【1461】I want to leave you
Zhou Si became a happier for Jin Shanshan and stayed at Jin's house that night.
He went out that night and bought a bunch of salutes from the fireworks shop and placed them in front of Jin's house, walked into Jin's house, dragged Jin Shanshan who was sitting on the sofa and walked towards the door, she looked at Zhou Sicheng with a puzzled look and asked, "Where are you going to take me?" ”
"You'll know when you get out."
Zhou Sicheng turned around and smiled at Jin Shanshan.
"I don't want to go out, I want to watch my TV!" Jin Shanshan struggled to break free of Zhou Sicheng's big hand, turned around and sat on the sofa again.
Zhou Sicheng slowly sat next to Jin Shanshan, "Shanshan, I want to give you a surprise, can you go out with me?" ”
Jin Shanshan's eyes kept looking at the TV in front of her, and she was turning back and forth with the remote control in her hand: "I don't want to go anywhere now." ”
Zhou Sicheng held Jin Shanshan's shoulders tightly with both hands: "Shanshan, don't be like this, if there is anything unhappy, you can tell me, as long as I can do it, I will help you do it." ”
Jin Shanshan subconsciously shouted, "Ah......hhhhh
She looked at her shoulder with tears in her eyes, "It hurts! You're hurting me. ”
Zhou Sicheng hurriedly let go of her shoulders and said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to." ”
“……”
Jin Shanshan lowered her head, sucked her sour nose, and remained silent for a long time.
After being silent for a long time, Zhou Sicheng leaned over slightly, looked at Jin Shanshan, who was deeply emotional, and said tentatively again: "It's not good for you to be bored at home alone, let's go out together to breathe fresh air?" ”
“……”
Jin Shanshan sat there without saying a word, hugging her thighs, her eyes staring ahead.
Zhou Sicheng saw that Jin Shanshan didn't react, and he didn't expect her to respond to him, so he carefully grabbed her hand and walked towards the door.
This time, Jin Shanshan did not refuse, moved small steps, and followed Zhou Sicheng's footsteps towards the door.
The sky at night was dark, and I saw Zhou Sicheng stretch out his hand and make a sound, and then, someone lit fireworks, followed by a deafening loud noise, and one by one "small missiles" flew into the air.
Beautiful chrysanthemums are released in the sky, decorating the night sky even more beautifully, and when fireworks fill the sky, it seems to brighten the whole world, and meteor-like sparks fall from the sky.
The world of the jade tree and the flowers presents the garden of the sky in the night sky.
Under the enchanting sound of the purple fireworks, their happy smiling faces unfolded, and how beautiful it should be with the dark sky.
The green aperture smiled back shyly, forming a smiling face with Huang Can's fireworks......
Zhou Sicheng turned his head and looked at Jin Shanshan expectantly, "Shanshan, do you like it?" ”
Jin Shanshan's gaze remained in place and looked at the sky, without the slightest reaction.
She felt that her feelings for Zhou Sicheng might have been a mistake from the beginning, so she tried to control her feelings for Zhou Sicheng.
"Shanshan ......"
Zhou Sicheng whispered in Jin Shanshan's ear.
Jin Shanshan came back to her senses and immediately responded, "Huh? ”
Zhou Sicheng slowly took Jin Shanshan's hand and asked, "I see that you are not in a very good mood, so I specially prepared this fireworks for you, do you like it?" ”
"Why are you spending so much?"
Jin Shanshan turned her head to look at Zhou Sicheng, and she couldn't hear any expression in her voice.
"As long as I see you happy, no matter how much money you spend, I'm willing," Zhou Sicheng's eyes fell on the fireworks in front of him, but there was a trace of worry in his eyes.
Jin Shanshan shook her head with a serious face, turned around and went back home, "I just want to stay there quietly and watch TV alone." ”
Zhou Sicheng shook his head helplessly and followed behind Jin Shanshan, "Shanshan, did I make you unhappy?" If so, I'll scold you as you like, but don't do this, you do this, I don't know you very well......"
In order to hide her embarrassment, Jin Shanshan casually took a piece of fruit from the coffee table and put it in her mouth, and said while eating, "Brother Sicheng, you think too much, I am still the Jin Shanshan you knew before." ”
"Since Song Min is gone, I feel that your whole person has become almost unrecognizable to me, and you are no longer as talkative as before, and you don't even want to say a word to me when you see me." Zhou Sicheng leaned on the sofa, and his arms were naturally on his thighs.
"Oh? Is it? ”
Jin Shanshan snorted perfunctorily.
The corners of Zhou Sicheng's mouth twitched, and he said calmly, "Yes, are you feeling uncomfortable because of Song Min?" I couldn't accept it for a while. ”
“……”
Jin Shanshan lowered her eyes and squinted, not knowing what to say.
Zhou Sicheng's voice was a little worried, "If you feel uncomfortable, just tell me, I can share some of it for you." ”
"I'm fine, I've already thought about Minmin's affairs, since she has left me, I should cheer up, I can't let her see my sad and sad appearance, so that her heart will also be sad." Jin Shanshan's eyes were scarlet.
She has slowly accepted the fact that Song Min is not as sad as Song Min when she just left, she has to be strong.
"Shanshan, don't hold it in your heart, you look like this, I feel really uncomfortable looking at it." Zhou Sicheng covered his heart and looked at Jin Shanshan sadly.
"I really don't, I think this kind of day is very dull, and I like it too." Jin Shanshan looked at Zhou Sicheng slowly, the corners of her mouth rose slightly, and an indifferent expression appeared on her face.
"But I want to see your carefree life."
After Zhou Sicheng finished speaking, he stood up and walked in the kitchen to give Jin Shanshan a glass of water, and handed the cup in front of her, "Shanshan, drink some water." ”
"Thank you......"
Jin Shanshan put the water cup in her hand and smiled slightly.
At this time, Zhou Sicheng's phone rang, he answered it indifferently, and said in a very flat tone, "Okay, you wait for me at the door, and I'll come out immediately." ”
He hung up and strode towards the door, leaving a crack in it.
After a while, he walked in front of Jin Shanshan with a large bouquet of roses and handed the flowers to her, "Happy Christmas Eve!" ”
"You've already given me a gift, why do you still have it?"
Jin Shanshan looked at him puzzled.
Why would he do this?
Why?
She wanted to forget about him, why did he treat her so well? In this way, what resolute strength does she have......
"I want to see you happy, as long as you're happy, I'm willing to do anything."
The corners of Zhou Sicheng's good-looking mouth were slightly curved, and a pair of narrow eyes revealed a gentle light like water.
"Brother Sicheng, I beg you not to be so nice to me, you will only make my heart love you more uncontrollably." Jin Shanshan put aside the flowers in her hand and looked at Zhou Sicheng with deep eyes.
“……”
Zhou Sicheng was embarrassed in place.
He just wants her to be happy and doesn't want to cause more trouble, but it seems that he has done something wrong again?
He hurriedly explained: "Shanshan, it's not what you think, I'm ......"
"Alright."
Jin Shanshan's hand was gently placed on Zhou Sicheng's mouth, so that what he wanted to say was not finished, "I know what you want to say, I understand everything." Her voice fluctuated slightly, "I've been controlling my feelings for you lately, trying to avoid seeing you, but you want to appear in front of me, I know that you don't have me in your heart at all, and you can't like me." ”
Therefore, she didn't want to bother Zhou Sicheng anymore, she knew that Zhou Sicheng's feelings for her were just brother and sister.
How determined she was to stop circling around Zhou Sicheng's side.
During this time, she felt very uncomfortable, and she always couldn't help but want to go to Zhou Sicheng.
However, she has been holding back herself from going to Zhou Sicheng.
"I ......"
Zhou Sicheng didn't know what to say.
Jin Shanshan sniffed, "So, I decided not to disturb your life anymore,"
Her whole body trembled a little, how much effort did she need to put in to give up Zhou Sicheng.
"You know that...... How I don't want to be by your side as a sister. ”
Jin Shanshan said as she spoke, a trace of sadness was stained between her delicate eyebrows and eyes.
“……”
Zhou Sicheng's deep pupils shone faintly.
What should he do?
Seeing that he was silent, Jin Shanshan bit her lip and choked up: "Before, when Min Min was by my side, I thought that even if you didn't like me, at least I still had the best girlfriend by my side, but now I have nothing." ”
She was too pessimistic.
Zhou Sicheng hurriedly persuaded her: "Shanshan, you are thought like this, you still have uncles and aunts, and you still have our good friends." ”
"Brother Sicheng, don't you understand? It is impossible for us to be good friends, since you like Gu Enen, then I will fulfill your feelings for her, in the future, I don't want to be between you and her anymore, you like the person you like, I don't have to worry about what kind of life I live, please, leave me, you don't know how determined I am to make such a choice......"
Jin Shanshan struggled and was sad.
It's too hard to say give up.
"You didn't bother me...... Shanshan, I'm sorry, since I was a child, I remember every bit of your kindness to me. Zhou Sicheng was helpless: "It's just that I can't redefine our relationship, if I cause harm to you, then I'm willing to leave." ”
Jin Shanshan sobbed sadly, and Zhou Sicheng could even hear how uncomfortable her choked voice was.
He sat still, trying to comfort her, but in the end, he didn't say anything.
The atmosphere was quiet and a little weird, Jin Shanshan turned her head and wiped a handful of tears: "Thank you for coming to my house today to spend the holiday with me, and thank you for the gift you gave me."
"This is what I should do, as long as I see you happy, I will be satisfied."
Zhou Sicheng lowered his eyes and took a deep breath.
“……”
Jin Shanshan didn't answer, just quietly looked at the decoration not far away.
But her attention was always focused on the movement of the person behind her, she could hear his slow and long breathing, she could hear his voice with a shallow sigh, and she could hear the sound of his subtle movements......