Chapter 860: Unwilling
Su Xin couldn't help but think that if she was just an ordinary person, she was also completely ignorant of reality and illusion, and everything in that illusion was exactly what she longed for in her heart, maybe ...... She's going to be like that teenager, greedy for everything in that fantasy and can't extricate herself, right?
What will be the end result -
In the last moments of self-awareness, the soul is a scene of living happily with parents and family... I guess it's content, too...
The same was true for the boy, whose last memory was only his own pleasure and beauty.
If reality is completely different from fantasy, and reality is really an unbearable weight for life.
Maybe...... Illusion is the best destination for them......
Just like all living beings, who can tell whether such happiness is a scene imagined by themselves, or ...... Is this world the biggest illusion at all?
Su Xin was very emotional, looked away, and looked away.
She saw the creation of bubbles in the air, as if there was an invisible force slowly blowing a soap bubble there.
From nothing, slowly, from small to large, from no brilliance to colorful light flowing.
But when this brilliance is more and more gorgeous, it is also the time when it is about to be annihilated in the end.
Every moment there are bubbles created, and at the same time, bubbles are constantly annihilated.
Su Xin knew that inside every bubble of brilliance was a condensed world.
Or the world that someone imagines in the depths of their subconscious, maybe in her left eye, everything is false, but in the last memory of others, everything is the most real and beautiful.
Another bubble:
A man with a golden crown rode a tall red horse and walked swaggeringly through the streets.
There are people in front of them setting off firecrackers and banging gongs to open the way, and there is a long guard of honor behind them, holding the banner of the emperor's grace.
After more than ten years of hard study, once the title of the gold list shines on the lintel, the man feels the supreme glory.
When he turned around, he looked at a big red sedan chair behind him.
He remembered that it was the emperor who gave him a marriage at the Jinluan Palace.
Give him the most favored eldest princess, and this time they will return home together.
In the distance, a palatial mansion appeared in front of me.
There is a plaque of "Wangfu" on the lintel, and bright red couplets are posted on both sides of the gate......
At the door stood his parents, dressed in the most festive and decent brocade clothes, with kind faces, looking forward to him.
Firecrackers are crackling, and the festive smoke clouds the vision.
For some reason, he always felt that something was wrong with all this.
What exactly is it?
Looking at the mansion in front of me, a strange feeling inexplicably rose in my heart.
Soon in front of the mansion, someone led the horse by the head and helped him off the horse.
came to the sedan chair, led his wife to his parents, bowed his head.
Successful and famous, beautiful wife, life is like this, what more can a husband ask for.
…… This bubble is like a brilliant firework, which is quickly born and quickly annihilated.
It was over when the man entered the palatial mansion with his wife and parents.
As with the other bubbles, the people around the man are played by skeletons.
The mansion was just a folded paper house, tattered and covered with rotting shreds.
Su Xin retracted her gaze and looked at a few bubbles one after another, feeling a little congested inexplicably.
She was about to take out something to find the soul of Guo Minghui's son, but at this moment, she saw a bubble that was a little different from the others.
Because in her opinion, most of the bubbles are very calm and slow floating in the air, but the speed of change and annihilation of the surface is not the same.
And this one is violently vibrating, as if there is a force hammering the wall of the bubble from the inside, trying to rush out of it.
Su Xin's heart moved, and she subconsciously walked over.
I saw that the scene in this bubble was a small farm yard, and an old couple was pestering a young man, who was wearing a washed white and gray gown.
The old couple shouted: "My son, you can't leave anymore, we are all old, we can't move, you will never see us again if you leave..."
Then a virtuous young woman came out, leaning against the door frame, and shouted to him with great sorrow: "Xianggong, you said that you would protect me all my life, and now you are so willing to leave me?" ”
The man in the long robe looked very pained and shook his head.
How can you give it?
Of course he couldn't bear it, his dearest and dearest people were here, even if he knew that all this was fake.
He knew very well in his heart that they were all "gone", but he still couldn't suppress the desire to be with them, and he was still willing to be with them.
In his own warm courtyard, he served his parents and lived peacefully with his wife......
But... But... There was a voice deep inside him.
None of this was true, not true, just his fantasy, just a dream he had.
That's right, even if it's a dream, he wants to sleep like this forever.
But in his subconscious, he felt very unwilling.
By the way, why are you unwilling to do so?
He tried his best to think and think......
Probably because of the struggle of the soul, the bubbles began to tremble.
After a while, when he raised his head again, he finally knew what he was unwilling to do.
He remembered that it was his parents and his wife......
Two years ago, he went to Beijing to take the exam, leaving only his parents and wife at home.
But less than half a year after he left, there was a flood in his hometown that had not been seen in decades.
The parents knew that they were old and that it would be difficult to survive these difficult years even if they stayed, so they hanged themselves while their daughter-in-law was out to work.
After his wife buried the two elders, she left her hometown and went to look for him.
On the other hand, he originally wanted to use his talent for poetry and writing to govern the country and save the people.
However, the rulers did not need people like him, so his hard work did not win him fame and fortune, but was ridiculed.
When his wife found him, she told him about the family.
The frustration of the career and the disappointment of the court and the world, the mood was extremely depressed, and at this time I heard that my parents had left, and I was immediately angry and angry with my wife.
The wife was extremely guilty because she didn't take good care of the second elder.
has traveled thousands of miles to find a husband, just to make it clear in person.
Seeing that her husband resented her, she hanged herself that night.
The man held his wife's corpse and wept bitterly, but he was powerless.
originally wanted to transport his wife's body back to his hometown for burial, but he was overworked and fainted.
…… The man in the caftan finally knew what he was unwilling to do, if it weren't for those people, then now all this was what life was supposed to be.
But...... Now they can only be seen in their own fantasies.
What if you stay here? It's just that those people who are full of fat intestines and vegetarian meals continue to mess with the world.
Therefore, he must go out, even if it is for his dead father and wife, it can be regarded as fighting for a fair time for himself!