"Sleep, sleep, tomorrow morning, wake up early." As he spoke, everyone entered their huts, and I called out to Lao Ren, but Lao Ren still ignored him and fell asleep.

I was a little angry, but I could only sleep.

In the morning, as always, everybody, treated me like air, and whoever I asked either looked at me with disgust or walked away with a smile as if avoiding me, except when I was carrying rocks, and at other times I could not see half a figure.

I had to try on my own, climbing the tree and getting the branches, but again and again, no matter how much I tried to get it, I failed.

I was a little annoyed, but I still stood up, thinking about it, this will, swallow wine, should drink by the river, and I also noticed that it was at noon that day, after swallowing wine and talking to me that some words, their attitude towards me changed.

When I came to a few hundred meters from the river, I smelled the wine, and then I stepped back a little, at the stone table, intending to wait for the wine to come.

But after waiting for a day, I didn't see the swallowing wine, and when I came back from the river, I ran over, only to find that there was no trace of swallowing wine by the river.

When I returned, I saw that Lao Ren was eating, and he had finished eating, and after he glanced at me, he ran quickly.

"Lao Ren wait...... "No matter how I shouted, Lao Ren still left, I knew that it was getting dark, so I could only go to the table, eat a bowl of rice, and go to the camp.

As soon as I got back to the camp, I was dumbfounded, they were all asleep, I walked up to Lao Ren's side and patted him gently, but he turned his head and ignored me.

Although I couldn't get angry, they seemed to be targeting me, and they were all discussed, ignoring me, I was angry, and after falling asleep, I felt uncomfortable again, and in desperation, it took me a lot of effort to calm down my state of mind.

And then for three days, no one paid any attention to me, this feeling, made me very uncomfortable, such a boring day, plus, it has been three or four days, I haven't spoken to them, watching them happy, and I can only be alone, watching, as long as I get close, they will selectively ignore me.

Night came again, and tonight, by the fire, they were sitting, frolicking with each other, talking about things, and I was far away from them, and looked at them with resentment, and then I stood up, and walked over, and bent over, and bowed my head.

I told them about the other day, and then lowered my head and said.

"I'm sorry guys, I lied to you the other day, I don't know what I did wrong, I hope you can forgive me."

They continued to talk, I lowered my head and looked at them with sincere eyes, however, no one paid attention to me, which actually reminded me of my childhood, when I was in an orphanage, in the same way, I was also a person, no way, very well integrated with others, no children, like to play with me.

I continued to lower my head, repeating what I had just said over and over again, and finally, I found that Lao Ren stopped talking and looked at me with helpless eyes.

"I'm Zhang Qingyuan, that's it, before, I maybe, I did a lot of things wrong, but now, ......"

"What's going on now?" Swallowing wine finally couldn't bear it, with an angry look, stood up, eyes like copper bells, walked over, one hand, grabbed me, this is the first time I saw, such angry swallowing wine, he waited for me viciously.

"I ......"

Before I could finish my sentence, in an instant, the swallow swallowed me to the ground, and I fell the ground, and I fell heavily on the ground with a wow.

"Can't you feel anything? Zhang Qingyuan. The black face walked up to me, and I stared at him blankly.

"Hehe, sure enough, alas, it's hopeless, this guy."

The strange old man muttered, and leprosy chimed in.

"yes, alas, I'm still thinking about going out......"

"Shut up, such a guy, I hate it in my heart, you guys, enough, he wants to live or die, it's none of our business, anyway, it's almost over......"

It was gluttony, he stood up, with two hands, one hand holding the wine, the other hand pulling the black face, both of them turned their heads, and then the black face's eyes, full of melancholy, after looking at me, returned to his own room, and the others went to sleep one after another.

As he entered the room, he turned around, looked at me, and said.

"Whether to choose, to move on, or to die, Zhang Qingyuan, tonight, you will see, you... Do it yourself. ”

I sat quietly beside the fire, looking at the beating flames, my mind was blank, and vaguely, I seemed to feel that these people, why, ignored me.

However, I couldn't think of the specific reason, there was a crackling sound, there seemed to be something in the fire in front of me, I looked at it blankly, it was Wu Xiaoli, it was Wu Xiaoli's smiling face, and it emerged.

In my head, there was a buzzing sound, my heart was beating violently, and again, after seeing Wu Xiaoli's smiling face, my heart began to hurt.

I knew I loved her very much, but she betrayed me, without warning, and I smiled slightly.

"No, I caused it."

I laughed self-deprecatingly, obviously so much time has passed, however, when I think of Wu Xiaoli and Li Nan, I will be sad.

At this time, Li Nan's handsome cheeks appeared in the flames, and when I saw him, I was more likely to be angry, because he was my only best friend besides my cousin.

I met Li Nan in the first year of junior high school, at that time, we sat at the same table, I had just recovered from a serious illness, I didn't remember what happened when I was a child, and the progress of learning couldn't keep up.

It's Li Nan, I think about it, it's Li Nan, it's Li Nan, it's he who uses the time after class every day to help me tutor and teach me a lot of things, for a few months, it's been like this, and I barely caught up with the progress of learning.

Somehow, Li Nan and I began to get acquainted little by little, became close friends, inseparable, even in high school, Li Nan and I were not in the same class, the two of us, on weekends, would play together.

Li Nan's parents are very rich, his father is the president of a big bank, his mother is a director of a design company, he has never thought I was poor, many of Li Nan's friends are some guys who tend to be inflammatory, every time Li Nan introduces to others, he will tell others that I am his best friend.

Whenever there is anything that goes wrong, in addition to talking to my cousin, I will tell Li Nan, I don't know, when did I start to eliminate the existence of Li Nan from my mind.

I once asked Li Nan why he helped me when he came over at the beginning, but he just smiled and said it was accidental.

In my mind, these past events, the more I came to my heart, I was already in tears, tears seemed to burst, from my eyes, flowed out, I covered my head, obviously, I noticed it very early.

"I'm still really stupid, I've noticed it, Li Nan, you are similar to me......"

I have heard about Li Nan more or less, because of his parents' work, his school will change frequently, from childhood to adulthood, he basically has no friends, and it seems to be similar to my experience, he has no friends, and he is not good at interacting with people.

It was only when I was in junior high school that my family stabilized, and I seemed to be Li Nan's first friend.

The more I thought about it, more and more things about Li Nan came out of my mind, I wiped the tears that flowed out, and looked at the fire blankly, but the tears at this time still kept overflowing from my eyes.

I can still clearly remember that before I watched that little video, a few months ago, I often quarreled with Wu Xiaoli, Li Nan asked me, said that he was willing to help me, let me go to his mother's company, be a department manager, and let people take me.

But I still didn't agree, not because I didn't want to, but because he was my best friend, and then Li Nan had asked me out many times, during which the quarrel between me and Wu Xiaoli was escalating.

During those quarrels, the three of us still ate and played together, but at that time, I noticed that the two of us would often secretly carry me behind my back, say something, and make some eye contact.

I obviously see all of this, but I still do nothing and let everything develop.

"I know, I know, why, why ......"

Until a month before I watched that little video, Wu Xiaoli and I had a complete fight, and then broke up with me, I called her, she never answered, she went back to her mother's house.

I thought things would get better after a while, but no matter how I called Wu Xiaoli, she never answered.

Until one night, Li Nan asked me out, we were very drunk, and talked a lot about the past, and when I was going home, Li Nan drove me to a river, and he asked me.

What to do? Wu Xiaoli's matter, this society, no money, but can't survive, don't be rash anymore, this society, if you want to change from a poor person to a rich person, it is very difficult, many women would rather find a man with a stable material foundation than go down with true love.

I just smiled, it's okay, take your time, one day, when I have saved enough money, I can get married, and besides, if I want to be a department manager, I will definitely not be able to do it.

I just replied to Li Nan like this, but that night, the only time, Li Nan got angry at me, tugged at my clothes, and just said that.

"Qingyuan, if you don't want it, forget it."

I fell to my knees and whimpered, all of this was caused by my own hands.

"Why, I didn't accept my cousin's advice, why, I didn't accept Li Nan's help, why, I ...... Ah......h