become serious, looking at the back of this girl, behind this back, stood those who had left and could never come back.

"There are a lot of glories and lows in this world, we will have a lot of difficulties and happiness, when we face these, we have to remember what kind of people are left behind us silently for you."

"I know that there are many children of families here, and there are also many ordinary people, and there may even be some classmates who are not even as good as the natives of the Eastern Wilderness. But what I'm trying to say is that it really doesn't matter what other people think of your past, it's how we think about these things ourselves. ”

"When you can't see clearly, you can ask yourself, do you love him? You will find that the only thing that cannot satisfy you is the future. ”