"Are you done? I'll leave when I'm done, and don't pretend to care about me now, I don't need your pity for a long time. After Xiao Yifei finished speaking, he left the restaurant.

His father sat alone in the restaurant, drinking sip of wine, he felt that he had failed in this life, in the eyes of his father, he was not a good son, and in the eyes of his son, he was not a good father. He has been busy for most of his life, and he has not received anything except to earn some money.

He divorced back then, in fact, he was forced to do so, at that time he was still a small pipe, at a drinking party, he was drunk, and then woke up to find that his subordinates were sleeping next to him, he lifted the quilt and found that both of them were naked Shenzi. He knew he had made a big mistake, but he really didn't know what had happened the night before.

Then the subordinate woke up, stroked his hun and said, "Brother Xiao, you were so powerful last night, you were drunk and ......"

Before she could finish her words, he lifted the quilt and got out of bed, "Don't talk nonsense, I was drunk last night, and I don't even remember what happened." ”

He wanted to put on his clothes and walked outside, "You go, anyway, what happened last night, you and I both know, I don't want much, I just hope to be promoted, it's the end of the year soon, and our promotion opportunities are in your hands." If you promise me, we will treat this as if it never happened. ”

Xiao Yifei's father only now understands that she planned all this in order to get what she wants. He had no choice but to accede to her request, thinking that he would be able to get away with it easily.

But what he thought was too simple, and two months later, she came back to tell herself, "I'm pregnant with your child, what should I do now?"

"I can give you the money, you go and get him out. Xiao Yifei's father was completely panicked, he didn't expect things to develop like this.

"Solved, why is it so easy for you to say, how can you say it, you are also the father of this child, I will give you two days, if you promise to give me a name, I will not tell anyone about this matter, otherwise ......"

Later, Xiao Yifei's mother still knew about it, she couldn't tolerate her husband's cheating, no matter how others persuaded her, she still decided to divorce.

Then Xiao Yifei's father married the woman and gave birth to the child. In fact, Xiao Yifei's father's situation at that time was also very difficult, because in that era, cheating was a heinous thing in the eyes of others.

And he was in the period when he had just worked, and if this matter had become a big problem at that time, he would not only lose his job, but also his reputation for the rest of his life would have been ruined. So he had to choose such a path.

And Xiao Yifei didn't know about these situations, he originally wanted to tell Xiao Yifei just now, but somehow, he couldn't say it anymore, he didn't want his son to see his father's side, although that incident was really a mistake after being drunk.

After he got married, everything in the family was firmly in the hands of that woman, and he even had to report to her the money for a pack of cigarettes, not to mention giving Xiao Yifei some money every month!

It was not until a few years later that he began to go to sea to do business, and this situation was alleviated. By the time he had the ability to do something for Xiao Yifei at this time, it was already too late, and Xiao Yifei wouldn't even see him.

So he had to give the money to his father, but his father wouldn't take his money.

It turns out that there are some roads, one wrong step, this life will be ruined, he never dared to think about what kind of life their family should live now if that didn't happen at the beginning, he didn't dare to think about it, and he wanted to cry when he thought about it.

Life back then was not very happy, but he was also quite satisfied, although he and his wife did not love each other very much, but the life of the family was quite happy.

Xiao Yifei drove aimlessly on the street, he didn't know what mood he was in now, he didn't know how he should face his father, he thought he didn't care about him for a long time, but seeing him like that today, he didn't feel much, and suddenly felt that he was very pitiful and a little sad. But is his kind worth pitiing?

More than 20 years have passed, and he is already old, and he is no longer the tall person in his impression. This is how people grow old from generation to generation, and when the son grows up, the father grows old.

Xiao Yifei said to himself: "It's better to forgive him like this, there is nothing to worry about in this short life, and he is already one of the few relatives in this world, if there is no family company, that person will live in vain in this world." ”

But in a blink of an eye, another voice in his head said: "How can you forgive him so easily, when you see him old today, your heart softens, and you feel that he is very pitiful, but when he left you to have a child with another woman, did he think about you, did he feel sorry for you?"

Xiao Yifei's heart was extremely conflicted, in fact, the two of them had never said so many things today before, in the past, Xiao Yifei turned around and left as soon as he saw him, and he didn't even want to look at him more, but somehow, today he agreed to his request.

He regretted it a little, if he hadn't agreed, he wouldn't have been so miserable now.

Going around and around, he found himself driving to the cemetery again, and he came to his grandfather's grave again.

"Grandpa, I'm so sad now, what do you think I should do? If only you were here, you've always been so wise, you must know the right answer. Xiao Yifei cried.

Xiao Yifei remembered that his grandfather was also indifferent to his father, and every time they couldn't say a few words, his father left. Grandpa must have been very disappointed in his son.

But he suddenly remembered that once his father had just left, and his grandfather sighed at the dinner table: "Actually, your father is not easy. ”

When Xiao Yifei heard his grandfather say this, he was very angry and said, "I think he is quite happy now." Grandpa sighed and said, "When you get married in the future, you may understand everything he has done." ”

"When I get married, I won't abandon my children casually like him. Xiao Yifei retorted.

Grandpa let out another long sigh and stopped talking.

Xiao Yifei suddenly thought of what his grandfather said, maybe this was the answer that his grandfather was telling him what he wanted, and he thought, maybe he really shouldn't care about the previous things anymore.

Xiao Yifei has been sitting in front of his grandfather's grave like this, his mind is blank, just like sitting quietly, he enjoys this rare and quiet moment, just like when his grandfather was reading a book when he was a child, he stayed quietly by his grandfather's side.

Xiao Yifei was actually a very naughty child when he was a child, but he would also move a small stool by himself and sit quietly by the window for a while, and he didn't know what he was looking at, so Xiao Yifei has actually lived a contradictory life for so many years.

In everyone's eyes, he was the one who had good grades, but was a little bad, and it never seemed that anything could make him sad. But his melancholy, sentimental side is rarely seen.

(End of chapter)