A crush is: pretending not to see, but glancing at it ten thousand times with his peripheral vision; You can't kill me, but you can't save me.

- Gu Jing

As the young master of the Gu family in the capital, Gu Jing has always lived a chic and wanton life.

Young and frivolous, willful and reckless to the extreme.

There is an extremely excellent big brother Gu Xichao above him, and he is responsible for everything.

Gu Jing only needs to take Gu's huge annual share dividends.

Then, mix and wait for death.

……

Crush is the most beautiful love in the world, because I fixed your most beautiful moment in my heart and guarded it until death.

It's not you that I like, it's just your most beautiful moment.

Gu Jing never thought that he would fall in love with someone.

Or a crush.

He hated Jiang Ruan at first, his titular sister-in-law.

The first time she changed her opinion was when she saved him in the alley.

Then, step by step.

found that he liked Jiang Ruan, Gu Jing's heart was almost frightened.

He even refused to admit it.

The teenager who bought drunk all night in the bar, with a faint tear stain in the corner of his eyes, he had been talking to himself.

"I don't like something for too long, so my avatar screen name keeps changing, I'm tired of physical objects too quickly, and you, aren't my biggest exception......"

Self-deception.

-

I dyed my hair, thought I looked good, and happily went to her.

I didn't expect to be laughed at by her, and then went back to obediently dye back the original black hair.

She always likes to rub his hair like a child's head.

Gu Jing has never been dissatisfied.

Because, he can't hug her, he can't love her openly, and he even has to be careful when he says a word.

So.

It's okay to be a child in her eyes.

-

At her wedding, he seemed to have figured it out suddenly.

I like you.

This is my own business, a person's duty without turning back, a person's self-knowledge, a person's old age, and nothing else.

I was relieved for a moment, and I turned my head like a knife.

The moment the boy turned his head.

A tear stain was drawn from the corner of the delicate eye.

I didn't cry...... Really, it's just that the wind and sand were too big that day, and I was blinded.

……

Gu Jing's monologue:

I told myself over and over again that the person I liked but didn't get was not so good, and when I was really with her, I would get rid of the freshness and frenzy at the beginning, and probably only boring trivialities.

When I think about it like this, I feel that it is nothing if I can't get her.

I was too open-minded, so I stopped the loss in time, and threw it away before the sweetness began to turn sour.

I'm curious once in a while what would happen if I fell in love with you. Holding hands with you, hugging, kissing, sharing a routine, discovering all your shortcomings, quarreling, and then reconciling, slumping on the sofa and watching TV, insomnia and talking about childhood together.

I know you're not the right person, I'm not stupid. I'm not the kind of person who likes someone and wants to be with him.

But I really want to be with you, to see with my own eyes that we first fell in love, then hated each other, and then broke up, and many years later found something very similar to us in the movies and books, and then burst into tears.

I don't want anything else, I just want you to step into my life......

In the end, the young man's delicate but slightly green eyebrows were already full of pleading.

Tilting his head to take the last drink, he told himself.

I don't love her.

It's true.

She's just my crush when I was younger......

Something:.

Between the ages of seven and seventeen, there are ten years; Between the ages of seventeen and twenty-seven, there is a lifetime of separation.