Yulin continued in a small voice: "After the junior high school exam, Zhang Tao went to work in a small restaurant in the county. [Ran^Text^Library] []=Music=Literature=Novel w.lxs520.com The results have come out, and he can enter the county No. 1 middle school without paying any tuition and miscellaneous fees. He has already thought about it, not to apply for school grants, to study hard to get scholarships, plus the government's monthly relief money, it is not a problem for him to live alone. Leaving Baishi Village, leaving Shen Li, and leaving that group of "kind" people is Zhang Tao's greatest wish. Since Shen Li explained his family situation in the class in the third grade, Zhang Tao has never had a comfortable day. He was originally taciturn, he didn't even dare to speak, and he didn't want to play with other children after school, and he felt inferior to himself in a dark corner. He studied from morning to night, and it was only when he studied that he could find some confidence and feel that he was not so pitiful. I'm going to change my fate! I can't live my life like this! Zhang Tao secretly decided. The work in the small restaurant is relatively simple, sweeping the floor and washing dishes or something is completely a piece of cake for Zhang Tao, who has to do housework since he was a child, he works hard and hard, and the boss and the proprietress like him very much. When it was almost a month, Shen Li actually came. "Oh my God! Zhang Tao: Why are you here? "This trip to the county seat is a special trip to participate in the evaluation conference, Shen Li never expected to meet Zhang Tao in this inconspicuous restaurant. Similarly, Zhang Tao didn't expect to meet Shen Li, he secretly screamed "not good", but it was too late to stop Shen Li from going to the boss. "How can you get a fifteen-year-old to work in your shop? You're child labor! You're breaking the law! Shen Li slapped the table vigorously, very excited. The boss was naturally frightened, he glanced at Zhang Tao, and said innocently: "But...... But he said he was sixteen...... He said that reaching the age of 16 is not considered child labor. "You're lying!" Shen Li glared at Zhang Tao, "I have to take people away, and I don't bother to sue you, you should check carefully when you hire people in the future." After saying this, Shen Li forcibly took Zhang Tao away. Zhang Tao didn't get a penny of his salary for working in the store, and he worked for nothing for a month. At the gate of the county education bureau, Shen Li asked Zhang Tao to wait for him there. "If you don't have any money, tell the teacher, the teacher can help you, why go to work? Do you know how sad the teacher is by doing this? Shen Li took out his wallet, "The teacher gives you money, you go buy an ice cream or something to eat first, and when I come out after the meeting, we will go back." Zhang Tao hurriedly refused, but Shen Li had already stuffed the money into his pocket. patted Zhang Tao on the shoulder, and Shen Li went in. In the middle of July, the sun was very poisonous, and it seemed that everything could be sunburned and evaporated under the strong sunlight, and there was a newsstand next to it, and Zhang Tao, who was dressed simply, was embarrassed to go in to shade, so he had to stand in the sun in a daze. He took out the crumpled twenty dollars from his pocket and flattened it. Zhang Tao looked at the shadow at his feet, and suddenly felt dizzy. The moment he fell to the ground, the last thing he saw was the smiling face of the portrait on the renminbi. That smiling face was very familiar, like the smile on Shen Li's face, as "kind". The three years of junior high school were Zhang Tao's happiest years, although the clothes he wore were very old, they were always neat and tidy. He doesn't talk much, his grades have been very good, his classmates treat him normally, no one knows about his "past", and he feels that every day is pleasant. However, he has not participated in the six class committee elections in the past three years. He knew very well that he had no chance with the class committee in his life. After the high school entrance examination, Zhang Tao went straight to the county No. 1 middle and high school with the fourth best score in the school, but problems also came. The high school is actually a private school, and it does not belong to the nine-year compulsory education, so Zhang Tao must pay tuition, even if he is the first in the grade, it cannot be exempted. Zhang Tao was fortunate to have just enough money for the first semester and the first month's living expenses, and he was thinking about how to earn some money to make up the tuition for the next semester, but half a month later, the head teacher announced a news that shocked him very much. In addition to tuition and book fees, each student also has to pay 280 yuan for make-up classes, which will be used for weekends and winter and summer vacations. After paying the tuition fee, the remaining money was charged to the meal card, and asking Zhang Tao to take out nearly 300 yuan was tantamount to a fool's dream, so Zhang Tao made a phone call to the village chief Zhang Guoqiang, hoping that the other party could lend him some money. The other party agreed, saying that someone was coming to the county tomorrow, so he asked that person to bring the money by the way. Zhang Tao was very grateful on the other end of the phone, and after hanging up the phone, he felt that his troubles had disappeared and his mood was much better, but Zhang Tao tossed and turned that night and couldn't sleep, and he always felt that something bad would happen. Sure enough, the person who came to school the next day turned out to be Shen Li. After handing the money to Zhang Tao, Shen Li went straight to Zhang Tao's head teacher's office. It didn't take long for a small girl to run into the classroom with an excited face, her butt just turned her head next to the bench and whispered to the girl behind her, her eyes glanced at Zhang Tao from time to time, as if what she said was related to Zhang Tao. During the evening self-study, the head teacher called Zhang Tao to the office and said that he had something to say to him. Zhang Tao sighed in his heart, probably guessing what the head teacher was going to say to him. "Why don't you take the initiative to speak out if your family is not good, I can help you apply for a bursary. Well, you take the time to go back to your village party secretary to sign and stamp it, write a poverty certificate, and I'll help you report it to the school. The phone on the head teacher's desk rang, and he picked up the microphone and asked Zhang Tao to go back to class. That's right. "Zhang Tao just walked to the door when he heard the head teacher call him." I've already told the class committee to see when I'm free, and I'll get you a fundraiser in the class. After all, classmates, I still help you somewhat. His head seemed to have been smashed by a hammer, Zhang Tao felt that both ears were filled with a "buzzing" sound, his feet seemed to be stepping on cotton, and the whole person was fluttering, he didn't know how to get back to class, and when he came back to his senses, he was already sitting in his seat. The originally chattering class was silent because of Zhang Tao, and after a while, there was a sound of squirming discussions, and everyone's discussion focused on the same, all of them were poor Zhang Tao sitting in the corner of the classroom. Someone passed a small note to Zhang Tao, and he opened the note weakly, and wrote a sentence crookedly on it-How miserable is your life experience? Immediately after that, a new little note came - you are really pathetic. Surely you're having a hard time, right? Zhang Tao didn't speak, he crumpled up all the small notes he received, put them in a drawer, lowered his head, didn't look at the curious eyes of anyone in the class, covered his ears with his hands, he pretended that he couldn't hear anything, he couldn't see anything. His three years of high school were completely ruined, and he already knew it. A week later, at the class meeting, the class leader organized the whole class to raise donations for Zhang Tao, and after receiving the donation wrapped in a document bag from the class leader, Zhang Tao stood on the blackboard and looked down at the goodwill "givers" in the audience. At that moment, Zhang Tao finally admitted: he can't take off the label of "pitiful" in his life, and in this world where sympathy for others is regarded as flaunting his own kindness, a poor person like him is tortured every day he lives. The world of goodness is not heaven, but hell. Take back your kindness. Zhang Tao shouted silently in his heart. After the college entrance examination, Zhang Tao volunteered to fill in the report completely according to Shen Li's intention and applied for free normal students. "It's not in vain that the people in our village treat you like this, and you can be regarded as a grateful retribution." On the day Zhang Tao went to college, the whole village came to the village to see him off, and Zhang Guoqiang, who was already old and weak, took Zhang Tao's hand and said. "Yes, Zhang Tao, after graduation, you will come back to be a teacher, just like me, be a kind-hearted teacher and educate students well." Shen Li continued. He also works as a teacher at Central Elementary School and is now teaching the fourth grade. Zhang Tao responded to them with a smile, and when the bus came, he got on the bus and waved to the villagers at the entrance of the village, saying goodbye to the past. If only I could say goodbye to the past like this. Zhang Tao leaned his head against the glass window and smiled helplessly. The biggest difference between college life and middle school is that Zhang Tao has a lot of leisure time, and he can work several jobs in a row to earn living expenses. After applying for a student loan, he felt less financially stressed, but when he thought about repaying the loan after graduation, he felt that he had to work harder to earn money. At the same time, Zhang Tao, who has not had much contact with the opposite sex in the past two decades, found that he had a hazy affection for a girl named Wang Baiyu in his class. After asking the dormitory classmates how to contact the opposite sex, Zhang Tao bought two movie tickets and asked Wang Baiyu out. Wang Baiyu is also a girl from the countryside, she is not strict about materials, she did not ask to buy snacks such as popcorn when watching the movie, and she did not propose to eat roadside snacks after watching it, she only asked Zhang Tao to send herself downstairs to the girls' dormitory, and let him go back. Zhang Tao felt that Wang Baiyu was very sensible and kind. Her kindness has nothing to do with sympathy or pity, it is a kind of kindness that she wishes for the other person from the bottom of her heart, and she treats the other person as an equal person to herself, rather than praising herself as a giver, and the other party is a recipient. Zhang Tao longed for many years of warmth, and finally found it in Wang Baiyu's body. After going back and forth, Zhang Tao and Wang Baiyu got acquainted with each other a lot, and at the beginning of the second semester of their freshman year, the two confirmed their relationship. Although the time with Wang Baiyu was very happy, every time Zhang Tao stayed with her for an extra second, the guilt in his heart increased by one point. He has not yet told Wang Baiyu about his family situation. He didn't know what to say to her. In the end, the last thing Zhang Tao expected happened, and someone said it for him. That person is Shen Li. "I'm doing this for your own good." Shen Li, who came from Baishi Village to visit Zhang Tao at the university, said to him earnestly: "If you don't make it clear to the girl now, don't let the two of you talk about marriage when the family opposes it, then you will definitely be even more sad, the long pain is better than the short pain, now you can also see the essence of the girl, if she is unwilling to continue to associate with you, it means that she is not kind, and there is no need for this kind of bad-hearted girl to be together." If you listen to me, how can I harm you? Wang Baiyu was indeed reluctant to contact Zhang Tao, but the reason was not that his family was not good, but that Zhang Tao deliberately concealed it. It's not that she doesn't like the poor and loves the rich, she just dislikes Zhang Tao's distrust of her. Wang Baiyu also asked Zhang Tao's family before, but Zhang Tao deliberately found other topics to divert attention, and now Zhang Tao's elementary school teacher came to tell her the truth, and accused Wang Baiyu of spending too much money to add burden to Zhang Tao, which was really unacceptable to her. "No wonder I keep asking you about your family situation, but you don't tell me, so you are guarding against me? Do you think I'm the kind of money worshipper who wants to hide from you like a plague god after knowing your background? Let me tell you Zhang Tao, you disappointed me so much! Don't judge others by your own dirty thoughts, we can't handle it! "This is what Wang Baiyu said to Zhang Tao about the breakup, and then her phone Zhang Tao couldn't get through." Why do you ...... Why did it have to ruin my life? Zhang Tao clenched his fists and trembled all over. How can you say that? What does it mean to ruin your life, isn't it all for your good, teacher! Shen Li couldn't understand that the student in front of him, who had been taken care of for many years, would say such a thing. Be...... Be...... You're good for me...... It's too good to be true...... Thank you for your kindness...... Thank you......" Zhang Tao took a few steps back, stabilized the center of gravity of his body, and looked at Shen Li's face, which seemed to be heavy on two people. That's Zhang Tao's father, and grandma. I was just...... I just want to live the life of an ordinary person...... It's just that the lives of ordinary people ...... You, why do you hinder me? Zhang Tao closed his eyes, and when he opened them again, he finally made up his mind. In that case, don't blame me for being ruthless, I'm going to eradicate you, just like I did with my dad and grandma, and make you disappear from my life! A few days later, a police officer came to the school to look for Zhang Tao. "Do you know this person?" The police handed Zhang Tao a photo, "He was found in the river by a fisherman, and it was preliminarily determined that it was your elementary school teacher Shen Li, who was said to have come to the school to look for you a few days ago." "Really?" Zhang Tao looked sad and regretful: "This is really unfortunate, he is a very kind teacher...... "When I was in junior high school, there was a girl in the class who was almost disfigured because she was crawled on her face by poisonous insects. The homeroom teacher had just graduated, and with some kindness, she called on her classmates to donate money to the female classmate who was not from a good family. Finally, under the gaze of everyone, the girl took the envelope from the head teacher's hand with a flushed face and returned to her seat without saying a word. I don't know if her face was good or not, because she changed schools after that semester and I never saw her again. All I know is that at the teacher evaluation at the end of that semester, the girl's comment to the class teacher was four words - nosy. But I still remember that afternoon, fifty-one of us sat in the classroom, looking holy, at the scarred girl, unaware that those self-righteous "kindness" had shattered something called "self-esteem......"

When Rainforest finished speaking, Rainforest looked at everyone, and Charlie Ba was already asleep. Ruohan also yawned.

I looked at the rainforest and said, "Looks like you're sleepy." ”

Rainforest said, "Yes...... I'm also a little sleepy. ”

I looked at Ruohan, then at the rainforest and said, "I guess you two are sleepy too." Rest early. Tomorrow, Tuesday, we have to go to class. ”

Ruohan looked at me and whispered, "That'...... We'll go to bed first. Go ahead, and you should rest early. ”

I smiled reluctantly. I secretly said in my heart: I don't have any mood and time to sleep. I'm here to investigate. I quietly watched Ruohan fall asleep, and the rainforest fell asleep after a while.

Now Charlie Ba, Rainforest, and Ruohan are asleep. Only Sun Tielong is still leaning against the wall with his eyes closed, and others may think that Sun Tielong is asleep. Only I know that Sun Tielong is usually very quiet, but he likes to close his eyes and recuperate.

After another long time, I looked at the time on my phone, and it was eleven forty o'clock, and it was about to start a new day. Even more nervous is that it is about to enter twelve o'clock. That curiosity in me instantly came to an end. I was extremely nervous, although I had participated in many cases before, only this time I was particularly curious, thinking about the legendary ghost cry and ghost laughter.

At this time, Sun Tielong whispered to me: "Have you slept?" ”

I heard Sun Tielong talking to me, and I quickly whispered back, "Of course I didn't sleep...... Didn't you sleep too? ”

Sun Tielong said: "Of course...... It's certainly not about sleeping. ”

"yes...... I don't know why I'm so nervous......"

Sun Tielong said: "Nervousness is inevitable, in fact, people are not afraid of death, but they are afraid of waiting for death." It's actually hard to wait......"

I smiled slightly and whispered, "What you said makes sense......"

Sun Tielong said: "It's much quieter now. You can think about it too. ”

"yes...... yes......"

As he spoke, I lit a cigarette, Sun Tielong knew that as soon as I smoked, it meant that I was thinking about the problem, and Sun Tielong was not talking. Under the dark night, in the silent girl's bedroom, Sun Tielong and I waited quietly for the strange sound