I guess I was three years old.

I still don't understand the real meaning of my father's mouth that my mother "won't come back", I just remember that I kept crying, I kept crying, and I was accompanied only by my second uncle and second aunt, they took care of me, and my memory was very vague, I can only vaguely remember that my father said on the phone every day: "Why is the pension so small, I want to go to the court to sue you!" Later, I found out that after my mother died in a car accident, my father had been busy going to my mother's unit to ask for compensation.

Maybe it's because of this hatred of my dad.

"Dad, the teacher said to let the parents go to the school for a parent-teacher conference."

"Let your second uncle go, I'll leave you money, you can buy some food yourself." Daddy still has something. "Dad hurried home as before, and then hurried away, many times my hands were in the air and I wanted to say goodbye but never said it.

"Second uncle, my dad is busy all day long, and he doesn't accompany me." On the way to school this time, I finally mustered up the courage to say to the second uncle, of course, the second uncle is not so terrible, but a very kind person, the second uncle has no children under him, only one daughter, is very good to me, when my father is not at home, he takes me home and lets me eat at his house.

"Shoko, don't blame your father, you know?" The second uncle said to me in a very complaining tone.

I only dared to nod my head as if I didn't understand.

"The peach blossoms on his face are gone, who will write about yesterday's sorrows."

This sentence was said by the second uncle to himself, and he didn't tell me, and I didn't understand what it meant.

In my memory, that is, junior high school, the war between me and my dad only escalated......

"Shoko, the teacher said you got into a fight with your classmates again?" Actually, Dad's tone was not very heavy, maybe he felt sorry for me, and he didn't say it too loudly every time he said me.

"Hmm." Being in a rebellious period, I don't want to say too much.

"Why!" Dad's voice raised a few points.

"No why, what do you care so much about!"

"I don't care who cares about you! You say! "Dad was a little angry too, maybe this was the first time he was angry with me.

"You care about me?" I sneered and looked at him with mocking eyes, "They say I don't have a mother, yes, I don't have a mother in the first place!" Besides, I don't even have a father! "I started to talk angrily, but when I didn't expect it, my dad hit me, and it was definitely the first time he hit me.

Syllable! I looked back at him in disbelief, his slap made me feel the corners of my mouth bleeding, and his cheeks twitched a little, maybe regretting it, but at that time, it was impossible to see it, I just covered my face and looked at him viciously!

After a while, he sighed, at that time his heart was a little soft, after that sigh he seemed to be much older, and after a while the second uncle and aunt came.

This soft-heartedness was quickly overshadowed by the quarrels that followed, until it disappeared......

I don't know why the number of times I saw my father began to become less and less, more just Grandpa Mao on the table, at that time I was very willing to have such a scene, I was actually a little terrible in rebellion, maybe a little carelessness will be doomed.

In addition, the second uncle didn't know why he started to get busy, and I didn't know what they were busy with, no one cared about me, and I was happy.

Smoking, drinking, clubbing, fighting, almost all the vices of a rebellious teenager can be found in me, and I have become a complete problem teenager!

Until I met Yi Qiyang......

The second year of junior high school is on summer vacation, and I, as usual, go to KTV and that group of "fox friends", real fox friends! Let's go hi, beer and cigarettes are all over the table! There are even some rich second generations who bring their sisters, as for who they are, I won't say much.

At that time, I was not interested in this, I just thought about drinking, singing, and smoking.

Of course, everything has changed, and it may have been him, who changed the course of my life.

I still remember that day vividly......

"Cheers!"

"Come on, Shoko, stop singing, you don't sing well well, come and drink!"

What is it called a bad sound, Lao Tzu sings deeply, you buns!

"I'll go to the toilet first, I'll see you later."

I sang a song and went out with a friend who wasn't particularly acquainted. Didn't think much about continuing to sing.

After a while, he suddenly rushed in with dirty footprints: "Damn, those 203 pennies hit me just now, can you help me!" ”

"Let's go! Dare to go wild in Lao Tzu's territory! ”

"Go, hit him!"

"Yes, hit him!"

As the most "strong" statement, I want to "kill" them, plus the wine is strong. At that time, I didn't know that the sky was high and the sky was thick, I was young and vigorous, and I didn't do everything with my brain, and I didn't know that I regretted it after I did it, but sometimes it was too late to regret it......

This kind of thing is common at school, and it's the first time in this kind of place, so I'm nervous, but in order to show my masculinity, I still bear the brunt of it, kicking the people in room 203 open!

There are about five or six people in it, counting women, and there are only three men, and they look very sophisticated, although we look very imposing, and there are more than a dozen people in size.

It was the most terrifying thing I can remember, even when I grew up, and I realized that we weren't even as good as a gangster at that time, at most a bunch of little kids.

"Fuck the three of them beat me! Hit him for me! "It's time for that pen to rush forward, why wasn't it in front just now.

I rushed forward for the sake of face, and they followed me, and I tried to hit the person in front of me in the head with my right fist, and just when I felt like I was going to succeed, the person suddenly grabbed my fist and slammed it! I instantly felt an abnormal pain from my fist to the depths of my heart! I heard a bang, I felt that my hand was no longer my own, and immediately I cried out in pain: "Ah!!!!!! ”

I saw his leather boots with a steel toe kicking up from below, I don't know why at that time, I felt that time passed very slowly, but I just couldn't dodge, I watched his leather boots kick me in the stomach, I don't know how hard he used, anyway, the reaction force made him take two steps back, and I had already flown out, no exaggeration at all, I really flew out, flew upside down to the wall, hit the wall hard, I felt that I couldn't breathe, cramps were uncomfortable, I couldn't say anything while I was holding my stomach, The sweat on my head kept dripping down! I almost fainted.

As for the fact that they are already scared stupid, none of them dare to move, it is not over yet, the one who hit me pulled out his pistol!

"Bunny! It's you again! He slowly walked into my friend I didn't know well, "Damn you or damn that!" ”

The big pen was so frightened that he was already swinging his legs, and he knelt down in a plop: "Big brother, I was wrong, but it's not me, it's him, he has to give me a head!" That's him! Don't believe you, ask Ali! "That penny actually said me!

But I can't defend myself, I'm about to hang up in pain. Ali is my best friend.

"Yes, big brother, we should be damned, it's all his idea, you let us go, we don't want to............"

I couldn't listen to what I was saying later, and my mind went blank, especially when the man turned his face to look at me......

I'll remember that smile for the rest of my life......